Mom, I remember the times before it all began. The times of love, laughter, gardening, playing. Your smile and laughter made me feel so safe. You helped my scraps and my broken hearts. You taught me so much. Just a few months it took. You disappeared. I got married and had my baby girl. I held her wishing you were there. You finally met her and I saw you again. Toward the end… I had my son just two years later. You never held him. I got that call late that night. I know you loved me and you know I forgave you. I miss you mom and I love you so much it hurts.