Matthew, one day short of being clean for 15 months this time, you decided to roll the dice one more time. That turned out to be the last time. If only we knew what went through your mind that day, we might have been able to help. I miss you each and every day. You’re still the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I go to bed. Love you forever, son. It shouldn’t have turned out this way