Tributes

There’s not a day I don’t think of you
And wonder what it would be like to have you back in my life gone but NEVER FORGOTTEN….
DOB,(02-02-1987
02-05-21

I LOVE YOU UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN 💞

I miss that beautiful face and all the good times we had together. I hope you know that’s not the same here without you but I try to go on day by day. I never would have thought I would have woke up next to you like that. It’s hard for me to accept the fact that you’re no longer until we meet again my sweet angel
RIP 2-9-21

MaxoWaxo ⭐️
Our love is with you always
Peace and Beats
Mela and Luna
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Hey my beautiful cuz geez I can’t even count the years u been gone but it still just feels like yesterday I love you miss you think about you daily

My son, you lost your battle to addiction on Overdose Awareness Day 08/31/2024. You had 111 days in recovery before this and you were moving forward and making incredible progress. Even passed your peer support certification test with an astonishing 50/50! You would have been such an inspiration to those struggling! You had such an incredible testimony. You were smiling, laughing, and so full of life. It was the best time I ever got to spend with you! I will cherish those 111 days for the rest of my life. I got to know my son, I got to spend time with you, we had deep conversations, we were thriving in our relationship! You were texting or calling me daily. I just can’t make sense of what happened that triggered you to go back to that life. You went back to the group home that you had been successful at and you text me telling me “I am embarrassed”. I tried to encourage you that there was nothing to be embarrassed about. You were only there 2 days and on 08/29/24 you left the group home. I continued to text you but you never responded. It was breaking my heart. I text you everyday asking if you were ok. But unfortunately you were not. On 09/03/24 I got a knock on the door from the detectives telling me they found you on 08/31/2024 already deceased. You had wandered into a parking garage up to the 4th floor on 08/30/24 at 9:39pm where you were seen fidgeting and moving around until about 2:00pm on 08/31/24 when you ceased moving altogether. You were found at 3:49pm. I had texted you that same day at 3:54pm telling you it was terribly hot and how worried I was for you asking you to please tell me you were ok. But you were already gone. I am left with all these questions son. Why did you go off to be alone? Did you do this intentionally? Did you really just give up and leave us all here? Was the pain that severe? I will never know the reasons you were all alone. You didn’t deserve to die in that manner. You were so loved and so cherished! I know you had suffered as a child and struggled with the trauma you had endured. I am so sorry that I couldn’t save you son. I never ever wanted this for you. I will struggle the rest of my life in pain over your passing. I will likely never be able to forgive myself either. I don’t know that I will ever accept this. The only thing I can accept is knowing you are no longer in pain, no longer suffering, no longer living with guilt and shame. Rest easy my Beavis. You will always live within your mama. Ride it like you stole it honey! You are forever free to go wherever your heart desires. Until we meet again baby! Please know you are forever in my heart.

Karli, I knew the moment that you didn’t contact me on Facebook like you said you would that you were gone. I didn’t know how I knew, I just did. I learned so much just from observing you. Despite the dire situation you were in, your upbeat attitude and positivity touched me in such a way that I adopted your attitude towards life.

Hector, you had so much going for you. I know it didn’t work out between us, but I wanted nothing but happiness for you. I still have your apache medicine bag hanging on my wall. I treasure it, as I treasure our brief relationship. You saw me sitting alone, looking sad. You SAW me. And I loved you for that. A part of me will always love you.

Dad I can’t explain how much I wish I could have gotten the chance to tell you that regardless of everything I would always be proud to be your oldest daughter and exactly how much I love you, I didn’t mean any of those hateful things I said to you the day you passed on, I wish I could have given you one more hug and told you that I love you so much. The pain I feel every day is the worst pain I’ve ever experienced, I would never ever wish that pain on even my worst enemy. There are days that I wake up and forget that you are no longer here and the temporary happiness I feel at that moment because I’m so excited to see and talk to you is very short lived and then it hits me like a mack truck going 100 mph without attempting to stop that I remember that you passed on and the last words I had said to you were evil and hateful, I know you forgive me for saying those things but it’s not the same as being able to tell you that I’m sorry… I sincerely hope that I never figure out exactly what happened the day you died because God forbid I don’t know how I would react, I hope that God would forgive me for doing what I felt I needed to do in order to finally move on from the pain of losing my dad. I know that technically your cause of death was ruled an overdose but I deep down know in my heart that you were used as a way to get to me and for that I’m making a promise that if I ever find out exactly what happened, I will make it my mission to make sure they don’t go unpunished in this life and the next. God please forgive me but I just can’t let this go, maybe hopefully someday I’ll be able to work through the grief but at this point I just can’t let it go.

Your amazing talent and artistic self was such a blessing to this world.. forever In our hearts.

A quick tribute and shout out to my cousin Daniel Tuchalski. Danny, I think about you often and I have wished so many times that you would not have been tricked into believing that our last conversation was Anything but 100% genuine & came from the bottom of my heart! I stand by that still to this day. I just came across the Facebook messenger conversation our very last conversation from 2013 a conversation that I have searched very heavily for in messenger in pursuit of revisiting that night and how much I enjoyed being able to connect with you . Unfortunately, I found out later that you were tricked into believing that our whole conversation was used against you the next day, and unfortunately never found out the person who used it against. You actually just found our conversation on the computer and threw my name into the mix. I wish so badly that had never happened. Going backwards, doesn’t do anything for us and moving forward is often extremely tough to! Just about back that I found this message and it literally aligned with so many things regardless of when we had that conversation helps me believe that anybody were paying a tribute to this page May very well be sitting right next to you and unable to show you that sign! And if that is the case, they’re never gone, but that’s not the case as we all assume it isn’t, I hope everybody is showing this type of love before it’s too late! Could make a big difference !!! Rest easy Cuzzo!

He was a real down to earth person he definitely didn’t judge he liked his space but also liked people you knew he always had ur back if he was ur friend he’d do anything in the world for you.

My sweet little cousin that grew up with me and spent most of life making me hysterically laugh. I miss your face I miss your laughter and miss your silliness and funny talks. You always made me laugh. We were so much alike when it came to our humor and what we thought was funny. People would just sit and wonder what we were saying that had us laughing out of our seats. I wish you were here, I wish you were beside me and helping me thru my struggles right now. You were always there when I needed you and still even there when I didn’t think I needed you. You were way to young to go and I am so sad to spend this dreadful life without the one who always made it brighter. I have had regret for the introduction of people who turned to be not at all good for you. I regret that you made a choice and took a chance on something that someone showed you how to do. I hate that it was your own husband and someone you thought you could lean and depend on for protection. I hate that the one person who should have protected you did the exact opposite and basically brought you into the horrible world of addiction and then dropped you and turned his back on you when you couldn’t kick it. I hate that he watched you go into the downward spiral and was with you as you did this without even caring to what damage it would and did cause In your life. I hate that he didn’t care enough about little L.A. to have helped turn you around in the right direction so you could continue to be the wonderful mother that you were and needed to be for little L.A. I hate that he didn’t help you help yourself. I hate that I wasn’t there for you and I hate that you didn’t let me know how bad you were struggling with it. I hate that you didn’t tell me anything about how bad it had gotten even tho I had felt like I knew by how you were, how you were acting which was so far from being that sweet little cousin I grew up with.
I hate that even tho I suspected it and saw it that I didn’t take it more seriously and whole heartedly to take the time to actually talk with you about these struggles. I hate you didn’t lean on me like I wish you would have. I felt like I knew you were still using but you didn’t trust me enough to let me in on your secret or give me the opportunity to help you that I left it at that instead of forcing myself into what needed to be done to get you sober. I almost died after you left us. I tried to leave right along with you as I knew I would be lost without you. I hope to get a flying Angel visit from you soon. As I hear your voice and laugh all the time. I even sound like you when I get excited and talking fast. I think of you often and am sure that you are making the whole heavens laugh like you used to make me laugh. I know you were happy to finally see your other musketeer Kristina who Is up in the heavens with you. And I’m sure you and Kristina are up in the heavens sitting shotgun with the Lord. I am sure you and momma and Kristina are the rulers of laughville. I miss you so very much Jessie. I wish you were holding my hand thru these rough times I’ve been and still am facing. I know that your watching over me and I hope to hear your Angel laughter for my entire time on this now empty world. The world, my life, and my happiness will never be the same without you.
I love and miss you deeply.
Love your cousin
The missing Musketeer
Elizabeth

My son. Born in 1984 -2024. Beloved and greatly missed and loved. April will be a month for me to mourn for the rest of my life.
You’re never supposed to bury your child before a parent. Hate for the dealers if fentanyl.

Cheryl Ann Millhouse, you are loved by everyone and me and your family. Your kids are grown and doing well I believe. I know you accidentally did this and I wish we found you earlier. It’s sad you passed on my birthday. Rip chance is with you.

Hey buddy you tried so hard to quit but it got the best of you. Sorry I couldn’t be there to save your life this time. Now you get to be with your Dad and Mom. I will miss u bro so will everyone else that knew you. Onthaforya!!!

You passed of a heroin overdose, dosed by some guy you thought you could trust. The police came to get you, no one went to jail, and no one gave you a proper obituary. My heart hurts for you after hearing about all this from your mom, and it still bothers me that you literally had no support. You deserved so much more than that. Given that you were a bright, brilliant woman with incredible leadership skills. I am happy to have finally got you to become my friend after a long time trying. Even if your nickname for me was “my annoying little cousin”. Haha. Damn Shell. I am sorry you never got the uplifting you deserved and I just wish you the absolute best life in the next life… If there is one. I’ll never forget you miss lady!

You will forever be loved and missed by me and your boys! I just wish I would’ve known you even had a problem with fentanyl. My heart aches every single day and I won’t ever be the same. I miss you knee! I guess I’m glad you aren’t suffering here anymore . MUAH RIP. til I see you again . I love you forever and always

You left us far too soon. You took what you thought was a pain pill and it was laced with fentanyl. Most of us get second chances when we make a mistake. Not with this stuff.
Your “best friend “ and your roommate watched you die for 8 hours. All they needed to do was call 911 or take you to the hospital before you were already dead. The medical examiner said Narcan would have saved your life. I’m doing my best to make people aware of the Good Samaritan Law and to carry Narcan kits. No family should feel this pain. We will never know what could have been. Forever 22. You are dearly loved and missed.
Love Momma 💖

You are gone but not forgotten by our children and myself. Addiction made you become someone you wasn’t. You had a huge heart and would do anything for anyone. If only we could turn back time to spend more time with you as a family. I miss your laughter, jokes and the best back and feet massages after a long day of work. You enjoyed your love of being a over the road truck driver as well as riding your Harley in your free time. Time we can never get back but your memory will forever be in our hearts. Your lewegacy will continue to live on thru our children. A empty space has been left in my heart. Addiction took away a great man the live of my life if 35 years. May you continue to watch over us. LNA forever, my 1st and only love
I miss you and all of our good times will never be forgotten

She was a wonderful daughter and mother and sister she put everyone else first she was so down to earth and it’s unfortunate that she took a pill that was laced with fentanyl she was in pain and her friend gave it to her and it killed her but she was a wonderful person it’s a shame that they put that in pills or even sell it that is one drug that is so deadly it takes a little please be aware of it but I miss her every day I love her so much not a day goes by you’re not thought of love you baby girl

I’ve known Kevin since he was a baby.
He did what boys do as he got older more bold or silly upstairs. I think he was 14 just got my motor installed on my 71 442 conv going for a ride I had to grab wallet I come out little blond head pop over dashboard well he decided he wasn’t waiting.
Kevin shine bright as you made people smile and shine bright