This is for my only child , my son Johnny Mac Baum. Herion took his life 3 years ago. He was only 27. Mommy misses you so much son. U we're the best. I pray the good Lord above does away with all the garbage dealer's that are out there. Something has to give. PLEASE stop people before death becomes you and or your families.God Bless us all

I'm sorry you were in pain, I forgive you for leaving me way to early in our life. I will always love you I hope your at rest. I will miss you, I know God will comfort me. And if you can please do. I will always love you.

To: Tony The pain of losing you this year has not lessened, but, every day without you is another day closer to being with you again, for all eternity. You touched our lives and our hearts and though we only had you here with us for 32 years you are a part of who we are forever more. I love you Tony.

Remembering always my beautiful son Matthew, who lost his battle Feb 4, 2012 I will love you until the end of time. Joshua 1.9 Indiana

For my brother-in-law, Brandon. Died December 28, 2012. Our hearts are broken. So many questions left unanswered. Two children left behind at 28 years old. I've never seen our family in so much pain. Your death was unexpected, even though your drug use was controlling your life. I guess it never really seems real until someone you love dies. I always hoped you would pull out of it, or get sober in jail. I can't believe you're gone. We never made amends. I never told you I forgive you even if you aren't sorry. Or that I love you. Or how much you meant to your brother. Now it's too late. I hope you will rest in peace, and that time will make this easier to bare. <3

To my big sister, Ashley Marie Fasano: what I would say if I could talk to you just one more time... I am so sorry, I am sorry I couldn't save you. I am sorry I was so useless. I wish I could have done more for you. I am sorry you could never see how many people loved you. I am sorry for not showing it in the beginning when it first started... when you told me the last time we talked is when you needed to be loved the most. I'm sorry I failed you. It has been almost 6 months and I cry for you every single day. I just want to tell you sorry. But I can't because you are gone. I want to tell you I love you just one more time. I want to kiss you one more time. I want to hug you one more time but I can't, and it hurts because I never will. I am so alone and no one understands. I was told last month its been 5 months I need to move on. I can' t. And I don't want to. Even my own husband told me today " yea it sucks but you just hold it in you need to move on already." The times when I am at my lowest and feel the most alone I wonder if that's how you felt. It brings me understanding because if it wasn't for my kids I could be you. Everyone judges addicts but it can happen to anyone, so I acknowledge it could be me. I have to be honest with you, you have always been honest with me....it has crossed my mind. I once asked you why...why you do it. How does it make you feel. You said you are always sad you miss your kids they will never forgive you ... That the pain is such an immense feeling so overwhelming that you just get to the point that you are willing to do anything to get that relief. It numbs it. When you use the needle you literally lay back and feel that pain slipping away, as you go numb. But then that needle, that yes brings a type of relief to you, also takes a hold on you. Once it has that hold on you it is so strong so tight its suffocating. It takes hold of your mind and body. Its like you sold your soul to the devil because now it's not just numbing your pain you felt in your heart ...but now your body depends on it. No you said your body NEEDS it and it punishes you if you don't feed it with the needle. Then you went on to tell me the physical repercussions when you don't have the drug. You told me to never even try it, not even ONCE. Because that's all it takes. Its not worth it because it numbs the pain only for a little while....but it doesn't heal it. So for you, I can never go down that road. But it is so hard.... I won't lie. Man dealing with this pain just as I am right now especially when no one gets me. Just Like no one understood you, is THE hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my entire life. My mother abandoned me and the rest of her children when I was 6. I would so much rather go through that pain a million times over then have this darkness.. This pain, this sadness, emptiness, that I have carried with me everyday since March 27 2018. I carry the darkness and walk in this darkness alone and its scary. Its fucking scary. March 27th..... I say that day out loud everyday for some reason. I don' t really know why. But I try my damn hardest to stay strong because you are my big sister and you told me to. I will never try it because you told me not to. Not because I am stronger than you because I am not. Its because I promised you. Especially for my kids it brings me such pain to even imagine inflicting this type of pain on them. I could never do that to them. I would gladly walk in darkness and hide this pain than ever hurt them in that way. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. Never mind my babies. I never want them to ever have to feel this pain. But Ashley its hard. I miss you. I really thought I could save you. I am a failure . .I have failed you and for that I will never forgive myself. You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. I always said that even when you were alive. I was always in such awe of your beauty. I wish that beauty was still on this earth. But i will hold it in my heart. Every single day for the rest of my life...until I am no longer on this earth. I will never move on. Why should I be granted such a privilege when you are not here to do the same. I do not deserve that. Especially when I feel in my heart there's something I could have done more. Done better. I thank God every day you had my nieces man, they make my heart start beating again times I feel it slowing down.... If ever a mother loved her kids it was you. We are not perfect none of us are. I will never allow anyone to think otherwise of you. Out of all of us you endured the most. I don't care who agrees. It wasn't your fault for what happened to you. But you always had so much love in your heart. For a person that always said she did not feel loved, to me is such an admirable quality you had. You were always kissing everyone and pinching our cheeks and saying we are so cute. Your children will know of your love. That is my promise to you. I love you. It hurts knowing you will never read any of these words....but its something I also cannot change. No matter how much I cry. - Jessica

Posted 11/09/2018

Shanon I think about you all the time. You were only 19. Just a child this dam dis-ease took you 7 years ago. I will always rember you because I know you are watching over me in heaven.

Ryan and Gary, RIP. Glad we met. You made an impression. Love, Vicky xxxx

My darling Zoe, There is not a day that goes by that we don't think of you, miss you terribly, wish for one more hug, one more word, long to hear your laugh, want to feel you, need to hear your voice, need to see your smile. Life without you is not right. But we're doing wonderful work, work that you would have done yourself but for one mistake, one night. I think you would be proud of all were doing, and Zoe, it's all for you, in your memory, in your honor and filled with so much love, forever. We miss you so much. www.zoe-story.com

My beautiful Lindi-loo (Lyndal), I miss you so much. Your energy and love of the shiney twinkles in this world. You are my inspiration, my love, my forever. I just want you to come back, even if 'only' while I sleep. XXX

I lost my sweet boy Andrew to an overdose on January 29 th 2012. I miss and love him everyday. The pain never goes away

Posted 31/08/2018

Rest easy Richard Lee Campbell 1/12/1969 to 8/18/2003. I cannot believe it has been 14 years since I got a hug from my big brother. I cant even say it without crying. I miss you and love you plenty. Xoxo Salem, Oregon

To: Allen
 
For my son Scott Allen Reece. He died of an overdose on August 5th of 2010. My son was the most loving, kind, considerate young man you would ever know. He was our life, You think your life changes when you bring a child into the world. Well try having one go out of the world. Talk about changes. I always thought I gave my son life, he actually gave me life. I have not missed one day of crying my eyes out for my son even why he had his disease, he still was one of the most considerate young men so full of life and love, so worried about hurting his mom and dad, trying to get clean for us. He walked in my home with that great big smile as well as my heart, Please God end this horrible nightmare so no one suffers like we parents do. My life will never be the same again, I died that day also but have to try and survive for the others , I do not want to, I struggle each and every day to live without my Handsome Son, It’s so unfair. You are so missed. It is painful son... 

  In loving memory of my beautiful son Curtis. Only he and God know how much I would prefer him to be here with me today and always, but God had other plans. I am still his Mom and he is still my baby, the only one that can light up my heart. Today and always, I will remember his beautiful smile, his strong presence, his kind and caring eyes, and his way of making me smile at any given time with his original sense of humor. I was blessed to have him as my child; he was God’s gift to me. He has taught me more than any one person in my life has ever taught me, for that I am grateful. I believe in the saying, “everyone is in your life for a reason, season or a lifetime.” I have yet to figure out which one he is, but I am inclined to believe he is all three. I will always remember him by the way he lived, and the way he wanted life to be. He had a carefree depth to him, who could not be confined. He was compassionate, bold, fearless and respectful. I honestly couldn’t have asked for a more accomplished son. He would give the shirt off his back for anyone who needed it, he would give shelter to someone in need, and he would give the food off his plate to someone who was hungry, he would give all his change to the homeless, because they needed it more than he. “Life will give you what you attract with your thoughts. Think, act and talk negatively, your world will be negative. Think, act and talk with enthusiasm, You’ll attract positive results.” August 9, 1995 - November 27, 2014

In remembrance of my son Yusef Kallab who lost his life to an overdose September 5, 2009. Yusef was prescribed Oxycontin for pain and very quickly became addicted. When Oxycontin became too expensive he switched to heroin, which was cheaper. I think of him every day.

My son, Danny Jancuski, 28 years old and too young to die. You will be gone from us 2 years on August 16, 2018. My heart hurts the same today as it did that horrible day I got the call. You were a loving, kind, funny, caring angel here on earth and touched many lives. You are missed dearly. It is hard to go on without you in this world. I will fight every day in your memory to save another soul that still has a chance to beat addiction. I will cherish you and the memories we made. I will give your daughter, Gracie and your son, Jesse the love they will miss from you. I am sad they will not have their daddy with them as they grow up but they will know you through us. I love and miss you son. I can not wait to see you again. Mom

Posted 14/08/2018

For my son Bobby who survived an overdose and currently in recovery. "I wish Bobby continued success in his recovery.  I miss him terribly as he is 1000 miles away in another State.

My daughter Karina Bedoya passed away from fentynal overdose Nov.20 2016..we love n miss her so very much!!! Hollywood,fl

I am posting for both my aunt - Pamela and my cousin (her son) - Brett. Both were diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and both died of an overdose within 7 months from one another.

My son I will forever miss you, my Mykey, my naive sweet young man, I promise to do everything I can to help other in your name. I love you, no one you ever know the void you left in my heart Laredo, Texas

I lost my brother the 19th of November, 2014 to heroin addiction. I will never forget that phone call, the feeling of a piece of my heart breaking. He was only 24. Gone way too soon. He had a gorgeous soul, full of life, and always had the room lit up with laughter. Never a dull moment with him around. He loved me and my mother so much! He had a lot of love in his heart in general, too much at times. Just wish he would of left knowing he was good enough. I know, he knows that now. We all miss him so much! Terrible tragedy this was. We love you Mykel, and miss you so much!

Always in my heart and thought. You rest in peace. Thank god for have given me the vlessing to have meet you. Love you tons my big browski phil.

Posted 16/07/2018

My precious son, Joey, 4/8/83-9/19/05. A kind, loving, gentle soul. An artist, poet, and musician. A friend to all with a smile that would light up a room. The world is darker without your physical presence, but your light still shines in our hearts. I wish I could have saved you. I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always... Love, Mom

Mo Babe I know that you never intended to leave me alone , so do not worry my love , remember the love we shared remains eternal ,
Like two grains of sand in a desert storm we are only scattered but with luck one day we will find each other again .
love sweety .

malta

Johnny ,If love could have kept you here with us you would have lived forever..I know how hard you tried.... always in my heart.love you forever and a day. Aunt Shell

Little Ferry,NJ USA

In loving memory of my sister, Anissa.
She battled with opioid addiction for many years due to an accident she had at the age of 15.
She was only 41 years old when she died at the hands of a "traveling" pharmacist who gave her methadone without reviewing her medical history, or her current medications. She went to sleep one night and stopped breathing.
She was a loving mother of 2 children, a wife, a sister, a daughter, a grand daughter, an aunt, a cousin, and a friend to many.
She is missed every day!
#sistersforever
#opiodawareness
#endoverdose

Bella Vista, Arkansas

My son Luis was using for a small period of time secretly. I worked overnight and we both slept all day. I didn’t see the signs nor did I really know them. It kills me that I didn’t get a chance to help him. He was very depressed and down on himself, this was normal for him. Everyone loved him. Teachers and parents bragged to me on how polite and well mannered he was. My son was taken from me by this horrible heroin drug almost 2 years ago at age 22 in my bathroom. Not a day goes by I don’t think of him. Essex md usa

Miss your smile, your laugh, your wonderful presence in life.

Jacksonville Florida

RIP To the lost soul I found in front of the 7-11 on 4/21/18 at 7pm

William TYLER Grant 6/15/89 - 7/4/15. Not a day goes by that our hearts aren't broken. Your beautiful smile and mischievous nature are missed beyond words. Some decisions have life long consequences. I always told you that. I wish you could have heard me. I will love you till the day I die son. I hope you have found happiness on the otherside. Love x infinity, Mom

Posted 08/08/2018

I lost my son to a heroine overdose on 2/4/15.

This has to stop Lost my only child to this St. Louis Mo USA

Godspeed to my only son. Take on heavens treasures. Gone too soon. Not forgotten. Forever young. Mom, dad, and sister miss you badly.

always support for all people..

I packed away Bailey's dress today / And it broke my heart in two, / Just looking at the pink and black lace / Made me cry for you. / Sometimes it comes right at me / Like an explosion of red hot flame, / It engulfs my eyes with tears / And it seems like nothing will stop the pain. / I have a hard time watching / Your sisters heart so broken, / Your brother keeps a calm face on / Your mom so softly spoken. / I don't know what I'd do / Without them by my side, / For they are a living part of you / I thank God for every night. / I want so bad to be angry / But that's difficult for me to do, / Because I love you so much / I could never stay angry with you. / I can't describe the pain I feel / Not having you here with me, / But I know within my broken heart / You are now forever free. / That's all I wanted most for you / Was your happiness, / And sometimes it warms my broken heart / To know your in tranquil bliss. / Thank you for loving me / So tenderly and true, / For all the soft sweet kisses / For telling me "I do". / Thank you for our children / No one could ever give me a gift so grand, / And I promise you they'll know / Their daddy was truly an amazing man. / I love you Mikley forever and always <3

My son lost his best friend to a drug overdose. He left a handsome little son behind. His son has that same smile his daddy had no matter how bad of a day he was having he could make anybody smile . He is miss by his family so much. His mom n brother r raising his wonderful son. I know that he will be just like his daddy

To: My Son Quentin, died from a accidental overdose, 27 years old died on March 23, 2010. The best son ever...missed so much and loved forever. See you in heaven dear heart! Moms

In memory of my son, Jonathan Pattison. Love never dies.

Deep River, ON

3*1*18 My beautiful sister Shawna Ragozine, I love and miss u everyday! I hope u are now happy, healthy, and free! Until we meet again I love u beyond words!

Posted 01/09/2018

MJ <3 you will always be remembered in my heart and the hearts of the many others you touched. I will forever miss you infectious bubbly laugh.....................

Paul was a very unique individual. He was kind, loving, creative, artistic, musical, had a great sense of humor, hard working, concerned for others, a wonderful Brother, Son, Father, and Friend. Paul and I were in a relationship for 10 years and had a beautiful daughter together. When our daughter was 4 we stopped dating and later became best friends. Paul suffered from both mental illness and drug addiction for most of his teenage and adult life. He had so many demens inside him that tormented him. He may have had a drug problem but he was a good and beautiful person who put himself into drug rehab several times. The final time he went to drug rehab and got out I asked him how he was going to make sure this didn't happen again and he responded, "It's just trial and error, that's all we can do in life." He was a hero to me. He perservered threw life and every time he relapsed and fell he sout out a way to stand back up and try to walk again down the road of life. He was a wounderful father to our little girl and she loved him so much. When Paul didn't show up for work, which was very much unlike him the police were sent to his apartment where they found him on his bed. He must have been there for about a day. They couldn't tell he had overdosed initially so an autopsy was performed which revieled that he had both Cocain and Fentynol in him. Fentynol has been going around being cut into drugs such as Cocain and Haroin but most recently specifically in the county where Paul lived. Paul didn't know that the Fentynol was cut into his Cocain, otherwise he would still be here with us today. Paul was Paul, exactly as he was and he was loved in his entirety by his daughter, mother, sister, me, friends and God and he loved all of them back in return. I know he is finaly home were he truly is able to be happy and free. He is leaving us to love, remember, cherrish, and honor his memory and the memories we all shared with him until we can see him again when we come home to be with our Lord.

Germantown,MD

To Gwen- My heart is broken that you did not get the chance to grow into the wonderful woman you were well on your way to becoming. You are forever in my heart until we meet again. My beautiful, sparkling, creative, anxious, impulsive and reckless daughter Gwendolyn Farrell died of an unintentional mixed drug/heroin overdose. Twenty-one years of age: 11/1/89 - 3/26/11.

On August 26th, 2016 it'll mark one year since I lost a friend who was like a brother to me. He had the best laugh, a heart of gold and was the type of guy who would give you the shirt off his back in a heart beat. I will never forget the pain I felt in my heart , deep into my soul the day I found out he passed away from an accidental drug over dose. I was always aware of his pain and inner demons but never truly knew how much pain he was in. The last time I saw my friend before he passed away suddenly I judged him because of his decisions he was making in his life at the time. Every day since he passed I wish I could take back that moment of judgement and replace it with a moment of love and acceptance. Although he may be at peace now, those he left behind still struggle with the pain of him gone in our lives. I miss him everyday and still cry for him when I am alone. A part of me died the day he died. Chris, I hope you are watching down on me and seeing that your loss has inspired me to help others. Until we meet again -RIP XXO

Destiny Marie C. 1978 to 2014 Destiny died with her husband Joe from a fentanyl overdose within hours of their 12th wedding anniversary. Significantly missed by mom and their two children. The children called me (grandmother/mom) and said they could not wake up mommy and daddy. Remember drugs kill and leave behind tremendous sadness and PTSD.

Posted 13/07/2018

I want to start by saying how sorry I am for all of your losses. I lost one of the greatest loves of my life, my first born, our wonderful son Gabriel. At six twenty in the morning on Friday February 22, 2013 I found my beloved son. That morning will haunt me forever. I wanted to go with him, protect him, make sure he would be safe. And at that moment my heart shattered. I will never be the same without him. I have such a void and I miss him all the time; so much that it takes my breath away. A day does not go by that I don’t look out the front window thinking I see you coming up the street. I am angry and saddened at the same time that I won’t get to have my tomorrows with you. I will never get to hear your funny stories or get to know your wife and children because there won’t be any - just silence. I hear you telling me: 'Mom I got this but you didn’t' and now I am left here to try and put the pieces together and make sense of what makes no sense and seems so unfair to me. Heroin is a horrible demon to fight and I wish with all my heart and soul you could have won the battle. I love you and will miss you forever. Please pray and watch over your brother Love always Mom

In loving memory of my fiancé, Joshua, who lost his battle to addiction on May 3, 2016.  I will forever miss your beautiful soul.  Not a day goes by where I do not think of you.  You were such a loving, kind spirited person with a great sense of humor.  I will carry you in my heart until we meet again.  Love you always Joshua Lee.

Joseph turner. 2-21-1982. 8-25-2015 Andover

To my son Jonathan who passed away of a overdose on 11/6/2012. I miss you so much. I miss your laugh and silly jokes. You struggled most of your life with addiction and I wish I could have done more. I feel both angry and hurt at times. I am sorry you were all by yourself that day with no help. I miss you Beetle Bailey with all my heart.You will always be the twinkle in my heart..xxxooo

Michael, my beautiful, beautiful 20 year old son lost his battle early in the morning of October 1, 2016. I am a writer by profession; I should be able to come up with some small, profound nugget of inspiration to express what this has meant for our family. It should also console the many thousands of others who are trying to find their path back to any peace/joy they may have once had in their lives. But  as I quickly learned, there is simply no way of describing the indescribable. My first born baby is now at peace, but my message to his friends that were lucky enough to survive that night's 'batch': from this point on, my prayers will be for your parents instead, who still have no idea of what is probably in store for them as well. God bless you Michael, you're completely in his hands now. I love you, Mom

I can't believe it's been 6 years now since you've been gone. I know how much you struggled just to be you. I know how much you HATED the drugs and hated what you were doing. I'm sorry you felt so much pain. I'm sorry you could never feel the love that so many felt for you. When you died, I knew you were at peace and knew you finally FELT the love that everyone had for you. And that you have felt my love for you ever since.I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like to have you in recovery, what that would have been like for you. I wished you could have experienced that. I have never been ashamed of you, I am proud to be your older sister. Proud of the way you lived your life, the way you treated others and inspired others all the time. I am proud of your accomplishments and your drive in life. You taught me to dream and dream big. We all dream...and dreams come true. Thank you for staying with me the last 6 years in my dreams. I love you! Shannon Schou