Tributes

8/31/89 – 10/24/21

I didn’t get to say goodbye. Why did you leave me? I needed you here. You were supposed to be here. This is dedicated to the first man I ever loved and I hope he felt the same. Wherever you are I miss you! This is to you dad 1954-2024. Forever 70!

Terah,
You had so much life left to live. So many more memories to make, so much more love to receive. It will forever break my heart that you didn’t get that time. You were an exceptional gift to the world.
The most beautiful tears don’t fall in sorrow. They fall in remembrance. Slipping down your cheeks in a quiet moment when laughter echoes from the past, when dreams once held close, still stir gently in your heart, and when the memory of your voice or smile brings both warmth and ache. It’s not tears of pain, but of love so deep it refuses to fade. It speaks of once was, of what still lingers, and a longing that only exists because you mattered that much.
My mouth still cracks a tender smile whenever people talk about you. And I hope no one ever feels they need to whisper your name under their breath as though you are now some kind of glimmer from the past. You are certainly alive in too many ways to ever be left unspoken. So, say her name like a song you’d sing out loud. Unapologetically and full of love.
The things I didn’t get to say, and the things you’ll never get to hear are both regrets of mine to carry. But I got to love you, and I will always be thankful for that. I will endure a lifetime of missing for the privilege of having loved you.

My friend Elijah was just this amazing person, almost like a ray of sunlight but funnier & always there to make ur hole day worth it. Unfortunately a few months ago I was getting ready for work(im a service Technician at the genesis pallet shelter in chico ca) when my coworker texted me that Elijah had been found in his pallet died due to a overdose. I never thought or suspected that he was even doing fenytol, but he was just a lil bit cause his sciatic nerve was bugging him. I miss him every single day & i hope that he is watching over me.

I forgive you, you were always enough

A Son, Father, Brother, and Uncle lost way too soon. You are remembered by your smile and your big heart. We miss you so much and wish you were here!

My brother lost to an accidental overdose at only 28 years young… He had so much life ahead of him! I hope you are at peace now. I am so so sorry I did not help you and do more! I will miss you every day.

7/8/95-12/29/23

Wishing you were here everyday Hailey. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you and all the incredible things you would be doing! Chasing all the sunsets for you my girl💜

My beautiful boy I miss so much. Your smile and good heart. I love you. Mom

My beautiful boy I miss so much. Your smile and good heart. I love you. Mom

Words cannot express the impact of the loss of my stepmother Cathe to overdose, a wise and compassionate soul. It wasn’t what she wanted for her or her children, and neither was her addiction. The loss of one single person to overdose has ripple effects for decades and generations to come. In her loving memory 🙏

Today is International Overdose Awareness Day. And it hurts. I know not everyone likes when I put it out there that we lost my Mama to an overdose…but we did. I did. But, I’m not ashamed. My mom was a beautiful person who cared about others and she had a laugh that would light up a room, even in her darkest days. But, Mom was sick. Addiction is an illness, and it’s precipitated by pain. Mom hurt. Mom had a lifetime of hurts, and it wasn’t until she was gone that I realized just how strong she was and how hard she fought…and how lonely her fight must have been. Back then, I didn’t know. I was ignorant. I was selfish because all I could understand was how bad her addiction hurt ME. I think most of us were ignorant. But, addiction, starting with OxyContin, is the most devastating pandemic our nation has ever faced. For so long, I wasn’t able to wrap my head around her senseless death. There was no reason in it. But, in Mom’s death, and because of it, I have found this death’s purpose…and my own purpose. Because of her loss, I work with some of our society’s most vulnerable and I spend each day fighting to help them and make them feel cared for, valued, and seen. While I have had many roles helping those with mental health and substance conditions, I recently took a job as a substance use therapist. I am privileged and blessed to get up, go to work, and try to be for each of my patients what my mom needed, but never got. I hope and pray that because we lost my Mom to an overdose, I have helped so many others LIVE! There is hope and recovery is very real. If you are fighting this demon or someone you love is, dont give up! Keep fighting! Mama, I love you. I miss you. I do what I do to honor you and, I know it’s too late, but, I’m proud of you and who you were while you were here with us. Mom, you are my reason, and I hope you see.

My Beloved Son,
It has only been seven months since your departure, yet it feels like an eternity. I still dream that this could all have been just a nightmare. I miss you with every part of my soul. I would give anything to see you, to hear your voice once more; even just once more. You were only 26 years old, so young, with so much life ahead of you. You fought so bravely through your struggles, carrying the heavy burden of addiction with a strength that many will never truly understand. Though the battle was painful, it does not define who you were. You were light, kindness, laughter, and love; and that is the essence that remains forever alive in me.Even though I can no longer hold you physically, your spirit lives within me and will continue to live on until the day I see you again. I love you, and I will love you until my very last breath

Thomas,i carry your memory with me everday,some days are worse,some are better,but nothing really eases the pain of missing you .love always dad,
3/14/1996-3/8/2022

Your fearless spirit, contagious laugh & unconditional love could never be forgotten. You were so much more than your addiction. Today & every day, I remember you for the beautiful soul you were. I miss you so much.

9/10/22 a horrific day I’ll never forget. I miss you so much my love ! Not a day goes by that I don’t miss your laugh, your humor , the way I felt perfect in your arms, your smile just YOU! Addiction is a nasty disease and I’m so saddened that it took you. Until we meet again I was your angel and now you’re mine! I love you ❤️

Oh you pretty thing.

I carry you with me, in everything I do. There’s not a day that goes by that I haven’t thought about you, even if it was just for a moment. We miss you terribly.
1991-2023

I will forever miss you my son. I miss your smile, your laugh, your voice, I miss everything about you… I promise to hold on to as many positive memories of you as I possibly can & I will remember & love you until my last breath. For now I will see you in my dreams, until we meet again 💔

#overdoseawareness #EndOverdose #imissmyson #ripzach

Rest in heaven Junior , Your little sister Carla here, I miss you everyday 💜 I love you so so much and will never forget you. You will always be with me no Matter where I am.
Silvester Hernandez 3rd, 02-08-1983 – 10-21-2020. Your star shines the brightest ✨️

I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you❤️‍🩹
If only love could have been enough!
I will always keep your memory alive💜
My Keith F50