Tributes

This is so hard to write. My beautiful daughter, Rachelle Christine Lambeth, lost her battle with addiction on April 13, 2021. I never thought I would be in this situation. I never thought this would be a reality. I never understood the emptiness that people talk about after losing a loved one, now I do. I feel so lost and empty, like part of me is gone. I sit and think that I will never see her head pop up from downstairs or hear her voice on the phone,

Christine battled daily with mental health issues, she struggled daily with it. She would cry and say, “Mom I am tired.” It broke my heart. She attempted to get help but never got it. If only I could have made beds available at rehabs for her the days she was ready, maybe we wouldn’t be here. Maybe, she would still be here.

Christine hated to see anyone upset. She would make it her goal to cheer them up. I loved this about her. Her laugh would make you laugh. Her facial expressions would make you laugh. Christine started playing softball when she was young. She was amazing. She was her biggest critic, you would know if she was having a good game or a bad game. I was her BIGGEST fan! I loved watching her play every weekend at tournaments. She was such an amazing person. She lived her life as a free spirit. Christine had 2 little sisters that she loved so much. They thought she was the most amazing person on this earth.

Christine battled daily with her mental health and addiction. I have comfort in knowing the demons she battled daily are gone. She is happy and no longer struggling! I tell her sisters that they have the most gorgeous guardian angel looking over them. Christine, I love you so much and miss you so much! YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE, MY ONLY SUNSHINE!!

Jordan Spencer Clark, Long time since I last wrote anything here it seems. Life keeps us busy, yet not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts my friend. I talk with you daily and I believe you hear me. I continue to pray for your family and friends each day.
Not much has changed in that respect. You’ve been in my dreams lately, not bad ones but just like little Hello’s in a sense.
Time does heal all wounds my friend, and I realize I come closer to accept what happened I guess. I know in my heart you are in a better place than this screwed up world you left 3 years and four months ago. So I find a peace in that… BUT I miss you so much my friend and Mom too!!!!!!!! The unfairness of your short life here still don’t make sense and I’m sure never will. But I want you to know I’m grateful for the time I knew you and for the help you were to me during my losing Mom. You were a True Friend Jordan and I am forever thankful God put you in my life!!!! Wish I could have helped you with your addiction, but what can I say?
I Miss you buddy, Love you more than there are stars. little more

Matthew Jose Rivero

Sunrise 1/25/94
Sunset 8/6/20

Never in a million years did I think the day would come that he would really and truly not be here. I loved Matt more than I loved myself. Meeting in treatment, there were obviously all the odds that were stacked against us. Being a guy with emotions he rarely expressed; I’ll never forget the night he said “I love you…I’ve never been this happy in my entire life.” Letting him ever forget that he said it first was not an option; he was reminded regularly.

He was adventurous and lived life in the fast lane. He loved his mom, dad, and younger brother so much. His laugh was infectious and his smile was something I’ll never ever forget. He had a matte black pickup truck that he cherished and he swore he was the best driver in the world…but I would beg to differ because again, he lived life in the fast lane. He was an exceptional electrician and he knew it. He could keep anyone entertained for hours with endless stories of his adventures.

Matthew had demons that no doctor, therapist, rehab, or meeting could fight. They were bigger than his love for life. Unfortunately, his superpowers couldn’t save him and God welcomed him home August 6, 2020. Thanks to heroin/fentanyl, a love like no other was lost.

Rest in love…
I’ll love you forever and always.

Cameron Blakey 23, gone far to soon, a beautiful life taken, so determined, he tried again and again to beat you. But some days those demons are greater than we are! You were in my families life for a long time, and the love of my daughters life.so often we fought, so much I regret. You will be missed and remembered. Your life , though cut short had great purpose, for so many. On angels wings may you soar. With love

My daughter Chastity Payne borm 3/27/1992 and my life fell apart 6/03/2020. I miss her so much, I cry every day. Please, if someone who Is reading this are still in active addiction, I plead with you to get help. Think of how much it would break your Mother’s heart if she had to live without you!

Goo, I have been devastated since the day that you left this side of Heaven. After all of he things you went through and overcame in life, I never imagined you would leave this way. I miss you more than I ever knew I could or would. I never imagined doing life without you. Some days I can’t accept it and I’m in denial and other days I just laugh and reflect on the times we shared even our last time together. I feel broken and sad and like nothing is enjoyable without you. I wonder what were you going through that you never shared. I am more devastated that the time in life I was prepared to try my hardest to help you, I was robbed, we were robbed. I will never understand how this happened or how we got here. I wish I had done more, said more, supported you more, gave more, understood you more, loved you more. It’s been over 3 years and its still unreal. I don’t know how to handle living the rest of my life without you. Sometimes it feels like I just won’t make it. I’m not even sure at times I want to make it. I blame myself, I blame others, I blame the life we were dealt, the parents we were given to, the generational curses unbroken that subdued you. The fact that International Overdose Awareness Day is the day before you left is a constant reminder that something could have been done and should have to prevent this! I am haunted by unawareness and my inability to save you. I hear you saying take care of my kids and myself and don’t worry about anything else. I will miss you forever my big brother, my protector, my prank and inside joke partner. You were indeed everything. More than you ever knew. I love you for eternity. I pray your presence with the Lord. Until we meet again. Raymond Edward “Goo” Fulton …..6/15/78-9/1/17

Jeremy. Jeremy, Jeremy. I wasn’t ready for that. Your name lives on, your children live on, we all live on. It’d be infinitely better with you though. I never dreamed you’d leave in summer. Wish we could trade places. You deserved more than what you got and what you got, you didn’t deserve. I love you, rest up.

Nicholas was my best friend starting with Sunday school, weird puberty years, USHER high school days…he was “best smile.” Roommate at college. Groomsman at his wedding, birth of two beautiful kiddos, divorce, coming out of the closet (something I did a decade earlier), realization that we were more than just best friends. Partner for the past 6 years.

Just like that, in one moment, I find him on the ground on his back porch. Someone gave him drugs that he had no idea was pure fentanyl. The cops in our town DID NOT CARRY NARCAN.

So, the absolute most amazing, loyal and beautiful man I’ve known is gone. The person I shared my life with, my everything is gone. No sense to be made. I don’t know how to live without him. Nick, I LOVE YOU, GOOB! NADAM FO’ EVA!.

Billy,
I never realized how hard you tried,or what exactly you battled. You always looked out for me, even when you were someplace else. You were my brother, and my best friend always. A big part of me died the day you left. So many times I needed my big brother…Miss and love you. 1956-1993

Joanna Marie Demas was born August 1, 1961 in Chicago, Illinois to Lily Anagnostou Demas and Dr. Theodore Demas. Her mother was an opera singer while her father practiced medicine. She lived in the Chicago area where she skipped kindergarten and started school as a first grader. In 1971 she moved with her family to Lake City, Florida. Joanna excelled in school where she attended Columbia High School. She maintained excellent grades-she was a National Merit Scholar and a member of Phi Beta Kappa. She graduated high school in 1978 and then went on to the University of Florida where she majored in Chemistry. She graduated from there in 1980 and then attended the University of Miami Medical School where she met her first husband. They would later move to Columbus, Ohio where they both practiced medicine. She and her first husband would later divorce when she became unhappy with her marriage.

Her father wanted all his children to be doctors but Joanna was the only one to realize that dream. She would often treat the uninsured and needy and advocated for the use of medical marijuana before the Ohio State Legislature. She also loved animals and was a vegetarian.

Medicine wasn’t her first love. She wanted to act and be a musician. She even had a small role in an independent film in which she played a waitress that was fascinated with guns titled “My New Advisor” by Jim Bihari. You can find it on YouTube. Joanna did some modeling for J. R. Goff and appeared in one of G. Gordon Liddy’s Packed and Stacked calender. She also appeared in two issues of Playboy in 1992-the first doctor to ever do so. It caused quite a stir at the time!

Joanna loved rock music and frequented the various rock and roll venues around Columbus where she became friendly with quite a few of the band members who played at them. In 1995 she met Pete Way, bassist for the English hard rock band UFO. They would later marry in 1996 and stayed married until her untimely death in 2000 from a drug overdose.

Tragically overdosed -Fentynol, Mother 72 yrs old LaDonna, Oxy, Brother 39 years old Timmie, Morphine, Brother 63 years old Gordie, Heroin, Nephew 34 years old Timothy. Each and everyone of my family that died from an overdose was at one time prescribed oxy, morphine, fentynal, and other opiates by doctors. Then each one became addicted. I have another nephew on heroin living in abandoned burned out houses in Detroit, i am waiting for that dreaded phone call. It has to stop! So many losses across the world because of this. My heart breaks for each and every tribute that I read. Bless all of you that have had losses. I’m so sorry.
I am so lonely for them. I couldn’t save any of them and I live everyday with that guilt. RIP my family
I love and miss you all so much! Take care of each other.

Rodney Blain Hebert 33 yrs old Passed 1/26/21 Heroin Overdose

And Several more but I can not say their names bc the family members wont allow me .

Richard Lee “Seth” Towle Schneehagen III died on Wednesday, February 24 following a long battle with mental health and addiction. While we knew his addiction may some day take him from us, we know that he is now in a lighter place.
Seth was born on June 20, 1990 in Burlington, Vermont where he grew up and lived until 2015 when he decided to seek help and enrolled himself in a California treatment center. Seth loved California and created a new sober life and started a job he loved. Unfortunately, the demons resurfaced, and Seth was not able to fight them any longer. With a few more tries at sobriety, Seth continued to use the drugs to numb his internal pain. Eventually the battle was beyond his control and it took his life. Seth wanted to be clean. He knew how much his life could change if he could just get a handle on it. He just couldn’t get there.
Through it all, Seth knew how fortunate he was to have his Mom’s unwavering love. She did everything humanly possible to support him, be open and honest with him, and maintained a strong mother-son relationship with him. His father Richard mourns his loss as he wished nothing but the best for his son.
Seth was known for his goofy, animated, unrivaled sense of humor and quick wit. He was a man with a wide variety of interests, a love of both precision and chaos and eclectic interests including music, art, the stock market, fashion, skiing and biking. Seth was also a voracious reader.
Seth had a smile and a laugh that endeared all that had the pleasure of his company. those eyes will be deeply, deeply missed by everyone.

Seth was born on his Dad’s birthday, June 20, 1990. He leaves behind his mother, Nancy Towle of South Burlington, his father, Richard Schneehagen of Oahu, Hawaii, his brother, Will Desautels of Waldorf, Maryland and his other mother Kathie Desautels of St. Michaels, MD who all loved him so deeply. He also leaves behind his aunt & uncle, Sandra and Duffy Sinclair, their children Ashley, Jessie & Cassie and dear friends Lilly, Vittorio and Amber. He was recently predeceased by his oldest friend, Mike Loyer.
The outpouring of love and support our families have received is beyond overwhelming. Friends of Nan would like to especially thank the local Families Coping with Addiction Group (FCA) for taking such great care and for giving enormous, loving support to Seth’s Mom, Nan during these past few years. The parents that have lost a child to this epidemic have a bond like no other. We are forever grateful.
If you wish to acknowledge Seth in some way beyond your good thoughts, we encourage donations to The Turning Point Center, turningpointcentervt.org or Spectrum Youth and Family Services, spectrumvt.org.
Please know that Seth’s family deeply appreciates whatever friendship and love you brought to his life. A gathering for family and friends will be held at a later date.

In memory of my beautiful son Austin Levi Thackston. Sunrise 07/07/1989 Sunset 06/13/2018
A precious soul with a heart of gold was taken from us by the greed of drug dealers that sold him what I know he believed to be a recreational drug but in reality was deadly fentanyl. He was a bright light in this world that holds much darkness. He made a horrible mistake. He loved life. He was a handsome smart young man that had a bright future ahead of him. I am so blessed to have been his mom. I only wish I could have had him for a lifetime. He is so loved, missed and cherished beyond words . Austin I love you through all eternity. Thank you for your sweet spirit and beautiful smile. You will never be forgotten as long as God gives me breath in my body. Love you forever ❤️mom

Julia Mahr
Rest in peace inocent child.
Hear me when i speak to your family.
See me make a difference to another life.
So sorry inocent Friend

Elias, fondly called coach cuckie by all. I have no words. I miss you and all your shenanigans. I wonder if you turned to drugs because of your HIV status. I wonder if maybe things would’ve been different if Dana had not left you. I wonder if I had just loved you more. You have left Chris absolutely bereft. Chris no longer goes to the pub since you passed. Your great friend Troy is inconsolable. Queen Helen and Mutty no longer mod. Raleigh, Jamie, Naldo, Paul and so many more don’t know what to do now. Why didn’t you just talk to me? I wish you’d never been put on Adderall. Snorting them started you on your dangerous path I believe. R.I.P. Parents: love your children!

My Christopher, My Love. So many things left unsaid and time wasted. I loved and love you still. I will forever, never be the same. You tried so hard. I am so angry at addiction, the addiction that stole you away from me. I am hoping that the saying “until we meet again” remains true, as that is the only hope I am holding onto now. It used to be that I hung on to the hope of you getting sober, so I could have the old you back. Now I hold the hope I will be able to see you again someday, when my time comes. You better be there to meet me!! I miss you dearly. Together like pb&j. I wish I could of became your wife before you passed. I would love and be honored to carry your name. Your soul was too special for this world and what you were putting it thru. 3 days before you passed, you asked God for help. I believe God helped you, by taking you home. Rest in Peace now my love, the struggle is over, I love you forever & always ~ Nicole ~ until we meet again…. xxoo

Bobby, I miss you everyday… always wondering what life would be like if you were still here to experience it with us. Our son is so damn awesome. I love you, I cant wait to see you again.
RIP
Bobby Ray Kelly
3-5-1993 – 12-9-2017
Fentanyl Overdose.
Forever in my heart <3

Andrea,
You will always be missed girl. I never truly was aware of the pain and hurt that you were experiencing, and I hope you can forgive me from up there. I am sorry for not being able to do more from behind those walls. I checked on Ali, I didn’t let her know it was me, at four I don’t think she would remember anyway. She is growing into a fine young women, and will sorely miss you. I promised you that I would take care of her, and I will continue to check in, be her angel she doesn’t know about. But she has her life now, and its best this way. And I have found someone Andrea, someone I truly care about, someone I love. I’m finally happy Andrea, I truly am, and sorry that I couldn’t give that to you. I guess God has allowed me to pickup where things left off. I finally took your advice, I forgave myself, and I thank you for that. This is goodbye Andrea, in so many ways. Always, Evan

My best friend, who was my boyfriend and the father of my two boys (7months and 5 years old), had lost his life from an overdose September 10,2020. He was a great father and friend. You wouldn’t have known he was dealing with such demons in his head by looking at him. He did his best to fight it, but the demons were too great for him. He is very well known as a true gentleman with a pure and gentle soul/spirit. It’s hard without him here, especially with the boys not having their father, but I know that he is not suffering anymore.

My beautiful Tommy was taken home September 1, 2016. Never did we think going into that night, it would turn out to this outcome. What transpired was complete madness and I never want to endure that again. I will forgive your family but I will never forget. You are in my heart everyday. I love you so much and I miss you each day I know that you are watching over our Baylee and Brodie. I know in my heart that God called you that night. I will fight everyday for our children, they will be home. I am a sober strong mother and they deserve to be with their mother. I want my family together all under one roof. I appreciate your parents but they have stolen our children at this point. I know when the timing is right they will be home, I trust in the Lord.
It will be this year 2021! They need their Momma! I can’t believe it has been this long…

You are my soul mate and I will never love anyone like you. I see you everywhere. You are my handsome Toma. We could have done so much good. I wish your father acted differently and actually sat down and talked to us… Things could have been different.

I have peace in my heart because you are in it. I love you so much and just because I wouldn’t marry you because I wanted to have a nice wedding, “one day” I know I will always be your Brianne Brennick. Your baby girl. I wish we could have a do over. You are such a beautiful kind soul and wonderful husband and father. Thank you for my beautiful children. Please bring them home to me. I love you Tommy Brennick forever & always.

Your favorite song: Forever Young
T.A.B. 11.23.07

Harry .J. Daniel we miss you so much, that phone call on 12/31/2020 is a day I will never forget and the reason why you are no longer here lets me know how serious this really is and I am going to make this awareness come to light to every and anyone . I love you, your sons love and miss you so much !!

My son Calvin Changed Worlds 09/28/2016, he was 22 yrs old. Forever Loved! I hope to make a difference in the lives of others and honor the memory of my son!

On November, 23rd 2018, Kyle Edwards my best friend died of a fentanyl overdose. It completely flipped my world upside down. He was like a brother to me, we grew up together, we rapped together, we got high together. I feel partly guilty because I introduced him to pills when he was only smoking weed when we were in highschool. I’ve been doing drugs since I was like 13 so I’ve been fighting a long fight with addiction myself. Everyone used to say that we were gay because that’s how close we were. Like we could have full conversations without even saying a word. He passed away 2 years ago and it still hurts everyday. It’s true when they say drugs will either put you in a cell or a bodybag. I was the lucky one because I only got the cell. When I was locked up it really dawned on me how badly drugs had ruined my life and all my relationships. Now that I’m free I’m trying my best to keep my nose clean (we all have slip ups) I’m trying to be a better person for Kyle man. I’m trying to make music again but it feels empty without you being there. I want to get a couple songs recorded so I can get on stage and make you proud. You always told me the sky was the limit and that I was capable of great things. I want to be the best uncle I can be to your beautiful baby girl Kyleen. It hurts my heart knowing she will never get to know you and you’ll never get to play doom with her or let her watch alien for the first time then talking her ear off about it afterwards. I promise to tell her all kinds of stories about you so she can have something to remember you by. I hope your doing ok up there man and I’m sorry we didn’t get to hang out much the few months before you died. I’m sorry I told you I didn’t trust you with my money. I’m sorry I made drugs seem like such a normal thing. I promise to try my best to be a better person and achieve greatness for you styx. You will always be my best friend man, I miss you constantly brother and I’m looking forward to the day I get to see you again. FlypCide and The Other White Kid FOREVER

My niece Angel Money, died of a drug overdose on August 31st, 2019. She was found in her home. It was her first home and last. She was a beautiful woman, smart, funny, and loved her family more than anything. She left behind her 9 year old son Dillon. I loved her so much. I hate she is gone, and my heart breaks for her little boy. Heroine and Fentanyl were found in her system.  She had turned into a lost soul, person we didn’t know. I hadn’t seen her in a long while. I know she would want that dealer to pay, if the world would’ve been right. Now it never will be.
Angel you are always gonna be the light in our lives. Our guardian Angel. You will be loved forever by all who knew you.
I love you kid. My heart aches to hold and see you. I will never get over losing you. The world is wrong now, without you in it.

Jeffrey Ross was as beautiful inside as he was on the outside, always smiling, wickedly funny, skilled DJ, break dancer , animal lover & optimist unfortunately Jeff didn’t ever reveal his pain & masked his emotions with meth & oxy. On Wednesday morning July 29, 2020 Jeff Ross accidentally overdosed on those 2 substances & the person with him was not aware or too frightened or just plain passed out , maybe also close to death but didn’t notice Jeff had overdosed & by the time they noticed something was wrong, Jeff was dead. I wish it hadn’t happened. I miss you. I never imagined this could happen until it did & I’m so sorry I wasn’t a better friend to you. I love the gentle, kind. beautiful soul that I tried to dismiss but you didn’t seem to even notice as you swept me off my feet & disappeared. You should still be here, I hate that you’re not.

My beautiful daughter, Elizabeth, lost her battle with addiction on 12/28/2020….Always in my heart
Forever #30

On June 3/2020, my life changed forever when I woke up to discover the love of my life passed away from an overdose at only age 26. Jake was an extremely kind and selfless individual who never passed judgement and always saw the good in people — he loved so many, and was loved by so many more. He was someone who possessed an energy like no other and after one encounter, you would never forget him. The moment that my love left this earth, my heart was split in half — one side was filled with memories, the other crossed the great divide with him. There are a million emotions still running through my head – I want to feel everything but nothing at all. I still feel broken, lost, upset and empty. He was my world and my everything, he was someone I could trust and cared deeply for. Jake’s presence in my life had such a monumental, positive impact and I don’t know if anything will ever fill that now-empty void.

I love you baby – forever and always.
Feb 12, 1994 — June 3, 2020

Jordan Spencer Clark, It doesn’t seem possible but we are coming up on 3 years since you left this world for a better place.
It’s empty and cold sometimes, other days I can smile knowing you are ok my friend. I miss you as much today as I did the morning I got the call that told me you didn’t make it. This world is in such a mess, I’m thankful you’re not hear, and that Mom isn’t . I can’t believe I said that, and yet it is true.
Time does heal wounds my friend but, I can still cry when I think of you, and Mom. There is a space that isn’t filled and never will be. I just want you to know I Miss you and I Love you dear friend! Love never dies…it goes on. And grief is just Love that has no place to go. Know you are loved and missed always. P.S. Give Mom a hug for me and tell her I Love Her!!!
little more…

My beautiful, loving and caring son who everyone loved!!! Who did not use heroin for 14 years. This year, 2020, couldn’t of gotten any worse. He Accidentally OD on 8.10.20. He had everything going for him. He owned his home, a beautiful family who he loved. A promotion at work! Addiction did not identify who he was. He was loved and admired by so many people. He would go out of his way to help even a stranger. I ask myself “why” but I don’t have the answer! I miss you so much Ronnie and my heart is 💔 broke. I love you and until we meet again, my angel!!!

Sarah.. I will love you forever, you’ll always be my first little sister. I will miss you as long as I live. Addiction made you feel isolated enough to take your own life by overdose. I wish I could have saved you. I’m sorry that you were let down.

Elizabeth Showalter 11/7/90 – 12/29/20

My son Steven A Janowski Jr..my soul hurts my son, I miss you so much. I feel like I have no purpose anymore ..I cant stop crying ..what I would do to trade my life for yours ..I love you Steven it’s so hard with you gone..I’ve lost my will and I don’t care, it’s the most intense pain I’ve ever felt ..I love my boy !! I can’t wait to see u again , love mom Selina Pinkerton

Brian Anthony Grayson (BUG)
10/10/1991-9/23/2019
We miss you so much! You were so important to so many people and the world is colorless without you. Thank you for fighting to stay with us for as long as you could. I can’t wait to see you again!

On August 15, 2018, our family lost someone very special to us due to an accidental overdose caused by Xanax that was laced with Fentanyl. Tyler was 19 years old, just a month away from turning 20. He was one of a kind. My brother had a smile that was contagious. Most people who knew him would describe him as a goofy, bubbly person. He had his whole life ahead of him, but he was not as happy on the inside as he seemed on the outside. We had a trip planned on August 16 to go to the beach, he was very excited about it. But the night before, he took a Xanax before going to bed, not knowing that it was laced with something so deadly. It is sickening what drug dealers will do to make a little extra cash.

My son steven anthony janowski jr. Army vet..and a great man ..i see things i wrote about my son with my name but its part of what my words are ..i have no idea why ..my son will be forever missed and always in my heart and nobody can touch that

My sister Christine Zweifel died August 1st 2016 at age 48 from an overdose of methamphetamine. She was a woman who knew no boundaries. She lived life on her own terms. She was fierce and loved. She leaves behind 4 sons. A sister who loves her more than anything in the world and our mother. We miss Chrissy gone too soon. Never forgotten.

Cara Lee McCluskey (Dunham) leaves behind her two daughters Chelsea and Taylor, and 3 beautiful grandchildren after an overdose in Clinton IA on November 23rd 2020 in the evening hours.

Please hug your loved ones.

Jose Antonio Thomas, 33 from Webster, Ma. He was my best and only real friend, and Father to our children. He passed away in March of 2020 after losing his little brother in January of 2020 to the same fate. I find myself crying every day still, this hurts so much. Jose, I love you and I hope you’re in a peaceful, warm place where all of your worries and sadness is gone.
Love, Kristine Juju and Kennie

My best friend and Father to our children, Jose Antonio Thomas. I miss you so very much. “FOREVER 33”

I wanna pay a tribute for my brother RYAN,who lost his battle on fighting his demons on june 15th 2018 😞😥 me and our family miss him so much,every minute,second and hour of the days😞😥 people say it gets better,i don’t believe it at all,i think it gets WORSE cause its longer as years and days goes past without hearing and seeing your loved ones😞😥 REST IN PARADISE MY BROTHER RYAN😞😥🙏💔 WE LOVE AND MISS YOU DEARLY💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

I miss you so much Peanut. I wish I could hold you. Forever 23. Love you to heaven and back.

We lost our first son to an accidental OD of fentanyl. So sad, because he was successfully fighting alcohol addiction but purchased “pills” that he thought were Xanax. Instead, he unknowingly OD’ed. I miss him every day and forever.

My Brother Marion Anthony (Tony) Starr passed away in my arms on May 3rd 2020 to a accidental overdose of meth and fentanyl. He was 32 years old, has a 4 year old daughter who he loved dearly and who loves him unconditionally, Tony had his demons but he was a great father, uncle, brother, and son. He had a heart of gold and would help anyone he could but his addiction took control. Tony was 9 months clean and 14 day out of rehab when he relapsed and took that one shot which ended it all. I did cpr for over a hour waiting for help, both our parents and both my boys watched in horror as i did all i could to save their son and uncle. The screams of my mother and father haunt me, the looks on my kids faces when then knew Uncle Tony was gone kills me. I knew my brother was gone within 5 minutes of doing CPR, but i couldn’t give up on him, i needed him to survive this to make it. But he didnt. The emts arrived and he took to the nearest hospital and pronounced doa. He was my baby brother my best friend and id give anything to have him back again. My boys and his daughter and our parents would give anything to have him back again. The pain doesnt go away, the screams i still hear, addiction is killing our family and friends. I was also a addict. Since that day i haven’t touched anything, i will not make my family suffer through that again. My brother saved my life 🙁 with his.
Thank You
Tina M Starr

I lost my wife, soulmate, best friend, and mother to two wonder kids. After 17 months clean she made a single slip that cost everything. She is the reason I’m clean and sober today but I would trade places with her so she could be back. In memory of my everything.
Jennifer Ashley
2/27/84 – 11/10/19
RIP Jenni

I would like to remember Kathy Lewis and Ernie Combes. Gone but not forgotten 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

In memory of our beautiful baby, Rhys. Taken so soon. We had so many laughs and fights, it was the nature of the revolving door that belonged to us. Now the door has stopped and we can only look through the glass. Your time on this Earth was so precious. Until we meet again our Darling. Love you always, Mam and Dad XX

May Keith Butler the most loving man i have ever know RIP..their was FENTENAL in his weed that he had no idea about😪😪💕💕 I love you forever… You are now at peace..no more struggling

You are missed and everyday the pain of you not being here becomes duller and goes a bit deeper.
You were so filled with hope or the longing for hope the last time we spoke sweetheart. I wish you made it more than 3 days into your 30s. May you be free and healed, love.

Please don’t think your next fix will be okay, its never safe and you matter to yourself, loved ones and your future.

R.I.P. Anthony 09/19/1989- 09/22/2019.
<3 Love you and can’t wait to come home and see you again.

You tried hard to fight your demons. You didn’t mean to leave us. We love you and always will. May you spend eternity with loved ones and watch over us. For you will be greatly missed. We love you Sweet Pea.

Nov.23,2019 my hero my son, Steven A Janowski JR. My son was a great man, and a great hero to me. 🙂 when i was told my son passed my heart sank…till this day i wakeup and hope its just a bad dream and he would walk in…my son is amazing and he is my hero..he is everything i knew he would be and im proud of that..i still cant come to terms with the loss of my son ..im completely lost..nov.23, 2019 worse day of my life! Do you know how hard it is to see your childs grave..? People are hurting people my son a veteran saved lifes and his was talkin ..my son is gone from cocaine cut with fentanyl. .there were so many more things we were gonna do.and see ..and say…I LOVE YOU! STEVEN!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH..

Jordan Spencer Clark Here we are in November… 3 years ago you were going on vacation with your family in Florida. It would be your last… You came back and turned yourself in and for 3 months almost no heroin. I had hopes you’d stay clean, even if it meant you and I did’nt continue as friends down this road. I still ask myself why? I still have no answers Jordan.
But you saved me in a sense, My life has changed so much, I miss you each day buddy same as I miss Mom. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I wish you had made it and maybe by now you’d be settled down with a family of your own.
I regret that, a life so short and what should have been so much ahead of you. Rest in God’s Love my friend and KNOW you are LOVED and Missed.

you had demons you never deserved. rest easy now

Rest In Peace to my Friend Peg. Overdosed: serequel January 16, 2020 passed away January 19, 2020. I hope you found your happy ever after..fly high friend..I wish my words could’ve done more to encourage not to end it all. God be with you and your family. I’ll always wonder for the rest of my life if you really meant it when you said you weren’t going to do it or if you only told me that so I wouldn’t be alarmed and come and rescue you like last time. Anyway, fly high my friend. I understand that dark place..

My beloved son, Justin, passed away November 1, 2019 from an accidental overdose. May you be at peace , love you forever.

In memory of Briar Lee
Coate1991 to 2011

R.I.P my baby girl Alyssa Ruffles
July 3,1998 – August 24, 2020
Gone but never forgotten❤🦋
My daughter died of a fentanyl overdose at the age of 22! I miss her every second, every minute of every day!💔💔

My heart hurts for us all. I am so sorry. I am also so lost. I think I am still in denial.?
My dad, October 24th, 2019, Carbon Monoxide Suicide, and my mom, found December 4th, 2019, had passed approx November 28th, Thanksgiving. Makes sense. Depression and holidays, plus we were in one of the stupid moments, not talking. This is crazy. I want to be with them too. Ive yearned for my parents my entire life! I am alone and hurt.

Elijah Robert Perez-Palma, you are so missed and loved. It was the beginning of the shelter in place order when you left us. The world is literally a different place now. I wake up every morning and say to myself, ‘My boy is gone’. It’s hard to go on without you. I tried reaching out to your mother to prove you wrong. You were such a kind, loving, funny, smart young man. I did love seeing you so happy during your last year. It seemed like everything was going to be all right. You tried. I know you did. My hope is for you to be at peace. I also hope to see you again. You were a wonderful grandson and a beautiful young man. I love you. Always your Grammy

Vito–we love you very much and miss you every day, beautiful baby. You were the most wonderful friend and husband and father and brother and son. Heaven is so lucky to have you darling. Watch out for Jerry up there.
Love, Anna and Vincent
Vito (1992-2013) Seven years today

Jerry, we love and miss you.
Anna and Vincent
Jerry (1990-2013)

my niece 32, 3/17/ 20 died from cocaine and large dose of fentynal. mortified. our family needs answers.

Mom, it’s been 14 years. I’m still mad. I’m still sad. I never got to say goodbye. You died alone. With all those people who adored you, you still were alone. That will haunt me forever. I found an old sweatshirt you used to wear, I haven’t been able to let it go, it still smells like you. Rest easy mom, I love you . . . .

My beautiful son, Rowan.

I really hope my mom is looking down on me, god just needed another angel, she overdosed on accident and was found with a belt and a needle in her arm and I just figured out in 2020 it happened in 2019. I just figured out because I am in foster care. I really miss her kind and loving heart, she heard me take my first, I heard her take her last but at least she is in a better place.

This tribute goes out to Dustin Turner (Duddy) of Cape Girardeau MO may your spirit live on forever in your daughter and may your loved ones and friends have the great memories you were able to make with them, and to my friends son who lost his life at just 17years old to a overdose Hunter Keefer of Cape Girardeau you will be forever loved and missed every single day you touched so many lives … Keep watching over your mom (Lacy) sister (Jaidyn) father (Patrick) and beloved grandmother (Mary Jane) we will never ever forget you

Daryl I love and miss you more than the world will ever know. Kids and I have lost everything after we lost you but I’m pushing babe… R.I.P. to you my forever love

Ricky, I promise I will not let your overdose be in vain. I have been passionately involved in all types of overdose prevention and education since you’ve been gone son. I love and miss you every day!!! Love Mom

I will love you forever……George

My son Khalil Malik Jackson overdosed on 8/4/20. He took his last breath at 11:28pm. Such a beautiful soul lost. He never realized the potential he had. I only pray he knew how much we love and miss him.

WE LOVE YOU UNTIL OUR LAST BREATH!!! Taj, Brittany, Tj, Zaria and mom

I lost my beautiful son Adam to an overdose on Tuesday, June 23, 2020. You will always be loved and never forgotten.

In memory of my brother Georg Lucas who died on 9/20/2020 after years of sobriety died after from a drug overdose. You gave up on us, we never gave up on you.
I am still very very upset with you
Love you always your brother charley

He was my best friend, a brother by love not blood, a genuinely gracious, kind, caring, and beautiful soul. He taught me so much about life and being grateful for the small things. Music bonded us and I will never forget how bright he shined!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Loving wife, best friend,my cherished love you are missed every day a thousand times. Chronic pain was your reality; I know that. Addiction was also. I am eternally sorry I couldn’t help you more. Please know I am committed now to remembrance and helping to ensure others know about the systemic problems that allow horrific and tragic deaths to occur. I miss you love. And now want to turn my love to action preventing other families this needless heart crushing pain.

My beautiful daughter Kristin Autumn passed away on August 27,2020 from an overdose. She was only 32 years old
May she finally be happy and in peace. We will miss her forever.

My beloved and Missed deeply Soul Mate,best mate, My Husband
and Father to Amelia Gaskell and Ak-47, Benny Boo it’s been a year since you sadly passed away, I miss you so much and I wish I could’ve been there to help you as I wasn’t no matter what you mean also much to me, AK-47,Amelia and the Family and friends that you have left here to only have memories of what we had over the 19 years of knowing each other and being apart of each other’s life you where my world and you will always have a place in my heart. I Love you so much forever and always thinking of you always. So deeply and sadly missed we’ll see you when we get there to other side and hopefully you will be there to open the gates on my arrival. Sadly missed you went too young you are so sadly missed and always think of all day good time we spent together with our son Ak-47. Low you my Benny Boo R.I.P. Baby and we’ll see you when we get there . Love you miss you mmmmmmmmmwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xxxoooxxx
Love your babys

To all the families that have lost someone to this hard struggling disease called addiction & those that need to really understand that it’s a real disease that we in recovery fight every day to not relapse. To all my fallen comrade’s you are and will Never be forgotten & we all wish that you had reached out to someone before this Gorilla got a hold of you. Soar In Peace.

Christian Jack had a laugh full of life, yet struggled with anxiety and depression. He was only 21 when he passed from overdose on xanax unknowingly pressed with fentanyl. He will live on as a loving son, brother, grandson, cousin, nephew, and friend. He gave the best hugs and wrote the best cards. He had a big heart and loved deeply. “God has you in Heaven, but I have you in my heart”. We love and miss you, waiting on the day we meet again.

Melissa Monson passed away on August 12th 2017 from complications of heroin. In the short time I got to know Melissa who had just moved from Seattle to Austin Texas in the summer of 2016, I got to know a great person who had a memorable and lasting impression so much that after these years I sought her out and found out the news recently. I did have the opportunity and pleasure to know Melissa for a short time while sober in Austin. She was leaving for Houston to be closer to her kids but inevitably ended up back in Seattle and passed away just months later. I pray for the solace of her family and that her soul is allowed the freedom it deserves. Hopefully I’ll meet her again.

John Allen 9/23/74 – 3/5/2011
Monica Prince 8/20/1975 – 12/30/2013
Cody Arbuckle 5/27/1994 – 7/13/2017
Kaleb Snider 4/3/1994 – 8/30/2020

RIP

I miss you guys everyday

Randy: 4/20/86-6/24/17
Julie: 1/26/90-7/21/17
Marie: 4/12/92-12/19/17

In memory of my brother Dennis whom died after years of drugs and alcohol abuse. You gave up on us, we never gave up on you.
I am still very very upset with you.

Sam you remain in our hearts and memories until we are together again.
A loving father to our beautiful precious little boy. A loving partner, a kind, loyal and generous You are so loved.
We miss you every second of the day. Our lives will never be the same.
Love you.

Jordan Spencer Clark, I saw your picture on a YOUTUBE video for p-a-I-n.us. It was beautiful. Tis good to know your Mom and Dad are still fighting the fight to end this madness that is taking so many lives. I put new flowers on your grave last week and played for you also. Don’t know if you heard me but there is a part of me that believes you do, same as Mom hears me when I play for her.
I miss you Jordan, wish you were still here, but well and still here… Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you Dear Friend.
Just know you are Loved and you are Missed so very much Jordan. I love you…little more….

Josh Lowy died on August 9, 2020. A kind soul, so loving and true. He had no tolerance for bullshit, and hence was not what is deemed a success in capitalist terms. He was smart, could pierce through any text, work of art, comment with a clarity rarely achieved. When he experienced something, it stuck.

After graduating from Sherwood High School in Olney , Maryland, where he placed three times in the State Wrestling Tournament, finishing with the most wins in a career at Sherwood, he attended the University of Chicago. He graduated with a degree in Art History. From day one, he read and analyzed the bizarrely intense Chicago curriculum, explaining Derrida, Foucault and others to his clueless but intellectually hungry parents, particularly father. His lessons will never die. Nor his gentleness.

His thesis on Sara Sze excited him as did his supervisor, Darby English and his wonderful friends.

After UChicago, he struggled, it seemed. An attempt at an MFA from The Art Institute of Chicago, various jobs, but none took. Depression and opiate addiction did, however, a seeming salve to the ills he found in himself and in that all too often, all too cruel, heartless and self centered world. Josh had trouble centering on himself, his empathy for others seared and shamed those who missed it.

A couple of stays at the Caron Foundation were helpful and appeared ( were) life changing. His insights into his life and his addiction did appear to take, whatever the final outcome, an outcome we all share.

His last weeks, he worked at Christ House in DC, caring for homeless medically ill men. He dreamt of a career in social work, helping those suffering from addiction. He excitedly told his parents that his tomato plant was finally bearing fruit.

On Friday August 7, he shared Pete’s pizza with his parents and watched Seth Rogen’s pickle movie. The movie dealt with family legacy, Jewishness and the falsity of our present late capitalist world. About twenty four hours later, we think, he was dead of an apparent opiate overdose. There were no signs this was intentional. An antibiotic ointment tube was next to him, to treat a bug bite. The movie was mediocre and Josh astutely commented on the haphazardness with which it was stitched together. His inability to fit in to this satirized world, his legacy being now all and the desire for tenets of the Jewish faith to hold truth, or any faith, that there is some sort of heaven, that his spirit is alive, however,these are all deeply felt. Hello. Goodbye. Hello. Josh.

I’ve lost so many to overdose. But the one that hurt me the worst . My little cousin Darin E Burns 💖. He overdosed on December 29th 2014 . Was born on December 8th 1980. I was very close to him . I watched him along with my kids when my uncle would work. My kids were like his brother and sisters. I will never forget seeing him in in his casket . He was like my child . We all miss u Darin . Rip baby . Cuz Kim loves u . And will never forget u . 🙏🙏🙏💔💔💔😍😍💖💖

Soft loving and caring touch heart I love you so much angel

Tony, you suffered for nearly 10 years and you put up a good fight but the drugs won. I miss you every day and think about you all the time.
It is almost 2 years that we have had to live without your beautiful smile and your kind heart. The pain never goes away, miss you so much! With all my love, Aunt Jeanette

In remembrance of my lovely daughter-in-law, Katie Bug. Know you will be missed by so many, especially your husband, my son.

My daughter lost her soulmate to overdose on August 31, 2020. 23 years old, probably hadn’t been using for very long, but that didn’t matter. His body had too much that day and couldn’t handle what he put in it, and he died alone in his room. He was such a nice kid, hard-working, helpful, friendly, and he really loved her. She loved him too. Now I grieve for the love my daughter lost, the altered future she will face and the fear that this will be too much for her. I hope and pray she never uses, but I’ll never feel she is safe. RIP Jude, we love and will miss you forever.

RIP Skylar, I love and miss your smile so much.

I lost my son Justin on 8-7-17 after a 6 year struggle. He was 23 years old. He was so much more than the drugs he used that day. He was handsome, funny, kind, generous, intelligent, and respectful. He had faith. He was loved and is missed by so many.

In memory of Jeffrey John Palermo (12/7/88 – 12/4/2015).

I lost my beautiful son Luke to an overdose in May 2020. He had an amazing outlook on life and a huge personality. He always lifted others up even when he was struggling. He had a great sense of humor, a quick laugh, a beautiful smile, and a huge heart. He was a bright light in our lives and we miss him dearly.

Addiction is real…….. it’s hard not to hate the addict, but we have to remember it’s the drugs we need to hate not them. My mom struggled with addiction for more than 20 years after my dad died in 1993; January 14th 2017 she was found dead from an overdose. She was only 43 years old…… we need to increase awareness and provide more resources for help and decrease the stigma that goes along with addicts. #hatethedrugnottheaddict ❤️

My son, Donald L. Simon, III struggled with addiction more than 1/2 his life. His quality of life suffered. His family longed for a life free of substance abuse (drugs and alcohol) for him. For him to see and embrace life without needing a high. He suffered a heart attack at the young age of 38. It should have killed him, but he just happened to be at a hospital visiting a friend. Don was fun when sober, he worked hard, enjoyed music, cards and just wanted to belong. His family prayed for him. He is drug free now, but so distant from his family who loves and misses him. Gone too soon. As his mom, my heart breaks every day, a huge piece is missing. Till we meet again, I love you my son.

My older brother, Marshall died in 2018 from a heroin over dose. He was 26 years old and had been 14 months sober when he overdosed. We love and miss him everyday.

Love,
Sarah, his little sister

My brother passed away on August 13, 2020 from an overdose. He had been doing well and had been clean for a while. He was on his way to get extended visitation with his son. He lost his job due to COVID and he had become depressed. I’m sure too much time and hanging out with the wrong friends contributed to this end. Rest in Peace Joey. We love you and will watch over your children. I love you.

We love you and miss you every day

I lost my daughter and my three grandchildren, ages 2, 13, and 15 lost their mother to a drug overdose May 29th of 2020. Although Jaime did not die of Covid19, she was a victim of this pandemic. Jaime had been sober for two years and then had an emergency surgery in November of 2019. Opiates were her drug of choice so she struggled as pain killers were required for the surgery. The wound became infected so she had to insert her own antibiotics for 2 months. The antibiotics were so strong, they wrecked her teeth. At 36 years of age, she had all of her teeth removed in February requiring more pain medication and antibiotics. Then Covid hit. Jaime couldn’t work as her immune system was compromised and she had no teeth. She would not be able to get her dentures until her dentist office could open. She was considered a nonemergency. Struggling again with isolation, no group, no sponsor, no job, and no self esteem, Jaime was left to her own devices. Her father and I helped Jaime as much as we could financially and emotionally during this time but we knew she was not doing well. Then on May 29th, my Granddaughter called me. The ambulance had picked Jaime up at her friends house. A drug overdose. My precious baby was gone. My grandchildren have no mother and the youngest won’t remember her as he is only 2. We will have to tell him about his beautiful mother, and how much she loved him. Her children live with us now and we will love and care for them as it is the only thing we can still do for Jaime.

We all love and miss you everyday!

In memory of my precious child, my son, Ian who died on June 30th, 2018 at the tender age of 15 to a drug overdose. My heart aches everyday for him.

You are so missed, so loved and so remembered.

I love and miss you so much bub not a day goes by I dont relive that horrible night. I miss every little thing about you. The beautiful smile, those funny jokes I just miss you with each day that passes i only miss you more. Rest in heaven til I see you again. I love you joey

My brother Michael would have been 41 today but passed away recently on 7/9/20. What a coincidence that this event/day lands on his birthday. Happy heavenly birthday little brother. You are missed and loved every single second of every single day. Your sisterface. xoxo

Jeremy….5/13/16….there’s not a day that goes by I don’t think about you brother. You are missed by so many. I love you always.

T. Bolden embodied the Overcomer’s heart. From overwhelming circumstances, he thrived and achieved life while seeking ongoing-sustained recovery. His journey was cut short for those of us who knew him. This homage and tribute is to remember him and to remember that the disease of addiction is the battle; Humans are not the battle. We won’t forget you, T.

To “my dear heart”

Dear Amanda,

You struggled daily with this disease for nearly ten years. You fought this disease until the very end.

Your beautiful soul touched so many people, and they miss you. I also miss you so much. You will always be in my “heart.”

Love, Mom

You are always in our hearts💙

Katherine Elizabeth BSN
I miss your smile, your intelligence, your empathetic soul, your artistic abilities and your trust in God
I miss all of YOU!
You did great things in your time here!
You struggled and fought hard but ….
I am grateful to God for bringing you home and removing your tremendous pain and setting your spirit free.
I love you Bum and will always be proud of you.

Eliza supported others struggling with addiction, as she tried so hard to help herself. In her spirit, please do not use alone. When you are ready – reach out for support. Together we can.

I write this message to share that my brother lost his son at age 34 to huffing. This is a form of a drug addiction that we never hear about. A life cut way too short by a cheap, very accessible can of duster spray. No drug testing is done for this addiction that I am aware of, but from what I understand it begins to destroy the brain from the first time it is ever used. I wish there was some way to regulate the sales of duster spray or the chemical in it that creates the addiction. Left behind is his only child, who just turned 10, 2 days prior to his death, as well as his only brother, and his mom, dad and many family members who loved him dearly. Derric is really missed.

My friend… such a beam of light. Always upbeat, thick accent and full of life. Inspiring educator with amazing tattoos and a zest for adventure. He will be missed…

My heart goes out to all the families and friends who have lost loved ones through this terrible epidemic. This is NOT getting any better. My daughter isn’t even a statistic yet because the official figures for 2019 have not been released. My precious Taytay overdosed April 12th, after 9 years in and out of rehab centers and help groups. I thought love and support could save my daughter and boy was I wrong. She overdosed at my house and died in my arms. This was my worst nightmare and a memory that l have to live with everyday for the rest of my life. No matter what anyone has tried to tell me, as a father, I failed my daughter. This epidemic is not getting any better and it needs everyone’s support, especially the States, insurance companies and the media. There are good people trying to help this cause but there are more that are more taking advantage of it. Everyday should be National overdose day. The pain is real and does not go away.

Paul was the kindest soul, loving, caring, and giving of himself. This insidious disease took him at 40 years old, I found writings of his, and the best one says it all, NEVER GIVE UP. We love you Paul, and you will be forever a part of us and in our hearts.

To my son Patrick, We love you and pray for you everyday 💜

She fought hard for many years. In the end, it was all too much. She loved well 💔💔💔

I hate that I know about this day; however, I am very passionate about creating and furthering awareness about this day. The more awareness – the more maybe SOMETHING can be done. Addiction is a horrible disease and when it ends in overdose, it becomes even more tragic. My son CORY WILLIAMS lost his battle of addiction to an overdose in May of 2019. I would like to honor him in this post and send my love to all of those like him and the families that suffered with them.

Cory Williams: 7/27/1991 – 5/26/2019

#Endthestigma
#Stopthesilence

This is in Tribute to my son Cody Ulrich 💙 he passed away on 4/16/20 . He was a bright make you smile guy. Everyone loved his sense of humor which was huge. He loved to make people smile. We all Miss him so much. But i know his soul lives in all that had the honor of meeting him.

BEAUTIFUL GIRL YOU ARE GONE BUT NEVER EVER FORGOTTEN. YOUR LIGHT STILL SHINES BRIGHT IN OUR MEMORIES EVERY SINGLE DAY AND YOU ARE IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER. THE KINDNESS YOU SHARED WITH THE WORLD WILL CARRY ON THROUGH ALL WHO LOVE YOU AND KNOW YOU. WE WILL MEET AGAIN ON THE OTHER SIDE, THIS I KNOW <3

Missing you every day Joe. Sending love and permanent kisses to you. I will always remember your sweet and caring spirit. You live on in my heart.

TC not a day goes by that I don’t carry you with me in that precious place of my heart 💜 Sweet nephew I would have done anything not to loose you But I know you are flying free in heaven and I will see and hug you again 💜💜💜
Love Aunt Tammy

In loving memory of Amanda she gained her angel wings 6/21/2020. She had a smile that would light up a room and an infectious laugh a truly beautiful soul. Her strugle is now over… as we mourn our loss know that recovery is possible and reach out for help if your struggling…

We lost my grandson Laddie Mullen tragically to a Fentanyl overdose November 6th 2016. His mom my daughter Heather McGuire was murdered 3/13/2012 .His little sister, brother and are still grieving terrible and never stop loving and missing him the rest of our lives😢

David was a very loving son and brother. He was funny and would help anyone that needed it. He will always be loved and missed.

Valerie F.K. I think of you often and where you with me to many events. I miss you so very much. I wish things had been different and you could have made it through the trying time you left this world. Val you will live on in my heart forever. Your friend for life and beyond.

Angel Beth
My granddaughter mother just passed away aug 10 to a drug overdose. I want everyone that I hope and pray you would reach out and ask for help.she leaves behind two children 2 yrs old and 4 yrs old

Wiley,
It has been 3 months since you left this earth, but it feels like a lifetime. I will forever cherish the 16 years knowing you and every single moment we were able to spend together. I will bring awareness in your honor. You will be forever missed. I love you. Infinity.
Katherine

Dearest Brother,
Our grief has yet to end.
It comes in waves, ebbing and flowing, the way that grief does. And in the moments that we find reprieve, we also find moments to love you in the only way that seems right; now that you are gone. It’s our work to educate others about the thief of addiction and how we can best love the addicted, while we have them here: Earthside.
I hope we make you proud. I hope you can hear us when we speak into the void, and mostly; I hope that you know that you mattered. That you still matter.
And that you are loved,
Eternally.
Rest well, Shilo.
We will take it from here.

I love what you guys are doing to show you care, keep up the good work!!!! To all the family and friends that have lost their loved ones to overdose or if they have suffered some sort of mental or physical trauma due to overdose, keep your heads up and continue to trust God. He really will make everything alright, especially in the face of adversity!!!!

I love and miss you everyday, Autumn!

To my beloved Son that passed on August 2nd 2014 he was 30 years old I miss him every day his smile his laughter him saying mom my closurewill be when I go to heaven and see my son again that’s when my closure will be fly high my angel until we me again rest in peace

I lost my beautiful son Damien Lee Piano April 7th 2018. His death was an overdose that shattered our whole family’s life. I miss him dearly. I wish I could trade places with him. He was my beat friend. I love you Damien. ❤️

Aidan K. DiBernard Oct. 1991-Oct. 2019 – Forever in our hearts. We love you & miss you every single day. You’re free from the pain and hurt now, be at peace our beautiful boy…
Aidan was killed from snorting a lethal dose of fentanyl & carfentanyl, pure poison. This has to stop!

I think about you and miss you every day Jimmy.

In memory of my grandson, Cory Williams – July 27, 1991 – May 26, 2019 – he’ll always be in my heart.

My sister past June 28th 2020

Drugs destroy family I hope this helps someone so they really see that life is nothing but a vapor God gives life and takes life.YOU DO HAVE A PURPOSE .

A little testimony our precious butterfly! Tita !she’s in God’s presence she is not dead as Jesus resurrected and is living we never say that we are praying to a dead God no ,He is alive and so is she she is with him.

The meaning of life : The actual meaning of life is to fulfill your purpose in life and accomplish your goals. What I mean by this is, everyone has a purpose, of why they are living. None of us will be here if we all didn’t have a purpose.

Drugs are horrible its taking lives everyday, the enemy is very real. His mission is to steal kill and destroy.God says , “I came that they may have life and have it abundantly”.He is the only one to give us strength to overcome our weaknesses..

It’s so painful beyond measures, the stories she Shared with me in the past of how she used and injected heroin she could have passed away so many times she said before As she mentioned and give God the glory that it was all him that she survived each and every time she knew she could have died.. But God just didn’t want to take her he waited as He is patient want to no one to perish.She was sober and clean for a year living with me doing good ! hearing the word praising the Lord with me & with others loving him going to the sleep with Christian positive music,she was able to share with me so much of her past on the streets were she went wrong what she missed and regret it. She was so passionate. And her heart was so tender and we new it was because all of our prayers. She would gaze outside while drinking coffee and look at the mountains ponder on a little red bird that would land on our fence and say how precious and beautiful it was & that she was missing out on so much. She noticed all the little things and enjoyed them to the fullest 😭 so moving forward they ( courts,PO ) saw that she was doing so then blessed her with her own apartment she only had a month in. Had a moment of weakness the enemy brought out the bait 🎣 she bit it.

We heard and no how she felt, she was starting to feel alone and with covid all the classes shut down that she would do. she also had some insecurities, the enemy is such a liar! It is so important that we all get in tune with God’s word and know what he says about each and every one of us and who We are that we are special and we are beautiful, individually as He says he knitted each and everyone of us different in our mother’s womb with His own hands He molded us. He is defeated God just use the situation of her weakness to bring her to him he said enough! is enough! I know God is going to do something amazing in this horrible situation “what the enemy intends for evil God will always turn it around for good”. Because that’s who he is a good good father.
So , if God wanted to spare her life and save her he would have he was waiting for her to come close to him , and for us to also experience the real clean through her. And we are thankful to have had that time with her. I’m so thankful she wasn’t in the streets when this happen she already had invited Jesus in her heart that’s what he wanted was her to come close to him.
When we found her in her apartment . My husband flew through the window after he broke it to resuscitate her she was gone already or maybe at least a day we’re still waiting for details on the autopsy. But it was an over dose and it wasn’t IV. It was a powdery substance as the officer said a lot of fentanyl is out there it is killing many he said there is a lot of overdose people within just a few months a bad batch is out there please be careful!
Do not for fill that void with drugs /things of the world fulfill it with God’s word with his love that void was for Him . She was able to go to the White mountains with us last week I will always love and cherish the memories ❤️
I love you sister !!!with all my heart and soul..We miss you !!!

My sister’s favorite song she played this a million times over and over “reckless Love of God”..
God’s reckless Love for my sister came and meet her .
“Lyrics “There’s no Shadow you won’t light up no mountain you won’t climb up coming after me. There’s no wall you won’t kick down coming after me. Lie you won’t tear down coming after me.😭😭😭..

My grandson, Alan, lost his battle with addiction November 10, 2019. He was 29 years old. I had called him that night at 11 PM and we talked 3 minutes. We made plans to meet the next day for dinner (I was in Virginia for a visit) We discussed how he was holding up and staying clean and sober. We discussed how drinking was just another drug and he acknowledged he needed to work on that. My last words were, “I’ll pick you up after the shower (baby shower) tomorrow. I love you !” He responded, “I love you too Grandma” and we hung up. That was the last time I ever heard his voice. He was found the next morning by his father (My son) and appeared to have died around midnight. My son and his three children, Alan being the middle one, have struggled for many years with addiction. As we speak, my son and his older son DJ fight daily to stay clean. His daughter, age 27 is in a methadone clinic program and has been since her brother died. I pray I never have to feel this pain again. RIP Alan Michael, until we meet again…………..Love GMA

Treyvon was a beloved local athlete, he was raised as not one who harmed but one who loved, helped and trusted. Because of his training and athletic aspirations he had to live a clean drug free life until he believed he fell in love. That love lead him to stray from his drugless training to experiment and he became a follower of one not worth his love, enticed to lose his way and his training. The result was a loss of his life. To be tossed out like old trash and forgotten by some but loved and remembered by many who truly knew him. His little dog still whines sadly and looks for him, she was there and knows what happened to him, if only she could talk. We miss him as only the ones who truly knew and loved him could miss him. Our prayers to Almighty God is that this plague of death is stopped, to stop the callus loss of life of our young men and women, our children, our loves, our heirs, our future.

My son Shaun Kevin Flynn passed away 8/21/18 from an accidental overdose due to Fentynal. I think about you every minute of every day. I love you, I miss you. Always on my mind.

Nikki Araguz Loyd, you will always be a bright and shiny voice. You changed the lives of thousands and those around you…we will miss you forever and until we are together again my sweet sister. Love you always

Today is Overdose Awareness Day! I remember last year thinking about my amazing friend Drew Fleming having his birthday on this day and how impactful his story was. I remember having some discussion about it with Tony (Brian) and how I hoped they would meet soon. I did not know that this year we would have our own story. It would be just 23 short days later that we would lose our sweet and kind boy to a methadone overdose. I still miss him so much I only ever feel like I get half a breath when I breathe. I don’t think I have had a full deep breath since the minute we got the call.

I am including here what I said at his Celebration of Life. Work harder to end stigma. WE CAN DO BETTER!!!

“As many of you know, Tony and his brother Sean have been fighting a rare immune disease from birth. We did our best as a young family to not let this define them and create special moments every chance we had. Tony was at the center of all things fun and joyful. He loved seeing people having fun and feeling accepted and he loved knowing he had a hand in someone’s happiness. MOST of you know the sweet human he was, the prankster, the fun and the warmth he spread. SOME of you know the struggles he had and the pain he faced, a FEW of you know the person trapped in an addiction he fought to come out of. What many of you don’t know is that the past year of his life was physically and emotionally excruciating as he pushed through infections that were destroying his body. He wanted nothing more than to go through rehab…. gain the tools needed to reclaim his life and his role as Daddy, son, brother and friend. He just couldn’t get physically healthy enough to fight that fight. Loving someone through an addiction is the hardest thing I have ever faced…. I spent a good chunk of the past year looking for someone to blame; doctors for prescribing opiates to a teenager as if they were vitamins, the first person to suggest he try heroin when he couldn’t get pain meds, him for not being stronger than the addiction, but in the end the only blame I could find was our society’s stigma on addiction and barriers to seeking help earlier. We face such an opiate crisis that the odds are higher you know someone struggling with addiction than they are that you don’t. Today we are here to Celebrate him and he was so much more than his addiction. He was my bug and being his mom made me a better person. There are really no words for how strong his spirit was and how much joy he brought to us all…. today is ABOUT him…. but tomorrow… tomorrow is FOR him, in honor of him and tomorrow we start the fight to end this stigma and help others find their way to the help they need. We can all do better!!”

Remembering my son Trevor..he was kind and loving and was loved by all that knew him..loving father to his children Riley and Scarlet ..he is missed everyday ❤❤

To my wonderful friend, mother, daughter and so much more, Tiffany Jaramillo you left this earth way to soon, but the impact you had while you were here will last a lifetime:)

To my friends; David, LB, Leo, Stevie, Gina, Bobby, Mike, Ronnie, you are all in my thoughts1 Such a sad loss of beautiful people.

Today, on International Overdose Awareness Day I am sending a tribute out for my Brother, Greg Zelmer. Greg died of a heroin overdose and substance use addiction on June 9, 2015; he was 25 years old. He was a proud father of a sweet daughter, passionate about music, loved his family, and suffered his own life’s traumas, and survived them, until he began his addiction with heroin again. I miss him and think of him often. He had dreams, goals, mentors and a family that would do anything to support him in getting the help he needed. On this day my tribute is to all the other families and friends out there who have also lost someone they loved to a drug overdose. My heart is with you all.

IN TRIBUTE TO JENNIFER NICOLE HIMES. My only child passed away at age 34 in April 2020. She had battled the demon for years. I found my sweet child upstairs.on 4/24/20. She was already gone, there was nothing I could do to save her. The pain of losing her is unexplainable. I love her to the Heavens & back. Mom

Jesse James John Walters.. my beloved orange haired free spirit. the loss is immeasurable. forever loved, adored, missed, heartbroken.

Ricky you will never be forgotten we love and miss you every day

To one of the most beautiful souls that God ever created. We miss you so very much Heather, and though you are no longer with us, your bravery and strength in your struggle with your addiction continues to inspire us all. This year of running, walking, biking, rowing, and other events, we dedicate to you Heather, and causes related to those struggling with addictions. May we be as strong as you were in this struggle and may 4Heather22 be the great thing that will rise from the ashes of the tragedy of losing you. God Bless you our For Ever 22 Heather.
Love Team 4Heather22 – 8/31/2020

To Robert Michael Williams… “Mean Mikey” as everyone else knew you. But you were daddy to me. There will never be a day that I don’t miss you and see your smile and wish that fateful day in 1992 never came. I’ll miss you always and love you forever!!

Denise Kay Williams

Missing my son Casey James Forever 32 who left us 7/27/11. He was a loving brother to Jeffrey and Christopher and a great Dad to his princess Kaily Anne. He is loved and miss by all his family and friend. God bless you Casey. Always in my heart and soul. Love Mommy

It is this very day, 8/31 that we lost our son to an accidental overdose and drowning 14 years ago in 2007. The fight continues to take away the stigma of this dreadful disease of addition. Tyler, you are forever 24 in our hearts and not a day goes by that we don’t think of you.
Love,
Your Family

Rick did not make a “choice” as uninformed people like to say. Rick couldn’t take the pain and anguish of unresolved trauma. He was part of a hyper masculine culture that did not allow him to address his pain, and most certainly, to never admit it. We must encourage men (and women) and all folks who identify in whatever way feels right to them, to seek help, to address trauma, we must dispose of stigma- we must speak out for supports to be made available for folks who are in pain- we must speak out for those who need help and to remember those who knew they would be shunned if they did seek help.

We miss you every day sweet girl. I hope you know how loved you are still. I just want everyone to know they’re worth it. Recovery is possible. You are loved. You can do this. The disease won’t take you.

Deih, where can I start…I loved her, perfectly for who she was. She was strong and beautiful and kind, so giving, supportive, she’s the reason I’m alive the reason I have the beautiful life that I do. She was my aunt but so much more, more like a big sister. All she ever craved was to just be seen and loved. She was in recovery when I was a senior in highschool, she took me to my first NA meeting, she held my hand when I picked up that first white key tag and she held my hand every time I picked up another white key tag, I had quite the collection my first year of recovery. I was 5 years clean when she went back out. She never came back. Her addiction took everything…everything that was important and then finally it took her life. She was over ten years clean when she relapsed, she helped countless people, and loved them until they could love themselves. I miss her so much it hurts, it’s been over a year but it feels like I just got the news…I hope one day we really can end the stigma of addiction and recovery

To a good friend who was always their for me. Your life was taken way to soon because of a drug overdose. You will be greatly missed and loved by so many.

I only met you twice but you made such an impression. I saw my son in your eyes and feared for you both. I’m so sorry that whatever you needed didn’t arrive in time. RIP July 11, 2020

To my beautiful daughter Rachel who passed on 7/27/2020, I know you are no longer in pain. I miss you everyday and I never gave up on you. You will b missed. 💜 Please stop the stigmatism 💜 Addiction is a destructive disease to the person & family

Our son Justin Higgins passed away on June 30, 2019 from an accidental overdose of alcohol and fentynol. He was 36 years old and had his whole life ahead of him. We would do anything to see our son just one more time. Justin battled addiction for several years, but he was trying so hard. We miss him so much every day.

Sept. 01, 2020 marks 10 years since our daughter left us. She left two wonderful boys, Bryse and MaKayde. Like the rest of God’s children, she wasn’t perfect here on Earth, but she has received her Heavenly reward and waits with Jesus for Homecoming Day when we meet again.

Good night, God bless, love you Josh. Protect us up there in heaven. I know you are cooking delicious food for everyone and surfing every day. Love and miss you- Mama😘

Dylan was a creative, funny, intelligent polite person. He was a great writer, played guitar, wrote music and is missed by his family and friends. Forever 22. We love you.

My Son Jesse Abrams would be Celebrating his 28th Birthday Today 08/31/92, instead he lost his battle to addition by an accidental Fentanyl overdose April 26th 2019. Our whole world changed that day, his two brothers are feeling the hole left behind, their children lost an Uncle future Aunt and cousins. His nephews lost their playful, loving, patient Uncle. Our Family gathers are less exciting with his laughter and great conversation absent, but it was his skill of being a great listener that made everyone granite to him from a young age. This disease took more than a loved one from us, it took our past, our present and our future. It took a person that judged no one, loved all people and helped to save many. We have always been to proud of our boys and Jesse held a special place being the youngest child of both families. He loved his Family fiercely and his work was with veterinarians but rescue Animals was his passion. I possibly have many years left here on this earth, when I think of the years ahead without him it becomes uneasy to breath and seems unbearable. My God have a special place for the ones that felt so much pain here on Earth. Peace to you all. Tina, Jesse Abrams (Momma) Aug 31,92-Apr 26,19

I hope you’re dancin in the sky

I lost my son Josh on May 7, 2017. He was a talented musician, kind hearted person, everyone that knew him loved him. He had/has a beautiful son that has his awesome personality. My son was a successful car salesman before he died. He sold me a car 4 days before he died. He took care of his mom. I love and miss him yet know he’s at peace in heaven.

We love you Elysia. It has only been a month but we miss you every minute of every day! I’ll always be your voice to help others. Love Mom

I lost my son Trevor to a meth overdose 6 yrs ago he was 18yrs old. I miss you more then you could possibly ever know Trev. I love you.

In remembrance of my only beautiful son, Matt, who died in 2011, I pray for all of our lost children and their families that they find some peace in our new reality. We will never forget. We carry their hearts in our hearts ♥️

To my beautiful son, Jacob. who died a senseless death, cut down in the prime of his young life. We love and miss you every day! We will remember and tell your story if it might help one person to avoid a like tragedy.
My son Jacob died Feb 3, 2020 from an accidental overdose – cause of death: fentanol. He had just turned 18 and was a senior in High School with plans to leave for Marine Boot Camp right after graduation. He was a typical teenager with a loving family, a good school and a safe neighborhood. He also was experimenting with drugs. My fear as parent of a teenager was addiction and the devastation that it can leave. I didn’t expect him to die! A month before, I had never heard of fentanyl, counterfeit drugs or pill presses. I didn’t know that drug dealers were making their own pills, and passing them off as prescription drugs. That these drugs were laced with fentanyl, a synthetic opiod 50-100 times more potent then heroin. I didn’t know that one pill could kill you! Please spread the word! This stuff is lethal! Kids, don’t let your friends do drugs. You have more influence then you may realize to say: No – absolutly not! You are not going to die on my watch! Parents, have the talk – again and again. Educate yourselves on the new stuff out there- It not like when we were growing up. These new counterfeit drugs are insidious, everywhere, camouflaged to look like legitimate pharmaceuticals.
In loving memory – Jake – You live on in our hearts. Rest in peace! PS, Your little brother is still driving your old jeep! It cleaned up pretty good!

On March 10, 2010 we lost Mark A. Richardson. Mark was the most caring person that you will ever meet.

My tribute is for a life long family friend Brad. He was my older brother’s best friend since we were all teenagers. I have known Brad since I was 14 and he was like a brother to me, love hate relationship just like a lot of older brothers and little sisters have. Brad was probably one of the most unique people I have ever met. He was really tall and charming, but could drive you crazy with his quirky and self-centered personality. I learned later on as an adult that he actually had a lot of emotional problems, and also learned about his opioid addiction. My brother tried to help him, and he was able to for a little while, but last year on Sept 12th Brad’s younger sister contacted my brother to tell him Brad finally ended his pain, and shot himself in the heart. He was 57. I had so many mixed feelings, anger was one of them. It’s almost a whole year since Brad left this life, and I still get angry at him, but I do understand he was in pain and was entitled to end his own life. Now all we have are our memories, and can only hope that he’s resting in eternal peace. We love you Brad, your Josko family.

Jonah, you were loved, you are loved. You are greatly missed. You were an amazing inspiration and although you are gone, your memory lives in our hearts.
Morgan. We love you and miss you very very much. I wish you were here still. We know you’re watching over Bella.
Joey. We love you so so much. You were taken way too soon. I love you. Your mom misses you very very much. ❤️❤️

To my son, David, who lost his battle with addiction and passed away on October 12, 2018. You are loved and missed more every day.

Life is just not the same without you – miss you every day, you will always have a place in my heart.

Lost my only child, Fernando Sanchez age 17 on March 26,2020 to Fentanyl overdose. He took what he thought was xanax (aka bars) but it was fake. #forfernando #justiceforfernando #forever17

My Sweet Boy Mario. I lost you on 1-18-2020, it has been a horrible thing to handle as your mother every day. I miss you so much, and how your death was handled at the White Castle made things even worse. I’m disappointed that I was not there to help you at your moment of death. I was there for you in life but I guess just not enough. You will now be forever 35 in your death. I miss you and love you so much. This is a horrible life without you day by day.
Love Mommy

Remembering my older sister today and everyday since she passed away. She struggled with drugs for many years and they finally ended her life. She overdosed and was brought back but suffered so many complications afterwards. She was in the hospital for over a month and passed away after a blood clot broke off and caused her to have a stroke. She was talking one day and nonverbal the next day. It was so hard to watch her go through that. It’ll be 7 years she left us on 9-15. She left behind me and my little sister, her 3 beautiful children and our parents. I try to raise awareness and be mindful of her story when I care for my patients as an NP. Don’t judge those who have substance use disorders, try to reach out and help so when they’re ready, they have someone to turn to. 💜🖤

My beautiful sister Roxana passed last September. I sometimes still find it hard to believe. Roxy, I love you and I miss you more than anyone could ever know.

“After Glow”
“I like the memory of me to be a happy one,
I’d like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done.
I’d like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times and laughing times and bright and Sunny days.
I’d like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun of happy memories that I leave when life is done.”

This is truly beautiful and picked by his amazing sister Christine Emma!
We love you and miss you so very much! Gone but never forgotten!

I miss you Dean F. and Joel W. For Dean, it has been 15 years since we lost you. For Joel, it has been 11 years since we lost you. Thank you for being a part of my life and recovery from SUD. I will never forget the both of you. RIP.

My son Bryan Joseph Grieco was born on 9/30/91 and found eternal peace on 6/25/17 at the tender age of 25. He is a son, father, brother and so much more. The pain we feel will stay with us until we meet Bry again. But it doesnt compare to him having to wake up each day and face his demon everyday. For those who say it is not a disease, you are so wrong. Until you look into the eyes of the person who lost their soul to the devil himself, to see the shell of your child who once was, and to witness their struggle, you have no idea of the hell they go through. I miss you my son. Our lives will never be the same. I take comfort in knowing you are at peace. That is the only thing that keeps me going. My heart breaks each and every day. I love you Bry. Forever…..Bella says hi Daddy…..

My brother Andrew Ballenger passed away from a fentanyl overdose Sept 23 2019 at the age of 32. I have made it my mission to raise awareness through streaming for mental health and addiction on twitch. Raising over 3 thousand dollars to charity just in the hopes someone else doesn’t lose their brother the way i lost mine. I miss my brother still everyday and wish I could have him back. I hope that we can all stand up for this cause and help the people who are struggling with addiction. Much love.

Amber, I didn’t know you that well but im married to your brother. I wish I was able to know you more and create memories with you. From what it seems, we are a lot alike. I know you are happier in Heaven with Jesus but we miss you ❤

I miss you so much Katelyn. Your life meant more than many are able to do in an entire lifetime. You were taken way too soon. I will work every single day at learning to become a better physician for those with addiction. I wish I could have realized the importance of addiction advocacy before you passed. Your parents, grandparents, siblings, daughters, aunts, uncles, cousins, and rest of the family miss you more than words can describe.

My dear son, we know you gave it all you could to keep the Monster out of your gate. You are so dearly loved by many and sorely missed by all.
You were a beautiful person with such a big heart when on this Earth. I am confident you are spreading your love now that you are an Angel.
Use your Angel love to guide others and give them strength to keep the Monster out of their gate. Help them not be another victim to this ugly Monster.
Until we meet again, I will cherish you, my son …..
My eternal love, Momma ♡
#My Frankie boy, Forever 31

Andrew we love and miss you terribly. Your humor is missed everyday! You were a beautiful soul who suffered a terrible disease. February 4th, 2018 you left us with a whole in our hearts. Until we meet again. Mom and Dad xoxox

I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I know you are in heavenly peace in God’s hands and with your dad, nana and the rest of your relatives.

In memory of Austin Levi Thackston. My precious beautiful son forever 28. May you rest in the arms of the angels until I arrive to hold you tight iny arms again. 💦💜🙏

I love and miss you more today than yesterday.

In memory of my beautiful son, Jonathan, who died of an accidental overdose on June 13, 2019. What he took was adulterated with Fentanyl and Xylazine. He was 28 years old and in the best time of his life. Dad, Alex and I miss you terribly, sweetheart. Our hearts will be broken forever.

Tyler was a wonderful soul, full of life & love! His family is helping to support & educate the friends & families of those struggling with addiction, & Encourage them to keep HOPE alive!! (Door of HOPE)
Tyler~Forever in our hearts❤️

My tribute is to my youngest son Jason 11-17-1991 – 8-2-2017, Another senseless death, A life taken too soon, A soul that is loved and missed dearly. We love you so much and carry you in our hearts forever….until we meet again.

This tribute is to my oldest son Charles, 11-4-1974 – 3-3-2019, Another senseless death, A life taken too soon, A soul that is dearly loved. The void in OUR hearts will never be filled, a part of us left with you and your brother and we will never be whole again. We will love you and forever miss you and our lives will never be whole again until we are united with you both again……#notonemore#

Remembering Vlad…. loved partner of Gayle and awesome dad of Tyson…. died of heroin overdose 23/8/17…. sadly missed, fondly remembered 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

In memory of my best friend Adam Hill. My life changed forever the day you overdosed. I went on a crash course myself. But I made it out, and because of you I live every day trying to help others make it out. I see your face in every lost and hurting soul I see. I will always remember you, and how much the world lost the night you finally took too much. But I will never let it be in vain, because I will always fight to help others in honor of you! I love you friend.

You continue to teach how to love, accept, surrender, and grieve. Christopher we miss you terribly…….and our love for you is forever.

It is so difficult to express what I feel … a lot of pain, a lot of sadness. Elvis, I miss him every day. I always wonder what I could have done differently for you to be with us? What could I have done differently so that that monstrous disease had not affected you? But, I have to continue with the pain that I will no longer have answers. There is not a day that goes by without us thinking of you and missing you. I only have the memories, many of them full of hope that you would win the fight, like when you told me that last day, “Daddy, don’t worry, I’m going to get out of this.” You had plans, you wanted to improve; you wanted to do it for you and your son TJ. You were a good boy and a good son, you did not harm anyone … you deserved another chance, you had already suffered a lot with that disease. But, God had another purpose with you. God wanted you to not continue to suffer and He took you with Him. I only hope that you are calm and at peace, I know you are in a better place. Someday we will meet again and this time we will do it better. I will always love you … your Dad!

Our beautiful boy, Evan Alexander Ekholm lost his valiant battle 12/19/19. I thank God that he loaned him to us for 28 years. Evan lit up every room he entered. He was always the funniest person in the room. He loved fiercely. Mom misses you here on earth. But I’m so glad you are home in Heaven. No more pain…just LOVE. Evan Alexander Ekholm 💞🕊💗6/22/91—12/19/19

In honor of my little brother…

He accidentally overdosed on Boulder Colorado… he’d actually died a couple weeks prior…but it was difficult to identify him as many aliases.

His death opened the door for me to begin my journey of awareness regarding addiction.

March 5, 2004…

My dad, had a crippling injury to his back even before I was born, and due to that he developed a addiction to Fentanyl. He would sit there on the couch high as a kite, and I wouldn’t even know since I never experienced it before. Even despite it all he was a good dad and a great person, he always put me first and was my best friend. Unfortunately his addiction became too much and it killed him. I found him he was sleeping at the time and he didn’t come back. I urge other victims of addiction to please find help, I don’t want your kids or loved ones to experience it. I love you and miss you dad. ):

I am named after a very special person in my life – my father. He passed away a week later after over dosing and succumbed to his ailments. It’s been 19 years without him. I was 16. I spent many years being upset with him, and being upset with anyone who had a drug addiction. I wasn’t aware that I was a part of the problem. My father struggled with depression. He had MANY amazing talents. He taught himself how to play the guitar. He wrote his own songs and submitted his own editorials to local newspapers. He could make you laugh until it hurt to continue. He was able to draw from memory and paint from his heart. He imitated Mickey Mouse and Goofy to make bedtime rituals a blast. He would work all day and be sure to spend his evenings with his children. All of these made him an amazing man, but depression blindsided his ability to understand and see this. Many people try recreational illegal AND legal substances often out of curiosity. Most try it to escape reality for just a little while. No one ever goes in with the intention of having the substance transform your entire being. No one anticipates what it’ll do to you or your well being and your family. But we can all learn how to help someone and their underlying causes. I wish my father was able to see how amazing he was. While I endured trauma from his substance abuse, it never stopped me from loving him. If the stigma of mental health wasn’t so prevalent even today, so many people could be saved from this. Don’t give up on them. Don’t talk bad about them. Continue to fight for everyone. I love you, Dad.

2 year ago my dad passed away of a overdose, he was my hero.

Cruiz Shepherd Fly High Baby Boy!!! I love you with all my heart!!!

My kind and talented son Kyle left this world on December 19th, 2019. My son suffered depression and anxiety along with childhood trauma and a life changing work accident when he was twenty-one. In spite of all his challenges he touched so many peoples lives with his kindness, his humor and his music. My son Kyle fought hard to overcome alcohol abuse disorder and had long periods of sobriety. Kyle had started a new job and had so many plans written down but the alcohol abuse disorder took hold again and Kyle quit going into work. He told me he hated himself and I imagine that in his in his state of mind influenced by the alcohol he made the decision to turn to something that would numb some of the pain. Whatever he thought he was getting was not what he got. Pure Fentanyl and Car-fentanyl took my very best friend, my only child. My world is shattered. I love you my son; Kyle Leland Shipp forever thirty three.

Thinking of all those mothers and fathers that have lost their children…! Thinking about everyone that has lost a loved one… I am saddest about Prince and Tom Petty…just so wrong the terrible abuse of Opioids

Our 27 year old daughter and oldest child passed away March 4th 2020 of an overdose of Fentanyl and cocaine in Tennessee. She left behind her dad and I, her three brothers, and her four children all six and under. We were heartbroken and we intend to educate and bring awareness to the dangers of Fentanyl in honor of her.

Our daughter Elizabeth passed away May 15th 2016. She was talented smart beautiful inside and out. So kind and loved by everyone especially the students she taught. Taken from us so in such a tragic and unnecessary way . Hearts and families destroyed from an awful disease that needs to always be acknowledged.We will never forget this tragedy and pray that no one has to live through such devastation

Remembering you, beautiful Bree….. Always and forever xx

My son Jon passed from Fentynal Toxicity on Jan 13th,2018. He is forever 46. Jon was a Marine for 4 years then served 10 years with the Army National Guard until the day he passed. Jon loved serving his country & he also loved surfing, fishing, hunting – & his family💜🙏

Thrive on the greatness. We love you bunches and remember your fierce heart…always.

To my dear beautiful boy David….
You have left me to join God. I miss you every second of everyday.
I try to carry on without you it is so hard.
I will love you forever .
You struggled but could not control this addiction.
You are in my heart always and I know you are at peace and with your dear grandparents.
I love you my beautiful son♥️

Mom

Luke Hogan Lenti, I am having trouble finding the words to be honest. It has been nearly 3 months since you left me, and I still cant believe it to be real. You were my one true love, my soulmate, and my very best friend. Living without you here is a mountain I will climb for the rest of my life, with no clear end in sight. I think back on all the memories we shared, both good and bad, and I catch myself day dreaming about the could have’s and should have’s. I keep re-tracing my steps; every action and word uttered, trying to find some clarity in this madness. Is there something I could have said or done, to save us from this reality? If so, I am so sorry for failing you. I know it was a struggle daily, and I know you fought with your life to beat it. Part of me wishes you were still here to see the pain I now have to encounter daily since your passing. I wonder if you would have made a different decision that day. Part of me wishes you were still here to comfort me in my darkest moments like you always used to do. I now have no shoulder to cry on when I need it most because my person is gone from this earth. I miss your smile, your good morning texts checking to see if i got into work ok, and your goodnight kisses. I miss your nightly back tickles that I loved so much, your late night ice cream binges, and your love for the gym and bodybuilding. I miss the way you smelled after a long day at work and I miss all of our impromptu breakfast dates. I miss binge watching our shows and laughing until we cry together. I miss the way you would look at me when you told me you loved me, and I miss the way your eyes sparkled when you would finally get home from a long gym session. I miss your passion, your resilience, and your charisma. I knew from the moment I met you that you were a special one. I thought I was going to be able to spend the rest of my life with you, but instead I got 3.5 year. 3.5 beautiful years loving you and being loved by you. I just hope you know that you will always be my person, the love of my life, and my soulmate. I hope you know you will never be forgotten and I will talk about you until the end of my days. I cant wait to see you again in heaven my babes, what a beautiful reunion that will be.

I lost my beautiful daughter Amanda Lynn on 02/10/20 after a ten year struggle with addiction. She is now forever 37. Her 3 children miss her everyday and so do I! In her honor, I continue to help others on their recovery journey.

Everyday i wake up hoping its not true…i miss you steven !! Its so hard and i will never be the same..you are such a great son and man …theres so much i still wanted to tell you and show you ..im lost without you my son ..i know you would want me to be happy but i cant your gone ..i love you steven and miss you so much please !! I just want it to be a dream

My Daddy was such a kind loving man, He would give the shirt off his back to anyone in need. He loved like I’ve never seen anyone love and that especially goes for my sister and I. He TRULY is my Angel. Gone But NEVER EVER forgotten. Rest Easy Daddy.

We lost our daughter October of 2016, it hurts so bad today just like it was yesterday. With a smile that could light up the night and a sense of humor that could lift you up no matter how bad your mood was, 28 years is just not enough. She was strong smart and was always there for her family. Her son was every thing to her. She made a bad choice, we all do. Unfortunitly just one more time, just one more time cost her, her life. If you have some loved one that is an addict, never give up on them, let them know you care and most of all let them know you love them.

Daddy(Gregory), I miss you more than words can ever explain, My pain is worst than anything in this world. But I keep pushing because I know I have such a strong loving Angel watching over me. The day you left us is a day I will never forget it plays in my head like a broken record… Knowing I’ll never see you, Hear your voice or hug you again kills me a little more each day… losing a parent especially at a young age (18) is hard because I know there is so many things you wont be here for, For Jackie and I…Too walk us an give me away when we get married, Too be there when we have our first children, Too meet your grandbabies…Ect But you will be there but in a way I would have never imagined…. I love you daddy I love you so very much I think of you each and everyday day! Gone But NEVER EVER forgotten.💚 In Memory Of Gregory B 3/15/1971•08/06-2018💚 Love Your Daughter’s Jennifer An Jackie And Loving Wife Rebekah.

Josh,

I miss you with every cell in my body, I would give anything for one last hug, one last funny interaction. You were my fist unconditional love of my life. You were funny, kind and uplifting.

Mom xxx

RIP Todd. I know that you are playing rummy in Heaven with your Mom by your side. You are forever missed.
– A and A

Robert Kinzel

Missing you every single day. Love you.

Simone
Another year has passed and it still feels like yesterday I got the call you had gone. Time has not healed the wounds of loosing you. Our friendship, our good times and laughs,your loyalty you gave 24/7 to me and Joel and Tabitha. The love and caring you showed our clients will live in all our hearts forever. I will forever cherish our memories and keep them in my heart. Love and miss you -Lisa, Joel and Tabitha ♡♡♡

Simone, Debbie, Nola, Rikki, Ronnie, Jodi, Kerry, Tammy, Marcus, Bradley, Lionel, Johnny, Neil, John, Titch, Big Dave, Helga, Evonne, Terry
All you have been written into my journey of life. When the last page has been written we will meet again-Lisa xxxx

To our beautiful boy, Rudy, who lost his battle with his demons on October 24, 2019. Rudy was 28 years old…a beautiful soul and a loving son, brother and nephew. He was a devoted friend who lived his short life with joy and gusto. We lost you far too soon, my beautiful boy…I pray that you are free from your suffering now and filled with the peace that you were searching for. You are forever in our hearts.

Grace. My 21 year old daughter. After 2 years, I still see you everywhere. I still reach for the phone to text you about silly things your dog did, but then it hits me that you are gone. My heart breaks again. You had so much to give this world and so much to explore. You were so sensitive and caring. The world could have used more women like you. You are loved, are missed by so many people and of course your cat and your dog. You will always be in our hearts, never forgotten.

In loving memory of my son, Patrick, lost to an overdose on Aug 11, 2019. Your friends, family, siblings and especially your children miss you more each day. Rest well My Little Monkey; Patty P

There is hope. Pray that you all find a way out. Jordon forever 26

In memory of Joe who we lost right before his 30th birthday in 2018, in honor of my son Josh who is on the recovery path and just celebrated one year sober (still in supportive housing!!!) and lastly for all those who continue to struggle everyday with the horrible grasp of addiciton….keep your head held high and keep reaching for the stars, ONE DAY AT A TIME, you got this! Myself, I am starting school at 52 for Substance Use Counceling!!! I found my reason for living and cannot wait to begin this next chapter of my life

I miss my son in-law every day. His son is a wonderful soul. I wish Tim could be with us all. He is greatly missed. Forever Mournful – A true loss – So young 💔

Our son Matthew age 26 passed away 2013 from a heroin overdose.He was such a kind soul miss him dearly. Tried so so hard to save him me and his father. Just so sad. Was our only son.

My beautiful boy was taken from me almost 4 years ago. Addiction is a disease! He lost his battle and I know he tried to overcome it . I cant wait to see you again one day. I love you so much Lewis. I miss you more and more everyday. Mom

Christopher Scott Jimenez ❤ son of Linda & Scott, brother of Loren. You smile and laughter is with us everyday, forever in our hearts and on our minds. Sunrise 6-4-92 sunset 11-9-19 ❤

Our thoughts and prayers go out to the family of Brogan Burns who passed way at just 17 on August 24. No family should suffer this loss or the horrible pain that follows. We will keep Brogan alive in our memories of him. The Weiler Family

God bless and keep you, Dear Son.
Andrew Palmer
04/21/1989-10/09/2017

To my beautiful son, Brandon Reeves, Forever 24. You were taken away from us way too soon. I will see you again! I love you so much!! Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. Much, much, much love my baby. Love you, Mom

I’m tribute to my son Paul Moore and my nephews Ray Pierce and Gary Spivey..All three lost to overdoses.Our family has been devastated by this epidemic.It spared no one.

My son, Tyler had passed away April 2020 from OD. He was only 25 yrs old. He was trying so hard to get away from the drugs. Found out fentanyl was involved. I tried to get justice serve. My life isn’t the same without him and I miss my baby everyday. I will never be the same without him.

We lost our Tanner Miller, the start of Our Lil’ Family… Our T-nore… Our Ohana… Our Foster Son…💔

It was extremely difficult to watch him fade away…We both loved him unconditional… We tried our best to help… We never gave up…But we wish we could have done more…In the end, I pray that he knew and felt the tremendous amount of love we had for him… We loved him no matter what and he will Always be a Significant Part of Our Family…

I wonder if things may have turned out different for him if he was able to access the right support, a safe supply, treatment, who knows where he would be today. I miss you dearly my friend!

We love You, Tanner Miller, forever, for always! “Stay Golden”
P.S. you owe me a diary queen Sunday! 😉☺️💙

In honor of my Beautiful son Sebby Haroutunian. You are my heart and soul. I will Love you forever. MOM. 1/28/1999-1/5/2020. 4ever20.

This tribute is for my amazing and unique brother Nicholas who slipped into the next chapter quietly and alone one day in March. You were doing so well and we are proud of everything you were and are to us still. A source of light and love and a humble understanding of the world and how to treat others with respect and kindness. We love you and miss you every day. Thank you for being you.

A part of my heart died with you, Troy–my proud Mama’s boy.
Life will never be the same, but I will try to live it in your honor.
Fly with the angels, my Peaches, and be at peace.
Until we meet again–I love you more than life itself,
Momma

Megan Chicas,
Your beautiful smile, infectious laughter, quick wits, gentle soul and strong spirit are missed today – and every day. You’ve left us way too soon and we miss you madly. We try honor your memory and keep your spirit alive by loving and living life, taking the scenic route and path less beaten every chance we get, and laughing out loud as often as possible. But the tears still fall too… We can’t help it. We miss you, our beautiful angel – and will forever and always love you.

Miss you terribly. See you when God calls me home. I cherish the picture of you fishing,your passion.
Richard Cherella
4/3/66-2/16/15
Gone fishing with God

Michael Voorhes, miss you and your music. You were a wonderful light in so many lives.

Micheal, Terry and Jake we hope you are all at peace. Losing you was a shock…but loving you is forever. Peace out.

Micheal, Terry and Jake we hope you are all at peace. Losing you was a shock…but loving you is forever. Peace out, Danny Kay and Colleey

In loving memory of my son, Austin Pace Coker. Born July 21, 1993 – went to Heaven December 8, 2012. Taken away from his loving family and many friends by opioids at the age of 19. He didn’t know and I didn’t know. I pray this day helps others.

Trevor, forever 18 years old, bought a street pill from someone he and many others knew, possibly thinking it was Percoset or Xanax. The pill was instead three kinds of fentanyl – and nothing else. The lethal doses of fentanyl poisoned him and killed him soundlessly, while sleeping in his dorm room at Sonoma State University on 11/17/19, where he was a Freshman.
Trevor loved skateboarding, his friends, travel, sushi, and his dogs, among many other things. Just the week before his overdose, he had met with a counselor on campus, and had made a plan to better his life. One pill changed those plans forever, as well as the lives of all who knew and loved him.
#TrevorIsEverywhere

Mackenzie McLauchlan – forever 23.
We miss you so much.

Joey, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you and most days I’m sharing the story of your life, cut short at 21 by an accidental overdose of medications prescribed by a doctor just 9 days before. We’re working hard every day to break down stigma and your story is a wake up call to every one who hears it that overdose can impact any family. I carry your beautiful smile and great big hugs with me every where I go. Until we meet again, my sweet boy. RIP 3-9-88 to 12-18-09

Our loving son, David, age 43, died alone in a tent on our campsite from opiod overdose on August 2, 2020. Toxic supply of fentanyl had been on our streets . David had a kind and generous heart. He loved everyone and was loved by all who knew him. He saw himself as a rescuer of those who were weaker and more vulnerable than himself – perhaps a product of his actual heroism at the age of 8 when he saved a 3 year old girl from drowning in a storm drain. He always thought he was stronger than the drugs he took but he died several times to be rescued himself by first responders. He was alone. We were in the trailer just feet away. I found him at 10:20 a.m. Our profound thanks to first responders, Hill and Robinson Funeral Home, our church family,
to St. Leonard’s Society Smart Families group ( for parents of addicts – a group that was so helpful ) our family and friends for their love and support in this most difficult time.

Jameson has lost both his father Matt at 6 and his mom at 8 and is the kindest sweetest wholesome boy that god has allowed his grandparents to heal through his love.

To my dear, sweet sister who left us on January 31, 2020. 💔
You burned white hot, blazing a path through life and taking all of us with you. You were intense, smart, generous, passionate, creative, fierce, gregarious. You drew people in. You created these beautiful moments that we all remember. Spontaneous parties outside of the atelier. Intense conversations. Dancing on the sidewalk. Drinking champagne. Riding in your huge convertible car. Talking about art, beauty, the universe. Listening to music. Cinco de Maja. Hell, just sitting next to you was a treat. My dearest sister, lightning really does strike in the same place twice. I miss you.

Dear Anders,

I honestly did not believe I would make it this far without you here on this earth. I am sure if you still had the same state of mind you did before you passed, one year ago, you would be angry that I have cried as much as I have over losing and missing you. While on this earth, you never understood how I could be so sad when someone close to me died or was very sick. You would always say, “Mom, they have served their purpose on this earth and it is time for them to go.” The beauty is I know you were right, baby boy; but I also know you completely understand my immense sadness now. I know you understand why I practiced tough love [with you] throughout your struggles with drugs. I truly know that. I have felt you and your compassion throughout this year in so many beautiful and loving ways. Thank you for looking after Jonas and helping to put solid, loving people and amazing opportunities in his life. He misses you so much, sweetheart.

Even though I would give anything to hug and talk to you again, I know you are finally at peace. I will never forget when you were 6-years old and you couldn’t sleep – you could never sleep!! You asked, “Mom, do you think God created the universe and then the universe created our earth?” Ha, those were the thoughts keeping you awake at 6-years old??!! Your mind never stopped! Your creativity never stopped!! You were a genius!!! And unfortunately, that brought a lot of demons along with it. Do you remember when I asked you, “What is it about heroin?” Your answer, “It feeds my soul.” My answer to you was, “Yes, but temporarily and you will have to keep feeding it with the drug.” Do you remember that night we both sobbed when you showed me your track marks because we both knew what it meant? Anders, it brings me immense peace knowing you do not have to keep feeding and entertaining those demons – they cannot touch you anymore. They cannot hurt you anymore. You are free.

Do you remember this past June, when I was at a concert and the artist dedicated a song to his dad who had just died? I started to cry and literally under my breath said to you, “Oh Anders, I just want to be with you right now.” Your instant reply, in your Ders way was, “Nope, Mom. You have shit to do.” It was as if you were sitting next to me and whispering those words in my ear. You are/were right. I DO have shit to do. I am figuring all of that out now and trying to find the best way to go about it. But I will make a difference in this world. Sweetheart, in your honor, I promise to make a change for the positive wherever I can. I promise to spread Christmas cheer all year long. I promise to work hard to help find treatments to prevent and treat mental illness/addiction. I promise to love with all of my heart and be true to myself. I promise to write and record songs.

So, for every cardinal that appears in front of me, for every penny I find randomly in the house, for every hug from Jeffrey, a family member, friend, or stranger, and for every Christmas carol that randomly plays on my phone in the Spring or Summer – Thank you! I miss you beyond description, my baby boy. But I know you are hanging with the best of them up there. Tell Tom Petty I cannot wait to finally meet him someday.

I love you and will see you when I have served my purpose, Mom

Amanda F,
I came across your your Memorial card in all my recovery literature, I will never forget you and those last two weeks you tried so hard and our dinners and your smile, how every day you did your absolute best, you are one of the most beautiful people i have ever saw, both physically, and spiritually. I was honored to meet your parents that day and am so grateful for their words, I will never forget.
I miss you.

Levi B (Montana)

In memory of my genius uncle and my talented and beautiful cousin, both lost to opiates in 2011. You are with me everyday and I continue to talk to people about your lives in hopes we both can find some solace in the immense and endless grief. Loving you always.

Dear Adlai,

I still believe that you are somewhere in an alternate reality. The pain ite intense. You’ve been gone over a year and I miss you more than ever. I look back through your childhood and through your growing up years. I look at all of the pain and traumas you had growing up. I had no idea what to do. I didn’t know how to be a real mother. I blame myself. I realize that physiologically you had no choice. Why didn’t I see it sooner? Why didn’t I support you more when you went to Mexico? I wish I’d never heard of tough love. I wish I’d never listened to those people who kept telling me not to enable you. I would do anything. But I know you’re not in pain. You are such my special person, my first born. So many similarities. I still haven’t been able to have close moments with you since you’ve been gone. Please help me with this. I know I will see you again…
I love you,
Mom

Joseph – son, brother, uncle, and friend… taken too soon, forever 19. We miss you every day. Two years is coming up Sept 1st and I cannot shake this awful feeling. You were going to do great things in life. The stigma that an overdose meant you were an addict hurts so bad. All it takes is one time. 🖤💜

We love you, brother. Rest Easy!
06.16.99 — 09.01.18

My son, Jarrod, died on Jun1, 2019 on his 14th day of treatment inside a 54 year old treatment center in Nashville, Tn. A 10 year journeyman Electrician, he left a beautiful 8 year old daughter and 3.5 year old son and wife. Illicit fentanyl made its way into the center by a former patient that he did not even know. Another 33 year old patient, who had been in and out of treatment facilities, shared the drug wit my son who had just finished a 5 day detox only nine days earlier. This was his first inpatient treatment. He died in what should have been a safe, secured environment. It was a tragic loss to our community and family. I am advocating for more safeguards, better and quick read tests at all hospitals and treatment center, better security and removal of hazards such as hospital staff phones that patients can use in making contact with dealers. With only 10 percents of addicts getting treatment, no one deserves to die inside such a facility.

I Miss you so much Eric. That smile of yours was amazing. Forever 23. I Love and miss you everyday that goes by – Love Mom

We lost our 25 yr old son John Leif to a heroin overdose in 2014. Not a day goes by that we don’t remember him and his 10yr struggle trying to beat opioid addiction. He didn’t want to be addicted but the 12-step programs, although very important, were not enough to beat this cancer of addictions. We have so many regrets for not having supported his need for Medicated Assisted Treatment (MAT) and believe he would be alive and well today, like many of his friends, if we had. Our tribute to him, a stand against stigma and shame, and our gift to other families, is our memoir, OPIATE NATION: A Memoir of Love, Loss & Acceptance. May we see the next generation of young people never have to live with such a heavy weight and the accompanying shame.

My sweet husband Tim, you are so greatly missed my love. You were taken from this world too soon, I miss you every second of every day. I’m so happy I can always look back and watch our wedding video on the beach and see you so happy and smiling and hear your sweet voice. I love you babe and will forever. Love always, your wifey and lovebug 💛

Tayjawn, I Love You Today And I Love You Tonight As Much As I Always Have And Always Will. You Are The Most Perfect, Precious, Respectful, Handsome Loving, Kindest, Gentlest Young Man God Could Of Ever Blessed Me With. I Am So Incredibly Proud Of You Son And The Man And Father You Have Become. You Will Lead Us To Heaven Tayjawn. I Am Honored To Be Your Mother! Be Blessed Be At Peace Be Happy! Till We Meet Again, God Bless You King! We All Love You Dearly. Your Brothers And Sister Adore You. We All Do. El Rey De Siempre!

I miss you with all my heart, I still hear you saying, “I love you mom”. I think of you everyday. Days were tough but I would never have wished this. Rest easy Matt and someday we’ll be together again.

I loving memory of our brother Kenny. He was sober for six years before he went back to drugs and overdosed on fentanyl and meth. We will always remember your kind and giving heart, your love of music (guitar) and your passion for Jesus.

Love, your sisters,

Pam and Lori

I just lost my soulmate today. Pretty sure and accidental OD. He was clean for 2yrs and we had had finally decided he would be moving in with me today. I just lost my 20yr old son in April. His Stepdad shot him in the head in front of me for no reason. And Danny had became my Strength and I was learning to live and love again,which I thought I’d never do. But now I have nothing and just gonna set here and wait my turn 😢

The Canadian Association of People Who Use Drugs want to commemorate a loved one we lost last year on September 15th. We love you Natasha and always will.

Natasha Lynn Pace, born July 9, 1983, passed away unexpectedly on September 15, 2019. Natasha was the daughter of Thomas Pottie Sr., and the late Gina Pace. She is survived by her brothers, Thomas Pottie Jr. (Jolene), Lorne Pace, and her sister Cherie (Robert) Cox. She also leaves behind her nephew, Logan, one niece, as well as numerous aunts, uncles, and cousins. Natasha was predeceased by her maternal grandparents, Bridget and Wilbur Pace, and paternal grandparents, Joseph and Sybil Pottie.

Natasha had love for everyone that she came in contact with, and the same was true of those who befriended her. Natasha came in contact with many people during her short life, and she would not want anyone to grieve for her, but to instead strive to make a difference in their own lives, as well as the lives of others.

In memeory of Tristin, Crosby, and Michael.

My tribute is to Billy Alexander Fillmore…Billy passed this year by an overdose during the COVID-19 pandemic. Billy was a friend, a mentor and a loved one that was always there for me. The system failed him and he died because of failed drug policies. I want to share his obituary to show people what kind of guy Billy was.

We are saddened to announce the passing of Bill Alexander Fillmore on April 8, 2020, born on October 26, 1976. He was raised in Fredericton and resided in Halifax working for Insulation Companies for the last 11 years of his life. Billy was the oldest son of David and Diane Fillmore.

As a child he preferred being outside, playing baseball, riding his bike, building camps in the woods and spending time with the neighbourhood kids swimming in the family pool. He also enjoyed watching WWF and playing video games. He and his brother Greg often thought they were wrestlers which drove their sister Christine crazy. Later in life, Billy developed a passion for bodybuilding and spent hours at the gym. He turned his enjoyment for wrestling to the UFC. He knew everything about the Main Events and the stats on every fighter. While his time was cut short, his love for his family will always be remembered. Billy enjoyed a colorful life of adventure, stories, laughter and love but he had his share of struggles and challenges.

In addition to his parents, Billy is survived by his sons, Seth Fillmore (Briana) and Ayden Fillmore of Fredericton, and his precious granddaughter, Emersyn. Billy is also survived by his brother, Greg (Shelly) of Halifax and his sister, Christine Fillmore-Holland (Joel) of Keswick, one special niece, Violet and special nephew, Austin, several aunts, uncles and cousins. Billy is predeceased by his maternal grandparents, Herb & Lillie Dewar, and his paternal grandfather, Arnold Fillmore and uncle, Gary Fillmore.

Love you Billy and I always will! This International Overdose Awareness Day, I will be remembering you.

Terrence Barrows 08-8-64 / 12-21-2018

To all of those who have been struggling and to those who we have lost. I want to remember Stacy for her strength and determination. Ultimately, I feel that stigma and shame are often the biggest barriers to care. I will continue to do what I can to identify and remove barriers in my corner of the world.

I lost my son May 25th. My life has been forever changed 😢 I never knew how I’d be able to go on if this ever happened to me…. I’m still trying to figure that out.
Addiction is an awful thing. My heart, and my families hearts, will ache forever.
I love you Brandon Michael McCain…..
6/18/87 ~ 5/25/20💔
Love, Mom

Cody Aaron Cheek gone but not forgotten 5-20-2017. I post this tribute so that others left behind know that they are not alone. My son died from a Herion overdose after 9 years sober. He is missed everyday. He was not homeless,he was a PHD candidate at the University of Texas and had a bright future. Drugs are cunning, baffling and powerful.

Frankie Felicioni was deeply loved by his family and friends. The memory of his bright smile, quick wit and sunny disposition will never be forgotten. Our broken hearts will forever feel the loss and emptiness of his absence.

Our dearest Tamara. Bitter sweet memories of the time we spent with you. You were loved and continue to be loved and cherished. The years pass by but our sadness over your death remains. You are missed so much.
Our love to you always,
Dad, Mum and Tim xx

Love never die, in remeberance of all who suffered
this sneaky tragedy. You are still loved.

Joshua Robert Said I still can’t believe you’re gone forever. My sweet, handsome, funny, silly baby boy with the big blue eyes. I would give anything for just one more kiss and cheeky your hugs were the best. May 10, 1995 – April 7, 2020. Forever 24 my forever son. I will never be the same without you in my life I’m glad I was your forever mamma. It still seems like a bad dream. Please watch over your bro AJ his heart is so broken. Addie sees you in the sky and she tells me you are happy and you are taking care of Jakey and Simon until we meet again. I can hear you asking for my forgiveness and yes I forgive you son. I know you didn’t mean this to happen. You were murdered by your drug dealer who spiked your heroin with fentanyl. I will do what I can to honor you here on earth. Your Dad and I look for signs everyday. Keep sending them and talking to me through the wind chimes. Always and Forever Love Mamma, Dad & AJ and his sweet Addie.

A loving father. Mike always put others needs before his needs. Missed terribly by friends and family. I miss him terribly, after 11months clean, for reasons I will never understand, he used twice. The second time fatal. A father, son, grandson, who feels the void in our lives. #heroinsucks #forever30. Mike Kratzer mom. Heartbroken.

Stepping Stone Alumni and the Live and Let Live Alano Club and her friends and family will miss her smile, intellect and wit.

Terrence Barrows 08-8-64 / 12-21-2018
Loving Husband To Michelle Barrows and Father to Terren Brown. 🙏🏿🙏🏿💜 Always in our heart’s. We love you always. Until we Meet Again 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿💜💜 We are your Voice

My beautiful boy died on 5-6-2017 from an overdose. Lets increase awareness and end these unnecessary deaths!

Remembering Amber Cummings, who passed away on August 20, 2020, born July 22, 1977. She was an amazing beautiful soul, a very spiritual person. Today on August 25, 2020 we have her funeral and lay her to rest. Today we will wear our purple ribbons to share and spread overdose awareness as we join for her service. Thank you so much for allowing me to post. This has really affected my life. I once was an active user who was clean for almost 3 years then my baby girl passed away on May 6,2020 to sids, and now my best friend to a drug overdose. If I get anything from this all happening it really makes me hate drugs even more!!!!!

In loving memory of both of my beautiful children. First, we lost our 19 year old daughter, Megan Szabo on 3/30/18, then just recently my 23 year old son, Matt Szabo on 6/27/20. Both from an accidental overdose — deadly relapse. My daughter had been sober for 5.5 months and in an outpatient program (just tested negative on tuesday before dying on friday) when life happened and darkness crept in, she resorted to heroin to stop the pain, the very drug that she knew had caused her so much heartache.

The addiction disease is so powerful – taking control of the brain telling them they need the drug to survive. This is why addicts will do whatever they need to in order to ‘survive’. Often their actions and behaviors seem out of character and we don’t recognize what has happened to our children. We had a friend pass away in January, 2018 (2 months before we lost my daughter) from an overdose (heroin laced with fentanyl) and we had all spoken about it. When I asked my kids why someone would use heroin again after courageously working so hard in treatment to persevere and overcome the powerful hold of the addiction cycle and had been sober for several months, their response was that they do not think it will happen to them. They think they can control it, but don’t realize how mighty and powerful the disease of addiction is. For those susceptible to addiction, it hijacks the brain, takes control, and suffocates the true self. Addiction robs them of their potential and aspirations. Thus, begins the vicious cycle and shame of addiction. At one point my daughter asked me if she was bipolar. Later we would come to learn that having the addiction disease is in essence like being bipolar. Their addict is like a completely different person and when it is in control and you do not recognize your actual child. But, they are still in there and it requires doing things counterintuitive to what a parent thinks they should do in order to reach them and suppress their addict.

My son had been sober for almost 3 years when he too experienced some life challenges and was ultimately drawn to what he knew best to deal with the pain. They had both been doing so well, received a lot of treatment, and had learned healthy coping skills. However, heroin is such a powerful addiction and extremely hard to beat. It all happens so fast. Things are going along swimmingly, then literally one day you suspect something’s not right, but haven’t quite figured out what it is. Then, when you don’t hear back from them panic sets in. And, by the time you realize you need to call 911 and get someone to check on them, your worst fears are confirmed — they are found ‘unresponsive.’ In the case of both of our children, it was too late for Naloxone/Narcan that can help reverse an opioid overdose and give them another chance.

They fought addiction for years trying to overcome their demons, but in the end they lost their battle. Both of my children succumbed to the addiction disease. But, they are so much more than their addiction.

They were only 20 months apart and had a strong connection from a young age. Matt and Megan experienced a lot in their short life and lived it to the fullest. They were best friends and did everything together, yes including experimenting with drugs that we found out about after my daughter told us she had a problem and asked for help. They had an inseparable bond. Both were extremely intelligent and had their entire lives ahead of them. Megan loved animals and had plans to volunteer at a monkey and wildlife rehabilitation center in South Africa for High School graduation. She was interested in the medical field and had planned to study radiology. Matt was a video game fiend! He was attending Austin Community College and had plans to become a software engineer because he wanted to create video games! He also loved airplanes and had dreams of becoming a pilot.

They were the most loving, kind hearted and compassionate people you will ever know. We need more people like them in the world. They were vivacious and full of hope and promise. Both had beautiful smiles and eyes that would light up a room with personalities to match. They were perfect and had everything going for them. Except, in the darkness of addiction, their demons had a hold on their mind that nobody could see or understand. They struggled so fiercely to overcome them.

Addiction is a disease. Just like cancer, diabetes, asthma, arthritis, hepatitis and autism, etc. No one chooses a disease, but everyone deserves to receive appropriate treatment for their disease. It is our responsibility to remove the negative stigma associated with addiction and the underlying mental health concerns to provide the treatment they need. This will give our children a fighting chance to overcome this awful disease. Addiction is a complex disease that is misunderstood by most. It’s difficult to completely understand it if you haven’t personally been affected, so count yourself lucky if that is the case. Addiction does affect most everyone in one way or another whether we realize it or not. It is non-discriminatory and victimizes everyone equally, despite your background or demographic. Just like cancer, addiction chooses its victims blindly from all walks of life and can happen anywhere at any time, but always when you least expect it.

Matt & Megan, we will never forget you and are making it our mission to keep your legacy alive by turning tragedy into transformation. We must put a stop to losing our children to overdose and this horrible opioid epidemic. Thank you for giving us the time we had with you and for teaching us all you did. We have so much more to learn and work to do to prevent this from continuing to happen to other families. You are my heroes.

I find some comfort knowing you are together again and no longer in pain.

I love y’all to the moon and back! Fly high! Until we meet again, we have 2 beautiful angels guiding our way…
Love, Mom

My boys are gifts from God. Christopher died June 9, 2016 from heroin overdose at 34 years old and his twin brother died April 24, 2018 at 36 years old, of the same. The struggle was real. They had kind hearts, great smiles, loved family. I miss them every minute of every day. I know they are together again.

Mark- You will be forever loved and forever missed! There isn’t a day that passes that we don’t all think of you. Keep guiding us and watching over us. I love you big brother! 💕💛

May you continue to shine your light upon all who knew and loved you buddy..James Lee Motta Jr. We love you and miss you. Mom, dad, Kayla, Noah, Marissa and your son Caiden Anthony

To the love of my life, My Basim.
I miss you more than words can ever say.

We lost you to an accidental overdose in January 2020….miss you everyday…love you always….Dad n Nancy

In loving memory of the best uncle,daddy,son,brother,friend anyone could have ever asked for, you are beyond missed every day! Not a day goes by I don’t think of you and I carry my promise to you always, I am still involved with groups, I have attended all 4 IOAD events to honor your name as I promised you I would, I myself as of August 12th have been 4 year’s clean and I know you are proud of me, your daughter is still amazingly smart and the best mother to your so beautiful 2 grandbabies, and Mariah oh she’s a mess for sure and still remembers you giving her candy, your mother and sister are still the same goofy women they’ve always been lol one is my mom now I know where we got it from, since your leaving we have lost 2 more family members to this awful epidemic just in 5 months time not counting numerous friends but please know you have given me the courage to continue my journey of helping other’s, I love you and miss you until we all meet again you’ll always be the moonlight that keeps me motivated and nobody can ever take away the dedication I put into helping other’s away from me not just because I promised you I would live out your name but because I know how proud of me you would be..i love you uncle Harvey love always Shawnta💜

As I read through some of the sad , touching and heart felt tributes to those people that were taken way too soon , without the chance to actually live the life they were intended to live and torn from there families arms,without any chance to really tell them they loved them just one more time.
My prayers go out to all of you,my deepest empathy..
My name is jessica I have been struggling for more than 20 years of addiction,I am addicted to anything I can get my hands on well except heroin I know my limit that’s the saddest part I can say no to one but yet justify the others. That is addiction for you.
I just wanted to let the parents know and sister or brother girlfriend or boyfriend that even though we are not there per say physically yes but emotionally gone, dont think for one minute that your loved one didn’t care enough to quit for you and please don’t think for one minute that they didn’t love you cause they didn’t try. Hard enough the first second or third time. Know that as sick as it sounds they really only tried to quit cause they wanted to make you happy so you would just stop looking at them with those disappointed eyes of let down the most hardest thing is to find something inside of yourself worth quitting for. You can try to quit for your mom dad sister brother boyfriend girlfriend child children anyone but yourself it’s so defeating knowing something worth so little can cost you everything your home friend family even your own life but still continually be aware of that and disregard the fact that one day you will succumb to your own addiction
We as individuals have choices they may not be the best ones ut this is for the parent and friends who think if I would of been there more I could of maybe prevented it from happening..NO you couldn’t it’s not up to you..its up to each of ourselves.. the only advice I can honestly give coming from the deepest part of my soul.. you may not agree with you loved one choices do not judge do not remind them there a junkie a loser a bum do not put them down we already see those thing when we look in the mirror or when we look into your teary worried eyes just be there as much as you can and tell them every day I love you I wont give up on you I am here for you when u want to change cause your worth it to me…those words soothes a person’s whole being…they just need to know even though they gave up on themselves you see something worth fighting for I them and eventually I pray they see it too. don’t give up but don’t give in god bless you all who still are grieving and I pray for those who are still suffering your friend jessica bryce langley canada email me if you need to talk jessicalbryce@hotmail.com take care

This was my number one favorite uncle, he lost his battle to overdose on July 2nd 2017, I have been attending the IOAD since it started this is the 4th event and my 4th attending..

Joshua Mudd I miss you everyday! You will always be my baby boy. Until we meet again.
Mom

In Memory of our son Adam who passed Oct 19, 2017. Always loved and Remembered.

WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. WE MISS YOU SO MUCH. XXOO

Travis Witt
Forever 25
Never forgotten

D’Angelo Ray,
My sweet dear brother it’s been about 2 months since your passing and we miss you every single day. Everything was so unexpected and as I am healing and accepting the fact that I won’t be able to see you one last time, I know now that your at peace. I will do everything I can to keep your amazing spirit alive. Your are so very loved and will forever be in our hearts brother. LLD 03/18/2002-07/01/2020

Our son Nathan overdosed on heroin on August 31, 2014 while in a half way house. He was a smart, hard working young man and tried very hard to stop using. Each time he relapsed the support became harder to find. Programs closed their doors, probation and parole wants money they don’t have, even food stamps are refused if you have a drug conviction, but not for other conviction. So many have been lost but not forgotten. Nathan was just a kid in high school who went to work for school credit and start using with his co-worker. He lived till he was 30 which is a long time to live with the lies and shame. I believe God said enough and took him home.

My beautiful son taken from us at such a young age 26 is not what you should been forever I miss you so very much and my love for you remains the same until I see you again a million hugs and kisses your momma

My daughter Melody passed away due to heroin OD November 26, 2019 at the age of 31. Her smile was extraordinarily contagious and her spirit was one of a kind – joyful, humorous, loving, kind. She struggled for 12 years and lost her battle when she relapsed after a year and a half sober. During that time she had her amazing son Phoenix, who lives on with her exact same spirit. Her relapse and overdose helped me understand the power of addiction. Parents aren’t choosing drugs over their children. I saw 1st hand how much she loved Phoenix. Their choices were ripped away from them when addiction took over their brains. She was too good for this and deserved so much more in life.

My incredible, handsome, loving brother Henry W August 18 2020 I love you beyond words. Brooke <3
My brother had a disease and he died of it and you might have it too. It is called addiction. It is not funny, it is not a choice, it is a sickness that is killing peoples children. I have it too. I fight my disease every fucking day so my mom doesn’t have to cry over my body and my children can grow up with a mother and my family doesn’t have to worry every fucking day about whether or not they will get to see me again.
I have the disease of addiction. I used to feel better, funnier, happier, smarter, included, wanted, numb, I wanted to feel anything but what I felt like when I was sober. I couldn’t wait to drink or party again on the weekend or middle of the week or how ever often I can get out. I hurt my family, I worried my family, I stole, I lied, I drove drunk and high, I started doing things I swore I would never ever do. One day the pain of living with the things I was doing became greater than the pain of living with out drugs or alcohol and I finally got help.
There is a solution to this disease. You do not have to die from it. You do not have time to wait. Henry thought he had time. He promised he was going to sober up at 29 like me. He didn’t even make it a fucking year after saying that. THERE IS A SOLUTION! YOU CAN RECOVER! YOU CAN BE HAPPY JOYUS AND FREE!! YOU NEVER HAVE TO DRINK AGAIN! YOU NEVER HAVE TO USE AGAIN! I can show you what I did to heal. I can show you how I got clean and sober but more importantly happy and healthy and stopped being a selfish POS.
I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING IN THE WORLD TO HAVE ONE MORE CHANCE TO HELP HENRY. I prayed over his body asking God to just give us one more chance to help him. I prayed for a miracle. My whole life I have devoted to helping people get sober, find a solution, get a connection with God and I couldn’t help my own little brother. It is fucking heart wrenching, devastating and I don’t wish it on anyone in the fucking world.
If you are done with this bull shit please reach out to me or I can give you numbers to call. If Henry’s death can save your life there may be some sort of meaning to this. This disease is progressive and you will die from it or lose your mind or end up in jail if you don’t get help.. 100% every time no exception. If you are an addict or alcoholic there is no using safely. If you are just a regular person trying drugs for the first time there is no using safely these days. PLEASE GET HELP NOW!

My heart broke in so many pieces the day you died. I want to tell family that please don’t be a shame of someone passing of addiction. Love you always my J this tribute is to you.

In loving memory always~ 9/23/94 ~Aaron Cooper Starrs ~12/17/15. We all miss and love you so very much.

Graham…Our kind honest Friend that was always they’re to lend an ear,(I still talk to you, you know) Uncle GrayGray the kids called you! They don’t understand why you’ve gone away and miss you…we all do!! Forever in our hearts!! End Overdose. RIP Graham. Never Forgotten old mate!!

To my only son Lino Adame. Your sisters and I miss you so much. You left us to soon. God is with you and your pain has vanished. You are always in our Heart and Mind.
Love Mom

I lost a close friend on Fathers day in 2007. Nick was born in Hartford, CT and later moved to Arizona where we became friends. He was a graduate of Cave Creek High School in Cave Creek, AZ class of 2000. He was a very talented graphic designer, having received his degree from Chester College of NE in Chester, NH in May 2007. Nick loved to write poetry and hip-hop music, which he enjoyed performing at local venues. I think about Nick often and how such a talented and gifted person was taken away by opioids.

Sam was great at anything he put his mind to. He had an impressive wit and I loved to laugh with him. A tragic loss for family, friends, and all who will never have the privilege of being introduced to or influenced by him.
I love you Tuna! I miss the hell outta ya!
Joseph Ellis

In memory of my son Gladie, who lost his life to an opiod overdose on February 13, 2015. He was only 25 years old with his whole life ahead of him. He left behind his precious daughter Kelbi and his handsome son Christian. He is missed every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month. He will never be forgotten

To My Brother Carson Alexander Jr. I am so angry about how we lost you to this awful disease and how it has taken so many of my family and friends. I miss you daily and sorry you were not with your family. I only wish there was more I could have done to help you and that you realized and learned more about the disease of addiction. You had so many tools yet , addiction is so powerful it took you away from me and your family. I miss our laughs together , you scaring me with your crazy driving, and so much more. I know you are in a better place and not suffering any more, but the pain continues to rip at me. you are now with mommy and our brother Dallas, I thank God for the time he allotted us to have you here with us and am forever grateful he choose you to be my big brother. Forever in my heart, your sister Robbin

I have read many comments about addiction, and the comments like ‘natural selection’, “let them weed each other out’ , or “they get what they deserve” are so unkind and ignorant of the recognition that addiction is a disease. It is implies that addict’s life is not worthy of simply caring and compassion.

I’m not sure who people picture when they think of an addict, so, I’d like to introduce you to mine.

My addict weighed 8 lbs 4 oz when she was born.

My addict took 14 hours of hard labor to enter this world.

My addict was one of the four joys of my life that honored me by making me a father.

My addict was named Kaitlin McLaughlin so her grandmother’s namesake would be carried on to another generation.

My addict had three siblings she loved dearly and they still love her.

My addict would always give her Mom directions when driving from the time she was 5 years old.

My addict was a kind and sensitive person, who loved children and gave so much attention to them.

My addict was someone who had a special place in her heart for those with disabilities, and those that were dealt limitations that impacted their every day life.

My addict graduated from college and had a good job as a Production Assistant in Television.

My addict had dreams and aspirations to have her own family, and to love and create memories with them together.

My addict would always get expressions wrong, such as our favorite “when I am pig and I can fly”.

My addict was a huge sports fan; her favorite players were Tiki Barber and Derek Jeter.

My addict is loved by so many people to this day.

My addict called me Daddy, and is my sweet baby girl.

So, if you can do one thing for my addict today, remember there is a mom, a dad, and a family somewhere with knees bleeding from all the prayers they say everyday because they miss their addict so much.

If you see an addict, say a prayer instead of judging them . Become more educated about what addiction is – – a disease.

If you see an addict, recognize that this is a war on our citizens, and we must help those powerless to their addiction.

If you see an addict, realize they are just a victim of this war that deserves compassion, not disdain. Every life matters.

If you see an addict, realize that funding to help recovery facilities become more successful and accommodate more of those suffering are extremely under-funded.

If you see an addict then recognize that we need more useful laws that accept addiction as a disease, and recognizes that the war on drugs doesn’t stop with the drug dealers.

And in the end, maybe you can try to remember that every addict is someone’s child – – and one of them was mine.

My dear friend, oh how I miss you! I miss our long talks of a better life, I miss our talks of no more struggles about how you are having good days and bad. I just miss our 20 plus years of friendship and the book that never got published. You had so much to say you’ve been through so much. May you now rest in peace, no more pain or suffering. Your boys are left to grow on without you, your husband is here to pick up the pieces. Just know you are loved and thought about often. Your forever friend….

Eric, you will never be forgotten. Smart, personality beyond most kids your age, witty, loving, warm, caring, a friend to so many who tried to help others with their addiction. I know you are helping others even now, and hope you are hanging out with Kev Kev. I love you. Aunt Paula

Oh my sweet angel Donny! U got clean & helped me through my cancer at probably the most scared point I ever was in my life! U were my true love! U made my coffee right! Helped me get around! Even when I was bald u still called me beautiful & held me & told me u loved me! I miss u every day & probably always will! I love u! RWG my sweet angel!

Jamie, I remember you from side by side 12 step meetings. You are a beautiful woman, and will always be remembered. I am glad I met you, if even one time. I am hanging out with your Mom in Coral Springs and we all try to help each other, while remembering you and our children we have lost. Hoping you have made all the connections. Paula

I wasn’t aware of this important date until it effected me last September.
Jack, I miss you every single day and I will for the rest of my life. I’m so sorry for all your struggles. I know you tried the best that you could.
As your mother, I am going to do everything that I can, to bring awareness to this horrible disease.
I hope you are free. We will meet again.

ALEXA CHRISTINE LAMOUREUX

Alexa “Lexi” is my daughter and she was adored from the moment she was born to the moment she left this earth. She was inquisitive, playful and intelligent. She was kind and loving with a smile that lit up a conversation, lit up a room and warmed a heart. She had a passion for reading. Many of her books focused on spirituality, holistic living, and ways that she could find herself, and books where she could learn about the injustices in the world. Among her favorites: “The Secret”, “Gone with the Wind”, Victorian romances, and “The Bell Jar”. Alexa had an adoration for horses and spent time riding and caring for them. She cherished her Yorkies, her “little monkeys” Hudson and Sabine. She cared for them as a mother would care for her children. She meticulously groomed and endlessly loved upon them.
Alexa excelled in school from the very beginning. She was a consistent honor roll student in middle school and high school. She excelled in college earning her place on the Dean’s List.
Tragically, she used heroin while living on her college campus. From that very first time the vicious cycle of addiction took hold immediately and Alexa would never be the same again.
It was heart wrenching for those of us who loved her and had to watch her suffer. We did everything we could think of and was recommended to us, desperate to help her in some way. We bestowed unconditional love, guidance, and encouragement upon her. She was willingly admitted to many rehabs and detoxes and gained strength from them. So many times she would start her life over with fierce determination and a renewed faith that this time she would stay free of heroin. During these months and years of sobriety, Alexa fought against the powerful hold of addiction with great courage and perseverance. She worked hard, attended classes, studied alternative therapies, and focused on holistic living eating only organic foods. She took herbs and vitamins, exercised, and prayed to God to keep her sober.
Inevitably, seemingly out of nowhere, despite all the positives in her life, the darkness would creep into Lexi’s mind again. It would take hold of her thoughts again, and it would suffocate her every dream and aspiration, yet again. Dreadfully, Lexi turned to the very drug that caused her such intense pain and heartache, desperate to escape for a time from her tortuous obsessions of guilt, shame, and disappointment for causing such anguish to the family she cherished so. Alexa described heroin as a “lonely drug that takes you away from every part of your life, robs you of who you are and leaves you hanging on the brink of death”.
Alexa kept journals throughout her life with pages full of raw emotion, poetry, and delicate sketches. She was deeply sensitive and felt life intensely and expressed this through her words and drawings. The obsessions of self-loathing hijacked her mind every minute of every day whether she was actively using or living drug free. “I’m addicted”, she wrote. And it’s disgusting.”

Alexa died of an overdose of Fentanyl laced Heroin on September 21, 2017 after being completely free of all drugs for seven months. It was a high school friend who delivered the deadly mixture to her at our home.
Lexi was able to fulfill her wish expressed just one month before her overdose. Lexi gave the gift of life to two very special women. To one, she gave her lungs and to the other, she gave her liver.

I ask you to share my Lexi’s Story with your loved ones and friends for these reasons:
1. The horrible stigma that many people have of heroin addicts needs to be dispelled. Our daughter was beautiful inside and out, intelligent, educated, compassionate and well spoken. She was given every opportunity a child should have. We are hard working parents and have raised our three children with morals and values. We are loving parents who have always given the best to our children. Alexa was somebody. She was our beloved daughter. Her father and I will forever wonder if there was anything we could have done differently.
2. It only takes one time to become addicted to heroin. Alexa took heroin that first time having no idea the power it would have over her body and mind. She immediately became addicted. Heroin is EVERYWHERE: in our neighborhoods, schools, college campuses, shopping malls. Please understand that YOUR child or YOUR loved one will likely be offered heroin at some point. They may think they can “try” it that one time and never use it again. I am here to explain to you this: if my precious daughter, who had the world at her feet and the love and support of her family, could become addicted from that first heroin use and then years later die from an overdose, then it can happen to YOUR child or loved one just as quickly and easily.

Please share my Lexi’s Story and photos. Save someone from taking that first dose.
Adopt the slogan:

“NOT EVEN ONCE!”

Thank you-
Susan Lamoureux
Lexi’s Momma

www.learnfromlexi.org

It’s only been a year and our sorrow is still heavy most days. You are thought of daily and our love for you is strong. Your mother has been so busy with helping other families with their lost loved ones and she is working with others to bring National attention to help end this crisis. We will honor you and so many others on August 31st.

In honor of my baby brother, Kyle Chandler

Adam Anthony Sica passed away on April 24, 2018 from an overdose. He was a strong, loving, caring, smart son, brother, father, friend and person. He is truly missed by all. Please do not have shame in talking about your struggles, be it with addiction, mental illness, coping with the loss or struggles of a loved one, etc. The only way out is through. We miss you so much Adam.

“When I come to the end of my journey, and I travel my last weary mile,
Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned, and remember only the smile.
Forget unkind words I have spoken; Remember some good I have done,
Forget that I ever had heartache, and remember I’ve had loads of fun.
Forget that I’ve stumbled and blundered, and sometimes fell by the way.
Remember I have fought some hard battles, and won, ere the close of the day.
Then forget to grieve for my going, I would not have you sad for a day.”

My daughter Erin , died 8/22/2015, accidental overdose. Kind hearted and loved by all. Missed so very much.

My daughter, Alysha, died of a drug overdose on Oct 19, 2019. She was only 23 years old and a mother, sister, daughter and friend to many. She is loved and missed every day.

I’m so sorry you had to go like this. I love you so much Mary. I wish I could’ve helped you. Rest In Peace. Until we meet again

My beautiful boy was 32 when he lost his battle. He was beautiful in so many ways. He was smart and talented. He could play many different kinds of instruments especially guitar. He tried hard. He went into several Rehabs. He tried hard in each one he was in. He made a lot of friends because anyone who met him loved him. He was very gentle and sensitive and my heart ached for him as he battled this horrible addiction
When he laughed he would bright up the whole room. Love you Nate. See you soon, Mom Catherine Breshears

Cuz Brian, you were cool. I’m glad we connected even though I’m adopted. Rest in peace brother

Every overdose is someone’s child. This was posted by my friend Linda Knight Crane, who lost her youngest son Macauly Sean Crane 2/4/2019. She openly shares awareness and her grief as his mother. She posted the following and I admire her for helping others, especially mothers like me with an adult child afflicted by addiction. She recently posted this.

I am the son who died from an overdose.

It breaks my heart, but I will say it.

I was an addict.

I was, and am, also a valuable human being.

Do not turn away from me.

I am not jinxed. It is not contagious. My presence and influence are no danger to you or yours.

Do not judge me.

This did not happen because I caused it, deserved it, or failed to stop it. I got pulled into something beyond my control, and I couldn’t pull out. I do not know why, and neither do you.

Do not tell me I should have tried harder.

You have no idea of my struggle. You have no idea of my desire. You have no idea how I fought my own body, my own mind, my own brain, my own demons to walk away and be free of drugs. A fallen warrior is still a warrior.

Do not judge my family.

My family was there for me throughout my struggle, and remain loyal to me now. They did not ‘raise me wrong’ or ‘fail to save me.’ My failure to get clean was not a lack of love for them or from them. They did what they could, often after everyone else had given up on me. I would not have stayed alive as long as I did without them.

Do not pity me.

I struggled, and watched my family struggle alongside me. I did not go down without a fierce struggle, and I did not go down alone. My legacy is safe in the hands of those who fought for me with a loyalty and a fierceness that most so-called ‘normal’ kids will never know,

Do not pity my family.

My family does not need pity. They deserve respect and support, but many will not offer that to them because of my addiction. Anyone who knows will understand the strength and character my family showed by staying by my side.

Do not question me.

I did the best I could. I do not know if things would have been different if I had done certain things differently or had different friends, and neither do you. If you have not lived it, you can never understand the intensity of my efforts. Losing the battle with addiction is not a reflection of my desire to win or the strength I used to fight it. Addiction is a mightier enemy than you can ever know.

Do not blame me.

If you have not lived through this, you are not qualified to tell me why I became an addict, why I continued to return to the drugs, or why I could not quit. Your opinion would be based on nothing but your own ideas. I lived this struggle, and I could not answer those questions any more than a cancer patient could tell you why they developed cancer or why it could not be cured. Addiction is a physical and mental disease.

Do not tell me you understand.

There are very few people in my life who can say they understand my struggle or the struggle of my loved ones. Be grateful you cannot. There is only one way to understand, and you do not want to go there.

Do not think that you are more loving/ loved/stronger than I was.

I loved my mother, and she loved me. I loved my Dad and brothers, and they loved me. I loved my girlfriend and her son, and they loved me. I loved my cat, dog and friends. They were all my life. This is not a problem which can be solved by love. Love and addiction are not connected. You would have to live our struggle to ever understand the love and the effort that were involved on all sides.

Do not congratulate yourself and your family as being better than me or mine.

If you and your family have avoided the demon of addiction, you are lucky. Addiction can happen to anyone, anywhere, any time. It is found in broken homes and happy ones. It is found in the ghetto and in palaces. It victimizes the smart, the ignorant, the strong, the weak, the brave and the timid. It affects male and female, young and old, Black, White, Latino and Asian. Addiction , like cancer, chooses its victims blindly and from all walks of life.

I am the son who died from an overdose.

I am a loved and valuable human being..my life matters!

My name is Macauly Sean Crane
Sunrise: 7/24/92
Sunset: 2/4/19

💜 August is overdose awareness month 💜
**I am not the author**

Tyler 💕 love you so much buddy..been two years still miss you like crazy. I’m doing recovery for you! Love and miss you!

Christopher Morgan
02/26/1982
06/26/2020
Forever 38

I lost my son, Galen Michael Gerald, on August 5, 2005. It was an accidental overdose of Opiod pills (reportedly only a few pills). Our family will never be the same. My other son, overdosed on Ecstacy pills that he “found” on the street. He didn’t die, but did flat line for 2 minutes, and spent a week in ICU on a ventilator. The damage that has been done to our family is irreparable. There are FAR too many pills on our streets!

In memory and tribute to our lovely Emily, godchild and niece, who lost her life to an accidental overdose April 2020

To my dearest friends, Jodi, Mark, Neeva
But for the grace of god go I.
Never forgotten always in my heart

Jojo

There’s this horrible epidemic of fentanyl and heroin addiction running rampant through this state…I’m now having to bury my 51 year old retired veteran..I will always remember the good times we had…but now I’m hollow inside with your passing..till we meet again…I will always love you…

Rest in Paradise Sissy 💜

Jody Lynn Yaple
9/27/76-12/19/18
You will never be forgotten and you will be loved dearly and carried close to my heart always. Til we meet again…💜

My beautiful son David passed away from fentanyl poisoning September 19,2018.
He was a sweet kid with amazing blue eyes, the kindest heart and a smile that would melt your heart. He fought his demons for 14 years before he met his end. This disease is taking away so many beautiful young souls and things need to change. I miss you my Davey… Forever 34.

Hayley, no words can describe how much you are missed. Life will never be the same without you. Until we meet again, my sweet daughter.

For Eddie. And his infectious smile.

My Son Patrick 11/02/1994 -06/08/2017
Heroin laced with fentanyl

My Pumpkin. My sweetest little girl. My Caylen. I miss you. I think of who you would have become had drugs not wrapped it’s icy fingers around you and left you alone and then lifeless. You were so smart, funny, compassionate and not least of all beautiful. You could have been anyone you wanted to be but instead, you are gone too soon. My heart is broken.

Rob there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I miss you so much and will always love you. (4-8-17) forever 53 baby
Jesse I love you so much always and miss you. You left us too soon. (8-23-12) forever 30 lil brudda
Angela, Robin, Jon, Adam, Kim,

Our precious son lost his battle with addiction last November. His death was due to carfentynal. He was funny, intelligent, compassionate and a loyal friend to so many. We desperately love him and want him to be remembered for who he was for the 30 years he spent on this earth. Love you, Son💜

Not a day, hour nor second goes by I am not thinking of you. You were an amazing son, excellent dad, loyal brother and great friend to many. I will spend the rest of my days fighting this opioid pandemic so that no mother will ever have to feel this pain. I will keep your memory alive so you will never be forgotten. I love and miss you so much Matthew and can’t wait till we meet again. XOXO Mommy

My beautiful first born son , Kerry Douglas, died on February 20th 2015. His brother Tim and I will never be the same. Our ache remains. Time has not eased our pain. There are no words to comfort other families. Just an acknowledgement of horror.

HOLD ON!!!! I STILL NEED YOU!!! HIM ON I STILL WANT YOU!!!!!!!! He never woke up. My brother died 6 days out of incarceration for an addiction. He wasn’t a thief he wasn’t a violent person. He was an addict who was a wonderful uncle, brother, son and the best Dad he could be…..i love u forever brother

I lost my grand son Dylan #forever20 will be 4 years in Nov and my Niece Caroline almost 2 years ago……#forever 34
If you are using please reach out to someone, anybody you do not realize the loss you leave behind.

I lost my 30-year-old son in June to heroin. He struggled with addiction for 16 years before losing his fight. I now struggle to remember the good soul that was still in him, just harder and harder to find as the years went by. I am glad that he can finally be at peace, but so devastated to be moving on without him by my side.

I lost my son on May 6, 2020 to fentanyl poisoning. He was 24. He would be turning 25 on September 15.

My 21 year old son Sean passed away 2 years ago in a one bedroom apartment living on his own for 8 months. We miss him greatly but believe he’s now in a better place, waiting for us. Losing him left a huge hole in our family…time stands still and our lives will forever be defined by his daily absence. We miss you Sean and we love you!

Love, Dad

My boy Marlow, I will never hear “Hey Mama” again. I cannot describe the hole that has been left in my world.
2/11/1988-20/2/2018 Be at peace my beautiful boy.
Love Mama

Our Parker died 7/8/19. He thought he could beat it, it beat him.
I am going to beat the streets for this epidemic. Parker was my only child.
Always 25, I would not have changed it for the world.
Except the ending……
I am helping Dan Schnieder of the Netflex series The Pharmacist.
They are going to do a movie and we want a great end!
Thanks, PURPLE is my favorite color
Let’s light it up! Shannon Parker’s momma ☘️💋

My beautiful boy Marlow. I miss you more and more. 2/8/1988 – 20/2/2018.
There is a massive hole in my heart that will never be filled.
Love Mama

I posted my 1st tribute 8 months after I lost my only sister. It has now been 3 years and I miss her just as much as I did then. I have since lost 2 cousins and 3 friends. I am really grateful for August 31 and being able to post this tribute. I especially want people to remember that in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic, the overdose epidemic is still so very real. People still suffer every day with grief, loss, and the struggles to get clean. To me it just seems almost lost in the shuffle of everything else the world is experiencing. NEVER FORGET – END THE STIGMA – FIGHT THE ADDICTION NOT THE ADDICT

Paul aka Fester I miss you every single day you were my wee hero your boy is your double you would be so proud of him ill never stop thinking about you love you always

We will be thinking about all those affected by overdose in the weeks leading up to the 31 August and hoping for more thought and caring in the future.

My Daughter Brittany 10/2/93-9/19/18 Fentanyl Poisoning

I lost my oldest son, Trent, on Christmas day 2019 to heroine laced with fentanyl. It’s been a hard road for me. So many questions unanswered. Please spread awareness of addiction, and make it ok to talk about without being shamed. Help people to get help and recovery. Prayers to all.

I lost a dear friend August 9th she had two beautiful beautiful children who will never get to see her again. I swear we will always remember you not just the bad spells but most of all, all the good times that you have to us. We will love u and miss you until we meet again. Sleep now and rest in peace

RYAN MOORE
Let me introduce you to Ryan Moore. As a 25 year old, Ryan loved life and all it had to offer. Ryan loved music, playing drums, going to concerts especially with mosh pits. His favorite band was “A Day to Remember”. He was caring, empathetic, and had the biggest heart. He had many new things in his life – his own apartment, a girlfriend, a job cooking at a restaurant that he loved. He worked many hours, but said that was good because it kept him busy and gave him a chance to save some money. Ryan told me that he wanted to set up a weight bench in the basement so that he could start working out again. Working out made him feel good. Ryan did not have much in his apartment, but what he had I know meant a lot to him. Ryan was working hard on being an adult and being independent. As his mom, I was so proud of him, but I was also scared.
Having a child that suffers from substance use disorders and been to rehab more than once, leaves you cautious. I did not ask the hard questions to my son because I was scared of the answers. Now I live with the guilt of those unasked and unanswered questions.
I never sent Ryan money. I was afraid that he would buy drugs or alcohol. Instead, I sent care packages. In early December 2018, I sent Ryan a care package. Ryan lived in CT while I live in FL. Ryan texted me on Sunday, December 16 that he received the package and loved the blanket. We said that we loved each other. At 4:00pm on Monday, December 17, 2018, my life forever changed. I got the call that Ryan was dead. My youngest son was gone. Died alone in his apartment. It was ruled accidental overdose (heroin with fentanyl) but I call it drug – induced homicide. No one was ever charged with his murder.
The bright and promising future for my son is gone. Ryan’s addicted brain won the battle and he lost the fight on December 17, 2018 at only 25 years young. I found out after his death that he was going into rehab that day. I will never see my son married, become a father, go to college, become an uncle to his brother’s children. I miss his smile. I miss his laugh. I mostly miss his hugs. There are no more new memories to be made. All I can do is make sure that Ryan did not die in vain. He was too special to this world to be forgotten. Opioids killed my son. I am forever changed because I am forever heartbroken.
I am Forever Ryan’s Mom.
Remember his name, Ryan Moore.

My one and only. Love you forever and a day… Miss you my boi.💜

Our sweet Shaney boy only 27 years old taken from us way to soon.. Feb 10, 2020 is a day that our family will never forget. As we continue to grieve your loss we also celebrate the love and light that you will always hold in our hearts. The memories we will cherish forever and we will love you always! I can’t say goodbye to you I just can’t so I’ll say until we meet again my sweet nephew I love you and miss you so very much xo

RIP Jessica
I will never stop missing you BFF..

There’s never a moment where I’m not thinking of you my son. I miss you Alex, Love Mom

I lost my dear friend Dallas in 2015. He was the sweetest soul. He wanted to be a youth pastor and had a heart of pure gold. He struggled with drugs for close to a decade before we lost him due to an overdose. He had been abstinent for six months before he used again and he didn’t realize his tolerance was lower than he was used to. If he had access to naloxone he might still be here today. He would have turned 28 last month. We miss you, DJ.

In Loving Memory of my son Shawn Gregory Powers 9/29/1989-4/8/2017. Always in our hearts. Til we meet again my sweet angel. #forever27 💜

I lost my only 2 children/sons, due to overdose. Both were friendly, giving and kindhearted young men who continue to live on through family. They are missed every day.

Gone too soon. He lost his battle with addiction 3 days after his 36th birthday. He was a father of 3 children. He was his 6 year old son’s hero and best friend. His loss leaves a hole in the hearts of many. He will be remembered for more than what his addiction made him. He was so much more…

my best friend ,of many many years was taken from us way too early, we miss him everyday,he was so much more than just an addict,he was a cherished son,brother,uncle and friend to many. #erasethestigma

To all of those I’ve met over the years working at Salvation Army and outreach
May you now be at peace.

You fought hard Joseph, and we are continuing the fight for you. Rest easy.

I lost my husband Zach in February of 2020. I will never be the same. His fight is now my fight. I. Not. Stop. I will spread his story and say his name to anyone who will listen.

Thank you for this support page
Ryans mom
09 09 18 Forever 34
Accidental overdose
Wylers aunty
Dennis friend
Georges friend
Jasons friend 17 close losses in 5 years

Devon. I’m sorry that you had to leave this world so soon. Devon was a bright young man with heart and talent. About six months ago he asked me to complete reference questionnaire for his nursing school application. In it, I said he “has upstanding character and I would trust him with my life.” I meant every word. Devon was one of my closest friends and my heart is broken that he is gone. I can’t put into words what a wonderfully kind and caring person he was, words won’t do justice. I will remember you always.

You were a gift to all of us who knew you. You were taken away to soon but you live happy and strong within all of us. Until we meet again. Stay free and happy in the presence of God

Back in 2017, one of my two nephews, Jason, lost his life, and the rest of us lost a light! He had his challenges with drug addiction much of his adult life. He had a great sense of humor, was incredibly caring, a great musician, and was always had a job or working, all the while battling various forms of drug addiction. I believe sometimes people feel and empathize so much that their escape is in the form of drugs, and he felt for all. At the young age of 35, we all lost a son, brother, nephew, friend, and father…and a beacon was lost!

We love and miss you Jason!!

My dear son, I wish you knew how much I loved you and will always love you. You were my only child and without you in my life it is so empty. I know you struggled with your demons and your pain every day, God only knows what you went through. It has been almost a year since you have been gone, sometimes it seems like yesterday and sometimes I forget that you are gone and want to tell you something. You were my baby boy, no matter how old you were. You will forever be in my heart and soul. Till we meet again Chuck my love will always be with you.

Amanda
7/26/95-7/4/20
You were my best friend for 8 years. I remember how we first started talking on Myspace and when we met in person in high school we were instantly bonded to each other. I have never had a friendship so strong and real- we did everything together, from picking you up to carpool to high school, eating junk food in your room, planting and watering the tomatoes and peppers in your garden and going to concerts. I was so looking forward to reconnecting this year. You brought so much light and love into my life and I cherish the many years of memories I have of us as well as all the gifts from you that I still have. I’ve been talking to your family and we’re planning on sending off biodegradable lanterns at the beach for you this Saturday. I love you so much Amanda.

Matthew Brandon 2/28/92-7/3/18 Forever loved and missed his life mattered and he was more than his addiction. Fentanyl may have killed his body but his soul,spirit and memory will live on. #ILYFILYFAALAILMBYB Love Mom

A tribute to My Beautiful Boy, Cole Leslie Hawkins. Played Club Hockey and suffered two major concussions back to back. Suffering from pain and the loss of support from team contributed to a fentanyl overdose at 17. One pill took our light of our lives forever. Love you always and forever My Blued Boy 🙏🏻💙

Nicholas, you left us much too early and you are sorely missed. The loving memories that we have of you are cherished and you will continue to live on through all of us. May your memory be eternal.

I lost my precious son Mauro to an overdose of heroin on January 1 2014 he was is an amazing person full of life, kind, loving, very protective of his family. We are so very close he is a real mama’s boy he is so very missed. Our lives are not the same without him. He left his 2 children, a wife, 2 sisters, a brother, his dad and me his mommy his best friend his ride or die. He was my 1st born of 4 children we were tight, so very close, I’m so very lost 💔 without my baby. He so very hard tried to stay sober and make it, but the illness got him in the end. God bless us all and R.I.P to all our beautiful Angels gone way to soon but Never Ever To Be Forgotten soar high my love

Travis,
Your infectious laugh, your love of nature, your love for your family and friends will never be forgotten. Our love for you will last to our last breath when we are reunited. As long as I breathe you will be …..
10-10-89/ 6-20-19

A beautiful daughter, mother, wife, sister and aunt gone to soon. We love and miss you so much.

Joshua
You left us so early in life . You are loved and missed, your daughter is learning so much in life. She celebrated your birthday with a balloon launch. She sits next to your urn and plays barbies with you. She feels your presents, wants to know if you have friends in heaven, most importantly she wants to know if you love her? All I can tell her is yes you have family in heaven, that you love her, and you are always watching over her.

May you Rest in Peace
Love Mom

Glen Gardner nj
I lost my only son to an accidental overdose Oct 29 2016.

In remembrance of my baby sister, Emily Smith-Vanderpool who went to be with Jesus on November 16, 2016 after an accidental opiate overdose along with a lethal combination of medications prescribed by her physician. I found her alone, face down on the bed in a hotel in South Carolina and I will never be the same. I love and miss you terribly, Emma… but I know I will see you again soon on the other side of life.

Jeremy S Maynard
8/16/83 – 5/31/19
You are so missed and loved son.

In remembrance of our son Marc Evangelista. Forever in my heart.

My cherished son Jonathan, as long as I can, I will look at this world for both of us.

My beautiful baby girl. Cassandra Marie, Sunrise 09/30/92 Sunset 07/20/18. Her substance abuse took her fast, within 1 year. She was fiercely fighting to save her life and our system and the stigma failed her miserably. She had a beautiful life with hopes of becoming a nurse, wife and Mamma. She loved with her whole heart and is loved by so many.. every minute of every day she is missed horribly.. To the moon and back Mamma loves you baby girl ❤

Dear Jason,
Dad and I and your friends I talk to love and miss you so much. We want to hug you so much. You are in our hearts forever.
Love and hugs,
Mom and Dad♥️🙏🦋🕊

For each of you that this Epidemic has taken, gone too soon…today, tomorrow, forever…I Remember. With you is a piece of my heart, always.

My son Austin Blake Bordeaux would be 21 years old today. Austin was given a fatal shot of drugs on August 15, 2018 he was on life support until August 23, 2018 . That day my whole world fell out from underneath me. My family and I will never be the same. We miss him soo much, my heart is forever broken. There is an emptiness in our family now that no one can or will ever fill but My son Austin. I decided to donate his organs i know how much Austin loved life and i know he would be proud to know that he saved 3 womens lives by doing so. Austin wasn’t a bad kid, he never judged anyone and would give anything he had if he thought it would save someone or help someone in need, he had a lot of love in him for people (even a stranger) and for life, but because of drugs my son lost his life, and i forever will be a mom with a broken heart { Austins ) mom and my family and i will forever miss him. In Memory Of My Son Austin Blake Bordeaux 6/18/99 – 8/23/18 Rest In Peace Son / Gone But Never Forgotten

Dear Josh,

I feel like time has frozen for me since July 3, 2020, when I got a phone call about your passing. I saw that you had tried to call me that night and sent me a flurry of text messages that I never got the chance to respond to because I was asleep, lost in deathless death. I have so much guilt and there is nothing that I wouldn’t give to have answered that call, even if it didn’t end up preventing what happened, just so I could hear your voice once again. I miss you every hour of every day. You didn’t realize how charismatic you could be; I’ve never seen anyone get out of trouble more. Your sense of humour was hilarious. You were generous. You took care. We talked a lot about our futures and I felt how much you wanted all the things that we would spitball. You will be frozen in my mind forever at 28, gone far far too soon, departing us mere mortals who were kept in awe of you, you who seemed to be able to transcend us all when you were focused on a particular cause or topic. You were a very special person and I wish I could have thanked you for being a part of my life and let you know how much I truly loved you.

Alex

My son Michael died of a fentanyl/heroin poisoning overdose on 3/3/19. He was 40yrs young……..he died alone in a motel room. A big part of me died that day with my son……please save our children from dying this horrific death!!!!

I miss your bright smile and always warmed everybody’s hearts. It’s been two and a half years and I miss you as much today is the day I found out you were gone. You are always in my heart and I would love you forever till I get to see you again.
Love mom

My tribute is for my little sister Dana Rae Bertram- Jenkins. 2/28/80- 2/11/07 she passed away at age 26 years old from a opioid drug overdose. She left behind two sons age 3 and 10. She was such a social butterfly, never meeting a stranger and brought happiness and positivity with her everywhere she went. She was a sister, daughter, mother and friend and will forever be missed.

Jenny Swindell,I only met you briefly a few times in 2018,but I seen ur beautiful ,amazing ,loving character,you loved your daughter zaydie tons☹️,but the struggle is far too real,my heart is broken at the fact your gone and i’ll never be able to see or talk to u ever again☹️ I know had we had more time together 💔 things cuda really went different babe,lots of love and respect alwaysxoxoxxo

Rob, I know things were hard, and I truly wanted to believe things would get better. You were so strong, and outspoken with people – your mannerisms, the way you treated people – and especially me, your Mother. I never, ever doubted that you loved me unconditionally, as I loved you.

You will always be my baby, your life ALWAYS mattered, and your life, for me and for your brothers, will always matter …you were a part of who we are and we will never forget you.

Be strong up there, and help others, and I look forward to getting the largest hug in the world when I see you again.

Until then, my son, rest peacefully and I hope and pray you are finally free.

All my love, now and always, your Mother (and brothers Nick and Jeff)

I know how hard you tried, my sweet angel Kyle. I know how you hated the person that addiction made you. I know how much you loved us, and wanted to beat this demon to the curb. As a loving, grieving mama, I want the world to know that you mattered. That addicts are not just “junkies”…that they are beautiful, loving, giving, talented souls. They are sons, daughters, husbands, wives, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends. No matter how hard you tried, the drugs won. Awareness and resources needs to be amped up!!!!!!

I cannot believe I won’t ever get to see you or talk to you again. You sounded so positive and happy the last time we spoke. You were fighting to stay sober. I know the pain of losing your mom was something you hadn’t gotten over. I just wish I could have done something, anything. I wish I had known you needed me. I love you Lori Lee Mahoney and I’ll never forget the good memories. I hope your soul is at peace now. 💖♥️💛

December 6 2018 My heart was broken with the loss of my beautiful boy Zach. Just one mistake took your life and broke my heart. Missing you laugh the word, Hey brough sorry sorry Mom Love you Mom

Miss you everyday every hour every minute My Heart is broken

RJ Beard you were the light of my life; the reason for my every breath. For years I watched you struggle and fight. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t make it right. I know now it was your dragon to sleigh. I didn’t know how to survive when you went away; some days it still feels the same today. I miss your laughter, sarcasm, your amazing hugs, and your laughter. I was not to bury you. You were to go after. May you be at peace my baby boy; may you have found your joy. Until I see you and hold you again my heart will ache and tears will fall. For me there is no acceptance of this at all. I love you and miss you my baby boy; you were and always will be my joy.

Our son, Andrew, should be remembered for helping so many others through the disease of addiction who remain sober to this date. He had a big heart, smile, and soul, and we won’t ever let him be forgotten through the peace that the happy memories bring 🙏❤️

The Addiction Recovery Foundation dba Samo’s Soldiers is a foundation created in memory of Stephen Alexander Mehrer.

Our mission is to provide resources to those battling addiction in a variety of ways like providing sober housing, education, medication assistance and scholarships. Please like our Facebook page and follow us @ www.facebook.com/samossoldiers

Here’s Steve’s story:

Our son Steve’s 7 year battle with addiction ended when he died on October 8, 2017 in West Palm Beach, Florida. His story is one that is repeated way too often each and every day across the country. The story is more like a book because for 7 years he criss-crossed the country trying to outrun the disease. All the while, his Mom and I thought that with our prayers and God’s love he could beat the beast. We were wrong.

Steve was born in Kansas City and lived in Houston, Detroit and Columbus during his time with us. He was the first born to my wife Cara and me and the first grandchild to both of our parents.

He made friends easily and often, having fun and excelling in sports. He played travel baseball for the Spring Klein Astros, the Dublin Greensox and the Columbus Cobras. The Astros and Cobras won World Series titles. He was so proud to represent the Cobras and win the HomeRun Derby at age 14 in the USSSA World Series.

But football was his true love. He played for the Canton Lions, Grizzell Rocks, Dublin Jerome Celtics and Kent State Golden Flashes. He earned All Ohio football honors at Jerome and earned seven Division 1 scholarship offers. He was so excited to keep “living the dream”.

Then he severely injured his shoulder and required complete reconstuctive surgery. His season was over and so was his dream.

As part of the recovery, he was prescribed multipe prescriptions of Oxycodone for pain managment and was never the same again. The disease had started to control him.

He had to RedShirt his first year to rehabilitate his shoulder and that gave him too much free time. He fell into the depths of depression. Once the prescriptions ran out, he switched to illegal street drugs to feed his addiction. It was awful, yet there was nothing we could do.

He ended up leaving Kent State after his Sophomore season. Then after a few months convinced us that he wanted to give football another try. So he enrolled at the JUCO powerhouse, Iowa Western. They were notorious for feeding programs like Arkansas, TCU, Ole Miss, Kansas State and Iowa with JUCO transfers.

But he was addicted and this was just his way of masking the disease. He left school before the first game and moved back home to Columbus. Iowa Western went on to win the National Championship that season and 23 players were picked up by Division 1 programs.

After a few months of treatment and counseling, he convinced us he wanted to try baseball again. In our eyes he was always a better baseball player than football player anyway, so we believed. Mostly, because we wanted to and a number of his Greensox and Cobra teammates were playing college baseball at places like Michigan, Kansas State and Butler.

I shopped around for a few weeks emailing and talking with coaches to stir up some interest and because of his successful baseball background, I was able to land him an offer at Arkansas Baptist, a JUCO in Little Rock, Arkansas.

In his first at bat, at the first practice he got a fastball and ripped it 420 ft. over the left center field fence…….I’m in the stands thinking, “Are you kidding me? My boy is back!”

Unfortunately, that was the highlight of the Arkansas Baptist experience. It turned out to be the same story we’d been living. He started using again and eventually got busted for possession of Xanax.

Cara flew to Little Rock the next morning and we immediately enrolled him in a 6 month rehab program in California. This would be his first of 5 trips to rehab during his 7 year battle.

Please help us fight the good fight against this incredibly destructive disease. We can’t give up. We believe that with funding and education we can help many others in need.

Steve we are proud of everything you were. You inspired everyone you met. We will continue to preserve your legacy by helping others fight their battle.

Love Mom and Dad.

Our son, Samuel Justin Kane, passed from a drug overdose 7-8-2020. This is breaking our hearts! He was a sweet, handsome man with great intellect, warm smile all the time, hard worker, loving, loving, loving. He was born in Moore Co., NC but lived in Lee Co. except for the last few years of his life. We miss him terribly.

A piece of my heart left on November 15, 2018. Trey your infectious smile and amazing heart will forever be etched in the minds of all those you encountered. We miss you Yertiii! See you later!

7-9-2020 was your 2nd Heavenly Anniversary my son!! Thank you for the visit in the form of a Dragon Fly! You sat in the same exact spot as your Cardinal Angel sat the day before you left!! Now I wear Your Dragon Fly Charm around my neck every day! It’s like being hugged from you my baby boy! I Love You More and Miss You Every Moment Of Every Day Tony 💗😇💜9-9-1984—7-9-2018

My youngest brother passed away 3 years ago leaving behind a wife and a 2 year old son.
He was the greatest joy to my life and I know we all miss him everyday.

RIP my love!

I’m incredibly proud of my daughter. Hope Saunders was a force to be reckoned with. I never have and never will define Hope’s life by how she died. Her life, for me, and for so many of her friends, is defined by how she lived. She was a beacon of light, to many, in this otherwise, dark and troublesome world. Her spirit, her spunk, her tenacity, her panache was rivaled by virtually none.

Hope is beautiful, witty, strong, fearless and altruistic.

Fly high, fly free baby girl.

Love Mom

I have lost many due to drug overdoses. The last 4 all being 30 and younger. May y’all rest in peace. Still holds y’all dear to me in my heart n you’ll never be forgotten.

This is a tribute to my beautiful daughter Kirsten Nicole Yamaoka. Kirsten died on March 1, 2017 from a heroin overdose, it was her birthday. She is forever 21, always loved never forgotten.
Love you my princess.

We miss you and love you Josh. Always in our hearts❤

My son Jordan Riley Levine died on March 27, 2020 from a drug overdose. I am having difficulty dealing with the death of my only child. Some days I am ok and others I am a mess. Today I am a mess and I was searching for outreach when I found this site. I miss him so very much, sometimes it seems to hurt physically. I pray for other parents who have gone through this and I pray that no other parent would ever have to feel this pain.

In loving memory of my son and Matt’s loving brother, Patrick Andrew Hilend
Born July 9, 1990
Lost his brave battle to heroin on Dec. 10, 2014
He is missed each day as much as the day before.

11/22/90 to 03/25/17 Nick was an amazing soul, who loved life and simple pleasures. He loved to hunt wild mushrooms, being in his garden, hiking, camping and sending time with his friends and family. He never met a stranger, once he met you he called you his friend. He would give you the shirt off of his back and in one case he did because the person didn’t have a Grateful Dead shirt. I miss him playing his drum in the garden at sunset and his beautiful smile.

All the pain this life brought, all the struggle and hardship. You still managed to find joy. I now live by that virtue. You felt and understood beyond any human being I have ever known. Challenged me in ways unprecedented. You have absolutely blessed my life beyond measure. One year it’s been…through all the tears, and heartbreak, I have finally had the most profound revelation on my journey. To live!!! Live harder than ever, for the both of us. To appreciate and honor your life by waking every single day and smiling at the sky. Choosing to live in the light of all you gave me and the beauty of your life. I will always, and you will forever be missed, valued, loved, and appreciated my son.

You are free my beautiful blue eyed boy. You soar so high. You deserve peace. You deserve to be acknowledged in every single beautiful moment. You are in everything. The tree limbs still carry your words in the wind, your presence in the warmth of the sun, the beauty in each sunrise/sunset, and in the butterflies dancing. You will always be the most treasured and precious gift. I love you Dev! ❤️🔥🦅

We Miss You Every day.
If you ever ask how drugs effect someone
Imagine your loved ones crying over your body.
Having to live, life without someone they never pictured living without.
You will never be at my best woman atwedding
You will never see my baby in the future being born.
You will never be my birthday party again.
If i could talk to God id tell him he made a mistake
Id beg him for one more day with you.
Id wish i could hug you tighter
And tell you how much I love you
One more time….
So before you decide to pick up that drug or needle one more time
Think about how it would feel , how your loved ones would feel….
The pain that it would cause. To love without you everyday.
This is a tribute to my sister Ines Sambucini
Who died at 31 of an overdose on Jan 18, 2020.
I wish i never had to write this tribute.
We love and miss you every single day….

Mom, I still miss you now, and forever, rest in eternal peace. We all make mistakes, but I wish you hadn’t made that one which ended your wonderful life. I know though in my heart that you were never an addict, so I will never hold that against you, and no one else should either, goodbye forever, and thank you for everything over the years. 🙁 Florence Mullo (1943-2016)

I miss you every second of everyday Luke Johnson forever 22 💔

Stephen Athletic, Musically Gifted, Compassionate, ASE Certified Master Tech-Could wire up anything, Helpful, Sports – New anything sports related, Ravens Fan, Orioles Fan, Tractor Pulling Fan, Devoted Bro, Best Uncle, Son, Grandson and Friend. Missed and Loved beyond measure!

RJ Beard – Forever 25 & Never forgotten – We love and miss you always!

Remembering with love our younger son and brother, Robin, who tragically died from an accidental heroin overdose on 18 November 1997 aged 27
Heroin has lost her hold over you,
but we will never lose you as we will always hold you close in our hearts forever.
love, Mum, Dad & Sean xxxx

Dear Robbie,
Not a day has gone by that you were not in the forefront of my thoughts. If only, If only, if only……
I miss you son, save me a seat in heaven.
Love, mom

Drugs took my 30 yr old only daughter. Her children and I are heartbroken. We miss her smile, her vibrancy, how she could light a room up. Nothing is the same without you Mandy💔
Fly high beautiful butterfly
Amanda’s mom
4/20/2020

Your gone, but not forgotten. I know you’re much happier where you’re at now. Free from the bondage & pain. We’ll all be together soon my favourite son! Love you, always & forever!

My sister died August 1st 2016 in Salida Colorado. She died from an overdose of Methamphetamine. She left behind 4 sons. Multiple grandchildren. Her sister and her brother and her mother. She is preceded in death by our brother Troy and her father Steve. We miss you Chrissy. Every single day. I have you with me all the time. I keep your memorabilia close to me. I keep waiting for that day to come when you call me at 2 am. But I know that day will never come again. This is the 4 year anniversary of your passing and it still doesn’t seem real. We love you and miss you lady….may you always rest in eternal peace. Your loving sister Jodi Keyes

For my Michael, who died in his beloved Chicago, way too soon.
3/11/80 – 8/12/18
Hope you’re cracking them up in Heaven! 🙏💗🙏 mom

My daughter Catherine Shepard was beautiful, young & energetic! She had a wild spirit. I called her my gypsy because of her care-free soul & she loved to travel. She lost her battle on 2~28~19, just 3 days after her 26th Birthday. She was poisoned by fentanyl. My heart is forever broken. I miss her every minute of every day!
2~25~93
2~28~19
#Forever26 💔
#YouShouldBeHere
#GoneButNeverForgotten
Missed so much by her family & friends. 😭💔

In honor of my son,Casey Allen Stoddard
8/13/98—3/26/19

I miss you dad so much, the girls miss you so, we all love you and wish you were still here

Kyle, my baby boy, my best friend, I miss you more and more each day. You suffered so much with your addiction. Hopefully you are now at peace…love you, Mom

Jojo. I miss you so much and you were loved by so many. I would like to thank your body for allowing me to be in your presence for 27 years. I hope to see you one day in the afterlife. Love Mom

I lost my husband to an overdose in February. On my birthday actually. He had been struggling for a minute with his addiction and had gotten to the point where he didn’t really care too much anymore. He didn’t do it on purpose but I think he was to the point if he did too much he did too much. No big deal. I miss him and hope he’s finally at peace and can go back to the way he use to be. U will never be forgotten. Love forever.

I lost my sister on May 11, 2020 in Michigan due to an accidental overdose. She was struggling for years with addiction and I fought very hard for her. It has been the most devastating thing I’ve ever had to face. Planning her funeral and making sure she had a place to rest peacefully. I never wanted to lose her. It hurts more than I ever imagined. Keep fighting for your loved ones and never give up. When you reach the point of giving up, I’ve come to realize they will give up too. Never stop trying. Never back down. They need you to fight for them. It might be the only thing that’s keeping them here.

My son Richard was 30 years old. He took what he thought were two percocet but they were actually fentanyl and the friends that gave him the pills waited 3 hours to call the ambulance. He was pronounced dead at 1:30 am June 21, 2017. My son will never be a husband or a father but he was an amazing son, uncle, nephew, cousin, and brother. I miss him every minute of everyday. Until we meet again.

Brett Nadler will be in our hearts forever. He will be remembered for the true person he was, not by the disease he suffered from. He saw the good in all and was the first person to spread love and kindness. His passion for animals, his quit wit, his ear for language, his travels, his ability to light up any room will forever be remembered. 02/09/90-05/14/18

On May 2,2020, I lost you Monk, my best friend, my husband, my kids dad, my soul mate to an overdose. I love and miss you so much baby.Never be forgotten. Fly High. Fly High.

Jordan Spencer Clark… Sunday you would have turned 25 yrs old. I think of all that could have been, should have been, and what I wished had been. Who am I ? But these are honest thoughts and feelings I deal with, and I find it feels so unfair, as I’m sure it feels the same for all these other people who post tributes to loved ones and friends. Yes Jordan, I wish you were here to celebrate your 25th, and yet I’m thankful you are at peace and no longer struggling with all the chains that held you down while you were here.
Heroin took you away Mate and you left a Huge Hole in so many hearts. Your family for starters. Anyway Happy Birthday Jordan!!!
Know you are loved, You are missed, and always in my thoughts. Rest in Gods Love and Give Mom a hug for me and tell her I love her and to do the same for you! I Love You Buddy…little more…

My nephew, Brendan McGovern, overdosed on Oct. 6, 2014 and now resides in a group home for people with brain injuries. Brendan now has little memory of past events, no ability to make new memories, and needs 24/7 care. I miss his wry and witty sense of humor, his love of cats, the Beatles, and reading novels. What I miss about him the most is his curiosity as an almost college grad embarking on this journey we call life. You know, the lost opportunities for him to hang out with his brother and parents, get his first “real” job after graduating, visit me in New Mexico, and likely get married and have kids, go back to school for a graduate degree, buy a house, and land the job that he absolutely loves. My last memory of Brendan before this accident was at a family cookout in Indiana, when Brendan was particularly full of joy that day. We were playing bocce ball and Brendan was being playful and goofy throwing the ball and interacting with others in his Grandma and Grandpa’s yard. I, along with his entire family, miss the old Brendan dearly. My heart aches every day for him.

I miss you every day son, all 6 foot 2 eyes of blue of you.
Every day a tear is shed, they are precious reminders of everything you were and everything you now are.
I’m jealous of the light because it illuminates you now and is part of you, it sees you, I can’t.
Yet, your smile and your laugh is now part of the daily loop of memories, they are forever mine.

Erik my only child was an old soul and he was kind, had a beautiful spirit, was smart, handsome, talented and very creative. He could talk to anyone, he was engaging and could be very charming. Kids loved him and he was always kind to those less fortunate than he was. He loved animals and considered himself a “Crazy Cat Person” but really had dogs all his life!?! He was a very creative writer and turned many of his writings into versions of rap songs. Baseball was his thing and he could give you every stat from the early beginnings of baseball to current players. But he really was an avid sports fan in general. Boy was he a Tom Brady fan but we won’t hold that against him, hahaha. He played Little League Baseball, Pop Warner Football, All Stars and Travel Ball until High School and then he played Freshman and Junior Baseball and Football. He did MMA and bodybuilding for a bit of time too. Not only did he participate in sports but he went to hundreds of MLB games, countless NFL games, Strikeforce, Bellator, Glory, UFC, WCK events. Supercross, Monster Truck and Nitro Circus events. San Diego Comic Con, college Bowl games! He traveled to Canada, New York, Florida, Colorado, Philadelphia, Hawaii, Arizona, Las Vegas. He has also held down a job since he was 16 at a few different spots and we were very proud of his work ethic. Went in on his days off and worked anytime time they needed him. He had a great life, great friends, nice girlfriends and family that loved him no matter what! Sadly the start of his demise was an injury in H.S. and he was prescribed Oxycodone. It took a few years before it was visibly noticeable that there was an issue but now being 19 we could not force him into rehab or get him to admit he had a problem. At that point he started to slowly progress to heroin and cocaine and finally adding fentanyl into the mix. Things were looking up and we got him to go into rehab but at day 86 on June 5th 2020 he left and 1 week later on June 12th 2020 he died from an overdose.
WHAT I MISS MOST ABOUT MY SON IS EVERYTHING!!!

We miss you Justin so much….it had been just over a year now July 01/19 that you were taken from us by Fentanyl . You kept trying to get on your feet so many times & have that normal life you craved for. But in the end the struggle got the better of you and you relapsed. I wish there was not a poisoned drug supply out there because so many lives would still be with us. I did not view his death as an overdose because Fentanyl was present. He did not stand a chance….
Till we meet again darling which I am sure we will…xoxooxox Mum

This afternoon – six hours ago, your sister called me. She was frantic. I asked if she was okay, and she said your name. I knew. Police said it was a heroin overdose, but I know this isn’t you. You carried me through my addiction, and you carried me through the darkest places I’ve been in my life. Of the fifteen plus years I’ve known you – I’ve been clean almost ten years now, in Grace to you – and I now know you more intimately because of my addiction. It was only months ago we celebrated my birthday together. This is not real, and I’m still lying to myself that I’ll see you soon in Chicago. I can’t imagine life without you. My heart aches for you. You were my guardian angel on Earth for years, and I know God has called you home to be an angel to many more. I pray that I see you again, brother. I love you.

Remembering a freind who overdosed and didnt make it RIP. Your son is doing great you would be so proud of him.

Mark we miss you everyday. Heroin addiction was not who you were. You were a father who loved his children. A son who was loving, hilarious, not afraid to try anything, from climbing tall trees as a young boy and jumping ramps. As an adult you taught your son woodworking skills . You played ball, rode bikes and went out on the boat with your daughter and son. Good memories! I loved you then and I love you now my son.
Mom

MADISON
In loving memory of my son Joseph P. Deane taken by a fentanyl overdose December 7, 2018. Joe is missed beyond words and will always be remembered as having fought the disease of addiction with the heart of a lion.

Dear Justin,

Everyday we celebrate you and honor your legacy. Everyday we thank you for the many gifts you gave to us because you were in our lives. Everyday we think of memories of you that make us laugh, smile or cry. Everyday we miss you. Everyday we love you. Please keep looking after us and guiding us towards happiness.

We all love you so much!

❤️ ,
Us🐾

Remembering my beloved son Dane who died June 23 2018 from an overdose. He struggled for many years with his addiction. Never gave up. He had the biggest heart. He would light up any room. He would give you the shirt off his back. He was funny, he was kind, never judgemental in any way. I miss his hey mom. I miss his hugs. I wish I could have him back.

Tonias Jerome Wells
His Life Mattered
3/7/1980 – 11/2/2016

Wow, it’s been almost 6 months since you have been gone and it is still hard for me to deal with at times. Nate, my bestfriend I miss you so much words can’t even explain how I feel. I wish I could have one more day with you, one more hug, see your face, hear your voice, one more everything with you. You will always be in my heart and my thoughts. I love you and miss you so much❤

We lost my amazing, kind, funny, loving brother to a drug overdose on 6/5/2020. He left behind two amazing sons as well as myself and our older sister and both my mom and dad! I am an addict in recovery and I tried every day to get my brother to join me in recovery, but he just couldn’t fight away those demons he had. Our whole family is completely heartbroken. I miss him SO much! My life will never be the same! I love and miss you everyday Thomas Scott McIntyre 💜💜💜

Tina my beautiful fiancee,
My fiancee Tina Louise Decker died
July 28, 2017 from a Fentanyl overdose.
She will forever be in my heart. God blessed me because I, for a short period of time got to be a part of her world. I got to observe the way she worked, I got to observe the care she put into every detail, every word, every moment. She was beautiful down to the bone, she turned life into a marvellous event. She made life uncomplicated in a very flawed, complicated world of human beings, money, family, and text massaging. She was an artist in her own rite, she could see and hear things that no one else could, but what amazed me was her ability to defend and cultivate her vision, she was tender, kind, generous and she knew how to fight for what she wanted, she was beautiful, she was love.
Fentanyl related deaths rose 120% in 2016.
It took the love of my life. Tina I will always love you. Baby rest in peace , someday we will be together again.
Love Nathan

Daniel,
I died inside the day you died
I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you
I love you so much
You are my only son
Words can express
what you meant to us
your friends and family
we’re so fortunate
to have known
Your caring loving presence
Indeed it was a treasure
everyone was drawn to you
To have you around was a pleasure
Your words were always so wisely spoken
Even when you were joking
You’re appreciated so much for the friend you were
for the loving, honest, and helpful son and brother you were
You helped people in need
You wore your heart on your sleeve
You are missed so much
To lose you was such a loss
If I could I would take your place
no parent should ever go through this
the inability to protect
can make anyone feel helpless
for the pain never goes
son your life is more important than you know
I will protect your memory
myself and my precious family’s
I may question God why you are gone but I still believe
We will meet again
some sunny day
Love Always,
Mom

My good childhood friend died yesterday 6/22/2020. I love you Robbie. You were the life of every party and such a beautiful man.

My baby sister April lost her life to fentanyl on 5/05/20. She dealt with alot of pain and suffering here. She was diagnosed with HIV and depression got to her. I tried making her to stop, but it wasn’t enough. She listened to her so called friends more than us. I feel like I failed as a brother. Hope God forgave my sister for doing fentanyl to ease her pain. She was even reading scriptures before she passed. She wasn’t a bad person. She took care of our Grandmother with alzheimers for her last days. She was always there if you need something or someone to talk to. Sucks she’s gone. She was 25 years old. I love you April rest in Heaven.

MELBOURNE
David was 30 when he died of an overdose on December 31st 2018.
He tried Fentynal for the first time and had a “hot dose”
His love and legacy will always remain present in our hearts.
We miss him so much!!! Gone too soon.

My son Steven …god i miss you so much ! Just the thought of you not here tears just roll ..you are an amazing man i couldn’t have asked for anything more..you will always be my hero…i love you so much Steven there’s no words to express the sorrow. And pain we all feel now that you left us..i know your in a beautiful place taking care of nephew Mason ..there’s not a day that goes by i don’t think of you my son ..nov 23 2019 a part of me died with you.. ..i love you son and i miss you so much

BEN MUST ALWAYS BE REMEBERED HE DIED AT 16 YEARS OF AGE.
INNOCENT AND UNAWARE OF WHAT HE WAS GETTING INTO.
DRUGS ARE A MONSTER

I lost my big brother, my only sibling, my lifetime friend, a part of my heart, and the only person who knows my life like I do, on October 18, 2016 to a pill tainted with fentanyl. I miss him so much that it feels like there is an actual hole in my chest that aches and all that time does is help me learn to hide it from people. Its the only way I can make it and not upset my kids. I have so many unanswered questions and also regrets. I had done drugs before my children were born, but when I became a mother I found my reason for living that I could risk losing to drugs. This caused me to push my brother away instead of being what I should have been to him, and we weren’t on good terms. And now, because I couldn’t see past myself, we will not be until I see him again. That haunts me. My two oldest sons lost their friend and uncle. My youngest son and only daughter never got to meet their uncle and will forever miss out and knowing the other half of me that’s missing. In four years I haven’t had a day go by that I haven’t thought about him at least 3 times. He wasn’t just another overdose statistic. He isn’t just a memory. I love and miss you so much Bryan.
Honoring Bryan Edward Siegel
July 3rd, 1975 – October 18th, 2016

Clarance Conaway my uncle he was 31 forever in our hearts gone to soon you are loved and missed everyday

My darling son,our world shattered to pieces when you were found dead from a tainted pill with Fentanyl 5/16/2019.You brought so much joy and love into our life the moment you arrived into this huge world 9/22/1989.You had a heart of gold,compassion,a true sole.You had so much to live for and you did not want to die, with no idea that what was in that supply was a lie that caused you to die. Not an addict, but made a choice that forever took your voice to say “I would be here today if i was not swayed, if i had strayed away, if i had never tried ,if i knew what was iniside that blue pill that would make me die, i would never of tried cause i had every reason to be alive! I love you Zak

It has been two months April 1,2020, since my beautiful son was suddenly taken from his brothers and me. I had no warning or signs just ” mom; I am going to take a nap ” and save my dinner. I kept Aj’s favorite dinner breaded chicken cutlet. The next late morning, we checked on him only to find him unresponsive. The autonomy report revealed it was a mix of Oxy, Xanax, and 36 ng/mL of fentanyl, which was cut into his one pill. Aj did not plan on dying, and these illegal drug dealers need to be stopped. My heart ❤️ breaks every day. Kids need to know and adults that one pill can Kill!!! His beautiful girlfriend and grandparents had NO clue. My promise to Aj is to get justice; we are working with a detective and make a message out of this sudden and unexpected tragedy. 😢#my forever 24! I can say I loved and supported Aj always with boundaries. Pray for my family 🙏🙏🙏 .

Dear Steve, I can’t begin to tell you how much I miss you. My days are filled with memories. Your sweet and caring nature and always reaching out to help others are ways you made this world a better place. Hope you are now in a world without pain and live in peace and happiness. Love, Mom

I lost my daughter Sarah to overdose on May 3rd after a very long battle to addiction. The family closest battled right along with her through a revolving door of detoxes , rehabs, times intubated, rapes, beatings. She suffered. The effects if the disease go to the core of soul. For us ,the pain watching your loved one try to cope and get better is gut wrenching. Now the pain of losing her is the worse pain imaginable.
She would have been 34 on August 31st.
She will forever be loved
Her life mattered
Love Sarah’s Mama
Pam

It’s been almost nine months since I lost you and there is never a day that goes by that you’re not with me or our children in our hearts and thoughts. You knew how much I feared losing you and no matter what I tried to do to protect you… I could never succeed in saving you. I miss you so much and you were the love of my life. I wish I could have met you before you did drugs and maybe I could have saved you then. I knew the day you died that something was wrong because of our immensely rare and unbreakable bond. I knew it and I had wished so badly that I was wrong. I’m glad I gave you the happiest times of your life and the only love you ever felt you received in life. I will never take back the happiness I was able to give you and real love. The kids and I all miss you entirely too much and love you to no end. You’re with us everyday!♡ I hope you’re free from your pain and suffering. The only time I will be is when I’m reunited with you. You will always be my baby babe. I will forever be in love with you Mark Christopher Brunelle.
November 2, 1988 – September 5, 2019. ♡
Please keep the kids and I safe♡
I wish you could be here to help with Cael since he is just like you and I fear for when he is your age. I truly hope you guide him down the right path and away from drugs. Please♡

My son Nick ended his life on Tuesday , May 12, 2020. Nick was such a beautiful, kind and loving young man. He was an excellent athlete, a wonderful artist and lettered in academics in high school. Nick went on to Chico State where he was working on an engineering degree. He was the loving son of Rick Rinetti, a caring older brother to his sister Jaime and his brother Casey. He was an incredibly loving son and the light of his mom’s life. Throughout his adult life, Nick struggled with addiction issues, but more than that, he fought valiantly. Addiction is a fierce beast and Nick fought hard. He worked a strong recovery program and was very involved with AA. I believe that all of this isolation due to the Coronavirus helped to enhance Nicks’s loneliness. Our AA communities really depend on each other for strength and support and during these days of not being able to gather together, it has taken a toll on those who depend on each other for that support.
Nick was a beautiful young man, who woke up every day focused on living his best and healthiest life.
Nick fought a heroic battle with addiction. He had many sober months, but his disease had a powerful hold on him. Nick did not want to leave this world, what he wanted was a life without fear, shame, and pain.
A part of me went with Nick that day and now I will spend time trying to turn this pain into purpose. I love you son and will honor your life in the fight against this horrible disease and the STIGMA that comes with it.

I lost my mother, Tammy Morey 46, April 13, 2016. I was only 25 years old. She was given a different drug then what she believed she had purchased. My father almost died the same day. He passed out and she brought him back by doing CPR. Once he woke up they said she fell out. I remember everything about that day. She was an amazing women. A loving mother and grandmother. She was so full of life.

I lost my son 4/27/18. He was almost 11 months clean. For some reason I will never know why he used twice that day, the second time fatal. He did not know the second dose had enough fentanyl in it to kill 4 grown people. A loving father of a 7 year old son, working full time, and would help anyone who needed it. He took a piece of my heart with him that day. I miss him so much. One day at a time mom, he would tell me. One day at a time. Mike’s mom forever 30.

What perfect timing, as today is the exact day I received that life changing phone call, you know the one that begins your nightmare you never expected or knew was possible and today is also the day I hold a memorial gathering every year to remember my only child and daughter, Morgan Lynn Dobson /Thompson born Dec 12th 1985 on her Uncle Joes BD, she would have been 35 yo this year but due to the pandemic I’m not able to hold her memorial so this is a fitting day for me to find this tribute page. As with most of you, the day my daughter was born was the best day of my life, she was perfect , born days before Christmas by C-section, she was the perfect gift. She was beautiful, with a full head of thick dark brown hair, big brown eyes and a cherubic face with chubby cheeks. I was d/ced early and insisted we stop for pictures on the way home so I’d have them by Christmas to give as gifts, pictures, as they turned out, are worth their weight in gold, they spark the memory to remember the good times (and bad at times) the memories that keep her alive. She held her head up to the camera that day she was three days old and it amazed the photographer that she was that alert and strong, she hit the ground running and never looked back, she was bright, funny, very outgoing , she was talented , had a beautiful singing voice and loved to sing. She could walk into a room and it would light up, (at least I thought so) spoiled and my world. I was a single Mom but my daughter wanted for little, she made friends easily, she loved to dance, ride horses and took ballet and jazz lessons when very young, she remained friends through out the school years and into adulthood with the same couple of girls she met in 1st grade. She was a loyal friend. It was that friendly outgoing personality and willingness to talk to everyone that brought her face to face with the demon, heroin, that caused her grief for many years and and stole her youth , eventually taking her life at the age of 29. I found that she was using when she was only 17 years old. She went to rehab but eventually relapsed and ultimately took her life . Her struggles are over, a life full of potential gone in a minute. She has missed out on so many things. Her absence leaves a hollow place in our hearts, she is loved beyond measure and not a day goes by that I/we don’t think or her and miss her. I can only hope and believe she is in a better place, free from harm and pain, no struggles, just peace and light and love. She lives in the world of Angels now, watching down on us from above, she is the sunshine that warms my face during the day and the light from the stars and moon that guide my way at night. She is my life, my love, my daughter. In your memory I give tribute to you; Morgan Lynn Thompson/Dobson Dec 12, 1985 – May 28th 2014.

I lost my beautiful son Justin to an overdose. He was only 33. The evil drug that killed him was Fentanyl. He leaves behind a daughter and a little sister. We miss him so much. Not a day goes by that he is not thought of. His passion was Flying and there is no doubt he is Flying with the Angel’s now. 💔 Miss You Justin Robert #JR

Chris R Shreve Jr Sadly …my childrens father,,was vicim to an accidental overdose. Fentanyl was the Evil that stole him from our lives so suddenly…and we will forever miss and need his love,and company. Gone far too soon …We love and miss you you Christopher…I still can’t believe your gone….Love Lisa, Chey, Aiden and Anthony RIP

My beautiful boy Sebby Haroutunian Passed away on 1/5/2020 just a few weeks before his 21st birthday. He was my only son and my only child. I miss him with all of my heart and soul every second of every day. He was so handsome and smart and funny and had his whole life ahead of him. He will never know the joy of having a child of his own. Mom loves you Sebby, and I can’t wait to see you on the other side. Rest in paradise my sweet boy.

My dearest love and best friend Jason Young Scottsdale az..I can’t believe it’s been over 10 yrs I’ve been missing u..at times I’m still not sure how to manage without u on our journey through life..it has been so hard without u..Jason, our girl is almost 13 now and she is so much like u. You gave me a life to love. You gave me a beautiful loving happy future..I never said thank you. You will live on in my heart and soul in every one of my thoughts until were together once again..I wish u really knew how much u forever gave me..I love u so much and Jalynn too…xoxo to Rubin heaven..you are an amazing person Jason I love u forever

”Madison Heights” Chris Donegon was born 2/1/1983 Died 11/13/2015. Chris had a rough life at one point in time. He susceeded at alot of stuff, he was a great father a hard-worker and always new what to say to you when you were struggling with something. Chris was 32 when he passed. Chris lost his big brother a couple years before his passing. Chris did a 43 day bitt in oakland county jail for simple assault. Chris relapsed within his first 24 hours out of prison, overdosing on fentanyl and herion. Wanted to get a tribute out there for him thank you.

My Sunshine u will be so missed I love u my dear friend I hope u have found ur peace! we lost a beautiful soul. 5/15/20 lost but never forgotten

My son overdosed two weeks ago on fentyl overdose, I know he did not know what he purchased that evening. He has a four month old daughter that he love so much and was such a good father , and I know for a fact that he was sold this knowing that it was something else and I know who sold it to him and I report this to the law but no one seem to care, they just look at them as druggies but they are so much more than that. My son was a very loving caring person, who would help anyone , who worked hard ever since he was 16 in the coal mines. I love my son, he was my only child and I found him dead. I will never be the same, my whole life is crushed, and since my sons death there have been I know of 5 others.

Jordan Spencer Clark, Sunday was Mothers Day, I went and got flowers for Mom’s grave and a shepherds hook to hang chime, it’s like the one I hung at your grave buddy. While standing in line to pay I noticed everyone had fresh flowers they were buying for their Moms and it made me sad, envious, maybe jealous as they had their Mom here and this was my second year where Mom’s flowers for Mothers Day was placed on her grave. Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful they ( everyone I saw ) have their mothers present, it just hurt, that’s all. I miss being able to talk to you Jordan and I miss you more than there are stars.
I have the cd part 2 almost done. I think you would like it as its about you. A lot of sad songs of course yet you would know how much I cared for you Mate! That I love you and miss you!!! Rest in Gods Love my dear friend and know you are Loved and Missed each day. Til next then…

On March 13, 2020, My son Scott was released from prison after 16 months. I could not have been happier. My son, my best friend was finally going to be back home. We surprised his dad and brother at their birthday dinner with his early release. We all cried, so happy to have him home.
March 23, 2020, I found him dead in my family room. He swore he would never use drugs again. He realized after the second time in prison, what that was doing to his life. He promised me. We assumed he had overdosed on heroin again but after receiving the toxicology report we found he had 100% pure fentanyl in his system. I know my son was not that stupid to do a lethal amount of fentanyl so I know he thought was buying cocaine because there was a very slight trace of cocaine in his system and absolutely no heroin. Therefore the person who sold that to my son is responsible for his murder. I will not rest until I find that person and see that justice is done. Too many young people are dying around here because of fentanyl overdoses and I plan on doing something about that even if I fight alone.My son was 29 years old. Old enough to know better so I am in no way blaming anyone for him doing drugs, that is all on him but knowing they were selling him pure fentanyl is meditated murder. I love you Scotty, with all my heart and I miss you so much.

To My Son,
Nicky not a day goes by that we don’t mention your name or tell stories about you. You are loved so very much and with each passing day we miss you more and more. To us this still feels like a nightmare and we try to wake up because we are praying it really is a nightmare. But once we are up we know it was just a dream. We are not ashamed of how you died at all. I am so proud of the son you turned out to be, the brother you turned out to be to your sister. And the husband you turned out to be and I know we would have been proud of the father you would have become. The sad part is this little man will never know his daddy at all. He will never see your face, hear your voice or hear you tell him you love him. All he will have is the memories we’ll tell to him about you. And for this reason I am so sad you have a smile son that would light up a room. That light is no longer with us. All we have our shattered hearts and an empty chair with your name on it. we miss you son and love you very much. Rest easy Nick the demon is gone. Love Mom, your two sisters Paula and Brooklyn. Your wife Amanda and your son little man Baby Richie

My son Edward Osmanski died on March 12th, 2020 at the age of 26 from a fentanyl overdose. He is one of over 2,000 deaths this year from this drug in Florida. My greatest hope is that no one who knew and loved him die the same way. It is truly a pandemic.

On May 9th 20/20 I found my son Jesse past away in his apartment from an overdose I believe was Fentanyl I am waiting on the autopsy report right now I love you so much and miss you so much I know that you’ve had a hard life I hope that you have found peace with God and I know that you’re in the arms of Jesus he had a heart of gold I miss your smile your laugh and your beautiful green eyes I miss you knowing that I can’t have to pack right now it’s killing me you always said you admired my strength and that I was very resilient right now I am not strong it’s very hard everyday without you I pray and pray to see you again in a dream or vision I never ever expected what happened that day to happen and I know in my heart neither did you people have to pay for these overdoses it’s called Murder and a lot of people are getting away with it Sons daughters wives brothers sisters mothers fathers are all passing away because of this Fentanyl and overdoses these people are good people they’re not bad people we all have our demons and it’s very hard how many people to fight them all I know I said I love you I miss you and I want you back so bad I love you forever always and Eternity mom

My son steven ..i miss you so much!! I love you my son..its hard to come to terms with this i am on disbelief..your such a amazing person and im so proud of you my son ..you grew up to be a great man..until we meet again my son..what i would give for one more hug..i love you steven always – love mom

Our son Kyle,passed away October 5 2019 – because of an accidental Fentanyl overdose.
Tomorrow April 29 is Kyles birthday.
He leaves a broken and broken hearted family who loved him dearly.

It’s been a long time, Jeff…so hopelessly broken, dead at 27. Loved, missed. I hope you found peace. Not a day goes by, that I don’t think of you and remember the days we had together in the light. Too beautiful for this world. Until we meet again, rest in peace, sweet man.

Miles Hepper you were the most beautifulest, kind, inspirational, warm, generous, compassionate, and most kind hearted man that I have ever truly loved. You will be in my heart, my mind, and in my memories until the day we meet again. I love you always and forever. You are treasured always. You have done so many wonderful things and brought so much joy to my world. I wanted to grow old with you. You have gone way to soon.
Love always your wife, Heather.

Richard Anthony “Lou” Tidwell finally found lasting peace and silence when he passed this life on March 22, 2020 from an overdose of liquid Morphine Sulfate. His family blocked me from posting to the funeral memorial page, attending his celebration of life, and even removed my name from his viewing registry. I never got to go back to the house or even allowed to collect my things or to even have a moment to stand in the place we shared so much life. I may never know where he is laid to rest or have a single item of his to remind me. And while all attempts to erase who you were, will never change the truth that this man loved him and he loved me. Below is my letter to him.

Baby, The moment You leaped from Carl’s recliner to introduce yourself and well beyond the moment you transitioned from this life with me in your arms sound asleep, I I have and will always love you. I had prepared myself for you to go to Oregon to put an end to these demons and silence their whispers. We knew it Would be but for a season before we were together again. We did not discuss this part of our future because it wasn’t to be this soon. I wish I could awaken from this tragic nightmare or even a prophetic dream for it has proven to be the most traumatic experience of my life. I will cherish your beautiful face illuminated as excitement filled your voice as you so sweetly explain something about biology or chemistry, how you would laugh harder when you heard our similar cackles chime together, how you would pulled me up into your arms spinning & dancing just because we could or me listening around the corner or front & center on the sofa just as if a concert was to started with you unashamedly singing. Oh how I wish I knew the name of the song you would sing the most. When I would heard you singing it, my heart would smile for it signified to me that you were relaxed and happy. Will you whisper that song to me please? I am heartbroken and so angry for now I only find some comfort in that you are at peace no longer haunted with the fear and pain of yesteryears. I Will always be forever blessed with our last words “I Love You!” As you squeezed me up in your arms and I snuggled into you as I replied “I love you too” as I drifting off to sleep. All I desired from the day we meet was for you to know you were worth being loved greatly. Thank you for Loving Me and Touching my Heart to Love Again. I Love & Miss You! I still haven’t accepted my new life without you. We will meet again. Just maybe you could meet me in my Grand Arena with my magic widget spinners. LOL 💋

I remember when I had briefly coming to contact with the post that confirmed a anonymous text message I had received last year. How cruel of somebody to anonymously tell me about your passing.. not only that but three days prior to losing you we had spoken and you hid confessing about how terrible your life had become and how much of a toll it had taken on you realistically… You’re pre-guy, the pre-lugainis.. You’re Kebbin, my ex’s older brother but still my brodre regardless of that relationship ending.. you always had the answers to my of my issues when we talked and I brought them up.. never offering advice or forcing it, always listening and then politely asking if I’m ok or if I’d like some advice from a different perspective.. a second opinion or just made me laugh from the stupidest crap you’d find or rattle off the top of your head with a weird and original faness.. I’m just absolutely blown away.. It’s floored me and I wound up relapsing from finding out about your passing.. I’m still trying to come to terms that just a few years ago when you and I sat and talked in person and we were shooting up our polar opposite drug choices.. little had I’d known that when you told me “Ali I’m probably going to be the only person that takes myself out. I don’t know when but I know I’m going to be the one that takes myself out of this world. No one else will have that power.” And all I told you was going to shut up and not think like that. But I had failed to take into consideration that not everybody can do the things that I can do, and not everybody can do the things that you could do… Everybody’s different down to the chemicals that make us who we are.. they say different strokes for different folks, different shots for different thoughts.. and if I had known that it would be so soon, I would have had more talks with you.. I would have learned all that I could possibly have learned from you… Always a voice of peace and yet the black sheep and the only good one out of your family truly, you’re given the shittiest hand, and yet expected to do more than what you could in regards to the way this world works.. regrettably you left behind your daughter and she is so much like you, and I don’t even have to know her to know that… Kevin, I can’t even find any posts or obituaries last year that tell of your passing.. but ironically I hadn’t searched for how you died, or what you died from and ironically Google decided to “randomly” list this website about overdose awareness.. but yet it won’t even show me about how you actually died or even when.. It’s like you’ve been alive without telling any of us and I can’t even memorialize your Facebook account.. because there’s nothing stating or proving that you’re gone or what happened to you.. and your family being too poor to give you a funeral or host a memorial.. it’s like you don’t exist or just vanished.. to be honest you’re one of the most incredible advisors I’ve ever met my life you have given me so much knowledge and so many memories. Regardless of the fact that my relationship with your little brother never worked out, it was during that time that we bonded and I considered you part of my own family. You were like the best older brother that I could have ever asked for.. and it hurts me to know that you reached out for help the last week of your life multiple multiple times to be turned away because of the record you had.. for people to turn away somebody who is pleading for help and because of something someone had caught possibly and how shity the judicial system is, they are given a judgement without any means of an understanding.. it just goes to show that even though we think that it’s just as simple as going and trying to tell them that you’re suicidal and you need help, how false the actual reality is in regards to allowing people to just feel like they have no place to go when they’re told by the people who reject them that they are to go to them for these issues and that they can be helped.. how can you say that you are a suicide prevention Network or foundation when you would just so easily without any second thought and with full conviction that someone is unworthy of a services that you so openly state you and conduct yourself as doing. The problem is that people reach out countless times and ask to be heard but people truly don’t want to listen in this world and just have some sort of projected image to join the bandwagon to make them seem like they actually care when they don’t. My brother Kevin newfield was turned away at 3 separate places the last week of his life because he had battled so long with his heroin addiction and his grief and guilt over the way things have turned out in his life and how his little brother had turned out.. and because he was shot down he shot up and even left a note because he felt truly that he was no good for this world. When aside from all the past problems and mistakes he had made, he likes very many other people are held accountable by their past mistakes. Judged and seen only as their mistakes and their mess-ups.. rather than seen as capable of change and possibly turning their life around.. I say this because as somebody who is an addict who has watched countless people come and go out of their life, and as someone who has suffered a close loss to this pandemic and disease called addiction.. more people should be compassionate and seek to understand why a person does what they do. None of us plan on being addicts but we’re all addicted to something and we all possess a crutch. Kevin used to say ” everybody in this world regardless of what it is, is addicted to something. It’s just the subject and the items of addiction is what determines someone’s importance and place in the worlds stereotyped ignorance. It’s what you do that has power over who you are, and how you think that holds power over what you do.” Please, no matter how hard life gets or how impossible you think things are and believe, don’t go.. for those of us that are stranded in the loss and recovery from it, never truly recover from losing you. Kevin Newfield passed of a heroin overdose on April 15th of 2019. It’s been a little over a year and I think about it everyday.. and I know that he’s no longer dealing with the bullshit he was handed but, I miss the advice and the stories.. I miss hearing him play the drums and everytime I hear the album called Coming Clean by Volumes I put my head in my hands and cry.. because if he just went another week, he’d have heard the new album himself and maybe held on longer.. but it is what it is, and his life and our loss serves as a heavy and painful reminder that we will one day be gone so we have to appreciate and love life for everything it has to offer.. I lost one of my best friends, framily members and trusted advisors.. I hope anyone reading this, addict or unaware individuals alike, that you stay with us and continue to prove that you’re not leaving anytime soon.. blessed be always..

My Son, Christopher died on Saturday, February 22,2020, from a Heroin/ Fentanyl overdose. He left behind so many broken dreams. He was set to marry his fiance and Mother of two year old twins. He was ashamed of his weakness and tried to get clean many times, but would eventually go back whenever something bad happened. He is my youngest and the light of my heart. He wasn’t a bad guy, just a weak one. People need to realize that drug use is an illness and not a choice. Too many lives are lost to this horrible disease. I love you my Son and you’re with me always.

I wish I could have saved you. I believed you when you said” Mom I promise this will never happen again ” and the saddest thing, I think you believed it too. I love you and miss you!!!

Father, I miss you so much I don’t understand why you had to leave, I was 9 when you left me and mom alone, I’m 11 now and I feel so alone and empty, ever since you left I’ve been diagnosed with severe bipolar, depression, and anxiety. I miss my dad like he wont be able to read this or watch me grow up on this earth, but like he isn’t hurting anymore. And it’s been rough lately but I’ll make it, I hope….

Mom, I miss you and I love you so much. You were my rock! My best friend! Your passing is the hardest thing I’ve ver been through. I wish you were still here. I wish I had saved you. Not a day goes by that I think I’ve woken up from a horrible nightmare only to realize it’s my new reality. I love you mostest! Xoxoxo

My 17 year old son, Jared, passed away on March 25, 2020 as a result of a Xanax overdose. We are awaiting the reports, but are now aware he was self medicating with Xanax. 17!! My boy! Found this site early this morning. Had I been educated, had I known the signs of the death rattle, which I heard and thought he was snoring, had I known, maybe Jared would be here today. I am going to make it my mission to share, to educate and to make the 1st annual Jared Wyland International Overdose Day an event to reach and educate others.

It’s going on 5 years since the last time I got to look at you and see the big brown eyes looking back at me. You were my big cousin but more like a big brother always there when I needed you, you always told me that even in the darkest alleys the sun still shines through the cracks of the concrete. I miss your soul so bad you had such a pure one and a heart that couldn’t be measured. I never thought I would lose you to the needle cuz. Out of all us Anderson’s, you hated the needle hell you are the one that saved me from it by finding me overdosed laying in our ditch you got me off of it and stayed with me through all the pain, paranoia, and me cussing you like a dog I’m sorry for that btw. I heard Breaking Benjamin today I feel like that’s you saying hey I love you, Micheal, Lee I wish I never had to say goodbye to the person you only get once in a lifetime. Until the end, my brother tell momma me and bro love and miss her miss all of y’all so many of us are gone I find myself talking to dead pictures and ghost love you cuz

Jack passed away on July 12th, 2019. We had been casually dating for a year and a half, but I was head over heels in love with that man. After pining away for him, resigning myself to the fact that if all I could be was his favourite, and close friends than that’s what I would be, finally he asked me to move in, giving in to our love, our connection…five days later he was just GONE, and it has broken me, I still spend sleepless nights crying and talking to him, looking at his pictures and our old texts and messages, grieving the loss of the man I loved, my dear friend and the future we could have had together. I will love him until my last breath, and I will find him again, in some other life

To my older brother, my best friend Elvis:
You always gave the tightest hugs and had the biggest smile! You had a big heart and loved everyone, for who they were.
You were loved by many. Especially by me.
I will never be the same without you; yet it comforts me to know that one day, we’ll meet again.
By my side forever.
Love your sister.

I miss my dad so much. I Lost him at 16. He showed me the most love I’ve ever felt as well as the most pain

Jamie Turowski may you rest in peace. God was ready to give you your wings. I know you earned them honey. I will see you again my love but not today.

I love and miss you so very much. Maybe you fly high my son. Until I see you again.

My sweet Mason…
Taken too soon, May 27, 2018.
We promised to be best friends for life. We grew threw life together. Even after being split up for years due to my family moving, we reconnected after years. It was everything I dreamed of. Like we never got split up. I adored you, you were my very first boy best friend. You protected me from scary movie characters, (hocus pocus😂, Michael myers🤦‍♀️) Countless sleep overs through the years, unlimited scrapes and bruises from trying to keep up with my ultimate best friend, a boy. An adventurous boy. Riding bikes, singing “pet the bodies hit the floor” eating pb&j sandwiches under the tree. We pinky promised as kids, in my back yard, twice. To always remain best friends “NO MATTER WHAT”, and to get married to each other if we weren’t married by 25…

You never made it to 25. 💔😭
May 27, 2018. As I unpacked my van after getting the kids settled, and a long day at the beach (where we went together as kids) I sat on my porch, I cracked open a beer and lit a cigarette. I casually opened Facebook, to post the pictures I took of the kids at the beach.. The first thing I see, is a post. From your older brother… (i had messaged the night before because you randomly popped in my mind, and hadn’t been online. I felt something was wrong) Not the kind of post I wanted to see. I had gotten up to walk to my van for something, and was walking and waiting for the post to load.. as I crossed the road, I read the words I never imagined I’d ever read… You had passed away. ” I just wanted to inform everyone, with a heavy heart, my brother has passed on as of earlier today. I will update info as i know and make arrangements. Please keep my family in your thoughts. ” I kept rereading as I dropped in the street. Frozen, broken, shattered and unable too speak… Silent. I kept telling myself, “it has to be another brother, he has to have another brother. It’s not mason.” Even though deep down I knew the truth.. I knew it was you. I felt scared, and lonely, and numb… I couldn’t speak or even think of my own name at that point. That day, I broke down.. I cried for days, until I couldn’t produce anymore tears to cry. I was lost, what happened. As I was digging for info, I got a reply. From your brother, you died of an “accidental overdose.” What the fuck, overdose? As I chuckled, “that can’t be right, not my mason” (we hadn’t some in a few months as life had become busy for us both.) My best friend, childhood hero of a boy unafraid of anything, my comfort, my whole heart. Was in fact, an addict. A heroin addict… Who lost his battle and was left alone with no care or concern to call for help. I’m sorry I wasn’t around, I know you get it though. I know you also know how much I love you and how much it’s affected me.

FOREVER 24 & married since childhood.
“My kid husband, forever and always, I promise to always love you and always find you if we are separated, I’ll always love you most, i pinky promise i do. Forever.”

💝8-15-1994/5-27-18 💝
I even named my daughter after you.
“Rayna may” 💝🌻💚

I lost my husband ( only man I ever loved )” to a heroin drug overdose ” this drug is the devil in my eyes”!.” It took his life in every way.. .even though I wasn’t with him when he died( I left him before that ) to hear of his death ” it just killed me and ” still does … there was still love between us but to much drug damage was done…
years of watching him pick drugs over me, and his beautiful daughters and grandchildren and mom, over, and over again was awful ! ! his kids suffered the most.. then one day I got a call from his stepdaughter crying and just like that he was gone..and we were all broken inside and empty .we all loved this man. .. hawk (William) was a good person, so smart, and such a gorgeous man, but drugs destroyed his life in every way and at the end took his life way … RIP hawk. I will always love you.. …cheryl.❤

To my beautiful daughter Brittney:
You had a big heart and looked out for others. I’m so sorry about everything that caused you to decide to use. You were loved by many. Especially by me and your son.
You were so strong and yet so fragile. I will never be the same without you.
Love Mom

My beautiful nephew, Arthur Llewellyn VanBenschoten V, died on August 21, 2011 of a Xanax/heroin overdose. Forever twenty years old. He died on his little brother’s 18th birthday, making it difficult to celebrate anything on that tragic day. I was with his mother (my little sister) when she got the call and it is a day that will haunt me for the rest of my life.

I love you, Artie, and miss you with every fiber of my being. Your mother is forever broken and your little brother suffers in tortured silence. It’s almost been 9 years and no one has recovered from the complete devastation that ensued. Please get your messages from the forevermissed.com site – we love you.

Aunt Michele

I lost 2 sons ,Christopher 28, and Chaz 19. My oldest was murdered and my Chaz had a accidental OD. They passed same day 2 months apart. They were 2 of my best friends! Outstanding young men. Men of integrity and honor. We love and miss them beyond words!

My sister, Kasey Leigh Walter has passed from an overdose in 2017. Know that you are not alone if you or your family have gone through things like this. You can always seek help and be heard. Stay strong and live it up. 💕

I’m scared I am going to have to post a tribute here to my son. I love him with all of being, he is a drug addict, but he is my son. I picture him daily of the man I know he truly is, not who is controlled by addiction. I’m so proud to be his mama, I miss him. I need him.
I pray for each and every one of you here on this site. May God be with you. I’m sorry you feel this pain.

Tucker: I watched as you basically killed yourself in front of me. Your beautiful heart exploded! You are just like your mom—A ghost of a person. Shallow, searching for scraps of change in the bottom of my handbag, I saw you steal from my car, I saw you take handfuls coins out of your little brothers savings jug. You were just your mothers son, she could never stop. Do you remember? I jumped in your way so many times to save you-you couldn’t see me but I know you knew my spirit was there. Your mom never tried to help you, she couldn’t. She would have. She was such a mess. I don’t think after high school she remembers much. The accident that killed her was her Saturn Return. It was the only way for her. That was her lesson. I watched you die Tucker. Do you remember 3 of us telling you to slow down Do Not go score again for the 2nd time in one day? You blew your heart up, it was so broken. The legacy of neglect. The power of addiction, the killer on the road. Get on your fast motorcycle & ride. I will catch you & hug you. I saw you & Cody last week on the foggy turn to your dads house. I saw you playing chicken with “Jake the snake” your dads old friend, you almost sent him off the road. You can’t wake up the lost. Do you remember driving right thru me? Tucker: you & Cody can pass on to the Light. We miss you. Your disease dropped kicked everyone. When you came over to eat dinner remember you puked all over the couch in high school -you had just ripped off your moms stash & shot up in my bathroom. You turned over the cushion. You almost died with puke in your mouth, I didn’t know you were high. I miss you, I understand why you still ride the valley. If you don’t want to take Cody & follow the light, come see me.

My sister / our family very recently lost 42-year-old Leigh Smith in Scottsdale AZ USA to an accidental prescription medication overdose. This has hit home very hard and I am researching every organization I can find on the subject in order to be able to personally process this issue as well and find a way to support my sister and husband during this loss. Leigh was their only child and theirs was a very close knit family. This is a tragic loss to our family but I realize we are far from being alone. Therefore I am determined to do what I can to raise awareness on a community/local level.

This is for my friends who have went on Kayla there isn’t a day go by I don’t think of you.
To my other brothers and sisters we’ll someday somewhere passed the sunset.

Spectrum on Demand:
Manhunt
Temple

HUNTERS Amzn orig
Mr. Church

The Monster got my son, Frankie! It wouldn’t let him go! He ran and ran and ducked out of it’s path over and over, and over again. But, the Monster persisted and joined with a new beast: fentanyl. And together they got my son! My loving, kind, funny, intelligent, handsome son. My one and only. The Monster took my Frankie boy! The Monster gave me a dreaded life sentence.
Frankie Julio Curra
6/13/1988 – 7/15/2020

To my brother my best friend William Billy Brown. I hate that you aren’t here with us. I hate that all that you went through you felt to turn to drugs instead of me. I hate pills and heroin with a passion and try to understand the disease because of you. I remember when you wouldn’t even touch a cigarette. I was in so much denial learning about a needle I couldn’t face it. I miss you so much and this disease has killed a lot of our friends and done horrible things to our family. I would do anything to talk to you u or hug you again. I wish I could’ve done something anything for you. I love you so much and think of you everyday ❤️

Stephen, I think about you everyday. Some days more than others. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. I really thought you were okay. It hurts to know my big brother is gone. It all happened so quickly. I’ve dreamt of you. I see signs of you everywhere. I know you are with me. I know you are at peace now. I love you.
-Your little sister

Never did I think I would become a widow at the age of 43. My amazing husband Joshua, died from ONE & A HALF laced fentanyl pill on October 23rd, 2019. I am certain that if he had known those pills were laced he would still be here today. He was such a bright light in a dark world. He was extremely intelligent & was absolutely brilliant & creative at his job. He was extremely well liked & he was as loyal as they come. He was my forever soulmate & his overdose killed part of me as well. More people need to see that it’s just not our deceased loved one it effects, it effects every single person who loves & cares about them. It is great to try & find yourself a good grief support group, mainly one that specifies the loss of our loved one through overdose. May god bless each & everyone of you as you walk down your unique paths of grief. Now you have an angel to help guide you through the day!

Robin Scott Macdonald 10th February 1970 – 18th November 1997

Dearest Robin, 29 years ago I made the most painful decision I have made in any relationship, I have thought about you, missed you, always loved you. I have searched for you over the years online, expecting to find you settled happy and safe. My search has ended with the most tragic result. I’m grieving for you. Time is irrelevant. You are loved. You are always in my heart and always will be. You are kind, handsome, gentle and sorely missed. I’m sorry our time was so brief, I’m sorry you’re time all too short. I long to know that the time that passed while you were held in your addiction wasn’t all pain. I long to know that you are at peace. You will remain forever in my thoughts and my heart. Love Lisa xxx

I have a Daughter that died from overdose fentanyl. Amanda Ranae Byrd
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Forever Loved never Forgotten

Austin Blake Bordeaux 6/18/99 – 8/23/18 forever 19.
Austin, son I miss you so much … I miss you more everyday. I sit and replay that night over in my head that day before when you got out of my car I remember watching you walk away and thinking that I should get out of the car and hug you and I didn’t. But I yelled out the window that “I love you” as you walked away .. I regret not getting out and hugging you if I would have known that would be my last time seeing you alive I would have gotten out and held you forever. I got the call every parent dreads at 2.35 am. I thought you would wake up I prayed for a miracle. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. I’m your mom is a mothers job to protect her children from the darkness and pain in the world today. I’m sorry I failed you son. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. I love you so much. I miss you…. I miss you so much…you did save 4 women’s lives. I donated your organs and I’m hoping the lady who has your beautiful heart lets me listen to your heart beat again. I love you and you will remain forever in my heart. Until I see you and hold you in my arms again , I will carry you in my heart forever LOVE MOM

Allen, you were so full of life, so much fun to be around and your smile was infectious! I’ll never forget the day we met. Your sister, Tina introduced us and your first words to me were, “well hello there beautiful”. It seems it was love at first sight for the both of us. You became my world and the love of my life!! How could I not see what was right in front of me?! Did I just choose not to see? You hid it so well. I was going to marry you and we were supposed to have this beautiful life together. I’ll never forget getting a call at work telling me a dear friend had passed away of an overdose and I told you how much it hurt. You watched me grieve my friend and you promised me that you would never hurt me that way! I was worried about your drinking but baby I had no idea you were taking recreational drugs. We were supposed to be together!!! Now seventeen years later, on 02/18/2020 I still mourn and grieve you. I will forever love you and this 🦋 tattoo I got after you passed away will always be a reminder of you and what might have been. I’ll see you on the other side my love.

Posted 19/02/2020

My bff, Jennifer Lind Payne, died of an overdose on March 8, 2019 in Troy, New Jersey. Myself and her family weren’t notified about her passing until many many months later! From what we know, it was a overdose!

Jennifer left behind her 3 children, Tyler, Devon and Hunter, as well as tons of family and friends! I want to know why?!! Why was nobody told about her passing? We all miss her so much. We want answers. We are in the dark here in California. She can not come back to us…..but please put our minds at ease Artie……please!!!!

Love Olaunda

Posted 18/02/2020

Jordan Spencer Clark…God I miss you so today. Don’t know why it should be different than any other day, but I miss you mate.
The rain is slowly falling down and I am reminded of times with you when it was raining… Does the hurt ever go away? I don’t think so really, I think we just get use to it, if that’s even possible. What I wouldn’t give for just one more day with you buddy! To say I love you and how much of a Friend you were to me at trying times in my life. I wish I had been a better friend to you. Two people in pain it seems can’t really help the other. A sad truth. But I am so thankful you came into my life for the brief time you did! My life is so much richer for you having been a part of it. I guess I just wanna say… Thank You, I love you, I miss you more than there are stars, and Ill see you again!! Sing with the angels my friend and rest in God’s Love. Give Mom a hug for me. Cheers.

Posted 18/02/2020

To the love of my life.
A kind, generous, loving father, partner, brother and son. We miss you so much Sam and love you forever. Not a minute goes by we don’t think about you. So lucky to have so many memories with you. And our little boy talk about you all the time. He misses playing Star Wars with his Daddy. You will never be forgotten my love.
Love you forever Mr Good Looking and I’ll be seeing you one day somewhere beautiful beyond the clouds.

Posted 12/02/2020

David – your beautiful soul, laughter, kind heart and fierce sense of adventure is missed by all of us every single day. I think everything got too hard for you and that you wanted to escape – to fly away. I’m so sorry that love wasn’t enough and that your son will not get to enjoy you, or give you hugs and kisses or learn from you. Dave, you were my person and you were the funniest, coolest man I know. I miss you so much .. my first best friend. I love you, we all do. We will never, ever forget you.
Love you always cuz

Posted 10/02/2020

To the love of my life. I wish that you would have chosen a different road to go on that day. It was just an accident and we could have gotten through it. I wish I had not left you alone when you asked for space. I wish that I done so many things differently. I just didn’t know that you would have turned to this. I know you didn’t want to die. I know you loved me. I should have known. It hurts every single second of the day without you. We had our whole life planned and we were so happy. Everyone misses you so much. You lit up every room. Every space. Every single person. We all love you so much. I love you now, forever, and eternally. You are my true love and I miss my best friend. I LOVE YOU. And my life is completely empty without you.

Posted 07/02/2020

r.i.p. mom i love you and miss you so much

Posted 07/02/2020

Mom,
I still miss you every day. Nothing will ever be the same again without you around. Seeing funny opossum videos on Youtube, hearing The Cure at a coffee shop, passing by signs for psychic fairs, I’m reminded of you every day. You will never be forgotten. When I graduate high school and college, when I get married, when I have your grandkids, I’ll say a prayer for you and let you know “Hey mom, I did it!”. I love you so much.

Posted 05/02/2020

January 19,2016 JOHN PATRICK RANALLO. I lost my best friend. MY LOVER. I still remember it as though it was yesterday. We loved each other our own way for 8 years of marriage born a baby girl into your heart to love as you did and her whole life began because we both loved her enough to put our marriage to part. There is not a day, seconds or in a blink we both miss you and love you very much. Thank you for protecting our daughter each day. As I know you are with her. She knows you’ll keep her safe. But there isn’t a day that goes by we both don’t miss you
Big mama & lil mama we will miss you Big Daddy

Posted 04/02/2020

Ricard Adam Burns was not only my best friend but my hero! His overdose scared me… Everytime I get offered heroin, I think about Richie, and I say no! The best die Young… I miss you… Lost but not forgotten… Until we meet again..
-Mousey

Posted 02/02/2020

Steven… I’m so sorry this horrible thing happened to you. I wish I somehow new u needed me
I know you’re in heaven with Mom now. I never thought it would be you. Always thought it would be someone else, even though I knew we were playing Russian roulette every time we got high. I love you so much and little Ella misses her Ta Ta and thinks you’re coming home . we’ll meet again😇

Posted 02/02/2020

Kenneth Ayers was my buddy from high school. Good dude, loved cars, was a funny fellow. Never thought it would come to this. Wish I could go back in time, to change so much… I know that I wish I could’ve prevented your death. I have lost so many not yet deceased to the evil that is heroin. I am still amazed at the people who know the results and still attempt to do it. Why? All you ever end up like is my good friend Kenny or if you haven’t yet, you steal and alienate everyone you love, degrade yourself, sell your soul, lie, cheat, anything to get the reason why you can’t go one day without something otherwise you hurl, writhe in pain, twitch, sweat, feel like you are possessed, lash out, relapse, o. d., Get arrested, go to prison, lose your kids, your home, all you own. Sure, sounds tempting… Surely doesn’t. Not to mention all the wonderful skin issues, teeth issues, and gastrointestinal issues that also make life so wonderful. You also begin to forget huge chunks of your life. Long and short term memory, forget a job, you also fall asleep standing up, nod out in your lunch, and home is sufficient as long as it’s a card board box under a pier. Why wouldn’t you want to do this drug? Kenny didn’t know the results, or if he did, he thought he could control it. No one can, it’s not a managed habit. It manages you. It controls your life, it will ruin every part of you until it kills you. I hate heroin. It’s such a government created scheme to deplete the population. Think your a rebel because you tried drugs? The ones whom you think you’re rebelling from are the ones who helped provide the opportunity for you to try it. So, all you do is help the people you hate. So rebel and don’t do any drugs. Be prosperous, generous, love everyone, and read books. That’s rebellion.

Posted 31/01/2020

Rebecca Mathis (wife) (lover) (best friend) mother sister aunt daughter… you’re missed so badly I miss my beautiful wife! The kids ask all the time why their mommy isn’t alive any more. I have to tell them you’re with Jesus. If only that where true… I begged and begged for you to get help but you didn’t want it. Now your husband and kids and all your other family have to miss you and cry and hurt together…. I love you Rebecca Ann Mathis, I always will but I will always ask why we wasn’t enough to get the help we offered

Posted 30/01/2020

January 28 2020 I lost my bff, my sister to drug overdose . You will never be forgotten. I wish I could have saved you, I’m sorry it came down to overdose . I wish I could tell you I would never judge you for what you were doing . I would have gone to treatment with you, been by your side every step of the way . Please forgive me for not being able to see you lots . Me and your two nieces love you and will always bring you flowers 💐 can’t wait to see you again I love you and r.i.p.

Posted 29/01/2020

Jerry was his name. My best friend, my soulmate, my lover…my person. He passed away January 16, 2020 from a heroin overdose at 35 years old. I love him and miss him so much. I couldn’t even find the words to explain it to you coz if I could explain it, it wouldn’t be love…you love with your heart. He will always be safely tucked away in my heart.
Until we meet again…you will forever be my always.

Posted 28/01/2020

Jordan Spencer Clark, The 23rd marked 2 years since you went to Heaven my friend. And to be honest, sometimes it still seems like yesterday. I miss you so, dear friend, but you know that. Wrote a song that morning and recorded it that day. As I had taken off work. Didn’t want to be there on such a day you know… Put purple lilies on your grave and a purple rock too.
Never forgotten buddy…Know always You are Missed and Loved.

Posted 28/01/2020

My dear sweetheart grandson Henry Jr. (WOEM)..it’ll b 2 and 1/2 yrs soon l miss you honey you left our apt and never came back. You died at Seans. l think of you every single day honey. l cried for 2 years straight for you. l am lost here, where did u get that concoction that killed you? I will never know. l wait for my time, l pray it’s true that we’ll see each other again, l hope you come get me when l pass on. You were my whole life sweetheart. It’s empty here now, l miss you, l love you, l will never forget what a kind and sweet Soul you have. 2 squeezes honey, l miss you, l will go sit with you tomorrow and blast you’re music you liked. It’s funny, l know all the songs now but l didn’t let you listen to them loud when you were here, l’m sorry honey, l’m so sorry. l know your’re happy in the next demention with AJay and now Sean. All 3 if you together again, taggin the clouds. Love ur grama ⭕️❌⭕️❌⭕️❌💔🛹😢😪💞🐾😻🐾

Posted 25/01/2020

I lost my sister March 1,2014. She overdosed on numerous pills that took her life. Prior to this, she tried before and a police officers found her and performed CPR on her and she survived. She was in coma for a few days. She was angry at the doctors and the police officer, who saved her life. She wanted to die. Our hearts broke.
She promised us she will never do it again for my kids.
She suffered anxiety, bipolar and mental health issues through her life. She really couldn’t cope with her life. I feel our health system failed her. She cried for help and…….she ended her suffering.

We are heart broken and we miss her so much .I think about her every minute of everyday. We were close, almost like twins. If I only could be there more often, she may still be alive and I would fight to the bitter end to get her right help.

Posted 24/01/2020

Arick C. Banks … I can’t get you out of my mind. I can only imagine what it was like laying there. What were your thoughts? Were you afraid to die? Your a strong man, what made you do it? I’m so sorry you lay alone. I wish i could have held you thru it. I cant stop wondering what that must have been like for you. You are so missed today by so many. You were loved beyond measure by so many. I have a list of all the things i will miss about you. I just want to hear your voice again. See your smile. I love you AC and i will never forget you. Never. Rest with angels and know your on my mind daily. I’ll see you there my friend. Gone but not forgotten. 01 09 2020 love Tina

Posted 22/01/2020

Andrew Goods January 1st 2019 was clean for 10 years and a exemplary man and hard worker . Was drugged by force or tricked by a bad one or a group of bad people and considered as suicide or overdose . At salvation army shelter Edmonton . Residence not rehab as he wasn’t using and no investigation was proceed due to wrong judgement and discriminate by old tattoos meaningless … Sadly .. unfair and not the only one in a following of evident suspicious death and missing people . Goods was a true example of success for many many hopeless jealous and also more for the good ones who knows the truth and recognize the good ones like him ANDREW GOOD

Posted 17/01/2020

Roger Frisby Pixie Kern Lexington Ky Heroin took their lives..I will forever remember you my freinds love Pam Leach Lexington Ky

Posted 10/01/2020

RIP Felicia Bouchard Diane Young. Tyler Lowery Patricia Riley So many gone to Heroin..Always remembered

Posted 10/01/2020

My son Steven ..I’m sorry you had to go through this!. Nov 23,2019 was the worst day in my life! ..I lost my son , my heart is broken and my soul hurts I can’t believe you’re gone, I love my son always and missing you everyday..just know we will be together again , when you passed part of me did as well..life won’t be the same but my love is never ending ..love mom

Posted 11/01/2020

Tara Elliott another one lost along the way 7-7-08 anyone who knew you won’t forget

Posted 13/01/2020

I lost my mom over 7 years ago. She died 6/12/12. She died from a heroine overdose.

Posted 13/01/2020

RIP ROGER FRISBY PIXIE KERN YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED LOVE YOUR FREIND PAM LEACH LEXINGTON KENTUCKY

Posted 10/01/2020

My husband Robert Caro overdosed Dec 1 2019

Posted 05/01/2020

Dearest life,

How many days has passed since I learned of your death and lost my heart,
Although I was not there or ever were we face to face,
Love that we shared can’t be replaced.
I wish the moon could bring you back,
That heroin took you,
The odds were stacked,
You’d been clean for some time,
Maybe that’s why you died,
You left this earth,
Memories replay being rebirthed
How I wanted to be your wife
Maybe in the next life
Maybe then, it’s all I can hope
I wish you didn’t leave this world
Take my heart, keep it safe
You were my light,
This cuts deeper than any blade,
You and I should have been forever Joe
It’s insane,
Will time ever heal the pain?

To all that read this, that struggle or feel alone,
Please stay safe, know you’re loved

Fortuitous forsaken dope

Posted 03/01/2020

I moved to Western NY 6 years ago and in that time I lost Joe, Mandy, Britney, Joe, Jake, Michael and Tony. I am blessed to have been clean and sad to have witnessed such great people not able to slay the dragon. Rest in peace, you’re never forgotten.

Posted 31/12/2019

This Is So Painful…
And So Unreal….I Can Not
Believe You Are Gone…
Still Praying Gods Healing
For Us All Rest In Gods Perfect Love
His Perfect Peace And His Powerful Light..You Will Always And Forever
Be In My Heart..I Love You So Much
My Baby Brother…
So Long For Now🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
Thinking Of You On Your Birthday Today
And Reading Your Letters…No More Tears No More Heart Ache And No More Pain..Til We Meet Again..R.I.P Samuel David ❤ Chicago.😔

Posted 01/01/2020

It’s going to be 5 years since you’ve passed on December 28th, dad. You were a good man but went down the wrong path. Lost my dad when I was 12 years old. Overdosed at a McDonald’s all alone. Rest easy angel ♥️ You are missed..
Love,
Your only child.

Posted 27/12/2019

I lost my brother, Bradley Schneider, on June 27, 2010 . He was 49 yrs old and was a son, a brother, a father and a friend to many. He was a momma’s boy and when he passed our mom was never the same. She’s joined him now and I know they’re happy to be together again. I sure do miss them both❤️❤️

Posted 22/12/2019

Jordan Spencer Clark, Christmas just around the corner and all I do is think of you and Mom it seems. I put flowers on Mom’s grave Sunday and a small Christmas tree on yours . Your Mom had beautiful poinsettias and berries in your vase, couldn’t add to that as it was perfect. Sure miss you my friend, wish you were here and we could just sit and dance in conversation.
Someday we’ll do that and it’ll be on clouds!!!! I love and miss you Jordan. Know you’re not forgotten. Happy Christmas buddy,
till next then, little more…
Mick

Posted 21/12/2019

Chase Alan Curtis 1989-2018
The pain of your absence will always be felt, your life mattered and I will never forget you. I pray I see you on the other side. I love and miss you so much.
Your big sis

Posted 02/01/2020

Remembering Joesph Patterson – a good mate, a fantastic musican, and a wonderful human

Posted 20/12/2019

Just want to say my heart goes out to all the people who lost someone from Overdose. There’s a lot of that happening. I do know a couple people who did overdose. Praying for your loss.

Posted 20/12/2019

Remembering a loved one wish that they were here to be with family. Life is hard and there are times that all you can do is ask God for help and to give you strength and peace. Taking our own lives is not the answer to our pain it only passes that pain onto our loved ones. I love and miss you Tonya.
-Love Heather

Posted 18/12/2019

In memory of my son, Ryan, lost to a fentanyl overdose in 2017. (The hardest year of my life but so much harder for him). I am so thankful for the grace and mercy of God. He lost the battle but won the war! Rest In Peace baby. Momma loves you!

Posted 11/12/2019

Staci Lyn Wicker…RIP i still remember your last words to me on your last day on this earth as you kissed me goodbye before I left for work. I never thought it would be our last kiss last words and our final goodbye. I miss you babe our time was cut short and its not fair bur I know you’re in a better place now and I shall join you again one day until then u r forever in my heart not a day goes by I don’t think of you and miss you. 🙁

Posted 11/12/2019

My wonderful son Johan, I miss you so much, it hurts so much. that it burns. I remember the day you came into this world, the day, i had you” n you were all mine. But I know your with GOD. in heaven” I love you..

Posted 09/12/2019

My wonderful son Johan, I miss you so much, theres no sunshine since you left. I pray, you are with the Heavenly Angels, and if you are, i feel you would somehow intervene, n save a life” ………

Posted 09/12/2019

On this day seven years ago I found out that you passed away. It’s been seven long years without you. It hurts so much Szymku not to have you here with us. I love you so much. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you or look for a sign from you.
I miss you so much. I wish I listen to my gut ….maybe you would still be here if I did.

Love
Mum

Posted 09/12/2019

Mi AMORE DANA
I never got to see you again i wish we had more time and now your gone I wait for the day I can see you again you were everything I ever wanted. I miss you every day I can’t believe your gone but I feel you close to me so I know your seeing me from the other side. I love you now and forever.
R.F.K

Posted 07/12/2019

Kyle Ryan Brown
Passed away to a Fentanyl overdose on October 5 2019 ( Kingston Ontario)
Another needless death, leaving a heartbroken family!

Posted 01/12/2019

Sarah,
So much love
So little time

I miss you baby. J

Posted 28/11/2019

Not a day goes by that I don’t miss my sister Sarah. As much as people may have thought we hated each other little did they know that we shared a special bond that sisters only know and yes I will be the first to say I hated my sister but not her as a person it was her illness that I hated and until u have lived life that has truly been affected by drugs and depression and the whole crazy system that claims they are helping u but in reality are fueling the fire please don’t judge. I only hope Sarah is finally at peace. I will always love and miss her.

Posted 27/11/2019

Remembering my child Kelly who died from alcoholism at 39 11/18/2019
I miss you so much
Forever in my heart
Mom

Posted 27/11/2019

To the Love of My Life
James Michael Weiss 7/21/79-11/14/2014
You were 35 years young
A beautiful caring soul
You slipped through the cracks like so many other young men and got lost somewhere along the way.
You went to rehab over and over again only to fall back into the abyss.
With no real help in site. How sad that this world was to you.
I tried my best to get you the help you needed.
Nothing seemed to be enough.
I think about you all the time and miss you like crazy. I would love to just see your face one more time.
You died alone in your bathroom of a fentanyl laced heroin injection while your mom was on the phone in the next room. There was no wake or funeral and you were cremated. I never received any ashes. No online obituary, nothing. It’s like you never existed.
I’ll always remember you and the sweet way you would kiss me. RIP my sweet love 143637

Posted 24/11/2019

Jordan Spencer Clark. Here come the holidays which make me miss you and Mom so much more than normal. Yet what is normal? You are in my thoughts each day mate. God how I miss you. I met Michelle last weekend and a lot of missing pieces were filled about that last night. I found comfort in the fact that you told her that night that ” You knew God forgave you”.
Rest in Gods love my dear friend and know you are loved always and missed deeply. Till I see you again mate you will always be in my thoughts and in my heart. little more…

Posted 23/11/2019

John
Oh how I miss you, my heart aches everyday not having you in my life. We had a lot of years together until the love for drugs was stronger than ours. I always worried I would hear or read about how you lost your battle to addiction and that is what happened on February 5th 2018 when you went to heaven being defeated by Fentanyl. You were once the light of my life and now that light is out forever. Rest in Peace with Stewart and Tatertott. XOXOXO

John Lara 01-11-1975 to 02-05-2018

Posted 22/11/2019

Reading all these tributes is so heartbreaking. You always think it happens to other people until my brother James overdosed on Fentanyl laced Heroin dying just shy of his 54th birthday. He had had a Heroin addiction for over 30 years been through so many close calls he even had me convinced he was invincible but now with Fentanyl on the scene it is killing people at an incredible rate. He was my only brother I spent decades trying getting him into rehabs only to have relapse after spending thousands of dollars. Addiction is so complicated and has such a stigma it makes grieving even that much harder and more complicated because as most on here have gone through the guilt and blame of thinking you didn’t do enough to stop it becomes all consuming. Addiction will continue to take good people from us. If Fentanyl had been around 30 years ago when my brother started his addiction I am sure he would not have lived near this long. If you know anyone with a heroin addiction please if you can’t get them to stop they have Fentanyl test strips have them test their stuff wish I had known about it before hand..

Posted 22/11/2019

The love of my life for 11 years Sean, I found you dead on our bathroom floor. You were only 40 years old. I did everything I could to save you, while I was on the phone with 911, the operator telling me what to do & asking me questions….No clue what she said……i stopped all life saving efforts, I KNEW YOU WERE ALREADY GONE. I will LOVE YOU till the day we meet again!
EVERYONE I HAVE LOST TO HEROIN/FENTANYL OVERDOSE :

Sean W. 4/27/1978 – 12/3/2018
Ivy K. 11/7/1982 – 10/15/2019
Autumn L. 9/18/1980 – 11/15/2015
Andy D. 11/13/1968 – 2/10/2018
Deanna H. 10/1969 – 5/23/2017
Rachel died 8/8/2018
I LOVE & MISS ALL OF YOU WITH EVERY OUNCE OF MY BEING.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, MAY GOD HOLD YOU IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND!!!!!!

Posted 18/11/2019

I don’t remember our last night together. I’m an addict myself, and we were taking several different drugs in a month binge. Xanax was one of the many things we took. I woke up April 25, 2018 to find my best friend and lover dead next to me in bed. And I can not recall anything from the night before, our last words, our last days, I can barely remember anything from the entire month leading to my best friends death. Today my addiction is worse; due to regret. The not knowing. The loss. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. And as bad as I think my life is, it’s even worse for my love. He lost his entire life. I still at least have mine…please don’t end up in my shoes… please know the risk and don’t take it. It’s NOT WORTH your life, or finding that ur favorite person lost theirs.
Rip to the love of my life. Starting in 2010 you made my entire world brighter, and I wouldn’t trade those 8 years for anything. U showed me real love and genuine happiness. You taught me so much, this being the biggest and last lesson. Thank you. I miss you baby.
Briley Christian Caldwell, 08.23.97-04.25.18

Posted 16/11/2019

Im a mother of a child who pass away just a year ago of overdose he was 30 years old miss him so much it hurt

Posted 14/11/2019

Adam Gates…Found May 1st 2018
I would like to at least say something about this young man that I found in my house. He passed from an overdose of Fentenal. That’s what the coroner told me. I did not know him. He was a friend of a past roomate who was just spending the night. I had to evict my roomate because I didn’t know he was a herion user and that scared me. 3 days later, I found Adam, in a room that I didn’t go into for 3 days because I knew that the former roomate trashed the room and stole me blind. I’m not mad about it. I wish I would have known. I heard him talking to his mom the night before he died. He said some really fond things about her. Sadly, after this whole ordeal, I looked for notice in the paper or anywhere I could so I could put this to rest in my heart. I never heard from anyone in the family. This young man was a stranger to me. I spoke to him maybe once before he bounded in my roomates room. I never noticed that he didn’t come back out. I work a lot of hours so I figured he left while I was at work. I never thought there was still someone left in that room. Can you imagine how I felt when I found you Adam? It was probably the worst thing I could ever go through and I didn’t even know you! It just happened at a really bad time that I was in the process of moving my roomate out. I never thought of going in his room I just put the whole thing of the theft of my precious things in the forefront and I was so hopping mad that someone could decieve me so badly. When I confronted my roomate, he called it his little problem. I think that addicts consider it too little of a problem to think it could actually be a big problem might be too hard to accept in their minds.
I feel really bad that no one contacted me about Adam, being since he passed in a strangers house. I wish I would have paid more attention but my roomate fooled me so who am I to say I would have been able to make a difference in this young man? No I think it’s more for my closure and I hoped I would hear or read something about him. His life came and went with no notice of his passing. Believe me, I searched and searched.
So my tribute today is to this young man who died in my house I would like to say, go in peace Adam Gates. Found May 1st 2018 I did not know you, but I will never forget the day I found you and my heart truly breaks for your family. I know your mom loves you. I heard you talking to her and You told me yourself she was very protective of you and that you had to call her everyday. Please sleep well. I am ok now. It’s been over a year now and I am getting better at not seeing your image in my mind everytime I walk in that room. I know you are in a better place and I hope your family and friends find the peace they deserve.

Posted 09/11/2019

Shane Tyler Heath. Rest In Peace Dad. I love you so much! 10/21/1971 – 5/4/2019
You will forever be in my heart! I miss you so much.

Posted 10/11/2019

I loved you so much Mar-bar it kills me so deeply that your gone. My best friend together we’re unstoppable, should’ve stuck with me, I can’t believe your gone. If I could take it all away I would if I could trade places I would, 6 different drugs really Mar. I’ll never forget our times together. Your with me always, see you soon.

Posted 11/11/2019

I’ve lost too many close ones to count. I could name them off but I don’t need to, they know who they are. There is one person in particular that I wish more than anything didn’t leave this earth.
Grant Gousby, your son just turned 13 months and is flourishing. You’d be so proud, you wanted a son so badly and he’s just like you. I know you’re watching over him and I from wherever you are but it isn’t the same. I watch everyone else around me have a relationship w their babies father. I constantly wish I could pick a fight with you over something so dumb like what diapers you use. I wish I could call you and tell you of the cool milestones he’s hitting or tell you to come get him out of my hair ! I’ve been doing this alone since I was 26 weeks pregnant. I am not sure what was going through your head Grant, I just know you were hurting pretty deeply. I wish I could’ve done something. It wasn’t fair for your mother and brother to find you in your room. It isn’t fair that Legend has to grow up without a dad. Life’s not fair. One thing that gets me through it is our son, I can’t thank you enough for giving me the one thing that brings REAL happiness in my life. Trust me when I say he will know who you were. He will know about the kind, smart and funny guy we were. He will know where he comes from, but he will also know of your demons. How you weren’t able to fight them off, how you struggled and you were so far gone but struggling to reach the surface for air. He will know you fought, and he will become someone great because of it. You taught us both such an important lesson. I wish I could call you. I wanna show you pictures and I want you to hold your son. I just wish you were here again, I’m so selfish in that aspect. You’re not hurting, struggling or sad. Wherever you are, I hope it’s so peaceful. You deserve to rest peacefully. Your son and I look at your picture on the bookshelf everyday and he know you are his Da Da. We love you Grant.
– Legend and Kelsey

Posted 09/11/2019

My number 1 son, my boy, my Ryan.
24/4/1981 – 16/6/2016 – forever 35
I’ll miss you forever Ryan but I’ll love you far longer than that.
mum xxxx

Posted 06/11/2019

Sweet Baby Girl, with that, Colgate smile! Your missed every second of everyday!

Posted 02/11/2019

Hawk, it’s been a year since your death it’s still so new” like it was yesterday. the overdose that took your life is more then we can handle. it’s sad cause the people that love the addict dies in some way too .. bill (hawk) I feel like i should of done more but I think I lost u before u died. I love you ,I always will!!!!and your kids love u .I know u ..and the drug was not u… RIP now….c…wife.

Posted 03/11/2019

Nick – You were a beautiful old soul who carried the weight of the world. I remember when you were a little boy, you worried about where the homeless people slept, and how they cared for their pets. You trained Shadow to be a service dog; you shuttled stray or injured animals to the shelter on your bike; and you patiently taught your cousin to draw. I couldn’t wait to see what other amazing things you would do with your life, and I’m so so sad that your life was just way too short.

Posted 31/10/2019

The world lost Caleb “Empty” Smith from a heroin overdose on October 23, 2019. He brought countless laughs and smiles to everyone around him. He was a talented artist and a truly loving friend to so many. I wish I could have done more to change your path. I know your battle too well having lived it myself for 15 years and I find peace in knowing that you are no longer living with that constant torment. We love you forever and I vow to keep your happy memories alive!

Posted 29/10/2019

MY SON RICK PASSED AWAY ON JUNE 13/2019 OF A DRUG OVERDOSE IN PRATTS VA. I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM HE WAS LOVED VERY MUCH MY ME. I HOPE THE POLICE FIND THE PERSON WHO SOLD HIM THE DRUGS, GET HIS PHONE BILL FOR JUNE AND SEE WHO HE CALLED THE NIGHT BEFORE OR THAT MORNING. THEY SAID HE HAD BEEN DEAD FOR 3 DAYS BEFORE I CALLED A PERSON TO GO AND CHECK ON HIM ON JUNE 13/2019. THAT PERSON CALLED ME BACK TOO LET ME KNOW RICK HAD PASSED AWAY. I MISS AND LOVE YOU RICK, MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME GOD BLESS.

Posted 26/10/2019

My brother Lance passed away 5 days ago addicted to opioid prescriptions. I am devastated. I miss his big personality dearly and I will never be the same.

Posted 27/10/2019

We lost Timmy to a Fentanyl laced Heroin overdose two days before his 21st Birthday. Timmy and a young man had an issue about money and he came in my sister’s house armed.
Unfortunately for everyone in the families that morning we lost Big Dan and the young man who came in their house was killed in their yard. Dan passed away at the Hospital on the operating table. Little Danny only 22 years old was shot in the abdomen and passed away five weeks later from complications from the shooting.
We also lost Timmy that day, because anyone who loses their Father and big brother in such a tragic way at only 20 years old would have a very difficult time dealing with this.
I still am struggling with their deaths.
Timmy wasn’t a junkie as I’ve had people say to me on social media. He was depressed, having major anxiety and I’m sure survivors guilt along with PTSD.
RIP, my dear sweet Timothy Scott, your Aunt Jan will forever hold on to all the wonderful memories I have had with you and your brother. I miss you all so very much.

Posted 27/10/2019

In Memory of Taylor Danielle Spivey and all the others struggling with addiction. Taylor was the most beautiful person I have ever met inside & out. Her smile could light up any room.Today is her birthday and I will not let her legacy be one of sadness & tears but one of celebration, love & life.
We all miss you “taterbug”.

Stephanie, Christa, Cameron, Haylee, Mimi, Aeriee, Paislee, Kobe & Zach <3

Posted 24/10/2019

My Mom Pamela Mitchell died from an overdose on March 29, 2019. i miss you all the time Mom and I’m so grateful for the time we had together before you left. I love you

Posted 22/10/2019

Miss you, hero! Not a day goes by I don’t think of you or what could have been done differently. Gone but not forgotten. RIP AD

Posted 20/10/2019

In memory of the beautiful soul we lost to addiction. Ivy M. Kirk, 36, daughter, sister and mother….your pain and struggles are behind you now. Take your broken wings and fly high. We love you and will miss you every day for the rest of our lives.

Posted 21/10/2019

Rest easy PI. You are loved and missed and thought of eveyeday.

Posted 12/10/2019

To the one I simply called “handsome” – my love, my best friend, my life partner. I loved you more than you’ll ever know. There are so many things unfinished, sadly, as soon as things started going great, you’re gone. I’ll never be the same. Life without you is unbearable. Everyone who met you loved you, for good reason. The first 3 words that come to mind to describe you are talented, generous and fun. Your blue eyes, your movie star ears, your adorable nyc accent, your infectious laugh. I’m not even sure if you overdosed that fateful night, all I know is you were drinking heavily, looking for substances and I couldn’t wake you in the morning. I’ll never stop the what if’s, I’ll never stop missing you, I’ll never stop loving you. I sincerely meant it that one time that I told you I loved you more than I’ve ever loved anyone. I am confident you believed me and I’m glad. It’s too painful to type more. I only hope to see you again.
-Sweetz

Posted 14/10/2019

Chester Charles Bennington 💜✌
Lead singer of Linkin Park who died by hanging. Spoke often of depression and claimed his mind was sick from it. Inspite of this he had a beautiful relationship with his wife & 6 children, and successful career with fellow bandmates. He is will be remembered for his phenomenal showmanship & philanthropy. You will be forever missed. I am thrilled to have known his music.

Posted 16/10/2019

Krissa Dawn Booth Cornell. (8/20/1980 – 7/24/2019) 38 years old. Krissa struggled since she was 12 years old with a mental health disorder. She loved feeding the homeless and talking to them. Looking back…she had a love for people who we think are broken…however she will tell you they are the most happiest people in the world. I wish I could have embraced more of her spirit and because of her I will live the rest of my days trying to embrace what she had.

Posted 10/10/2019

I lost my Daughter Emily Fletcher on Sept 1st to an overdose of Herion, She struggled with addiction for 10 years or more, started with pain pill and xanax then to the Meth and Herion. She had been in recovery and was doing great and then she relapsed and was thrown out of halfway house. she was depressed and beating herself up for it but she still went to a friends house and Overdosed while he was gone and he came back and found her. My heart is so broken and I miss her so bad.

Posted 03/10/2019

Kings County Behavioral Health would like to remember those people who have lost their lives due to an overdose:

Larry Serreno, Eddie Perez Sr., Amanda, Slaude Lord Jr., Jason Cannon, Matt, Robert Owen, Archie Barron, Linda Hart, Michael Kelly, Thomas Girard Myers Jr.,Tessie Lopez, Richard Lopez, Danny Lord Jr., Brooklyn Tratny, Barbara West, Dane Brown, Amanda Mattos, Donna Kay, David Merado

May these individuals and all those who lost their lives to an overdose related death rest in peace and may their family find comfort through all the memories of the moments they shared with them in this life.

Posted 03/10/2019

Our son Jos . We new it was coming . The struggle for 6 years. The failures , The trials. We miss him so much . Forever 21. 11-23-2011.

Posted 01/10/2019

Casey, My precious little boy. Wish I knew where you are because I miss you and have lost my way without you. At least you are free of all the pain and suffering all addicts endure. Mommy is so sorry. Will never be the same without you but I promise to try to carry on and help others with their battle and keep your memory alive. I see you everywhere and hear your messages, keep them going if you can…it is my only comfort. Your smile was so toxic, got you out of everything, ha. But I have been waiting for my hug for so long. And I miss our nightly phone calls. Oh Casey…Love you more than anyone could love anything. Please go with God and be happy in this afterlife. Please God, grant him some happiness that he really never got in life. And if it is not too much to ask, please God, let me have my hug from my Casey someday. Gonna take some time to do the things we never had? Love you so much Bean. Never forget…2/6/1983 – 7/31/2019.

Posted 01/10/2019

Jordan Spencer Clark, Not a day goes by without you being in my thoughts. How we became friends in such a short time still amazes me. Had you lived and stayed clean would we have continued? I honestly don’t know mate, but I do know as I do now that my life was so enriched because you blew into my life for that brief moment. Yes I wish you were here, you had so much potential, the world was at your feet and you didn’t see it because of your addiction. Such a loss and here am I dealing with this on my own. I cant imagine what your family goes through…but Know This!!!! You are loved , missed, thought of daily, and always will be my friend. Damn I miss you Jordan.

Posted 24/09/2019

It’s been almost 16 months since she overdosed. I’m struggling to accept that she is gone. We were together for 16 years. She was one of only a few people I have ever connected with in my life, and it seemed instant the 1st time we met. We have 2 sons together who are diagnosed with autism, our oldest pretty severely affected. I remember when I met her and I felt like I was in some fantasy. She was way out of my league and then the problems started appearing; another guy, pills, drinking, drugs, jail, a traumatic crazy past you name it. She had to suddenly move in with me and she was soon pregnant. We were actually really happy about it. We had cleaned up our lives and we loved each other so much we wanted to share our love with a child. Little did I know she was planning to leave me and have an abortion. I was devastated. She was gone and she destroyed all trace of our relationship. I was in a void. She called me a few weeks later begging me to see her, and I rushed to her. We restarted our relationship and she got pregnant again with our oldest son. I got a better job and it seemed like everything was going to be alright. I didn’t understand she had suddenly cold turkey quit years of hard drug abuse, heroin, coke, crack, MDMA, anything she could get her hands on to get a reprieve from the pain of her past. Her adoptive parents died when she was still in her late teens and no one was really there for her after it happened. She went crazy for awhile. Bad relationships that resulted in more drugs, jail and kids she lost. I loved her, even though I don’t think she loved herself because of all the bad in her past. Things I knew that poisoned her with guilt, shame, and insecurity. She regularly lashed out at me in histrionics, sometimes making up stories about outlandish things she feared I thought about. At times it seemed like, in her eyes, I was guilty of every injustice that she felt everyone had done to her. We had our 2nd son, and she started on pain pills after. She was super attentive to our 1st son. She kept him clean and happy and fawned all over him and I assumed she would be the same with our second son. At the time, I didn’t even know she was going around to different hospitals with various complaints of pain to get another prescription, but she started going out and some times wouldn’t be back for days. She said she had a friend, some girl named something and she deserved to get out away from the kids but she had drank too much and didn’t want to drink and drive. It looked like she was cheating on me. Gone every night and back barely before I had to leave for work. Gone as soon as I got home or sometimes before and we had 2 autistic sons in diapers. She had been gone a day or more when I kept calling her and she finally answered saying she wasn’t coming home and she had spent all of our tax return. I filed for divorce because I had already figured out she was cheating on me with some older party guy and I had learned the extent of her drug abuse and I couldn’t trust her to not neglect our 4 and 2 year old sons. I missed her and I wanted her to get better and come home to us and eventually she did after several months and we stopped the divorce. My family wanted nothing to do with us and we had to leave town and move. She was on methadone and anxiety medicine and sometimes our life was good and sometimes bad again. She left and came back 2 different times in the following 3 years until I lost my job of 7 years and we had to leave town and move again. She tried to self ween herself off all the methadone, ADD and anxiety meds and she started using crack and heroin within months of our new life. It got really bad and we got her in Suboxone treatment. We were almost evicted multiple times and had cars repossessed but things started getting better. We had maybe a couple of years where our lives were going in the right direction but she started drinking and smoking pot and was getting messages from guys left and right even meeting with an ex boyfriend to get pot or money from him. The company I worked for was purchased and the new company wanted to hire me and move me and my family for a better opportunity and more money several states away. We found another Suboxone doctor where we were moving and we moved again. We didn’t like it instantly but we found a lot of fun things to do and enjoyed our new home. My wife decided to homeschool our sons and I was promoted and it seemed like she was better. She was drinking some but that got better. She started seeing an internist for Suboxone who also prescribed her ADD meds and something else to treat bi polar and she went into a hypo manic state where she was paranoid and accused me of cheating and doing terrible things to her and our sons and plotting to kill her. She was filing for divorce and a restraining order against me and calling the police telling them crazy untrue stuff about me. Eventually children’s services stepped in and referred her to a mental hospital but my sons were in foster care and all I knew is I had to get them back. I proved to anyone who asked that the accusations about me were not true and that I am a good father and I got my sons back. I wanted her. Even still. Even though she did all of this, I knew she needed help and I reached out to her. That was July 2017. I tried to convince her and help her get on the right path but she wasn’t finished. There continued to be drugs and drinking and other guys and fighting until I found her overdosed and dead. I had to hide it from my sons and everyone else about the extent of our lives together that last year or so and some of the details of her death to protect my sons and keep them with me. All I could think about was, I had just lost her what seemed like again and again and I couldn’t lose them too. I am wracked with so much guilt and shame and grief and loneliness and anger that I’ve isolated myself and I can’t seem to reconcile all of these feelings and memories. It seems like everyone has moved on now but me. I feel broken and falling from flying to close to the sun. I feel like I’m self destructing sometimes. Sometimes I feel like a zombie. Sometimes I want to see her pictures. Sometimes it hurts so much I feel like I can’t take anymore. Sometimes I think I want to get better. Sometimes I dream of her. Sometimes and forever yours, Jennifer. Love Chris.

Posted 23/09/2019

To my fiance, best friend, and the love of my life. It has been 3 months since you left this Earth. Everyday is a struggle without you. Your parents, brothers, sister in laws, niece, and nephew miss you everyday. I will never understand why this had to happen to you. You had so much life left to live. Everyone who met you loved your smile, your personality, and your love of life. I have known you since elementary school and remember you as a leader, an athlete, and friend to all. It was many years since I had seen you but by the grace of God you came back into my life. Everyday with you was an adventure. You made me laugh even in my darkest days. We both were struggling with our addiction to alcohol. We fought demons in our lives everyday but that fight brought us closer together. We prayed daily to be able to overcome that addiction but tragically it took your life on June 17th, 2019. I will never be the same woman you fell in love with. I smile on the outside like I’m fine, but my heart hurts terribly. I beg God to somehow let me wake up from this nightmare. Since your death I have been to rehab and am now in a recovery house long-term. I have vowed to remain sober and honor your life as it should be. I am participating in Overdose Awareness events to spread the word to those who are suffering with the disease or family members who continue to fight to help the ones they love. Jake, I will do everything in my power to help others who are suffering as you and I did. I look at the stars at night and pray that you are looking down on me saying “That’s my girl!” I love you with all my heart and soul and look forward to the day I will see you in Heaven happy, healthy, and proud of me for trying to help others suffering. Till we meet again my love, you are always in my thoughts, heart and soul. Your love, Melissa

Posted 18/09/2019

Andrew “Drew” Wood – best hugger in the whole world… and I sure miss them. You passed on to your next chapter ( I sure wish I knew what it was !!!) 26 June 1907… seems like yesterday- seems like a hundred years ago… because your body left this world (Fentanyl and Xanax) I moved in with your “Granny Grunt” and had the opportunity to get to know her, and understand her… you know that we never got along- I can still hear you saying “MOM- why do you let her talk to you like that !” I would just smile (on the outside) and say “because she’s my mom”… because you were gone, and Dustin (his brother) was on the road- I didn’t think mom or my “family” could hurt me, any more than I was hurting- so when asked to move in with her, I did- and sweety, it was the best gift you could leave me with- over the years we became best friends – so when she passed last week, it was very bittersweet… I miss her like crazy- as I do you- but because of you all I have are sweet memories of both of you- No Regrets – I’m thankful I was chosen to be your mom – My boys taught me the true meaning of unconditional love…

Always and Forever Mom ddd

Posted 19/09/2019

Dear, Kristen. It had just been 4 years since the light was taken from my days. It seems that everything has stopped for me. I see people getting older , changing and , some passing yet I’m internally stuck. Stuck with confusion, sadness, anger and, most of all guilt. Guilt from the what if’s as I analyze every situation over and over where a different reaction or more support could of kept you here. Guilt that our child will never have the pleasure of that warm smile on her or hearing your infectious laughter. I begged for God to let me trade so Violet could have the most amazing mommy. Unfortunately I must have more penance being stuck here without you but carrying it feels all of your weight in my chest. I can’t still 4 years after believe it. I refuse to admit it. I cry and ache the same if not more. I visit twice a week and ask for forgiveness for not being able to fill the voids that drug could and I came up short. You never did baby. It’s so isolating. The real estate you occupy STILL seems like we’re together. I have never been so content, Kris. Never been so satisfied and happy. I’d do it Mr all again knowing the outcome. You were that cool, baby. I miss you so bad. I love you so much and I carry as much of you I can. I hope to see you.

Posted 14/09/2019

We lost my brother 10 years ago this year, 3/7/09 after a long battle with addiction. Not a day goes by hes not on my mind. Losing him has left a hole in our lives that is beyond repair. Losing him has been the driving force in my life to help others. If we can save one person, one family….then we’ve made a difference. I often wonder who he would be today & i look at his son, i look at his nieces and nephews and it breaks my heart all over again. He’s missed so much. I will see him again, of this I’m sure. Until then though, we must manage without him. I’ve come to realize there are things in life u never get over, you just learn to go on in spite of them. This is one of those things. I would have given my last breath to save him, without question. I love you Shayne.
3/25/82-3/7/09

Posted 12/09/2019

This message is for Lugh Shelley. I know we weren’t on the best of terms, but I will always miss you. You were such a kind hearted, caring guy and I will never forget you. You will always me my first love who taught me so much. I am looking forward the day we meet again, I miss your giggle more than anything. Sleep well beast, I’ll always be your belle ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted 10/09/2019

My father died of an overdose from heroin in April of 2017 he was 47. I myself was 27 and in prison from my own addiction to heroin. My dad has been the biggest insperation in my life and he is who keeps me going and to remind myself to stay sober.Ive been clean from heroin since July 2016. I just want my father to be remembered and know.he was loved by myself and many others. thanks Sierra

Posted 11/09/2019

This is a tribute to my kind and loving Jason C. Riesner. Too young to leave this earth but we will meet again in heaven one sweet day . I want to give you a big hug. The beautiful blue butterfly at your grave and beautiful cardinals we see at home remind us of the love you have always shared. Rest in peace Jason . We love you always.♥️🙏⚘🦋🕊

Posted 06/09/2019

In honor of my son, with the biggest most caring and compassionate heart. He loved to a fault. Always checking on everyone else while he was in such pain inside. I love you more than ever and miss you deeply and painfully every second. Your son is beautiful, I pray he has a heart as full as yours. No words will ever do you justice. May your ‘sparkle’ live on forever~ Ethan’s Mom.

Posted 07/09/2019

In Memory of My loving, beautiful, free spirited daughter Jasmine Le’Shea Mitchell (Forever 21) When you left us on May 11, 2015 our lives changed forever. Mom, Dad, and your Brother’s miss you so very much…Everyone who crossed your path loved you…you will never ever be forgotten…
Forever Brokenhearted,
Jasmine’s Mom

Posted 03/09/2019

My son Brandon lost his battle of addiction by overdose on 7/22/11. He is missed by everyone who’s life he touched, especially his family. Love and miss you every day, Brandon.

Posted 04/09/2019

2018-2019 has been a devastating time for many people; both directly and indirectly.
Bobby, Jason, Matt and Jesse. Rest easy. Help to keep us all safe. We love you ♡♡♡

Posted 31/08/2019

In loving memory of Raymond Booth

Posted 31/08/2019

May our loved one rest in heaven. I love you jay with all of my heart.❤️05/11/2019💔 i miss you so much…Mom

Posted 31/08/2019

To my son, my angel in heaven.17 years on this earth was not enough to live life💔not a day goes by that I don’t wish you were still here. On May 11 2019, the day you left you took my heart with you. I will never understand😢 just know you are loved, your sisters miss you so much. Fly high my baby boy😇 rest in heaven 07/25/2001-05/11/2019. Mom loves you more then life itself

Posted 31/08/2019

My beautiful daughter, Melissa Trotter, of New Britain, CT, left this world on Wednesday, April 3, 2019, of cardiac arrest due to an accidental overdose (alcohol, hydroxyzine, heroin & fentanyl). She suffered from substance abuse disorder. Melissa fought hard over 15.5 years to beat her health problems, & had success for a few years during that 15.5 year period.

Melissa had a beautiful heart and loved dancing, laughing, her pet bunny, and the beach; She helped many of her friends through their life problems. She was a smart young woman, had only 1 semester to go for her BA in Psychology, had a great sense of humor, and was always there to help her friends through their problems. She cared very deeply for those she loved.

I called her Melissa Leigh the Honey Bee … The name Melissa means Honey Bee. She taught me alot about being kinder, and not taking things quite so seriously. She was my Mini-Me<3.

I miss you so much, Baby. I know you’re at peace & joyous & free on the Other Side. Thank you for your visits & words of encouragement. This world was never meant for one as Beautiful as You. Until we meet again, I LOVE YOU LISSY. Always & Forever, Mom

Posted 31/08/2019

Andy, you lived with your heart bared. You gave who you were openly and freely and I understand how the traumas you endured led you down this path. I wish I knew you better. I wish you had to struggle less in this life. You were flawed, like all humans, but when you got things right, you lived life like a shining and glorious star bursting through the cloudy black night sky to twinkle on earth and bring a little warmth and perspective to the world. You were terribly real and I miss you.

Posted 31/08/2019

You will never be forgotten Amy and Julie…both of my sisters are together now, and at peace. Miss you! ❤️

Posted 31/08/2019

J- it’s been four and a half years since you died from an overdose. We miss you and love you so much. I pray that more people learn and understand more about the disease and treatment so other lives can be saved. Love Mom

Posted 31/08/2019

SIMONE-Another year, month, week, day, moment without you. The pain never goes away it’s just become part of who I am. Wish you were with me on this latest journey-we’d rock at it together. Love and miss you always xxxx

Posted 31/08/2019

My brother died from a long life of drugs and died at 50 I hope that young people to never start using because it becames a family disease and no one wants this, now I have two brothers gone

Posted 31/08/2019

On drug awareness day today like every day I miss my son Patrick who I lost through addiction. My heart breaks so much it’s so painfully raw just to say his name … sending love out to the families who lost loved ones through addiction. Also have a daughter Kate who lost a limb through addiction and is still lost in the world of addiction 💔

Posted 31/08/2019

My son Jacob died from a heroin overdose November 19, 2017. He was an elite athlete who suffered a broken neck at 14 and was prescribed Morphine. He stayed clean most of the time, but struggled with the effects of addiction from the injury till his death. He was a good son and a good man. He is missed by many…

Posted 31/08/2019

My brother was involved in a terrible car crash exactly on August 31, 2018. Miraculously, he didn’t kill anyone and walked away without a scratch. After that, my Dad and I urged David to heed God’s call to change his life around.

It was too late.

David passed away on February 10, 2019. Our hearts are shattered but we must carry on in Jesus’ name.

Posted 31/08/2019

June 14, 2018 you did what I knew was coming. You lived for one month but were not the same. July 15, 2018 you took your last breath. Luv and I miss you so much. Badu my love

Posted 31/08/2019

My younger brother Mark passed away April 26th 2013, at the young age of 42, unfortunately from overdose on prescribed opioids, Rest in peace my brother, we will meet again on the other side. xoxo

Posted 31/08/2019

Joshua Luke McNeill
1988 – 2016
We just finished putting purple lights on our “Joshua tree” and have a purple spotlight for our house.

Posted 31/08/2019

Paul-Your beautiful soul left this world too soon. May we all work to be kinder and more compassionate to one another. I regret that I could not be the person you needed when you needed someone the most. Rest in freedom and peace.

Posted 31/08/2019

This must STOP. Not one more.
I’m memory of Crystal Marie, my Angel
RIP beautiful 💜💝💜

Posted 31/08/2019

For my son, Matthew Knierim, only 20 years old when he passed on Oct. 23, 2014. He will forever be missed and loved!

Posted 01/09/2019

Remembering my Dad Jay today.
We lost him when I was 18 years old. He spent his life battling addiction. He overcame it many times but unfortunately the struggle became too much. Gone but not forgotten.

Posted 01/09/2019

Aunt Chris, Marvin White, Jessica Barnett, Brandy Kincaid, Ashley Huddleston, Daniel Debarr, Michael Sargent, Jessica Lemke and Travis Chism are the family members whom I’ve lost to the disease of addiction (so far). They’re Gone but NEVER forgotten.

Posted 01/09/2019

Coming up on 2 years this October, each day we all take a moment to remember our dear joe. He never had a scare, or a second chance, he had no idea the troubles he was getting into or how serious the problem was. His heart was so big and such a live for his family as we carry him in our heart💜

Posted 01/09/2019

My husband, Tim, overdosed right in front of my eyes and I had no idea. He went to bed and never woke up. I will never ever forget him. He had a huge heart, was so caring & thoughtful! I will never forget him! ❤️

Posted 01/09/2019

Its been 5yrs since we lost our beautiful daughter Carley.
To overdose with fentanyl. Our lives will never be the same, without you. At that time, it wasn’t a common thing. Now it’s an epidemic. So many lives lost, & family’s broken. Love you & miss you everyday. My Lucinda😇. Mamma

Posted 01/09/2019

On this important day, and always, we should remember those whom we’ve lost to a drug overdose. I lost my mother, Florence, back on May 13th, 2016, after a brief battle in hospital, which followed her suffering a sudden accidental overdose of Tylenol Arthritis Pain tablets. I still miss her, and I always will, Forever Rest In Peace Mom, until we meet again in heaven or that other magical spiritual place. 🙁

Posted 01/09/2019

we lost our son Nov. 4, 2018 from an accidental overdose worst day of our lives, and we haven’ t been the same since. We love and miss you everyday💞😢 RIP 🙏

Posted 01/09/2019

My daughter Shannon, forever 31, passed in March 2018. Was not an overdose but sepsis and endocarditis due to IV drug use. Addiction kills in more ways than one. I always knew overdose was possible but never thought about a heart/blood infection. We miss her very much, she was a beautiful soul. I love you my girl.

Posted 01/09/2019

My son
Casey Herrick Ward
Failed for lack of knowledge on drug addiction and treatment. As his mother, I gave up on him before he gave up on himself. I will forever live with all the feelings that come with this. If only I stayed stronger Casey…… I am so so so sorry. I will miss you forever. You, Casey Herrick Ward, are the best person I will have ever known.
All my love and thoughts until I join you.
Educate……… lives can be saved! ❤️💔

Posted 01/09/2019

MY BESTIE MELISSA! I WILL ALWAYS HOLD YOU IN MY HEART. WE WERE 2 PEAS IN A POD BUT NOW ITS JUST ME.PLEASE WATCH OVER ME AND OUR SONS TO NOT SUCCUMB TO THIS DISEASE. I LOVE U GIRL. ALL MY HEART. 💜💜🦋🦋

Posted 01/09/2019

Hey brute we miss you we’re going crazy here frfr I love you bro. I cant wait see when I get there

Posted 01/09/2019

I found my son, Eric, dead of an overdose on Thursday, August 22, and my daughter on May 6,2019. Two in three months. Fentanyl. This needs to stop so other parents don’t have to grieve their children.

Posted 01/09/2019

With the greatest love, I remember my husband, Kim Wendling. You struggled so hard and fought as best you could. You finally have the peace you so desperately sought. Fly free, my darling…

Posted 01/09/2019

I had the unfortunate responsibility of reviving my friend Kevin when he overdosed. It took 6 vials of naloxone to bring him back. I also realized that all the CPR training I had taken had not prepared me for such a sudden and immediate emergency. He died 3 months later from another overdose while he was alone with no one to help him. I cried onto his mother’s shoulder at his funeral. I myself have gone through withdrawal many times and have overdosed. I have a cookie jar in my kitchen stuffed with naloxone kits which I hope I will never have to use again. RIP Kevin

Posted 01/09/2019

My son,💜Anthony Scott💜, was tempted one last time, on 9/26/2017. He is forever 27, forever missed, forever loved, and forever my baby. My heart is shattered and my soul is broken. But I have faith that I will see him again. I love you “Tony Tiger”. Rest In Heaven where you are free from the pain.

Posted 01/09/2019

My heart has a hole I miss you so very much. Watch over your baby girl and family. We love you.

Posted 02/09/2019

Ashley Gail Sass
1/7/87 – 2/7/15
💜 left 5 yr old twin boys
Sadly missed so very much💛👩‍👦‍👦💦💔😪💜

Posted 02/09/2019

In loving memory of my son Jordan Kyle Hodges
July 31/92- March 10/19 who lost his battle to mental health issues and fentanyl overdose.
Jordan fought so hard to battle all his demons of homelessness, depression, schizophrenia and drugs but in the end they were all just too much for him. You’re at peace now my son and I love you so much and my heart aches and misses you terribly everyday. At times it’s so unbearable but I wouldnt want you to keep suffering everyday the way you did. You were so kind to everyone and had nothing but whatever you had you would give it to someone else if they needed it. You’re surrounded by so much love in the Lords kingdom and I will wait until it’s my turn where i will be with you again someday my son. I LOVE YOU!

Posted 02/09/2019

My son Parker died 66 months ago from an “Accidental Drug (Heroin) Overdose” I love & miss my son more then there are “Stars in the Sky” i just wish people would remember who Parker was, Not how he died!! He was only human, we’re all not perfect. Everyday should be “Overdose Awareness Day” (For some drug addiction is a daily battle) Son, your always on my mind & forever in my heart!❤💖💗

Posted 02/09/2019

My dear Mitchell Adam Gill (died 17/05/2018). I miss you everyday. I watch the Red Maple planted in your honour, grow it the memorial garden we have started for you. I knew you struggled daily with alcohol but had no idea that you also battled opioid addiction. When you relapsed so soon after 2 months in rehabilitation, I was stunned. I had no idea how to help you. I feel such guilt and shame that you died alone in your basement with a naloxone kit three feet from you. You were such an awesome son, brother and friend to so many. You had the kindest heart I have ever known. I will love and treasure the fact that you were a part of my life for 30 years and hope you are finally at peace in the spiritual world.

Posted 03/09/2019

Our 29 year old son died from an overdose less than 2 years ago. He left behind two beautiful children, who miss his voice and seeing his face everyday. It breaks my heart. I thought as a mother I could make a difference, that he would listen and do what I said. I was wrong. I love him and think about him every single day. The reality of him being gone is beyond words. I couldn’t save him but God is taking care of him now. I love you Justin more than you will ever know and I will always have you in my heart.

Posted 03/09/2019

Jake alexander graves, was my son who passed away from overdose of fentanyl on the morning of April 1, 2018. I found him on the bathroom floor of our home and was only 30-60 minutes too late. Its been difficult for his mother and I as well as his surviving sister. Its hard to believe after surviving a year of combat in Iraq, that his life would be ended by a pill…..

Posted 30/08/2019

Melissa,

My baby sister. It’s been almost a year without you. This life is devoid of all happiness since you left. I think of you everyday. And everyday I’m reminded of the pain of losing you, but also how amazing you were. I love you baby girl 💜💜💜

Posted 30/08/2019

My tribute is to my daughter father who overdose on morphine. He passed away on March 23,2013 His illness was cirrhosis to the liver. He was going thru depression. My daughter misses her dad alot.
Rip Peter Guerrero
01/05/74 – 03/23/13
We miss & love u
Melissa
Alexis

Posted 30/08/2019

Not a day goes by that I dont think of you, Missing you always my Son Daniel Mulholland

Posted 30/08/2019

29th August 2019 marked the 28th anniversary of my mother death from AOD aged 42.
A wonderful lady whom was a victim of the Pharmaceutical negligence during the 60 & 70s. My mother was not the only victim. This negligence also affect my siblings and I and made our childhood very traumatic. Trauma that we are still dealing with today.
THIS HAS TO STOP.
I recently completed a suicide first aid course during which we shown a line graph of male and female suicides over the past 100 years in Australia. There was a very significant spike in both female and male in the late 60s. We presumed it was a result of the Vietnam War. NO!
It was due to the over prescribing of Barbiturates???
Now its Opiates??
I would like to start a campaign in my mothers name to address this..
Can you help??
Regards
Antony
https://www.facebook.com/PAM-107667547273655/?modal=admin_todo_tour

Posted 30/08/2019

Paul Edward Mills Jr passed away April 19th 2019, he was my best friend, lover and everything in between, there’s not a day I don’t wish I had done more, but even so I know I done what I could, Overdose took the most important person in my life, I will forever be changed and I will continue telling his story in hopes to save someone else from going through this!

Posted 30/08/2019

My dear friend Jason G,
You’re so missed everyday and thought about everyday. You were the definition of a true friend and it’s still not real to me that you’re gone. I’m grateful for that phone call you made to me to get your message to me and then you had to leave me. My life is not the same without you. I could always call you and you would just listen and then make sure you checked on me. Well unfortunately you’re my best friend angel and through your death you taught me just how dangerous the game is. Your missed and loved Jay!! Forever in my ♥️ heart! Love ya

Posted 30/08/2019

❤️ Jacob Alexander Parker ❤️
6/19/92 ~ 4/3/18
I’ll love you forever
I’ll like you for always
As long as I’m living
My baby you’ll be

Never Forgotten & Always Loved, Mom

Posted 30/08/2019

Our life together had been a hard life. We had some bad years in the beginning and some bad years in the end, but the in-between years were the greatest of our lives. Watching our children grow, spending quality time with each other, enjoying life together. Being in love with someone with an addiction is a life I would not wish on anyone else. It has made me who I am today. I am a strong woman, who has learned to lean on God, family, and friends in all parts of this life I have been given.
William L Johnson Sr.
March 18th, 1970 to December 19th, 2018

Posted 30/08/2019

I lost my wife to a heroin overdose in 2016. I was getting out of federal prison 4 months after her death. At first I was pissed off at her. Then I realized that everything happens for a reason and I just learned to accept that she’s really gone.

Posted 31/08/2019

Our precious son, Tony, who we love so very much passed on October 16, 2018.
He was 26 years old and was the most caring, generous, protective, loyal, compassionate and loving child a parent could ask for. Tony has a great sense of humor, is handsome, athletic, popular and girls loved him since the tender age of 4. We would tease him that if we had a dollar for every girl who wanted to marry him we could put him through college! We love joking around with him. He’s so much fun to be around. We never thought this could happen to “us” but sadly it did. We love you so much, Tony. As parents we might seem ok to everyone or look like we are going on with our lives but it’s not the case at all. We are not ok and every moment without our son is a struggle for us. We are helping others with funding for transitional living, which is so important in the process of recovery. We are keeping our son’s memory alive through our non profit, Tony’s STEPS Inc.
We need to break the stigma of addiction and overdose because those who suffer with the disease of addiction are People too and they are as much God’s Children as any other being on this earth. They should not be looked down upon or disrespected. We need to reach out and help them the same as any person with a health disease. To every person struggling with addiction we love you and our hearts break for you and your families and loved ones . For every parent who has lost a child to this terrible disease, there are no words We can say to comfort you but we can say we understand as parents how you feel. We understand that every moment is a struggle to take a breath when your child can’t. We are supposed to pass before our precious children and as a parent to have our babies go before us is an unbearable pain that something only another parent who has lost a child can understand. When someone says to me, Tony’s in a better place, I cringe because as a mother there is no better place than for a child to be with his mother, no matter the age. Although, people think we are all ok , we as parents know that nobody understands this unbearable pain we live every day. This message comes with much love to all those suffering with addiction and their families, especially those parents who have lost a child or children from this disease.
We will continue to fight this evil and WE ALL will make a difference to put an end to the stigma and to help those in need of recovery. We won’t give up, we couldn’t save our son but we will do everything in our power to save someone else’s child from a death due to an overdose.
Our prayers & love are with all of you today, tomorrow & always.
And much love to our precious son, Tony. Our first baby who we love more than life itself. Our son, Our joy, our life.
Lori & Chuck Smith

Posted 31/08/2019

Dennis, I miss you every day. I am thankful for the messages you send to me. As we approach another year without you, my heart aches. I hope you are in peace now. We are ok. Love your big sister

Posted 31/08/2019

Elias
4/7/94 – 8/28/18

My 24-year old son and only child was on the autistic spectrum. Sadly, he tried Meth which was mixed with Fentanyl and it killed him. I write that he was on the autistic spectrum because there is a misconception that people on the spectrum do not engage in substance use. Elias leaves a legacy of love, kindness and exuberance. Elias was buried on August 31st – International Overdose Awareness Day.

New York

Posted 31/08/2019

Our beloved Alex Buzzi died of an overdose on June 27, 2019 in Pompano Beach, Florida. His 27 year old body is dead, but his soul will live forever! Alex was a deeply compassionate professional child advocate. He was steadfast in overcoming the genetic anomaly called Pierre Robin Syndrome. Alex was also adventurous and taught ESL in grades 1-5 in northern Spain. He was extraordinarily sociable and had friends from different socioeconomic levels and cultural backgrounds. We miss him 24/7!

In a few months, we will host a celebration of life as a kickoff to the Alex Buzzi Foundation. The purpose of this celebration is to commemorate the life of Alex Buzzi and to raise money for the foundation that bears his name. It is our hope that the Alex Buzzi Foundation will donate money to organizations which help individuals and families who struggle with the effects of substance abuse.

Posted 31/08/2019

To my daughter, a warrior and fighter, a hilarious girl, a friend and a love. You were so very loved, and you are so very missed. 1/22/97 – 12/22/14

Posted 31/08/2019

Parker Clay Fenton
04/09/1997-10/14/2015

My beautiful firstborn child, Parker Fenton, died of a methadone overdose on October 14th, 2015. Parker was an AMAZING person!! He was so full of energy, so funny, so smart, so caring, and so generous!! He was only 18 years old and he accomplished God’s purpose for him in that short amount of time. That doesn’t seem fair to me…but, in those 18 years HE taught ME so very much!! He left behind me, his mom, and his stepdad, his father, and three younger siblings. Even though it’s almost been 4 years, it’s no easier to get out of bed every day knowing he’s not here with me. Our lives have forever been scarred and none of us will ever be the same! We are ALL better for having known and loved that beautiful crazy kid!! WE LOVE YOU, P…to the MOON AND BACK!!!

Posted 31/08/2019

For my Buddy Paul who succumbed to fentanyl poisoning 12/12/19 after 14yr struggle. How you suffered everyday on behalf of all those who loved you who wouldn’t be able to handle your loss. Your suffering is over, and now we deal with the pain you experienced each day.

Posted 31/08/2019

I miss u, meggie.xo

Posted 31/08/2019

We miss you so much Justin. Rest in peace. 2/27/78-3/16/14

Posted 31/08/2019

Remembering my son Robert today & everyday. Died 31 Oct 2018. Love & joy is what has seen me thru dark days. Sending love to families & friends you are not alone x

Posted 31/08/2019

Katie, never in my darkest dreams could I envision anything being stronger than your amazing will. But, heroin was and it shattered your life, ripping you out of our lives, leaving a jagged-edged, black chasm of endless depth next to which we attempt to rebuild our lives without you. With heart and soul shredded, we can only keep the memories of you alive.

You were amazingly witty and kind, very beautiful and wise, tremendously empathic and sensitive. An artist in every way. You made me laugh AND cry more than any other person, dear, beloved daughter. You are forever 21, Katherine Antonia Steinman. Your mother, father and big sister grieve for you daily. We miss you more than words can express.

Posted 29/08/2019

Brandon Nicholas Merges 1/08/90-11/14/15
Baaaaaaaby! In the short 25 years you were here you touched so many. Your smile, your laugh, your compassion for others. Thank you for the sweet memories of your life as a child to a grown man. I will hold them close to my heart forever. I miss you every minute of every day and will always love you my sweet son. Until I hold you again….in heaven.
Love Maaaammma

Posted 29/08/2019

My tribute is for Dawson- my 26-year-old son who lost his battle with heroin/opioids on March 1, 2014, just 3 days out of a month-long rehab. He was a kind sensitive young man who I believe with all my heart had a pure heart and not a negative bone in his body. He was a son, a brother, a grandson, cousin and a good friend. His faithful best friend best buddy Burly his rescue dog has now joined him on July 23, 2019. Dawson was a college graduate with a whole lot of life ahead of him and we not only mourn his loss we mourn what could have been, his lost potential. We will see you soon my beloved son and each day I live on this earth I count as a day closer to reuniting with you. love and miss you Dawson BIG MUCH!

Posted 29/08/2019

🌞Mary Kate, you are in our hearts every day. We love and miss you.
9/29/94-11/21/16

Posted 30/08/2019

I lost the love of my life to heroin. Dave was a beautiful soul that didnt deserve the way he died. I pray for all the addicts that are still struggling and the ones in recovery. I love you Dave.

Posted 30/08/2019

My beloved and forever cherished son,
We hold you in our hearts forever. We are having immense hardships accepting that you’re gone. Your love of life, your laughter, your support to everyone is remembered, shared and talked about often. We will never, ever forget. Your fight with life problems were hard, and you tried to get help, but unfortunately the help wasn’t beneficial. A huge chunk of all of us, is gone. We miss you so much and love you to no end. Love you always and forever, your mom.

Posted 30/08/2019

I love & miss you JD & SB! I will always educate to honor you both. No stigma and no shame. Addiction is a beast, and being honest with one’s self is half the battle. You should be here, enjoying life. I hope you both know how much you are truly loved and missed. Sending hugs to Heaven! XoXo

Posted 30/08/2019

Adam, my best friend and love of my life, we lost you too soon. 7/25/18. Thankful for all the sweet memories and moments, my time w/ you was such a gift. You are so loved and missed. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. Our lives will never be the same w/o you— losing you left a big hole. Miss your hugs and your laugh. You fought hard. Your faith and your kindness inspired many. You will never be forgotten. Love you always. Til I see you again.

Posted 29/08/2019

I lost my precious son Jonathon Lohmeier August 26, 2018 from a fentanyl laced Xanax. He struggled with his disease of addiction for many years and we fought hard to free him of it. He was a funny, sensitive, loving, caring son that also struggled with bipolar, depression, adhd and never felt that was worth anything. I don’t think he realized truly how much he was actually loved. He was born on the 4th of July 1989 and that is one thing he always loved about himself. He loved celebrating his birthday because he knew it was one time he would totally be the center of attention. He always is and always will be my firecracker. My first born, only son and the very first true love of my life. The hole in my heart will be open and will only be filled when I see him again when my time comes. Thank you for the opportunity to share my son Jonathon with everyone. I will say his name daily. He will not be forgotten. He is always missed and forever loved.
Thank you, Kristina <3

Posted 29/08/2019

I miss you more and more each day. Marlow I love you.

love Mama xxx

Posted 29/08/2019

16 months, still miss my son terribly. Almost 11 months clean. Used twice 04-27-18, the last time fatal. Not sure what my new normal is. Heartbroken. Questions will never be answered. Love you Mike! Forever 30.

Posted 30/08/2019

To the precious lives lost we remember you with fondness in our hearts
Special lives, precious memories xxx

Posted 30/08/2019

I lost my precious daughter on 3/25 of this year to the horrible disease of addiction. Her name is Krista Marie, she was 35 years old and left behind an 8 year old son. I would like to remember her on this day by lighting a candle in her memory, I will be having a gathering of family and friends tomorrow to have a small barbecue in her honor. We will all light a candle in her memory.
Krista’s Mom forever 35

Posted 30/08/2019

Michael James Kaelin
9/27/93-12/13/17
Forever in our hearts, the worlds a bit dimmer since you have been gone.

Posted 28/08/2019

Miss You Forever
My Son Matt
Gone Forever
My Love Lives On

Posted 28/08/2019

For my inimitable. unique, individual, wordsmith Jake who died in May 2016, alone abroad, trying to manage his addiction by himself. I miss you all the time, I ache for you every day. Treatment has to improve soon . I campaign for change . But nothing really soothes the gaping wound caused by your absence. I love you to the moon and back. mum xx

Posted 28/08/2019

For all who have lost someone

You can shed tears that s/he is gone
or you can smile because s/he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that s/he’ll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all s/he’s left us.
Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her/him
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her/him and only that s/he’s gone
or you can cherish her/his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what s/he’d want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Posted 28/08/2019

In memory of the young men and women that I’ve worked with over the years. I will never forget each of you:
Jessica R, Mikey, Terry, Jacob, Ryan D, Tyler O, James W, Chad Z, Anthony Z, Matthew P, Andrew G, Amber K, Mike F, Randy I, Daniel P, Miles L, Brooke B, Amy C, Mike F, Pierce S, John L, Max H, Rachel M, Cody T, Joana K, Mike Y, Theresa C, Kim H

Posted 28/08/2019

In remembrance of our beautiful mother who we lost 26 years ago.
Love you always Jo, Tania, Jonny, Kerry, Coral, Brad, Tylaa, Corey, Tarkan, Joshua and Naite xx

Posted 29/08/2019

Mackenzie,
I miss you more everyday, I can not believe that I will never be able to hold or hug you ever again. It was not supposed to be this way, you leaving before me. I hope you know how much I love you and always will.
Love
Mommy

Posted 29/08/2019

My precious son, you are so loved and missed every day. I miss your charm, your wit, your heart, I miss you! The pain is gone for you and that is helping to heal my heart.
MJ is happy, I promise to love her and take care of her for the rest of her days. Love Mom

Posted 29/08/2019

My beautiful baby Beth Buening 3-15-95 /5-1-19 Forever 24
I love you and miss you.

Posted 27/08/2019

For my brother, Joseph. I will miss you until my last breath. Across the universe xoxo

Posted 27/08/2019

My son Christopher Streett, I love you and miss you with all my heart…

Posted 27/08/2019

Jordan, I did it! I sent the picture to your parents finally, had to wait for when it felt right and I had no motive. I don’t know if they liked it or not. I’ll never know this more than likely, but that’s ok. I felt in my heart that that is where it belonged and I have a peace about it.
I miss you buddy, More than there are stars. You and Mom are in my thoughts daily as always. I went to your grave and played guitar and harmonica for you Saturday. Hope you enjoyed it. I feel you did! I’m slowly getting me together mate, not an easy thing to do lol but I feel I’m actually making headway. I wish you were here still at times, yet this world is such a mess Jordan.
I feel for kids your age and younger, what will it be like in ten years? God help us. I love you Jordan and count the days till I see you and Mom again. little more…

Posted 27/08/2019

Alecls mommie and aunt Ellie misses you so much

Posted 27/08/2019

I lost my best friend James to a fentanyl overdose on April 20th, 2019 and it still feels like yesterday. I miss you jim.

Posted 27/08/2019

To our Joseph:

We will forever miss you in our lives. Our hearts are broken and Dad and I are struggling with HOW do we live this life without you. You are not broken anymore. You are at peace.

I wish to honor and remember you today on what would have been your 30th birthday – 8/31/2019.

There are NO words that will heal this emptiness. I hope in time we will be able to celebrate your smile and your compassion and your love.

We love you, miss you and will never ever forget you…..Until we meet again………….

Love Mom and Dad

Joseph Michael Guerrieri
DOB 8/31/1989
DOD 8/16/2019

Posted 28/08/2019

I lost my twin sister Danielle Wynne 4 1/2 years ago to a fentanyl overdose. She was a great mom and nail tech at one of the top nail salons she loved her family very much. The disease of addiction does not discriminate. I lost my best friend Michelle 4 days after and an ex girlfriend 6 months later.

Posted 28/08/2019

Travis if love could have saved you, you would have lived for ever. Forever 28, forever missed. Travis Morgan Hardt 3/14/87-2/22/16

Posted 28/08/2019

Tribute to my husband Jason scoot Michael rakes June 2nd 1980 to July 13th 2018 rest in peace baby

Posted 28/08/2019

Michael Brodowski was a beautiful soul who was taken away from us at the young age of 24. Michael had just graduated with honours as a Network Systems Engineer and was loved by all that met him. His memory will live on forever as he dances in the sky.

Posted 28/08/2019

To the moon and back, my sweet boy. Your laugh, beautiful bright smile, sense of humor, exceptional intelligence, calm demeanor, kindness, loyalty, empathy, sensitivity, tenderness, and profound love for family and friends, especially your daughter, will always be with us and never forgotten – thank you for all you gave us and taught us. You were one of those individuals who had it all and were so genuine, but suffered a life altering event that you never recovered from, hence your path to find something to ease the pain – I wish it could have been me instead of you. Your passing will forever create a deep void in all of us, but we will do our best to live our lives without you, but through you. Your beautiful daughter reminds us how to do that every single day. She will always know how wonderful her daddy was through the memories we share. You will always be a shining light in our hearts. We love you and miss you so very much and hope more than ever that you have found peace. Mommy loves.

Michael Ryan Warner 10/18/1987-11/10/2018

Posted 28/08/2019

Our beautiful son, Joel David Mutch, lost his fight against heroin on 11/27/2017.
His music, love and light lives on and encourages us every day.
“I love you in a place where there’s no space and time.”

Posted 28/08/2019

I have lost 16 friends to drug overdose, there are still several addicted and I hesitantly look in the obits everyday expecting to see more, my area has been ravaged (Greenbrier, Summers and Monroe county West Virginia). I myself was an addict, I am now a Certified Peer Recovery Specialist and 4 years clean and sober. I pray daily for the people of my area and for the people struggling worldwide…there is HOPE and people that care…RECOVERY WORKS, I’m the example. I bow my head in silence for those that have passed…I raise my head for HOPE and RECOVERY…God Bless.

Posted 28/08/2019

So…Johnny, my Jonathan, my first born and only son…I have just started typing and the tears are here already. You have been gone from our lives physically since Jan. 12, 2015. The first IOAD I could barely write a tribute. I wrote it out in long-hand, writing, and rewriting. I wanted it perfect. It would be the first of many tributes I have written for you. This one I am writing as I think, reflect, type. I know it does not have to be perfect, but it will be perfect because I am writing it with nothing else but love.

You were as beautiful as the flowers your Nonna would say. And that you were. A singing, dancing, creative writing machine. A light that shimmered and glowed. And people-your friends, strangers, acquaintances, like moths, they were attracted to that light and never wanted to leave its brilliance.
And when you were gone, we wept with abandon. We still weep.

We are changed. But you are not; you are still brilliant, beautiful, blessed. We keep following your light.

I love you. Always have, always will. Forever and ever. Amen. Mama

Posted 28/08/2019

My beloved son Josh is a victim of this dreadful epidemic. He is not a number of a statistic. He is and will always be my beautiful son. May his death be redeemed by others who will survive as we strive to overcome this epidemic. I will love him forever.

Posted 28/08/2019

Jon Pierre Lopez
7/25/65=3/30/16
I will forever be your voice., I will always speak your name. Pierre you are missed and loved every day. Rest easy baby until i see you again

Posted 26/08/2019

We lost a daughter, sister, granddaughter, Aunt, niece, cousin, friend when we lost Courtney Kraiza from a Fentanyl overdose on March 9. 2019. She will be forever 28. We all miss her everyday. She touched so many lives and fought a hard battle. We will continue to fight this battle in her name, so no other families have to go through the agonizing pain we go through on a daily basis. Forever in our hearts!!

Posted 26/08/2019

Jessica Emerick Beloved
Mother/wife/daughter/sister/Aunt/Niece and friend
Forever 29; Never forgotten
3/10/87-8/23/2019

Posted 27/08/2019

Gone but never forgotten

Posted 27/08/2019

To my son Travis Howard Smith, since you were born on July 26, 1980 you were a Momma’s Boy. You were proud to be one, you would tell everyone. It was you and me for most of your life, up to that fateful Mother’s Day, May 12, 2013 when my world changed forever. I miss your face, your smell of dirty grease on your work clothes, your smile, your eyes, your playing the guitar and singing to me, I still want you back, I miss you like crazy, always remember, Momma loves you Like Jesus Does. #forever32

Posted 27/08/2019

My daughter Catherine Emily Shepard was poisoned by fentanyl on Feb. 28, 2019. #Forever26
Our lives have been changed FOREVER! 💔
Catherine was young, beautiful, smart & had her whole future ahead of her. But it was cut short by this horrible epidemic!
My heart is broken & aches every day.
Until we meet again…
Catherine’s Mom

Posted 27/08/2019

To my son Randy Osgood. Life will never be the same. I miss you every moment of everyday. I won’t ever let you be forgotten. I love you.
Love, Mom

Mom

Posted 27/08/2019

CRIUZ SHEPHERD Always loved…♥️Never forgotten!! Be free my son!!

Posted 27/08/2019

Remembering my firstborn son, Bobby Carlson, aged 23. 9/27/93 – 6/5/17. You are missed every second of every day.

Posted 27/08/2019

In loving memory of my beautiful son, Michael Gorski who passed away from an overdose. Forever 29, 4/1/82-6/13/11. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, not a day goes by that your absence isn’t missed, not a day goes by that my heart will ever be whole again.
Forever in my heart…mom

Posted 27/08/2019

In loving memory of my sweet nephew, Jason Hamm…..he lost his battle on May 11, 2010

Posted 27/08/2019

My son Troy Camiolo died on 04/27/18 he was 32 years old. He died from a Heroin/Fentanyl overdose. His sister & brother along with his nieces and nephews miss and love Troy. I love my boy❤️

Posted 27/08/2019

My heart aches every second of my life for my son Joseph D. Kirby. He was an outstanding son, husband, father , grandson, brother and man. His death has destroyed so many lives ..

Posted 26/08/2019

I wish I had more time with you💜

Posted 26/08/2019

My beautiful daughter Christina Young passed away from a fentanyl overdose on january 21, 2018, she is forever 29. She left behind her 7 month old son whom I cherish and love so much. Christina I love and miss you every moment of every day and I promise you that your baby boy will know how amazing you were and how much you loved him ❤. He is 2 now and he says “Mommy” when he sees your pictures and he kisses them and holds them on his chest over is heart ❤.

Posted 26/08/2019

To all those who have lost a loved one to overdose. May you find peace somehow

Posted 26/08/2019

Gabrielle Denise Rocca forever 23. Murdered by fentanyl poisoning 3.10.94 -2.8.18 I will love you forever my beautiful daughter

Posted 26/08/2019

Lexie Lou,
Your so loved and missed by so many. Your story, your life, will continue to be told, it will continue to change lives and save souls. Not a day goes by that I don’t talk to ppl about you and how deeply you are still loved.
Lexus Felton 1/8/97 ~ 12/8/18
Forever Mommies baby girl 💜

Posted 26/08/2019

In honor of my amazing daughter, Gabrielle Sweder, who lost the fight on January 30, 2016 at the young age of 25. Forever loved and terribly missed beyond words!

Posted 23/08/2019

I survived half a dozen severe heroin ODs, in all cases but one very small doses combined with diazepam (valium). I was dead a few minutes a few times, and mostly luck saved me : someone was there, the pain of a cigarette burning the palm of my hand kept me alive, etc. After 30 years of heroin use on and off, 22 years on and off methadone I have no business being in such reasonably good health, or even alive. I rejoice of that every day, and also despair at my mounting losses : I’ve decided that if I couldn’t stop completely I was going to manage my habit and work to help my peers. Only work, legit work, period.
I’ve had the incredible joy of bringing one person back from the dead thanks to the wide availability of naloxone in Quebec, and some cops not being above asking an addict for help : Mary, I’m so glad you’re not one of my ghosts, hope you’re hanging in, wherever you are.
This is the hard part, as I’m afraid I can`t do my ghosts justice, not remembering them all or their names, at once. I just know that not just ODs but the consequences of a misguided, crass War on Drugs has made all my adult life a long litany of losses.

Julie, 24 years in November, I swear I can still smell you sometimes in the morning when I wake up alone…
To all of you, gentle miscreants and fellows of the roads less travelled, friends, great loves, lovers, loved and lost ones, thank you for having shared part of your lives, however small or for how little time, as your memories, their collective weight on my soul, are part of what keeps me going : if I’m still here, and you all are not, I must not stop….
So I strive to rise, and be a better man.
Thank you

Posted 23/08/2019

My son died from Carfentenol poisoning.

Posted 24/08/2019

Archie MacIsaac-Vacon May 12, 2000 – June 29, 2019

Magnificent son, unmatched friend, beautiful grandson. Archie was full of adventure, confidence and love. He had a sense of justice and a drive to do good and to do well. We miss his conversation, his knowledge and his shining intellect. I miss hugging him long and often. Archie was poisoned by fentanyl when he thought he was taking something else. We’ll push to do better in Canada, Archie, so that we can help others be safer.

The depth of my love for you, son, is equalled by the depth of my pain in losing you.

Posted 24/08/2019

Jared Brisco 4/27/1977- 2/28/2019
You were one of the most humble and kind person I have ever known and I love and miss you every single day and I hope you are finally at peace and not hurting anymore and I hope god is taking care of you my love ..

Posted 24/08/2019

My big boy my name sake my Jr my best friend. Since you left us that Christmas morning mom and I haven’t been the same. Raymo I see no change coming anytime soon. May you always Rest In The Arms Of The Lord. I love you So much Raymo. Your pops forever.

Holbrook

Posted 24/08/2019

My heart reading all these tributes. I pray for each and every person, that God will give them peace and comfort in this time of sorrow. Satan is using this drug and drugs in general to destroy families and lives. I will continue to pray for an end to this tragedy and for all of u that have posted.

Posted 24/08/2019

To my only child, Dakota, 2-2-1993–7-1-2011
I will be your voice. You are my very heart. I miss you everyday.
Love, Mom

Posted 24/08/2019

My heart….my soul…Luke 💜
1/25/2018

Posted 25/08/2019

Gone too soon and never forgotten. 💜💜💜🙏🙏🙏 R.I.P. my sweet son 💔👼😭 I will not stop until you have justice! Your loving mom. 💜💔

Posted 26/08/2019

We lost our beautiful 19 year old daughter, Elena, on April 11, 2019. Please hold all of the families and friends of those lost close to your heart and continue to pray for those sick and still suffering. We love you with all of our hearts, sweet angel Elena. Love always and forever, Mom and Dad

Posted 25/08/2019

In memory of my brother Duane Whaley. I miss him and think of him every day. He was such a talented and caring person. Drugs had such a hold on him. He was in many rehabs. His last place was the Salvation Army in Norwood ky where he was finally clean for a year or so then had a relapse that took his life. The staff and his friends there are wonderful people. I urge everyone to donate to the Salvation Army it’s such a wonderful organization. They were there for my brother and our family. We miss him so much. I am so glad to see that this epidemic is being recognized so maybe more people will be helped to fight their addiction. Love and miss you baby brother.

Posted 25/08/2019

Everett was a beautiful person and his soul and the impact he had in my life and heart will live on in my soul forever. I am a better person for having known him and feel lucky to have had the time we shared. Fly On and Everglow Everett and I seriously love you too. ❤️

Posted 25/08/2019

Gone but never forgotten
Angelique Lamb, Mike Matuszewski, & Adrienne Rivera,
We continue to carry a message of hope that no other person or family has to endure what we had to.
No words could ever express how our heart breaks by your passing.
Rest Easy.

Posted 26/08/2019

There is a road
No simple highway
Between the dawn
And the dark of night
And if you go
No one may follow
That path is for
Your steps a alone

Peace on your journey my son

Posted 26/08/2019

George Stafford
6/16/87-7/2/18

Posted 26/08/2019

Nick Rubino 6/2/87-12/4/18. Son, brother, father. Funny, huge heart, great employee. Always lifting others up. You will be forever missed. I will see you again, love Mom

Posted 26/08/2019

To My Dear Son, Vincent: It’s been almost 2 years since you left for your place in heaven and you have been oh-so-missed every one of those days. There is a big hole in my heart that will never be filled until we meet again. I love you and miss you, Mom.

Posted 26/08/2019

I lost my 19 year old son, Nick, to an accidental heroin overdose. I miss him terribly and ache for him every day. He was so beautiful and had such a good heart. He wanted to live. I am forever broken that I couldn’t save him. I love and miss you so much Nick. There are no words to express the depth my sorrow.
05/16/99-01/22/19

Posted 26/08/2019

I miss you every single day. My heart is forever broken.
Ryan Michael Schillaci
January 12, 1987 – January 19, 2014

Posted 26/08/2019

R.I.P. To My Daddy 💜
Jamie Glen Morgan
6/14/1974 — 2/18/18
I Love You & Miss You More & More Everyday

Posted 26/08/2019

Ashli I miss you so much babygirl you are always in my heart and thoughts 4/1/94-8/1/17

Love always and forever
Mommy

Posted 26/08/2019

We lost my dear nephew Kenny Bass on May 23rd, 2019. He had an addictive behavior, as he had a mental illness…and only the wrong drugs made him feel better. He had long destroyed his heart, veins and brain. Opioids suppress your respiratory system, which restricts blood circulation in his veins. He was at the point of no return, as he was addicted. I’m not sure he ever accepted the possibility of recovery. He was always suicidal. He had lost the will to live many years before. It burdens my heart daily. I loved him so deeply.

Posted 26/08/2019

In loving memory of my son Nathan C. E. McMellan. Deeply loved and so missed.
4/8/78 – 7/3/13. Best son, brother and father anyone could wish for. Forever in our hearts ♥️

Posted 23/08/2019

A life taken way way way too soon. I miss you Cary, the best boyfriend & best friend a girl could ever ask for. <3 4/26/97 – 4/16/19

Posted 23/08/2019

I lost my darling son Tim on December 12, 2017. Every day is painful. I had to learn how to live without his love. I would of done anything to have prevented this but just couldn’t do it. I pray for everyone with addiction and their families because this is the greatest heartbreak.

Posted 22/08/2019

My daughter Cassandra 09/30/1982-07/20/2018 struggled a very short addiction and fought soo hard to get her life back.. fentanyl took her life. She was incredibly beautiful inside and out, she loved helping absolutely anyone she could. She wanted to be a nurse, a wife and a mother.. she is incredibly missed every second of every day.. we love you sweet girl to the moon and beyond ❤

Posted 22/08/2019

My coworker and friend with soo much talent gone far too soon. You are missed every day Ryan. – Ryan Gervais Dec 2nd 1988- May 11th 2017

Posted 23/08/2019

We lost our 27 year old son just before the Holidays 2018 to a Heroin overdose. He had struggled for many years with his addiction. We miss the man he was. His siblings miss growing old with him and his daughter has lost her dear Pa.

Posted 23/08/2019

i wish we weren’t so stupid. i wish we weren’t so careless. i wish we would have really realized the risk before it was too late. god gave us plenty of warnings, and we ignored every one of them. and why did we? it wasn’t fun, it wasn’t worth it!
the last few weeks i had with him, i only remember bits and pieces. drugs zapped every last memory i would’ve had with him. and the very few memories i do remember vaguely, are awful. the drugs were making us miserable, and instead of hating the drugs for it, we took it out on each other.
i don’t remember going to sleep with him our last night together… i don’t remember if we said i love you, or even goodnight to each other. all i know is i woke up that morning and i was cuddled up with a dead body who was once my beautiful baby Briley. we didn’t have any more chances. we didn’t get any last words, or any time to prepare. when it’s over, that’s it. it’s the end. i’ve been waiting every day for our life together to begin again, or even just your life, but that’s not going to happen. the sweet, hilarious, kinda rude haha, but so so special boy in these pictures is gone. and i swear it’s the most tremendous loss the world has had. it’s the loss that was big enough to stop my world…
please, please, PLEASE don’t end up like us. don’t let your infatuation w the destructive lifestyle take your life, and DONT BE THE GIRLFRIEND WHO LOSES HER HEART BC SHE WAS TOO IGNORANT TO ACTUALLY TRY TO CHANGE ANYTHING.

rip, briley christian caldwell. “soulmates” are the biggest life lessons, and you sure did teach me a lot the 8 years i had you. i’ll miss you till i’m with you

Posted 22/08/2019

By holding this event, it is hoped that can remind again of the dangers of overdose that can occur in drug users.

Posted 22/08/2019

South African National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence wish all the families, friends and colleagues who lost loved ones due to Substance Use Overdose. Their wonderful memories will always have space in the hearts of those who knew them most. We should give hope to those that are still not aware that overdose can change the whole situation, but through it all, hope remains within to avoid the vicious circle turning this way again.

Lets remember them with every thoughtful activity for others to learn that overdose is a reality and therefore wish all who lost the loved ones , inner peace, healing and strength during this month of remembrance.

Posted 21/08/2019

Первое знакомство с передозом врезалось в мою память навсегда…Тогда мы не знали. не видели. не читали и не сталкивались с этой бедой.
В те далекие 80 е годы, когда нам было по 17 – 18 лет ты пришел в квартиру где мы зависали и никто не понял что тебе нужна помощь! Мы хором ржали над тем как ты смешно что-то бубнил и мычал и на утро увидев что ты так и не пришел в себя и весь твой рот в белой пене стало ясно что это беда. Скорая не спасла тебя. Ты умер по дороге в больницу. Я помню нашу растерянность и страшный, животный вой твоей мамы… Это в моей голове и памяти отпечаталось навсегда. Я не помню твоего имени, но благодаря тебе, тому случаю я наверное и жива до сих пор.
Я не перестала употреблять, нет, но стала опасаться передозов.

The first acquaintance with the overdose crashed into my memory forever… We didn‘t know then. They didn‘t see it. have not read or encountered this trouble. In those 80s, when we were 17 – 18 years old, you came to the apartment where we were hanging out and no one understood that you need help! We roared over how funny you were humming and mooing, and in the morning we saw that you never recovered, and your whole mouth in white foam made it clear that this was a disaster. The ambulance didn‘t save you. You died on the way to the hospital. I remember our confusion and the terrible, animal howls of your mother… It‘s in my head and the memory is imprinted forever. I don‘t remember your name, but thanks to you, I‘m probably still alive. I didn‘t stop using, no, but I began to be afraid of overdosing.

Posted 22/08/2019

To my dear friend Jamie- you were taken from us far too soon. I still miss you and love you with all my heart. It has been 22 years since you passed away from a heroin overdose, but sometimes it feels like yesterday. I have learned to live without you, only because I have had no choice. Love always, Dee Dee

Posted 20/08/2019

Alecia Coglianese my babygirl. I love you and miss you with all of my heart. Your life matters! I will be your voice & your memory keeper. A piece of my heart is missing. I know how hard you battled to break the chains. I know how you helped so many others inspite of your own struggles. I am so proud of you. I will see you when I get there. Until then You will Always be Remembered 💔💜
Love Always and Forever,
Mom

Posted 20/08/2019

RIP Desi, 27yrs old-daughter, granddaughter, sister, mother – your fight is over now – no more pain – we love you – will remember you always.

Posted 21/08/2019

I would just like to speak about my beautiful boy Nathaniel Aaron Breshears.He passed away this year on May 11th 2019. He was so smart and so loved by everyone he encountered. I miss him every moment of everyday. He was very talented played in a band all through High School. He could play any instrument. He had so much potential. He has two older brothers – fentanly intoxication took his life. He was 8 months clean.He will be missed greatly. Love you Son!!! Mom

Posted 21/08/2019

In memory of my beautiful daughter Misti. I miss you so much.

Posted 21/08/2019

In loving memory of my son Josh who lost his battle 8/24/17. You are loved and missed every day. There is too little help for those afflicted and too little education for their loved ones trying to help them. Josh was loving, funny, smart, determined young man. He never stopped trying to get better and he loved his family. The loneliness and shame only serves to make the addiction worse. Josh we love you forever, til we meet again Mom

Posted 21/08/2019

In loving memory of my sister Rachel Irene “bean” Salmon who passed away from an overdose on July 17 2019. You will always be my sister and I will carry you In my heart. I am sorry I couldn’t save you and show you how much you were loved. You were sweet , kind , funny , smart , talented and a very special soul. My heart is broken that you are gone and we won’t grow old together. I know you are at peace from your struggles. I love you very much and miss you terribly.

Posted 20/08/2019

To my uncle Daniel Greenslade,
I wish I got to know you better, you were funny and kind, you leave behind 2 beautiful children who are growing up to be good people, I’m sure you’re watching them from heaven. I know I wasn’t the best child, and I’m sorry that the last time you spoke to me and my brother was to tell me off.

I was 16 when you passed, I knew you were troubled and battled addiction, you went through very hard times in your life; but everyone commented on how intelligent you were, and funny and kind.

Rest easy, and I’m content in the thought you are now at peace.

R.I.P

Posted 20/08/2019

Fly To The Angels, Melanie Leigh. I would have never known what love is without you. 143 Mama

Posted 20/08/2019

In Memory of Ryan Colt Anderson 6/8/83-12/3/17. Life has not been the same since you were taken away. I know you’re still with me, I get your signs ❤ You never should have died, if I only had known then what I know now.. Your quirky jokes are missed as well as your beautiful smile. If only heaven had a phone, so I could hear your voice one more time, say the last words you said to me that night “I love you”. Those 3 words are forever locked deep within my heart. I miss you so much each and every day, I would give anything to have you back. I hope you are resting in peace, while you watch over me and protect me from up in the heavens above. I love you always and forever, until we meet again.. Love always Anne

Posted 19/08/2019

Jammie Brian Brunswick – Loving Son, Cousin, Husband, Father, Uncle, Friend, Christian
April 15, 1976 – July 17, 2019

I’m Free

Don’t grieve for me, for now I’m free
I’m following the path God has laid you see.
I took His hand when I heard him call
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work, to play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way
I found that peace at the close of day.

If my parting has left a void
Then fill it with remembered joy.
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss
Oh yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.
My life’s been full, I savored much
Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts and peace to thee
God wanted me now; He set me free.

Posted 20/08/2019

In loving memory of my son who was taken from this earth to soon. He is forever loved and missed. My heart and soul are lost without him. RIP my precious child until we meet again. Love mom ❤
Forever 18. 4-15-98/6-4-16

Posted 20/08/2019

My son Eric, forever 30, was a special person. He was a handsome son, brother to Amanda, father to Sasha (his pitbull), Ellie and Jameson: grandson: nephew and cousin. Eric was always there when someone needed help. He was funny, smart, loving and I love him so much. He was my baby and always will be. I love you Eric ♥️

Posted 20/08/2019

My son, Ray forever 38 recently passed from an overdose last month. He was close to his 1 year anniversary of being clean. I am still in shock and broken, I miss him terribly. He had a great heart, loved kids, enjoyed all sports and loved music. I was given the gift this year of seeing him grow, become more humble – we had a lot of deep talks, happy & sad tears and made some great memories that I will truly cherish. Needless to say, it’s never enough and I wanted more.

Posted 19/08/2019

Matthew Douglas Pate passed away from xanax on 4/30/2017 , he was 25 years old. It wasn’t his fault. Miss you n love you forever momma n brother.

Posted 16/08/2019

Tribute to my daughter Angel Moore of knoxville, Tn. She overdosed in Feb 2018.

Posted 16/08/2019

Chris…

You are missed more than words and loved beyond measure. None of us are exactly sure why this is our destiny to lose you so young leaving so much behind… but you blessed us with a beautiful granddaughter which is a true gift in itself. I talk to you often and know you are always close, but the hole where you once stood will last forever. You touched so many lives in your short time with your amazing charisma and charm you could never be forgotten. I’m proud of all whom you helped which is everyone you ever met. I hope you’re enjoying a life free of hardship and suffering on the other side. We miss you and love you our beautiful star shining brightly in heaven. xox my angel son.
Christopher Alan Weimer 12/12/90 – 09/01/17
Momz

Mom

Posted 16/08/2019

I want to honor my daughter Megan Alexandria Johnson just like I have since March 4, 2011. She was a freshman in college with goals and dreams but never fulfilled them due to the very choice that was made by her boyfriend to leave her alone instead of calling for help. that choice has unfortunately cost so many lives. I miss her so much and I think of everyday. I can’t count the number of people of all ages over the years that I have told her story to, and stressed the danger of leaving someone under the influence. I told it in hope I could help save someone else’s son or daughters life. I love you Megan…

Posted 16/08/2019

In loving memory of my daughter
Hannah Renee Carver. Forever 20💜
1/22/96 – 6/11/16

Posted 16/08/2019

Travis K Clark Sr.
9-25-1971 to 9-12-2017
Loving father, husband, and son

Posted 16/08/2019

Angela KUNTA Jones Bryant
6/21/19…..my babygirl, the sister I never had. I can’t shake the sadness, the loss….the anger. I miss your face your smile your laughter that filled a room. Ang baby my clean date 7/12/19 part of my sobriety is a tribute to you. My heart will never be the same for I carry your heart in mine. I love you

Posted 16/08/2019

Turner James Nicely 12-27-94 – 11-10-18. A soul troubled here on earth, but now set free in Heaven. Always on our minds, forever in our hearts.

Posted 16/08/2019

Kelsea,we miss your smile,your heart n your presence we love you and will keep you in our hearts always

Posted 17/08/2019

On June 1st 2019 I lost my brother to an Overdose. I had not been in contact with him for many years and was kept at a distance. I wish I had of tried harder to be in his life and let him know how much I love him and looked up to him.

Mikey, you will always be loved and you will always be my own personal idol. I looked up to you and no matter what life threw at you, I never judged.

Rest easy and please know you meant the world to me

xo

Posted 17/08/2019

I lost my youngest Desirae on July 28th to this awful epidemic. She left behind her five year old. Still processing and trying to deal with all the emotions. Desirae was so bright and cared so much about others. If only she cared for herself the same. This moment in my life doesn’t seem real yet, if it ever will. I hope she is at peace now.

Posted 17/08/2019

In loving memory of my daughter, Amy McMahan, 33, passed 12-28-17

Posted 17/08/2019

R.I.P. Michelle Lynn Fletcher 8/29/89-4/3/17. Gone but never forgotten. Fly high baby girl.

Posted 18/08/2019

Courtney Danielle Stayte My Beautiful Daughter..5/15/1992- 8/14/2018. There are no words to describe the emptiness and void that I feel. I miss & love you from the depths of my soul. There is not a waking moment that you are not in my thoughts. I dream of you, I hear you in my head its as if you are here but I cant see you. My life here on earth has forever changed, when you left you didn’t go alone. You left behind the greatest gift ever Nevaeh, she looks just like you sweetheart!! Until I see you again, your memory will live on.
N.I.V. (Not In Vain)

Love, Mom

Posted 18/08/2019

In loving memory of my little brother dajon.. I love you and I miss you.. mommy loves and misses you. We all do.. until we meet again ❤️

Posted 18/08/2019

Oh my dear angel boy I miss you so Much. Although you are free now and not in pain I am until I see you again My dear son May you may be resting peacefully

Love mom

Posted 18/08/2019

With You, Went So Much Of Me…
Shaun David Collins~2-8-81–8-16-07
Lois Jean Collins~2-17-56–8-21-09
Troy Alan Collins~2-16-88–6-6-17
~~Losing all 3 of you has been unbearable. There are times that I don’t know how or if I will make it another minute… The only peace I get is knowing that you are FREE from the pain & heartache of addiction. We will spend our lives missing you! Until We Meet Again…

Hagerstown, IN USA

Posted 18/08/2019

MY FOREVER 28 ANGEL BRITTNEY HOLIK POISONED BY FENTONAL HAVE A HARD DAY EVERYDAY WITHOUT HER SUCH A LOVING DAUGHTER AND BEST FRIEND AND MOMMY

Posted 18/08/2019

My daughter, Amy McMahan, 33, passed away on 12-28-017. It was a sudden death. Cocaine laced with fentanyl. Enough to kill horse. 20 mths of hell for me. I never knew she used. I miss my angel more and more. You never get over it, you get through it. I love you Amy to the moon and back!❣️

Posted 19/08/2019

Robert Franklin Epley
1965-2014
I miss you every day and I wish I had been with you. Maybe I could have prevented this….something I’ll never know, nor forgive myself for bot being there.

Posted 19/08/2019

Tarrick Delorme, I will never forget you. I knew you since we were little. I still laugh at at a lot of the memories we share. You are truly missed by everyone who knew you. I wish we could have had that tyndall park reunion like we all talked about. I remember the time when we were like 12 and were peeling bark off sticks with potato peelers. I was so mad and called you tarrick the carrot peeler stealer. I will live with regret for never being able to say goodbye. I love you man rest easy and watch over us all.

Posted 16/08/2019

Brian Sposato 9/24/1980- 10/30/2016

Posted 16/08/2019

Ashlee, 11/24/1991-01/25/2015. RIP

I think of you and miss you every single day. I know you were mad at me when you passed, and I have to live with this. I wish I could talk to you. I wish that you were raising your son. I wish everything was different than it is.

I miss you so much, but know you are with you Becca, and I hope you are at peace. Both of you struggled so much. I will not let your memory or voice fade. I will be your voice that you never had. That is the only thing that I have left to give. I love you. I hope you know this.

Posted 15/08/2019

The stigma of addiction has haunted my family for 20 years. On 08/11/2019 I lost my 5th child to a overdose. We must stop this demon from destroying or taking anymore life’s!!! My heart aches for my children, but , I must go on without them.

Posted 16/08/2019

Pedro Javier, (my son) passed away on May 4th, 2019 from an accidental heroin overdose. My son, I just want you to know that you always were loved and always be loved no matter they way you passed away. You are still loved and we are proud of you and always will be proud of you. I want you to know also that we will always love you and you will live in my heart and mind forever. I miss you so much. I was blessed to have you for 25 years and 5 months with me. You were always a blessing to the family and Still are. Because even though you passed away or crossed over I believe that you are still here with me in spirit. I miss you more and more everyday, I miss not seeing you when I come home from work, I miss your texts, your phone calls, your jokes, etc., but I hope we will meet again. Love you until infinity and more, MOM.

Posted 16/08/2019

To my wonderful son Paul Ritchie…..I miss you more than you can imagine. You were smart, funny and a wonderful man. You always gave 110% in anything you did. You dabbled with drugs in high school and it got worse in time. May 3rd you lost your life due to an overdose of fentanyl and meth. The worst day of my life was getting that call – the call I dreaded getting every single day. You were clean for 14 months and when a relationship went bad you turned back to drugs to ease your pain. I know you are in a better place now Paul and I look forward to seeing you again one day. Love you always – your Mom.

Posted 16/08/2019

Joe Patterson Age 23 years. My only son. Died from a counterfeit oxy laced with fentanyl. Georgia’s first prosecuted counterfeit pill homicide. He left behind a son he never met. Who is now my little boy

Posted 16/08/2019

We lost our beautiful 21 yr old son to heroin May 21,2017. Our lives will never be the same. We love and miss you so very much! RIP sweet boy
Ryan Rodriguez
Feb 10, 1996
May 21, 2017

Posted 16/08/2019

My handsome son, daddy, brother, grandson, uncle, Bryan Joseph Grieco passed on June 25, 2017. At the young age of 25. He had so much to live for. So many new things were about to happen. Maybe that’s why. I read what he wrote in one if many if his rehabs. The question was, what are your triggers. The very first one on the too of the list, was happiness. My heart breaks everyday. And it won’t stop until my heart breaks so much that it stops beating. I love you Bryan. Miss you so very much.

Posted 16/08/2019

In Loving Memory of My Baby John Anthony Peticca, Jr. May you Rest in Eternal Peace. I await the day you greet me at Heaven’s Gate with one of your bear hugs. I will never let you go. Loving and Missing You Always, Mommy 💜🦋

Posted 16/08/2019

Christina Marie Oddis March 21,1983-October 13,2013 Rest in Paradise!

Posted 16/08/2019

In Memory of my brother Robby Deets
2-6-83
09-22-17

Posted 16/08/2019

My beautiful daughter lost her life on November 5th 2017 due to an overdose of heroin laced with a very strong Fentanyl, my heart hurts everyday

Posted 16/08/2019

Nicolas James Marquardt 10/24/86-4/12/18 He was my youngest son. The second of 2 boys, born 2 years and 5 days after his brother. He was the light of my life until addiction changed him and made him doubt himself and how much we really loved him. He was smart, funny, sarcastic, mechanically inclined, inventive and would help anyone at anytime. He looked alot like MacCauley Culkin (Home Alone) and had the attitude of Bart Simpson. He has friends that STILL talk about him to this day. We ALL still miss him every single day. He left a hole in our hearts and our lives that will never be filled. He was incredibly special and I hope he knows now just how special he really is. My son was a heroin addict and like many, he was given a deadly mix of heroin and fentanyl that took his life. I will tell his story and say his name for the rest of my life because HE MATTERED. My heart breaks for my son and for all the people we are losing to this epidemic. May they rest in peace and may their stories help bring an end to this problem. God Bless.

Posted 16/08/2019

My son died from an overdose 1/27/17. He relapsed. I miss him every day! What I would give to see him again 😪♥️

Posted 16/08/2019

Our beautiful Jillian , you live on in the hearts of those who love you , especially in the heart of your beautiful Lily Rose. As you always told me , I “l love you forever and always .” Until we meet again . Love, Mom

Posted 16/08/2019

Remembered everyday..Missed everyday..my Loving Son Joseph Michael Stout…9/19/81-9/22/11

Posted 16/08/2019

Lindsay Michelle Findlay
May 14th 1990- December 7th 2018

Posted 16/08/2019

Shawn was the most loving and giving person. His laugh was contagious. He loved his family but most importantly he loved his nieces and nephews more anything. He will never be forgotten..

Posted 16/08/2019

8/15/19 – In loving memory of my son Nicholas A Battista who died of an accidental overdose. He was the center of my life and I will love and miss him till we meet again…🙏😇💜.
Love you mom

Posted 16/08/2019

Daddy Sledge we love you so very much and miss you so much! Where happy that now you are our guardian angel and your watching over us. We will meet again and be together forever once I’m called home too! I love you baby!

Posted 16/08/2019

My Precious Daughter Alyssa Marie Schmidt 11/17/ 95. 5/28/16 She Snorted heroine one time and my world shattered forever. I’m so broken

Posted 16/08/2019

February 23rd I lost my daughter to an Fentanyl overdose. Buried her on her 30th birthday. Her name is Jessica

Posted 16/08/2019

Amanda Ann Haas 💖 Addy and I miss you so much! Until we meet again baby!!

Posted 16/08/2019

In Loving Memory of my Son Bradley Adam Fischer. Passed May 12, 2018. From a Drug Overdose. His Life Mattered♡

Posted 16/08/2019

To a loving father gone to soon. U r 1 of the best man i know and you are a loving caring father who your babies are missing so much. Your babies Erica is going into 2nd grade and brian jr is going into kindergarten jaxson is mad he isnt starting school just sucks you are not here to see this or to see them grow up.

Your babies miss u so much and is at a point where they are starting to realize u r not here 🙁

We love u do much and miss u so much

Rest in heaven daddy

Love

Jaxson erica brian jr and mommy

Keep watching over us daddy

We love u

💜💙💙

Posted 16/08/2019

You are missed our sweet angel

Posted 16/08/2019

Fly high mommy

Posted 16/08/2019

We love and miss you so much Shane Fifield!! Forever in our hearts, forever 25, 3/12/93 – 4/27/18💔💔💔💔

Posted 16/08/2019

I miss you so much ,if love could’ve saved you ,you’d be right here with mommy where you belong ❤ I love you MEGAN MARIE LARRICK 12/9/97 5/9/19 FOREVER 21 ❤

Posted 16/08/2019

I lost my beautiful son, Patrick Jones, to an accidental overdose on May 19, 2017. The last 26 months have been the worst of my life. I love and miss you more everyday. Forever 21.

Posted 16/08/2019

Even though it has been two years I still miss you everyday. I miss what you could have been. You were such a sweet child. It is simply not fair that you lost your life so young to this awful drug epidemic. Your daughter misses you so much. Love you always! Mom

Posted 16/08/2019

Wasn’t an OD (it was a fentanyl lacing) BUT… Here’s to big brother, Jake! You are our hero. Can’t wait to hug you in heaven! Praying for you to come hang with me in my dreams soon. Miss you always, love you forever.

Posted 16/08/2019

Roy husband babe love of my life father of my children .. I miss u always and love u forever

Posted 16/08/2019

8/10/19 would have been your 24th birthday Aaisha. There isn’t a day that goes by that your ENTIRE family doesn’t miss you or think about you. Your laugh was infectious, your smile was contagious and your personality was just out of this world! This world was just too cruel to you and if I could go back to that cold March night and wake you up, I would. Drugs are horrible. They are even more horrible when someone is given something and they don’t know what they are given. Aaisha, your name means “to live” in Arabic and that’s what we all do each day. Your beauty lives on in all of us.

<3 Your Favorite Sister

Posted 15/08/2019

In loving memory of my daughter Melanie who died of an accidental overdose on 11/18/16. You were loved beyond words and will forever be in our hearts!
Forever 26….

Posted 15/08/2019

For Benjamin, who will always own the first piece of my heart I ever gave away. Your laughter is still heard from heaven.

Posted 15/08/2019

To those who know Tarrick Delorme, the love of my life, my best friend and my world, he will be missed by so many, his contagious sense of humour and laughter and his sweet smile. His kind heart and pure soul will never be forgotten. We will love you and miss you forever tarrick<3
Forever in our hearts

Posted 15/08/2019

My son Kyle was taken from us on. June 5th 2019. I miss him everyday. I will not let his death be in vain. If I can help just one person, I think it would make him proud.

Posted 14/08/2019

Joseph Anthony Suarez
8/31/90 – 5/28/18♥️
Our son Joe passed away on 5/28/18. Joe was 27, our only son and our first born. The cause of his death was due to an accidental overdose (fentanyl) in addition to an undetected heart disease, hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. Primary cause was Fentanyl. Joe was exuberant and lived his life to the fullest every day. He made a difference in each life he touched and we are all affected deeply by this loss. His smile could radiate a room simply by his presence and his love for family and friends were deep. The absence of his presence is felt by everyone and not one day goes by that his name is not mentioned. His legacy and his spirit will live forever. We miss you Son, we love you to no end!

Posted 14/08/2019

In memory of my Uncle Harvey Stephenson, who lost his battle with the demon’s 2 year’s ago on July 2nd 2017,on my 10 year wedding anniversary ,our family hasn’t been the same since,I am the oldest niece only 11 year’s apart we were more like brothers and sisters, I have been clean now for 3 year’s August 12th 2019 marked my spot, addiction does not discriminate it can affect anyone, i have struggled myself and it doesn’t get easier i have just learned how to cope better,Harvey had a smiling laugh about him that we will never forget,he leaves behind a beautiful daughter who he loved and bragged on all the time also 2 grand babies one he never got to meet,our family misses him dearly and we will forever carry his name,I just want people to open up more frealy and never think it can’t happen to you because that is where your wrong it could be happening in front of you now so i erge if you have a child or anyone in your life please never brush them off if they want to talk to you because your minute of time you was busy could be the minute that you could have saved a life please speak up and out you are not alone help save a life..

Posted 13/08/2019

Jessica Tackett 10/22/84-7/6/14. Beautiful inside and out, mother of 3. Friend to many. Heaven gained another beautiful angel.

Posted 13/08/2019

My daughter Arizona K Bartlett. Mother of 2, older sister to 3 brothers, granddaughter, niece, cousin, and friend to so many. July 4, 2019 unofficial date of death. Missing for 4 days. Found July 8, 2019 official date of death. Missed by so many. 18 months in recovery and relapsed.

Posted 12/08/2019

My beloved partner of 20 years
Died of a drug overdose (Heroin and prescription pills) on 31 July 2019 only 38 years young.
You fought so many years in an out of detox and rehab centers.
I love u so much I thought this time u had succeeded with rehab.
I’m so lost and broken with out you.
You had a beautiful kind hearted soul that so many people were blessed to have u in their lives
Love and miss you forever
My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a love one to drugs xx

Posted 09/08/2019

I gave up on my sons battle. I stayed ignorant to the disease and thought tough love was the answer. I failed him/the most precious thing in my life. He was/is the best soul I will ever know. Loving and Loyal always. I miss you my precious CASEY more than anything….. I’m so so so sorry…. all my love forever! The loss of you is a process that started the day you passed and will end the day I join you….

Posted 10/08/2019

Jacob, my sweet, loving, caring baby brother. I pray that you get better and Get thru this. Break free from that demon. I miss you so much it hurts. I miss your goofy acts and funny voices. This drug has changed you, but hopefully not forever. I pray that you are safe and that God watches over you. Your kids need you to get better we need you to get better, you need you to get better. I miss you and even though I can’t tell you I can write it here how much I miss you so terribly. I see our pictures together and just want those days back. Sometimes I just lay in bed and cry wondering what made you just start doing that. I miss you baby brother.
Caleb, I just found out about your passing. I remember our childhood friendship like it happened yesterday. How you always made me laugh, would bring me chocolates for no reason at all and we’re a great friend to me. We went over separate ways as we got older but I never forgot you, we picked up where we left off and again lost touch. I wish I could have been there for you to help you. I’m gonna miss you and I didn’t relize much I really cared about you until today. You told me how you felt about me years ago and I was to afraid to ruin our friendship, maybe things would have gone in a different direction for you. I could never tell anyone how I fell today, as I seen you were now married. I just morn you in silence my dear friend love always your friend.

Posted 10/08/2019

I lost my husband to a fentanyl overdose, Sept 13th 2018!! Not only was he an amazing husband, he was the best father in the world! He left behind our oldest, Madalyn (15) and our youngest, Duff (11)! We miss him now and forever!!! Being a widow at 39 wasn’t anything I thought would be possible. But now that nightmare is my reality! Not only will I be celebrating what would of been our 12 year wedding anniversary on August 18th, we will be mourning the 1 anniversary of his death to this horrible disease!!! We must stop the silence, stop the stigma, educate, and stop labeling addicts!! My husband was a father, son, brother, and friend!! He wasn’t just an addict!! Bryan Chadwell you are loved and missed so much!!

Posted 10/08/2019

To my little brother who I miss everyday, I love you Mikey <3

Posted 11/08/2019

Lorraine you were my best friend and sister. I love and miss you dearly.

Posted 11/08/2019

In memory of Jesse Rogers, heart of my heart. The world is less for your loss. Til we meet again – Moms

Posted 09/08/2019

To my son Kyle …. I miss you so much it hurts. I can’t wait to be with you again. My beautiful, blond hair ,blue eyed boy. We only had 22 years with you. You were amazing and so loving. You would still be today. 💔💔

Posted 09/08/2019

I would like to post a tribute to my finance who passed away in June due to an overdose of alcohol. June 17th was the worst day of my life when I woke up and found him dead. He passed away during the night. We were both alcoholics trying to get sober however we both suffered relapses. I loved him with all my heart and still do. My guilt and sadness has overtaken my life. I would do anything to go back and do things different. I am now in treatment at a halfway house. I am currently in grief counseling to lessen my pain just a little bit. If someone out there is reading posts on this website and are suffering from an addiction, it is not too late to save your life. I pray for myself and all addicts who are seeking help. I also pray for the families that addiction has affected. I wish for peace and serenity for all who reads this

Posted 09/08/2019

Adam Nathan Raskind, Forever 26, December 9, 1987-May 21, 2014.
Adam, my son, I miss you more each day and I love you so very much. You will always be loved and remembered by so many. ❤️💔

Posted 07/08/2019

Remembering my husband Brent.
September 19/1984- September 15/2018
My world is shattered and I can’t even pick up the pieces. He was here and now he’s not. Just traces of a man.
Who’s hurt n heart matched mine

Our language and life lost forever

Posted 07/08/2019

I cried just weeks before you died and told my baby girl that I was afraid I was going to have to bury her. It was still shocking when I got the call that my Sarah was dead. It has been 8 months and I re-live those moments every day. Every moment of every day you are missed.

Posted 07/08/2019

Lewis,

Your fight is now my fight. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you and miss you.

Love Donna

Posted 07/08/2019

My Beloved Daughter
Angel Marie Losky
1/2/95-3/20/19
Heroin laced with fentanyl overdose

Posted 07/08/2019

Remembering my beautiful boy Jody who left us on the 13th July 2018
I think of you day and night you are in my heart always my son. 💔

Posted 07/08/2019

My baby sister Da’Vida Nikita Minor
you are love forever

Posted 07/08/2019

Today August 6th 2019 is the 2nd anniversary of my son Derek Townsend’s death. Derek passed 1 month before his 29th birthday. I love you my son, your brothers and sisters love and miss you too. R.I.P. my angel. People please know there is help out there

Posted 07/08/2019

Heaven gained another angel when God called her home my precious daughter Heather Nicole Riley Walker
Due to tainted herion with fentanyl
REST IN PEACE MY PRECIOUS ONE?!!!
8-17-1985 –6-11-2019

Posted 06/08/2019

JOSHUA ANDREW FELDMAN
05/19/1993 – 07/19/2016

My darling Joshua, I miss you like crazy and think about you everyday. When memories of your childhood pop into my head I just can’t believe your life came to this. You will always be the apple of my eye, my beautiful child. You will be remembered and loved always and kept in a special place in my heart 😘❤️ Keep sending me your strong signs🙏🏻

Posted 06/08/2019

Rest In Peace my beautiful son Noah Naderzad💜you left us at 30 on April 21st 2019…. my heart is broken how can I do life without you !! I miss you more everyday … I wanted to save you so bad …. but I couldn’t

Posted 06/08/2019

Dennis went to heaven on 9/24/18.
A fentanyl overdose. We are so sorry that you lost your battle son. We all miss you and love you so much. You’ll never be forgotten. Forever 28. We all miss Anthony too. Love you both forever.
Come to visit me.
Love, momma. 😢😘💔🤗💜😫🙏☀️

Posted 06/08/2019

We lost our beautiful son, Jesse, to an overdose on December 26, 2017. The pain still comes in waves and the grief never goes away. I pray that others dealing with this awful disease can find the strength to ask for help. We miss him every second of every day.

Posted 06/08/2019

May you now Rest In Peace, Daddy.

Posted 06/08/2019

Our Sara Murray passed away in april of 2015 from an accidentail drug overdose…Miss her everyday

Posted 06/08/2019

Miss you my sweet funny beautiful sister! Love you forever. Our empty chair hurts.

Posted 05/08/2019

Dear, Samantha Joan Valle , you had me thrown in CCDC for your wrongdoings & you lied. Once i get out I’m told you died from an heroin overdose, regardless of your actions i cry and i still do from time to time , you are the mother of our beautiful & smart baby girl Bentley i still don’t believe your gone where ever you are know i love you & i always need you…., love Luminous Silk Joshua

Posted 05/08/2019

We love and miss you Tricia . we will hold you close in our hearts forever.
We know your battle with addiction is over and the fight to overcome is done .
For us the fight will continue and your light of love will shine as bright as the sun .
So rest my precious angel ,
Rest and shine your light of love through me .
I will fight this uphill battle with the Hope that someday all captives caught up by addiction will be free.
Tricia Marie Kitchin
3/18/1981-6/13/2019

Posted 04/08/2019

In Honor of my Beloved Fiance Donny who died of a cocaine overdose on May 9th 2019. Rest in Peace my Luv – Fuh-ev-ah💞

Posted 05/08/2019

Benjamin Thomas Burns
5/7/1977
14/10/2017

DRUGS CANT HEAL PAIN. Or solve problems
TEMPORARILY. Hold On Pain Ends
Happines IS REAL u need to OPEN ur eyees and look in the right path or direction with A Postive attitude and a Healthy mind .

A great father to his children
Shenae and Cody 💙💙💙💙💙
Burnsy . BennyT💋
Best uncle to Rory billows

Love u hope we see each other again dad in the next life
Missing you I’m lost I need to find my way I think of u everyday .
From nae 19″ forever u will be in my heart

Posted 04/08/2019

This is a tribute to my late husband Rodney Monson SHEA of Walnit Creek, CA. USA who died of a heroine overdose when my son Ryan was 23 months. Ryan is grown now and a wonderful father who doesn’t use drugs. Rodney RIP.

Posted 02/08/2019

Remembering our much loved younger son Robin who died in 1997 after an accidental heroin overdose – still loved and missed although the pain of this loss will always be with us. Our lives totally changed that day and I remember the feeling of total despair. Leonard Cohen put it into words for me then and they still ring true today – “Too early for the rainbow, too early for the dove. These are the final days, this is the darkness, this is the flood” love Mum & Dad xxxxx

Posted 02/08/2019

In loving memory of my brother Robert H Tavares Jr. He left us at the young age of 27. Robert will always be remembered for his kind, loving caring heart. He is truly missed by all of us. I will forever be your voice. #notonemore

Posted 31/07/2019

I lost my son Mathew Lee Keller at age 36 years old due to Fentanyl. I will love and remember him as long as I live and breath.
Till we meet again Mat ❤️
December 10 1980- September 8 2017

Posted 31/07/2019

My daughter Destiny Dawn died on Nov 4/18- 6 days before her 23 rd birthday. She was my only child. She was beautiful smart ( graduated high school at age 16 – a year early) having a college degree. She was the most caring, loving and forgiving person that I have ever met. She was my best friend. I miss you so much Destiny. The world lost a special person who was ready to conquer the world. She helped anyone needing help. She brought many into recovery. She struggled with mental illness age 14 bipolar and borderline which ended in substance abuse. I know you tried so hard Destiny you went to detox but your rehab bed was not till December 15/18 you died Nov 4/18 your toxicology showed you didn’t use except that day as you went to get heroin and it was pure fentanyl. I know you wanted to live cause you loved life. I wish you were still with me. I can’t wait to be with you again. I love you so much I don’t know how to live with out you and I don’t want to.

Posted 30/07/2019

In loving memory of a dear sweet soul, who loved life and people, Kevin E. Barker. He fought as hard as he could to live among us, A day does not go by that he is not thought of and missed deeply. I love you more than life my son, and I am so sorry yours had to end this way. In Peace at last in the arms of God, 1966/2018.

Posted 30/07/2019

To my beautiful, sweet Brandi, you are missed each and every day, I wish you were still here with us, I miss your smile, your humour and your absolute support and love. You left too soon, your family and friends love you always!!!!

Posted 30/07/2019

My sweet Jalen Tyler Austin
01/07/1998 to 02/04/2019
We lost Jalen after 4 months of recovery. He made a mistake and took a Xanax that contained fetanyl.
Jalen was known for his sweet spirit,contagious laugh and huge SMILE!! He left behind a beautiful son that is a blessing and reminds us all of his daddy. My heart still breaks every second as his mommas, knowing that he was trying but couldn’t kick it . I know one day soon I will see him again . We love you forever J .

Posted 29/07/2019

I wake up every day feeling like a part of me is missing. We lost Lucas to a drug addiction August 28,2015. Lucas struggled all his life and turned to drugs to make himself feel better. This world lost someone who could have made a difference in this life. He truly cared about the world, humanity and what was happening. I miss you so much Luke and wish you were here. I prayed for you to be healed. God answered my prayer but not the way I wanted.

Posted 29/07/2019

I miss and love : Brandy Dicks, Hal, Harry – the Hat, Raffi Balian, Weasel, Amanda Williams, Bernie Ingraham, Dawn Weatherbee, and soooomany more, hoping we find the determination & compassion to breach the barriers to legalizing drugs and providing a safe supply; its all about support & encouragement – get over your judgements!!!!!!!!!!

Posted 29/07/2019

My sister Darlene left us too soon, never to be forgotten. I wish she found ‘real’ help, not band aids, like suboxone, with little to no real supportive mental health counseling. Drugs are a game of Russian Roulette… a suicide waiting to happen.

Posted 29/07/2019

In loving memory of our dear son Gaven gone too soon at the age of 22 from accidental fentanyl poisoning in October 2017. We miss you more than we can put into words and our lives are forever shattered. Love you and see you soon. ❤️ Momma xoxo

Posted 29/07/2019

In memory of Jason Lee Vogels
April 8, 1976 – Sept 10, 2017
So deeply loved. Will never be forgotten.
May eternal peace shine on your soul.

Posted 29/07/2019

RIP Michelle Baker. You had a smile that would light up a room. Your smile lives on in your daughter. You are missed by many but never a day goes by that you are not thought of

Posted 28/07/2019

Lost my bestfriend Andrea to a heroin overdose. My heart aches for her family and kids. I hope she’s at peace now. ❤

Posted 28/07/2019

My son Ryan Craig Paris overdosed 1-27-2014 he was 20

Posted 28/07/2019

*wipes tears*

I miss you so so much Joshie, & I know your folks do too, esp your precious girls- they’re not so little anymore…. You’d be so proud of them!!

I blow kisses to the moon every night, hoping they find their way to you…

I wish you lived long enough to see me become a mom…. i wish we could have continued to share all our pain & joy together… Im SO so sorry I wasnt there for you…

I wish more than anything you were still here with us. .. I miss you- i miss you so much it tears at my soul… Im so sorry AngelBabie…

I love you- I love you- I love you

Peace Love Empathy Always

Posted 27/07/2019

I’ve been lost without my big brother Todd Lee Canfield since 2/21/2015. He was 40 years old. He is missed by many others.

Posted 27/07/2019

I miss you, Nikki Smith. I miss your voice, your laugh, your humor, your poetry, your joie de vivre. I can’t help but wonder where you’d be today if you were still here. You are so missed. Forever 19 💔

Posted 27/07/2019

Jeff: One of the best baseball players I had the privilege of being teammates with, you taught me a lot and I still think about you a lot even though it’s been over ten years.

Maddy: You were a kind soul and it breaks my heart that you happened to be alone that night. Matt still feels insanely guilty for not being with you, and has done everything in his power to ensure the people who sold you it are brought down.

Brian: I’ll never forget holding your hand as you were turning darker blue. We got you back that instance thanks to Narcan, and I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me most later. I also know we weren’t on best terms when you passed, and I’m sorry for that too.

Posted 27/07/2019

Today, 1 year ago, I lost my friend my lover my hope. After he was found, everyone tired their backs. Just a tweaker they all said. The one thing I will always remember is when I would fall asleep he would sit and swat flys off me. After years of abuse, I’m not a person that likes to be touched. Flys touching me makes me freak out. It didn’t come back to me until afriend who had been ill came to me and was angy at his girl. He said she brings me this and tells me to do that. All I want her to do is swat the flys away. He was not just a tweaker. He was the only person that ever knew what I really needed at any moment and I miss him.

Posted 27/07/2019

Boo,My Baby boy, who took part of me with him..

Posted 26/07/2019

I lost my first born child, my son on 7/8/18 from an overdose He stole my heart when he was born, he was pure joy. I miss him terribly. I wish I could have saved him, I’m lost without him and forever heartbroken

Posted 26/07/2019

I AM DOING A TRIBUTE TO MY LOST LOVED ONE JAMARR AHMAD COOPER SR. WHOM WE LOST TO THIS CAUSE ON APRIL 16TH, 2017….WE LOVE AND MISS HIM AS A FAMILY AND ALWAYS WILL KEEP HIM IN OUR SPIRIT AND SUPPORT THIS CAUSE….

Posted 26/07/2019

Remembering my beautiful son Daniel James Redman.
Died 21st February 2016 from an accidental drug overdose while at university in Manchester UK.Aged 20 years.
Lost his life to the UKs archaic drug laws that do not keep our children safe.
Loved and missed forever.💔🦋

Posted 25/07/2019

We talked about her going to a rehab two weeks before she accidently overdosed. We drove by it in the car and I told her she should go there and get help. I remember asking her if she knew how we would feel if something happened to her and how we wouldn’t have her anymore.
She said she knew and would try to stop.

Two weeks later she died. She was never able to quit or get help.
She left behind 4 kids and a grandson who loved her dearly.

Posted 23/07/2019

July 4 th 2019 I lost my 17 year old son Darrius Morsha Steward Jr .to a suspected overdose of what I Assume and have heard through Rumors to be from Xanax and Percocet laced with fentenal I have yet to receive the toxicology report which could take up to over Three months his death was ruled no foul play I’m trying to Use his face and story to help other kids and parents and friends Know or No! Has Become A driving Motivation for me my Son was My First Genuinely Feeling Of Love and Care I ever experienced I feel I was Cheated and Robbed July 4,2019 Please Don’t Understand unless It Happens To yours🅿️💯👑Rocboy MAC Darrius Steward Jr won’t Die in vain if I can Help one Young Person or Anyone I’m assistance in Know what they are consuming or opting to say No I feel I’m Keeping my Sons Memory Alive a Well🙏🏾

Posted 22/07/2019

My beautiful sister Shelia Louise Godwin died of a overdose in 2013…she loved singing,cleaning her house, her family and most of off all her 4 kids and grandkids…she is missed terribly!!

Posted 22/07/2019

My best friend, Nate, had back surgery and was given morphine. It was never enough. He had so much of it in his system that he died in his sleep from asphyxia. He was such a great friend and I miss him so much. He was only 34.

Posted 22/07/2019

Christian: There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t wish you were here with us. We miss you more and more each day. So sad that his happened to you. Love Caden, Mom and Dad, Charlene Josh Marcus and Olivia.

Posted 18/07/2019

We never gave up hope that our son would win the battle. He told us that the pull was too strong and sadly he was right. We lost our dear boy two years and two months ago at the age of 26. We are both heartbroken and my husband is devastated but we manage to continue to remember the great person he was, cherish the time we had with him and create memories with him even if he is not present. To those battling addiction, keep fighting the fight, there are so many people that love you. And you deserve a life of happiness regardless of what anyone tells you otherwise. #bestrong

Posted 18/07/2019

Becca was a loving and devoted mother to her son, Colton. She loved him with all of her heart. She loved spending as much time as possible with him cuddling, reading stories, watching movies, or just hanging out. She also had a special connection with her brother Carson. The two boys meant the world to her.
As well as being a loving and devoted mother and sister, she was also a special daughter, granddaughter, niece, cousin, and friend to many. She was so full of life, very spontaneous, and cared about everyone with her generous big heart.
She had a deep love for animals; Becca was always bringing home strays. She loved training and showing her horse, Hoodwink.
Forever 34 – WE miss you so much!

Posted 19/07/2019

Austin Heath
I love you and I miss you.
Love, Mom

Posted 20/07/2019

Morgan Lynn Dobson was born 12/12/84 on her Uncle Joes BD,from the moment I laid eyes on her I was in love. She was an easy going,happy baby , a talented, smart, funny and beautiful teen and young adult, a friend to all she’d meet, if at a bus stop,school,party or walking down the street,there was no one she disliked.She had a beautiful soul. One of her best qualities was her empathy toward others. I think at times she could literally feel their pain and understand how they felt. She was my only child, who lost her battle of addiction to a heroin overdose May 28th 2014. The worst day of my life. The pain was unbearable, I didn’t think i could go on without her, not sure what to do, I knew Id never celebrate another holiday without her . Now 5 years later, I am still here, although a different person, here because i was inspired by her empathy. I was talking abt her to a friend about a month after her death and was sharing a story abt the many times we would be going somewhere and she would yell for me to pull over or stop, once stopped she would fly out of the car and i’d find her sitting, talking, walking or hugging some random unknown person that caught her attention in some way, She would spend a few minutes , come back to the car and ask if there were snacks in the trunk and or something to drink . She would pull out what she could find take it back to the person she was talking with , give them an encouraging word, a hug and inevitably she would take the hoody or coat she was wearing, off, and give it to this person, the coat could also be from anyone in the car if she didn’t have one, once we had to go get a blanket for a young man on christmas eve who was sitting on a corner all alone in the lightly falling snow .Today although I still cry when i think abt the incredible loss I and the world have suffered by her death ,I have taken her empathy and turned it into something i think she would have loved. It is a way for her to be part of the holidays and me not to have to celebrate christmas in the traditional way, and its a way to help others in need, by donating coats to the homeless or those in need on christmas eve in her honor, I collect coats all year from anyone and everyone, I have a little sign with her picture , and include her story with a list of resources available if anyone wants to pick it up. I started the year she died with approx 50 coats and today with the help of several friends we have been able to offer up to 250 coats, we now include things like socks,gloves, hats and scarves and sometimes clothes when donated. So her legacy lives on and i hope she is proud of the way she is remembered by so many. I love you my Angel and miss you more than words can say. I only wish you were here to enjoy this!! XOXO

Posted 20/07/2019

I love you son, Wayne Ottewell. I miss you so much. XO

Posted 22/07/2019

It’s been 2 yrs. ago July 5 you left us.. I miss you every day and think about you every second. Your son is getting so big you would be so proud of him he is so smart. Melissa is doing well, she is married to a good man I hope. I wish you were still here rest in heaven my baby boy until I see you again.

Posted 18/07/2019

My beautiful sister Julia M Hoekstra 11/1/84-6/23/18
We love you so much. Our lives will never be the same and we will miss you everyday until we can meet again.

Posted 18/07/2019

In honor of my son Nicholas.

Posted 18/07/2019

I lost my beautiful son, Aaron on August 3, 2016 to fentanyl. I still can’t believe it’s been 3 years. Just as the time has flown by, it has also stood still. Birthdays, holidays, days that end in y… Nothing is the same anymore. I miss every piece of him. I hope you are dancing in the sky, my sweet baby boy. Forever 25.

Posted 18/07/2019

In memory of my beloved son Michael who I was blessed to have 41 years with. Your struggle was hard because the help you needed was not available for you. Our healthcare system is failing for those without the financial means to get help. The disease of Addiction is taking far too many of our children. We need to fight harder for them and for those who died in vain.

Posted 18/07/2019

My beautiful son David passed away March 8, 2013. He was 30 years old. He was funny, compassionate and loving. He was my baby. I miss him every minute of everyday and look forward to the day we will be together again. Love you Dave!!!

Posted 17/07/2019

Erin was just 20 yrs old when a heroin overdose took her life for good. There is NOT a day that goes by i dont miss and think of my beautuful daughter.

Erin J Campbell
05/25/98- 08/23/18

Posted 17/07/2019

My dear Sharon I wish you new how much you are missed, your children love you and miss you so much and mom and dad miss you every second of every day. God has a beautiful angel now. I wish I could of save you but god had other plans may you RIP our sweet daughter forever 35

Posted 17/07/2019

I miss you Davy. I will cherish the memories we shared and consider myself lucky to have grown up with you by my side. I miss your smile, our friendship, your hugs, sense of humor and how you always acted like a big brother to me despite being younger. Rest In Peace my little brother and I am really hoping that we will see each other again someday.

Posted 17/07/2019

Cory 01/04/86-11/05/16, you are one and only child. Dad & I miss you and love you very much! Your daughter Eden just turned 3 and although she had never met you she does talk and asked about her daddy often 😇 please keep watching over all of us! You will always be our son that we are very proud of 😍 we love you to the moon and back always! Mom & dad xoxo 😘

Posted 17/07/2019

In loving memory of our son, Jeremy Howard Creasy. You could, and still do, bring out the best in those who knew and loved you. Your kindness, compassion, work ethic, and willingness to help others will live on in each of us who were given the gift of your presence in our lives. We will love and miss you always.

Posted 17/07/2019

Brooke Scott Every day I wish you were here. I miss you terribly. Looking at Rylan is like looking at you. She is such a joy.Sending hugs and kisses to one beautiful lady. Love you. Watching for 222.😇💙💓💜

Posted 17/07/2019

Most terrible thing that could ever happen. Lost My Boy, Cole to a fentanyl overdose at 17 years old. He suffered multiple major concussions in his last year of competition Hockey. Miss him every moment of everyday. One day closer to you My Boy

Posted 17/07/2019

Missing my youngest son every day. An overdose (heroin with fentanyl) took him. His addicted brain won the battle that day. If love could have saved him, he would still be here. I wish he was here creating new memories in life. Now we are only left with old memories. We are forever changed because we are forever heartbroken. Ryan Moore, forever 25. 10/5/1993 – 12/17/2018

Posted 17/07/2019

Jordan, Friday the 12th was your 24th Birthday had you not left this earth at 22. It’s days such as these that I miss you most
and wish you were here. I can’t imagine what it must be like for your Mom and Dad, but I’m sure it isn’t easy for them.
Don’t get me wrong mate, I am thankful you’re no longer suffering or battling those demons that would give you no rest
down here. But what I wouldn’t give for just one more day with you to set everything right and say all the things I want to say.
Happy Birthday Jordan! Always in my thoughts. little more…
Mick

Posted 15/07/2019

Ryan my first grandchild and my only grandson ! You have always been so very special to me it is so hard to believe you have left us! The day I found out you were gone was a nightmare I never thought would happen to our family ! I know you had been working so hard to get clean and to be sober , But you just couldn’t get the demons off your back , nothing not your precious little Gil not the love of your life nothing was more important than the feeling of being high ! I don’t understand I just know nothing will ever be the same my world and my heart is forever broken ! You were such a wonderful young man , I just can’t believe I will never see you or talk to you or hug you again , I will never hear you say Nana stop worrying , I’m ok , I’m good ! I promise I’m clean , I’m sober ! I wish I had pushed you more , questioned you more ! September 11, 1992 will always be one of the most happiest days of my life and March 21, 2019 will always be the worst day of my life 😢 I love and I miss you more than all the sand in all the beaches in all the world 💔

Posted 15/07/2019

To my best friend Marni Wilder There are still no words to describe how much I miss you and the spunk you brought into my life I wish you were here so I could have someone to talk to. I miss you every moment of every day. I know you are looking over me and that brings me comfort but some days I just want to call you up or go over to your house and just talk to you. I miss you so much my beautiful Angel best friend
12/02/1988 to 12/28/2013

Posted 13/07/2019

Calvin Cali Cal Kendricks Jr you are my life! I miss you every second of every of every second! I’m sorry someone decided to sell you Fentanyl, You didn’t even have a fighting chance, that is murder! 6/17/88-3/16/17. I miss love and miss you I can’t wait to see you again! Love Mom!💜💜

Posted 13/07/2019

On June 27th 2019 , I lost the love of my life Damian St. John to a drug overdose. He was so much more than his addiction. He was a great father, a hard worker, my love and my protector. I promise to him, to do what I can to bring awareness!

Posted 15/07/2019

Morsa Spidle

You passed away December 7th 2018.
It kills me to write this. I am truly sorry for the pain you went through. I tried and you only know.
Your boys love you and miss you so much. Jude makes sure we pray for you every night.

Your life on earth was not in vain. Your smile and humor is in Jude. Your way of thinking and being sarcastic is in Jowen.
I Thank You for the 2 blessings you gave me and Thank you for the time we shared as a family.

You will always be missed and never forgotten. We love you! and miss you dearly.

DILAW

Posted 11/07/2019

On March 1st 2018, I lost my oldest son SCOTT ALLEN CROSS TO A FENTANYL OVER DOSE. HE WILL FOREVER BE 27. SINCE YOU LEFT US SCOTT AND GAINED YOUR ANGEL WINGS YOU ARE MISSED AND THOUGHT OF EVERY DAY. YOUR KIDS SKYLER AND ALTHEA ARE GETTING VERY BIG. ALTHEA IS TALKING A BLUE STREAK SCOTT. SHE IS VERY SMART. SHE KNOWS HER ABC’S AND COUNTS TO 20. KNOWS HER COLORS AND CAN NAME VEHICLES BY LOOKING AT THEIR PICTURES. SKYLER HAS ALWAYS BEEN A SMART KID. THEY BOTH MISS THEIR DADDY SO MUCH. EVERYONE WHO KNOWS YOU LOVES YOU AND MISSES YOU. YOUR PICTURE IS BEING ADDED TO THE OVERDOSE AWARENESS VAN IN MEMORY OF YOU. YOUR SISTER NICOLE MISSES YOU VERY MUCH AND IS CONTINUING TO STAY SOBER AFTER 7 MONTHS. CHUCK AND I KEEP OUR HEADS UP, BECAUSE OF ALTHEA. YOUR STRUGGLE IS OVER. WATCH OVER YOUR KIDS AND SEND US SIGNS SO WE KNOW YOUR AROUND. WE MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SCOTT. LOVE ALWAYS MOM

Posted 11/07/2019

I’d like to dedicate a few words to my insanely loud and hilarious older brother, Donovan Long. Donovan has just celebrated his 40th birthday a couple weeks before he was found laying on the floor and unresponsive in his home. My husband and I had finally taken a trip to the beach with our then 1 and 2 year old to Destin when Donovan died. And I hadn’t spoken to my brother since we left for the trip either. To be honest, Donovan and I loved and cared for each other so much like normal siblings do, but at times, it was a true “love-hate” relationship between us. I didn’t always agree with the choices he made but knew nobody’s perfect. I certainly had no right to judge him the way I did at times. I think I just always felt like if I stood up to him and spoke the truth, I wouldn’t be enabling him. I just wanted him to know I didn’t agree with his lifestyle choices that were ultimately not entirely his fault I might add. Trying to show the tough love that’s so hard but necessary sometimes. You see, Donovan worked on an oil rig and got hurt when he was in his early 20’s. Had his 1st back surgery, then a 2nd 4 years after the first one. Then by the time he was about 35, he had his final 3rd back surgery to correct and replace what went wrong with the first 2. So his back was never right as you can imagine. But the amount of prescription pain killers they prescribed him was beyond ridiculous. He used to take 3xday 30mg roxys, and 10mg percocets for break through pain as needed up to 3Xday. That’s a lot of damn pills for one dude regardless of his size. Nonetheless, he always got them filled bc he knew he would go into withdrawals without them. And that’s the worst thing to feel when your dependent on opioids. Donovan also use them as trade/backup money if he needed to.. He had traded his prescriptions the month before he died to pay rent and deposit for his new place. So Donovan’s tolerance was very low when he picked up his prescriptions just the day before his accident.
And I’ll never forget getting woke up on our 2nd to last day on vacation in beautiful Destin…My husband asking me sternly to wake up and call my mom or dad, and other brother bc they’d all been calling for nearly 2 hours now. And it was only 6:30am at the time. . Then my MIL walked in and said she too had missed calls from all of them. I knew right then in my heart exactly what they were about to say. My heart jumped straight to my throat when the phone started ringing as I called my mom back. As soon as she picked up the phone I heard this intense moan and painful swallow she made when she started to talk but couldn’t. But I already knew what she was about to say. I knew in my heart and it made me snap inside. I was so mad at Donovan. I went outside and yelled at the top of my lungs every foul mouth word I could think of. Threw some beach chairs and was flat out pissed. I wanted Donovan here in front of me so I could tell him this was bullshit and he had no right to die. How dare him? My amazing trip had soon turned to one I never wanted to remember. And now every time I think about the beach.. I think about how “sad mad” I got when I had to hurry home early from vacation bc the funeral home was waiting on me to see Donovan one last time before he was cremated. I was mad at Donovan bc I was mad at myself. I had so much regret and thoughts of whether or not I was too hard on him the last time we spoke? And I felt horrible that I wasn’t there with him to help him. Or revive him. And he died by accident all alone. My brother knew drugs and was built like a tank. But it doesn’t matter if your tolerance is low. This is why so many that relapse accidentally die. They try to pick up where they left off.

Donovan was born on July 13th and died July 30th just a couple weeks after his 40th birthday. He loved his family so much and especially his two boys. They have both graduated high school and are becoming fine young men. Donovan I hope you watch over us everyday the way I think of you. I’m sorry for all the hurtful things I ever said to you. I love you more than you’ll ever know and I’ll never forget all the funny memories we shared and contagious laugh you always had. Even during the hardest of rains, you seemed to shine. Always finding the good in everything and everyone. Your very missed and loved. I’ll see you again someday but until then, stay cool big brother!

Posted 11/07/2019

Not a day goes by you are always forever 22 Joshua
3/02/81-03/09/03
Love you, Mom

Posted 12/07/2019

Marin Ilia
A beautiful and free spirit, Lover and care taker of animals, raised in a good home with good family. She left this world way to soon. My beautiful niece how we miss and love her so much.

Posted 11/07/2019

In loving memory of Hannah.
6/24/1999-2/18/2019.
If my love could have saved you from your addiction, you would have lived forever.
My heart, my first love, my daughter.
The days aren’t as bright without your smile. I miss you my sweet girl.
Love,
Mom

Posted 11/07/2019

James Idzikowski 07/02/1976 – 12/08/2016.

We will always love you and miss you

Posted 20/06/2019

I love you Justin Thomas Wilson. We all miss you SO MUCH! Not one second goes by that I don’t think about you and wish you were still by my side. You are forever in my heart my love. ❤️

Melanie

❤️ You daddy! Dave🐾

Posted 06/07/2019

I lost so many friends. I would like to say that these were good people. Kind hearted people that I miss very much. I will never forget my friends…
Christopher Jones
Steven Holdsworth
Scott Youngblood
Crystal Ingram
Kristy Ingram
Big Ed
Christopher Eck
Rest in Heaven and Peace now

Posted 06/07/2019

ZECHARIAH “ZECH” SCHOLES
MARCH 22, 1977 – AUGUST 22, 2018

Zechariah “Zech” Abraham Scholes was an absolute force to reckoned with. He instantly filled any room he entered with his charisma, booming voice, and memorable presence. Zech was the kind of man that you instantly wanted to know and be friends with. He was intelligent, creative, fierce, energetic, and had a sense of humor that was as contagious and his laughter. Zech was incredibly passionate about many things, but at the top of that list were his children, Victoria & Angus who, in his own words, were his greatest achievement of his life. He loved his family, which to him included the friends he treated as such, classic rock and hair metal music, PBS documentaries and always winning an argument

Zech loved his time at A-House and often referred to it as the happiest time in his life. He was passionate about his recovery and supporting those who shared the same struggle with addiction. After his Closure he was accepted to the Mather Program and was a staple member of that community. His dedication to the program, newfound optimistic outlook on life, and amazing work ethic aided his success and within months he had reconnected with his children and family, started a relationship, landed a full-time job at Clayton Homes, purchased his first car, and built beautiful friendships. He was the man he always wanted to become.

Zech tragically lost his battle to heroin addiction and died of an overdose on his first and only relapse after 11 months of sobriety. His death left those who were fortunate enough to have known him with a void that can only be filled with memories of his laughter, epic one-liners, and the passion behind his eyes. He was 41 years old.

Posted 06/07/2019

My BEAUTIFUL son Billy passed away from an overdose on August 4th 2018. This family has forever changed. Most will never understand the pain

Posted 07/07/2019

Tyler Rudd, 12/14/1992 – 10/16/2013. You will be remembered always. Love you and Miss you every minute.

Posted 08/07/2019

To all of my friends still sick and suffering, know you are not alone, you are far from weak, that you are loved and that without you this world wouldn’t be the same…Sadly I know this to be true because my brother died on January 29th 2016. He was my only sibling. What I wouldn’t give to have him back for even just one more hug, one more laugh, even one more fight! It’s crazy to sit back and think of all the friends we both lost, this was just one of the reasons it was hard for my brother, John to stay clean. When reality set in and he would think of all the friends fell victim to that poison, the pain he felt was too much for him. I have a 15 year old son, he lost his dad to the same game in December of 2012. My son struggles, he has began to cut himself to avoid his deep pain.

This drug does not only affect the ones using but shows no mercy on the family members and friends left behind, it tears apart families, it is evil in every way.

Please.. Don’t judge…you don’t know what a person is carrying in their hearts
Please…Don’t look the other way…you don’t know what difference one compassionate smile could make, to the addict contemplating treatment
Please…Educate yourselves on addiction, know the signs of an overdose and carry narcan…You would want someone saving your child’s life, right?
Please…If you are an individual who has lost an important person in your life…Be the voice of change, stand up, speak up and know your not alone
and finally…PLEASE..If your using GET HELP, REMEMBER YOUR WORTH, KNOW YOUR LOVED, KNOW THAT YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT!
RIP, JP, BP, SP, JJ, BB, JR, AL, JS, RD, PL, DP, LB, and many, many more xoox

Posted 09/07/2019

Sending lots of love to you in Heaven Donato. coxoxo

Posted 05/07/2019

In loving memory of my brother Christian 💔 in my heart and on my mind every second of every day. Missing you and loving you always forever young.
12/26/87 – 09/04/2012

Posted 03/07/2019

8/11/87-4/27/18. Still can’t wrap my head around the loss of my son. 11 months clean and one time. Fentynal with heroine. I miss him more and more each day. Love you Mike! Forever 30.

Posted 03/07/2019

My son Jacob passed away from overdose Oct. 9th, 2018. He was 24 years old

Posted 03/07/2019

On August 7th 2009 I lost my sister to an accidental overdose. This year will mark ten years since she left us. It is still hard. And somehow it doesn’t end. She knew the dangers of course and sought in her life to be a light to those in the darkness of heroin addiction. They didn’t call it an opioid epidemic back then. But we had friends we were losing to heroin one in 2002 another in 2003. Kelly tried to give these people safe spaces Spaces without judgement she had been aware of the heroin issue. She had not I am afraid been aware of the prescription drug issue. Following a car accident in 2007 Kelly had reconstructive surgery on her leg and was given first Vicodin for pain management then perc 5 then Finally perc 10. Kelly would not take the entire prescription but sold some of it to make extra money on her birthday August 6th she refilled her prescription and a deadly combination of drinking and prescription drugs took her life in the early morning hours following her birthday. Kelly’s biological father died from a heroin overdose and again friends close to us died from heroin overdoses. We and she were well aware of the dangers of heroin. But not her prescription drugs. We did not understand the level she was at with taking them. We didn’t act fast enough. We had indications maybe a month or two before that there was an issue but it seemed like having seen her just before this happened that she had it under control and was sorting out the issues waiting for a prescription for a pain patch instead of relying on medication. This resource, the pain patch was approved the day Kelly died. Not much was spoken about the opioid epidemic as it is now called when Kelly died. I’m glad they speak about it now. Since Kelly I have lost a friend at work this year to what I believe may have been very similar circumstances though the family would not say. And a childhood friend had to bury her daughter this past weekend because of a heroin overdose. It all too much really. Too many taken from us for nothing at all. If we can stop one person from ingesting this poison that would be everything.

Posted 02/07/2019

I lost my soul mate to the DEVIL DRUG!! R.I.P. Kenny Taylor. ❤💙💔

Posted 02/07/2019

My beautiful children, Shawn (forever 22) and Jessica (forever 26). We will always celebrate your lives and your love. Shawn, your larger than life personality and warmth and that laugh that was so contagious that you were voted “best laugh” in the yearbook. Jess, we loved watching you doing back flips through the air and your absolute love, compassion and warmth made everyone want to be around you. You were both 2 of the most amazing people ever to walk this earth and we will continue to honor you, love you and celebrate you every single day. ❤️

Posted 02/07/2019

Kane,
Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. I still sing your favorite songs to you when they come on the radio. I still cry at stoplights when I look at your picture. I still hear your voice when I walk down the hall. I still feel your scruffy beard when I need a hug. I miss you… so much that some days I don’t know how I will live the rest of my life with out you. Somehow I will be strong. I will be happy. I will thank God for you being my son and for the 25 years that I was blessed to have you here on earth. I look forward to the day we see each other again. I love you!

Posted 03/07/2019

Kurtis William Rock, May 1990 – March 2018; my precious loving son forever loved and missed more than you could imagine. Loved God, family, friends, children and animals and tried to help all he could because he was as sensitive to others’ suffering as much as he was to his own. He was intelligent as well as kind and generous so always shared the information he was always researching, on Bible Prophecy and health issues, with others so they could be helped by what he learned too. Didn’t realize his own natural talents for IT, electronics, fixing bikes and cooking or how much he helped others, especially me. My life stopped the day he died.

Posted 01/07/2019

In honor of my son, Tyler Joseph Shamash 7/3/99-10/21/18 Fentanyl overdose

Posted 30/06/2019

I lost my sister Nikki June 18 2019 to a drug overdose that I believe was intentional. Unfortunately her wife of 8 years passed away on May 27 2019 due to complications from diabetes. My sister and I were really close before her addiction got really bad and I had to protect my family. It’s not that I didn’t love her, I tried to get her help but she refused. I blame myself for not reaching out to her in time. I had a gut feeling that once her wife passed she didn’t want to be alive and I think that is what bothers me more. I missed her before her passing but now I miss her even more cause I can never tell her that I loved her.

Posted 30/06/2019

Every breath I take I think of you, miss you always. Love you forever!
Tara Lynn Caton
11/21/82 -6/19/18

Posted 26/06/2019

I lost the LOVE of my life to this DEVIL DRUG.💔

Posted 27/06/2019

Thank you for all that you gave to your peers, you are loved, respected, missed, celebrated and valued

Posted 26/06/2019

In loving memory of my Son, Scott Allan Beach. Forever 23. There’s not an hour of each day that I do not think of you. I miss you more than anything. I love you Son. Please hold onto that part of me you took with you until we meet again.

Posted 26/06/2019

In remembrance of, my best friend,
Devin Christopher Barnes
12/31/1984 – 05/12/2019
I miss you deeply, my love. I miss laughing and smiling with you on the daily, but as each day passes, I get closer to seeing you again and I can’t wait. We will be jamming to music and running the roads in heaven. Lots of love, your Goosy Baby

Posted 26/06/2019

Sarah, my sweet, sad, overwhelmed daughter! You left us December 16, 2016 as you finally found your peace amidst so much pain and sadness. Finding you that day pulled the breath from me, leaving me in the in-between. In your passing, you left broken hearts that are slowly mending. Your passing opened a chasm and our family will never be the same again! A broken family trying to heal. I wrote your story/our story my love, but you know that don’t you? Writing was my salvation and I hope by sharing our story, others will better understand addiction and how it impacts so many families. Not one day passes when your name is not mentioned, and your memory rekindled. The essence of you lingers, your energy surrounds me. Two and one-half years have passed. July 20th we will gather around your newly made memorial bench to place your final remains into the soft earth. New life will grow and sprout as time moves forward. I wonder if I have the strength to place your pink granite urn into the ground after keeping you with me all this time. Can I do this? Yet, you really are not here, are you? You’re in that place of light and love experiencing amazing grace! Love you forever and always until we are together again. Mom

Posted 23/06/2019

I just want to say goodbye to my husband and oldest friend who died May 29, 2019. I hope you are finally at peace and I’m sorry I was not there to save you this time. I am so angry with you for making the decision to continue to use, no matter who you hurt, including yourself, or what the consequences may be. I thank you for saving my life on probably what was more than one occasion and for “forcing” me to become the “strong” one and get clean so we both could “survive”. I really hope I can stay clean now without you, for just myself. I really wish you could have done it with me. What really sucks is that nothing has changed over the last 25 years (when we both decided to “try” heroin for the first time) In the way that society views “us” (addicts) in life and in death and that so many overdoses were not prevented because they are either not mentioned, overlooked, or lied about. I wish things could be different. You are missed.

Posted 19/06/2019

Nicklaus Maximillian Ogborne
September 1, 1990- August 22, 2018
Forever loved…

Posted 18/06/2019

Michael, you brightened our lives with your kindness and laughter. Although the days seem so dark and hopeless since you died on 12/13/16, my hope is that the good memories will one day take the place of the images of that day in my head, and that our family will begin to heal and be at peace. You were loved, you are missed, you will never be forgotten. Love, Mom

Posted 18/06/2019

I lost my mom on march 14th 2019 to a drug overdose. Her name was Carla Marie Nelson. Gosh it still doesnt seem real when i say it. She was someone you looked up to and could run to with all your problems. She was always there with open arms. My mom was a nurse and loved caring for others. She started to have pain in her back and had to have surgery. We then found out she had a disease in her back that would eventually make her wheel chair bound. The doctor prescribed her pain killers and she got addicted. She struggled so long with her addiction and tried to quit so many times. Now i dont have my beautiful loving 47 yr old mom that had so many years left! I love you mom and we all miss you so much! 💜

Posted 18/06/2019

In memory of my friend Sean. Sean was one of the nicest people I’ve known. He cared a lot about his son, family and friends. I was honored to have him as a friend. He died of an accidental overdose after having battled the disease of addiction for many years. R.I.P. Bro
Sean Hanagan
August 26, 1986-March 30, 2013

Posted 16/06/2019

My friend Rob was an all around nice guy. He fought a long and hard battle against the disease of addiction.
Robert “Rob” Brown
October 12, 1977-February 28, 2015

Posted 16/06/2019

My friend Joe fought a long and hard battle against the disease of addiction. Joe was a very down to earth guy. He had an awesome sense of humor. R.I.P. Bro.
Joseph Jennings
March 18, 1969-January 2, 2015

Posted 16/06/2019

Dan Esper + Wynter Esper
I wish I could hold you both and say so many things I’ve been longing to say since you left us.

Dan – you went from a friend to a brother to me. I’m so grateful you showed me the program and introduced me to so many wonderful people. I’m sober again today, I know you can see me now. It’s all because when you died I knew it was time to get help again. I love you so much, and I’ll see you in people walking down the street and it hits me so hard, I laugh or cry it all depends. But it’s just one of the ways I get to keep you close to my heart..

Always ❤️
Kate

Posted 16/06/2019

I have been in recovery for years. I’ve watched truly amazing people get their lives back. Unfortunately I have watched so many beautiful souls lose their fight. There are so many for me to pay tribute to i’m not sure where to begin.

Posted 12/06/2019

In memory of Andrew Brian Bond
Born May 22, 1991
Death June 1st, 2019
Loved by so many..
I’ll love you forever Andrew.

Posted 13/06/2019

To my son Eric, I miss your beautiful smile, your laugh, bear hugs, and the way you lite up the room when you entered. I feel you next to me, guiding me, to help others. I’m grateful for this. I would never trade the 24 years we had together, including the ups and downs, for my love is always unconditional for you. I know my pathway now, have grown stronger, more determined, with incredible passion, to be a positive role model, and help other families that have lost a loved one. I do all I can to make a difference, this is our destiny together.
LOVE TREMENDOUSLY and SMILE ANYWAY.

Posted 08/06/2019

I’m a mom who lost her beloved son 1/14/14 to accidental overdose 💜💔.My pain is unbearable.I’m working on honoring my son Scott in all I do 💔

Posted 09/06/2019

I lost the love of my life to accidental overdose. He, unintentionally, overdosed on Fentanyl and Heroin, on May 3, 2019. I miss him so very much. He was my everything. James Christopher Neill, I’ll see you on the other side, Penguin.

Posted 09/06/2019

In remembrance of my mother,
Yvette Marie Fitzpatrick
November 6, 1967 – April 4, 2011
Love, your daughter

Posted 09/06/2019

My daughter Liz died in April 2015 to an overdose. The world lost a loving and caring creative soul and my heart is forever broken.

Posted 10/06/2019

To my number 1 son, my boy, my Ryan
I will miss you forever but love you far longer than that,
It still hurts just as much as it did the first day. Almost 3 years without you.
James Ryan Woods – 24 April 1981 – 16 June 2016. forever 35
I love you my Son,
mum. xxxxx

Posted 06/06/2019

It has been 7 years without you John, my eldest loving Son. I can still see you on the respirator after your fatal meth overdose , it stays in my mind and the guilt I carry for having you taken off after 6 days per brain dead. The anguish is so real & painful even today. Everyday is a challenge. Missing you.

Posted 07/06/2019

Our handsome boy Kieran, we all love and miss you so much. Always in our hearts ❤️. All my love mum xxxx

Posted 07/06/2019

In Memory of my beautiful sister SHELLEY MADDEN who passed away February 21, 2004 at the age of 22.
You are loved and missed more than you could ever imagine.

My condolences to all the other families and friends who have also lost loved ones. They live on forever in our hearts.

Christine

Posted 07/06/2019

I love you Honey with every beat of my heart and every breath that I take. I feel your presence in the breeze that embracing me on the most painful days I thank the birds that let me know you are safe and I hold you tight in my dreams.

Posted 07/06/2019

I will always love & miss you Amber Olsen! You were my best friend & my first love! I will always remember the good times we had & will never forget you! Till we meet again my love!

Posted 06/06/2019

Everyday since my brothers death I have held a thought or memory in my mind or heart, mostly in both. I miss my brother more than words could ever express. Heroin stole another young, able bodied, kind hearted, talented man… A brother an uncle… A son. Please teach your children the dangers that are associated with drugs, please be open minded and receptive to their questions, please don’t act as if this doesn’t exist and please have compassion in your heart in regard to this crisis… This will tell your children without any words that it is okay to come to you if they are in trouble. Spread awareness. Teach our children. Addiction doesn’t discriminate.

Posted 06/06/2019

Thinking of my Beloved Son Kevin age 28years. Gone from our lives but never from our hearts.
And to all those taken from us through Addiction.

Posted 06/06/2019

It will be 5 years in August that You have passed. We still struggle with not seeing You. I miss you my son, with all my heart!!!

Posted 06/06/2019

Remembering our precious son Russell who left this world on February 5, 2019. He was kind, smart and loving and treasured by his family.
We will hold onto sweet memories forever.

Posted 06/06/2019

Jordan, when you left, the world didn’t stop, time didn’t stop, no, everything just kept on going like nothing happened. But my world stopped, my time stood still, and I’m still trying to put one foot in front of the other mate. I miss you more than there are stars mate and I count the days till I see you again when my time here is done. I finished the picture of you and am having it framed. I plan to somehow give it to your Mom and Dad…as that is where it should go. Give Mom a hug for me buddy and tell her I love her and I love you too Buddy!!! Till next then…
Mick

Posted 04/06/2019

Amanda..It’s been almost three years since you left us behind. We miss you every, single day and wish you were here to see your son grow into the spiting image of his mommy. I love and miss you so much!!

Posted 05/06/2019

In memory of my son Chris who never got the chance to celebrate his 21st birthday.
I love you and miss you terribly. RIP

Posted 05/06/2019

Remembering Cole, forever 26. I loved you your whole life…I’ll miss you for the rest of mine.

Posted 04/06/2019

Never Forgotten.
Kieran Kay
April 1, 1991-May 22, 2017
Until We Meet Again
Love Mom 💜❤️

Posted 04/06/2019

To my eldest child and only son,
Not one day goes by that I don’t have you in my thoughts. Whether it’s a thought filled with sorrow, anger or regret it is and always will be a thought full of love. Whether addicted or sober you were my son. You ARE my son. Death will never change that. I love you Son.. yesterday I did, today I do and tomorrow I will..

Posted 04/06/2019

Paul, you took a piece of my heart with you. You were kind and loving man. You left a piece of your heart in your daughter, Ava. You will not be forgotten. You are home with Jesus

Posted 04/06/2019

To my beloved Tommy. You were called home on September 12 2014. God know you were tired and your pain and suffering was too much for you to endure. He saw your tired face and reached out and carried you home. You are now at peace and free of pain. As your mom and you my only child, omg how hard to loose you. I am blessed to have had you for 41 years of my life. I danced at your wedding and I have 2 wonderful, beautiful grandsons that you gave to me and especially naming the youngest after my dad and your grandfather who was your best friend.Tommy, my son, my life I cry for you everyday and wish I could be there with you. Always in my heart and always know how much I love you! Love mom

Posted 03/06/2019

We are extremely sad to remember those souls who are not able to reach out with our quick response service delivery.

Posted 03/06/2019

To my darling Holly. Missing you so much but I feel your presence every day my beautiful girl. Love you for ever.
All our sweetest love Mum, Dad and Daisy May. Rest in Peace. XXXXXXXXX

Posted 03/06/2019

I love you & miss you so much my amazing son Shawn, forever 22 …still I Rise & my beautiful daughter Jessica, forever 26…you are my sunshine 💔

Posted 03/06/2019

My dear sweet Willie. I miss you every moment. I am a shell of the person I used to be. I miss your light and laughter.

Posted 03/06/2019

In loving memory of our dear daughter, Elizabeth. We love and miss you terribly. You are always in our hearts every minute of every day. All our love, Mom and Dad. xoxoxo

To all who have left us, may you rest with the angels and be free from all your pains and struggles.

Pittsburgh

Posted 03/06/2019

Gike if u only knew how missed you would be
Every day every minute i miss you
My peace is in knowing u do not have to battle that demon anymore
I love you

Posted 03/06/2019

I lost my daughter Chloe at the age of 17 to fentanyl laced heroin 😢💔
2.9.99 – 1.20.17
We miss you baby girl! Always in our hearts ♥️

Posted 03/06/2019

Courtney Anne Ream
02-01-1981 -12-27-11
Loved and cherished eternally.

Posted 03/06/2019

My son, Derek Hatcher, was handsome, funny, charming, loved football, and loved life! He became addicted to pain pills while playing college football. That eventually turned into heroin laced with fentanyl which took his life, as well as a big part of mine. I miss him every day.

Posted 03/06/2019

Johnny It’s been over two years since you passed, I am missing you more today than yesterday. I hope you are happy and playing ball in heaven. Say hi to Dad.

Posted 03/06/2019

My beautiful daughter Katie lost her life to the disease of addiction, she had a beautiful soul and her life had so much meaning, she leaves behind her fiance and 3 beautiful children. This could be anyone’s child please get help and accept the love your family gives you, 4ever26 💙 momma loves you Katie

Posted 03/06/2019

Where do I begin… Megan Spychalski, Stacy DeMay, Brantley Kostowicz, Kayla Dirnbauer, Kaela Bradley, Ben Merritt, Dale Knapinski, Brittany Faris, Matt Hall, Danny Solis, Adam Rydzik, Shannon Stelloh and Ryan Hett. These are just a few of so many lives that have been lost to overdose. They were mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, daughters, sons and aunts and uncles They were kind, loving and caring human beings who had hopes, dreams, goals and aspirations. Their lives mattered and will never be forgotten by the people who loved and cared for them. I am a person in long term recovery who was privileged to work with each of these lost souls. Our lives matter!!!!

Posted 04/06/2019

Remembering my son, Austin Nicholas Barthen, who fell asleep from an overdose of OxyContin and never woke up. You are always in my heart. xoxo

Posted 04/06/2019

In Loving memory of my beautiful son Matthew forever 17 . Forever loved and in my heart ♡♡♡

Posted 04/06/2019

I lost my 21 year old son in 2009. He died of a heroin/Xanax overdose. We were pretty clueless about addiction especially our sons. I see all of the red flags now but didn’t then. I have found a group that are so smart. We help get people into treatment, we encourage harm reduction, have sober living houses and offer many wonderful meetings every week. We didn’t have this when Kevin was alive and using. I lost my only child to this horrible disease of addiction. I thank God now , that I am able to help people that need my help. How I wish my son was still here, but that wasn’t his journey. I believe my sons life is worth sharing and helping to get other people clean and healthy. I still cry …. just not as often….. miss my Kevin!

Posted 04/06/2019

My daughter Kylie Marie Laura dired of a heroin fentanyl overdose 11/16/16

Posted 04/06/2019

In loving memory Raul Hernandez gone without no goodbye without I Love You. Everyday I think of you regretting how I will never hear your voice. I love you Daddy From Your Little Pony

Posted 01/06/2019

I lost my son Austen c Babcock 10/27/93-1/26/19.. Forever 25 Fentanyl in cocaine.. Mom will always say your name..I love you son always

Posted 31/05/2019

I lost my son Mauricio Daniel Andrade 11-1-97💜3-21-19 I would like to make drug overdose awareness in my city

Posted 29/05/2019

December 10, 2016 was a “life changing” day for me and my family!! My beautiful, smart, sensitive only child, Daniel Thomas Perry died this day! He was found lying in his bed after a safety-Check from a family member, after repeated calls; all unanswered. “Toxic Levels” from Psychiatric medications was listed as the cause of death of my sweet boy! Today we live in an over-medicated society where there is a pill for all that ails you. Remembering Daniel Thomas Perry February 16, 1986- December 10, 2016
“Love Never Dies”, you will always be my precious Son Daniel! Love, Mom

Posted 29/05/2019

In loving memory of My precious Son Casey Herrick Ward….. I failed as a mother to educate myself on addiction and instead used tough love which is the way I was taught. I will everyday live the rest of my life wanting to be with you on this journey. You were and still are one of the most amazing people I have ever known. I’m so so sorry I and life failed you. The loss of a child is a process that starts the day they pass and ends the day we join them. All my love my so so so very precious son CHW…….. 10/01/90-10/14/18

Posted 28/05/2019

Mommy, I’m so sorry and I miss you so much. I havent talked about this in a long time and I’m sorry I havent talked to you for this long but I’m trying. I love you so much. What I want to say is you were the most amazing mom and you were always there for me and I wish that either me or someone would have been there for you and who knows, maybe you would be here now. I know it was your choice to make and you made it. I just hope you’re at peace now and I’ll see you again on the other side when the time comes. Lots of love from Kaykay xxx

Posted 21/05/2019

I miss you nate, Drugs sent us separate ways, we were both doing them and blaming something else. When I heard you passed my heart broke. You were my best friend and like a brother. Everything between us fell apart but I love you and miss you friend. You’re one of the only people I’ll ever be able to call that and one of the only people who knew me and called me friend anyway

Posted 21/05/2019

My son Clifford John Brooks overdosed and died February 26, 2017. Clifford died from multiple Drug Intoxication. Clifford was cherished by his family and loved by many friends and acquaintances because he just had that kind of personality. In CA we have very limited help for addicts aside from detox only programs. ACTION family counseling was the only facility that accepted our HMO. This is ridiculous. We have a drug epidemic in this country and we need to put out awareness about drug abuse as much as we’ve tried to educate people about the dangers of smoking. We will never ever recover from Cliffords senseless death. When will this country wake up and stand up and start saying No we’ve had enough! The joke about “We can find the one fruit fly in 100 tons of fruit but we can’t find the tons of dope that pours into this country” isn’t a joke. Somebody’s pockets are bursting at the seams.

Posted 22/05/2019

Christopher W. Scully 09/10/1987-12/22/2017
Loving Son, Brother, Uncle, Cousin, Nephew, Grandson, Friend to all. To know him is love him, forever in our hearts. We miss you so very much. XoXo

Posted 22/05/2019

Belinda Berman 1969 – 2019
Almost 50… I miss you every day. I cannot comprehend the loss, but understand why you left. It sucks without you here. I miss your humor, your sharp wit, your ability to make me laugh and feel better about myself. I really had no idea about the horrid deep pain that must’ve been eating you alive. I miss you so much. -AZE

Posted 22/05/2019

To my king the love of my life and my soul mate you were tooken from us it wasent fare you didnt do that drug why did someone talk you in to it now i have to go day by day through the rest of my years with out my king beside me and its just not fare i love you baby and always will bbo oob with cornflakes and peantbutter

my king (jesse graham)
sept/22/1995 to april/30/2019

Posted 24/05/2019

Jacob Lee. I love you and miss you so much. I keep fighting this disease in honor of you. You will always be in my heart.

Posted 26/05/2019

Ryan Thomas,
I hate that you’re gone. All you wanted was to make it back to your beautiful babies, and it breaks my heart that you weren’t able to. You were my friend, always the optimist, never letting me give up in the worst of times. Thank you. I’ll never forget you. I hope you’re at peace my friend. Goodbye,
Jeanne Randall

Posted 26/05/2019

Tim-
You were and will always be the love of my life. Not a minute goes by where I am not missing you. Watching the final season of Game of Thrones just isn’t the same. I was lucky enough this past week to dream you were alive and well twice.
Even though you died of an accidental overdose after you fractured your leg- i hope that the person who sold you that pill will face God and karma.
People need to stop stigmatizing this very serious issue. You were amazing, generous, loving, sweet and truly one of a kind. I will love you until we meet again.
5/22/2018

Posted 17/05/2019

Jason we miss you, your beautiful Daighter had her prom this year
You would be so proud of her.
Love you, Mama

Posted 13/05/2019

Kieran Kay April 1,1991 – May 22, 2017. Life is just not the same without you in it. I love and miss you every single day ❤️💜
Mom

Posted 13/05/2019

Jennifer Tucker Patterson…you are missed so much! We lost a wonderful mother, wife, daughter, and so much more. May your new wings carry you to a world of love and grace in His presence. Loving you here.

Posted 15/05/2019

Ever since I lost my fiance Vincent from an accidental overdose I have never been the same. It has been very difficult for me to wrap it around my head that he passed away from a heroine overdosed since I had no idea that he was an addict and that he was battling this sickness. I wish that he would of told me that he was battling this addiction since I would of helped him to get cleaned. The other hard part was that I was out of the country when the incident happened and my daughter was the one that found him in our bathroom already deceased. The trauma that she has endured from his passing has been one of the hardest thing for me. The pain that I have felt from loosing him and the pain that I am going through seeing be 10 year old daughter go through she is no longer the same little girl. I wish he would of just told me. I feel such a betrayal from the one person that I trusted the most. It has been very hard from me to overcome his lost since I had no idea what was going on with him. I thought that our lives were going great we were going to marry in April. I just wished he would of told me.

Posted 15/05/2019

Ashley James MacPherson, my son, my soulmate lost his life to addiction on 24th July 2018.

For everyone who has lost a precious soul to drug addiction and overdose in our city, Perth, I’d like to let you know that it has been confirmed that the Trafalgar Bridge, located in East Perth will be lit up in PURPLE from dusk until midnight on the 31st August 2019 in recognition of International Overdose Awareness Day and or lost loved ones.

Big love to all

Posted 15/05/2019

I lost my 21yr old 3-21-19 to m30’s his name is Mauricio Daniel Andrade I want to be a part of Drug Overdose Awareness my son was trying to be a part of this which I had no idea and I wish he would of told me sooner I want to make awareness all over the world but I would like to start in my little city in Yuma Az but dont know where to start if someone can please help me.

Posted 02/05/2019

Tiana Chrystine Alves We lost you July 27 2018 .My beautiful baby girl , My first born , we miss you too much. Forever 26.

Streator

Posted 09/05/2019

My sister Samantha passed away from a heroin overdose on December 3, 2018. She was such a kind soul who cared about others, and would do anything for the ones she loved. Unfortunately, she was overcome by her addiction and wasn’t able to fight it. I miss her terribly and the pain will never go away.

Posted 09/05/2019

Feb 12 2019
My Only Nephew Kyle my sisters only Son
You were taking from us by a devil drug something you tried so hard to leave behind you
This drug purple heroin grabs hold of you
There’s no safe thing about doing it
I make Tribute to my Nephews accidental overdose
To make users aware that no amount is worth your life
Rest Easy my Nephew

Posted 09/05/2019

Mom,
I’m so sorry I didn’t do more to help you overcome this addiction. I’m sorry I treated you like a failure instead of realizing that you were a victim. I’m sorry that when you reached out to me for help, I told you to get your shit together. You told me you likely wouldn’t make it through the week because you had lost hope, you died 6 days later, fulfilling your own prophecy. I hate everything right now. I was supposed to spend Mother’s Day with you, I had a picnic planned. Instead that is the day I will spread your ashes on the beach. I love you mama. I’m so sorry I didn’t do more to help you. I will never forgive myself.

Posted 10/05/2019

Rest in Heaven my sweet boy..
💜💜Ryan John Moylan 💜💜
073185-061116
Love Mom, Dad, Patrick,Jillian,Summer and your boys Cayden,Nick and Ryan Jr..

Posted 10/05/2019

Walter Mouldin
07/02/91 ~ 01/15/18
My First Born
My Best Friend
My Biggest Supporter
My Greatest Accomplishment
I Miss You…
Every Single Second
Of Every Single Minute
Of Every Single Hour
Of Every Single Day
“May Love Be What You Remember Most”
❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Posted 10/05/2019

Tribute to my daughter Melissa Shattuck who passed away from an accidental drug overdose on August 31, 2009. She was a beautiful and loving daughter, sister, Mom and friend. Missing her so much.

Posted 10/05/2019

To my brother Kyle Woodliffe who lost his life March 13, 2016. You were loved so much and even though you lost your life we know you are still with us. Love your family

Posted 11/05/2019

Kathryn L. Ames-Peters 8/28/74-4/30/15 Not a day goes by without thoughts of you, we love you to heaven and back.

Posted 11/05/2019

In memory of my son Mathew who passes away June 5, 2017 if a heroin overdose. He was 29.

Posted 11/05/2019

Today I found out that a real good friend passed away from opioid overdose her name was Alicia Winter. She was a great mother and a great friend. She was beautiful inside and out. I will miss her so much. She tried so hard for her kids and for herself to get clean and she was definitely doing her best at it.

Posted 12/05/2019

On May 2, 2019 I lost you my baby brother , my only brother. The pain is still to raw the shock not yet worn off your sent still in the air. You were an amazing brother with a heart of gold a wonderful father to your boys a stand up man who worked very hard. I will miss our long talks your smile I’ll even miss our disagreements! You fought a hard battle and for that I am beyond PROUD of you , you never stopped trying, never gave up the fight as we came upon your 1 year of sobriety and the call came in that we lost you I cried but I vowed to not let you be thought of as anything less than an amazing father, brother, nephew, friend to so many with a compassionate heart that was always the first there to help someone in need. You are so missed I will love you always.
Your Big Sis & Best Friend

Posted 13/05/2019

Love you Lil Brother… Greg Lang 💙

Posted 13/05/2019

Today is my second Mother’s Day without my only child Travis (and my 5th without my Mom) so I tried to focus on the memories of wonderful times…I am truly grateful to love and be loved by both of them. Travis passed away at the age of 24 on October 14, 2017. His obituary in part: “Travis was a loving son, a loyal friend, and an avid Green Bay Packers fan. He was a smart, funny, caring, and hardworking young man. Described by his closest friends, “Travis was a great friend with a huge heart. He was understanding and caring, loyal and loving. He made people feel comfortable. He was always willing to listen to someone’s problems to try and help them find a solution. He made his friends feel like they mattered and the focus was on each other when they were together. Travis was brave. He was outgoing, witty, and loved to make people laugh. If he wanted to have a good time, he went out of his way to ensure everyone was going to have a great time as well. He always knew how to make you smile.” Travis was also a young man with a substance use disorder…a disease that is misunderstood by so many, a disease that he tried to fight but that was bigger than him in the end. It is the hope of his family that others who are struggling with addiction issues will seek out the help they need.” I love and miss him so very much every single day. Love you Fred ~ Mom

Posted 13/05/2019

You fought so hard my baby.. The Lord had mercy and removed you from the nightmare you were living. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss you my first son… I love you so much and think about what could have been …. Yiour brother , sisters , nephews , grandparents all miss you every day…
Be at peace my son ..we will be together again one day… Love , momma
In loving memory of Travis
05/16/1991-04/27/2017

Posted 26/04/2019

Mary Kate- you are forever loved. Miss you.
9/94-11/16

Posted 29/04/2019

Today is May 2, 2019….My son, Ryan Vincent….its been almost 4 years that we dont see you…but our hearts are connected…we love you and miss you but we are certain that we will see you one day….Love Mom, Jonathan, Adam, Carlos your nieces and nephews….

Posted 03/05/2019

Can’t believe you’re gone Dylan. My 23 year old son gone because someone killed him by giving him fentanyl. He left behind two daughters age 2 and 8 months. He had just moved out of our house. He died 3 months to the day him and my grandchildren moved out of nowhere. We kept our son alive 23 years and he was only a pot user. So confused? What happened baby boy? We love you Dylan. God won’t let them get away with this. So brokenhearted.

Posted 03/05/2019

Dear Eddie, We miss you terribly and think of you every day. All the pain and heartache your addiction brought during our marriage and seperation pale in comparison to the news of your death on September 10, 2018. I’ve asked myself if there was anything more that I could have done to help you. Even now, I still grapple with that question. If I had offered my life for yours, would God have granted it? Perhaps not; he didn’t resurrect you after I spent hours in the days after your death bargaining with him for it. Your sister is going through it as well, and we have grown closer. We have talked for hours and we have gone to lunch and started to heal a little. And then your autopsy and toxicology reports came to us, eight months after we requested them, and took us back to day one again. I wish heroin didn’t exist, I wish addiction didn’t exist, I wish I didn’t have an urn of ashes, and most of all I wish you were here. Barring all of that, I will remember you when I go fishing, I will grant wishes for foster children in your name, I will hike at Quabbin and engage in our customary ignorance of the “Do not roll down the dike” sign. Until we meet again, you are loved and never forgotten.

Posted 05/05/2019

I loved you then as I love you now. Not a day goes by that you aren’t on my mind. I miss you so much!! You were an amazing friend, dad, grandpa, etc. You always went to work and took care of your family. Then you’d extend that as to help anyone you possibly could. You always had a kind word, sexy smile, and infectious laugh. You were so much more to me than you’ll ever know. Don’t you go anywhere….when its my time I’m coming for you sweetie. Tom Tona you were, still are, and always will be an inspiration to me and so many others. Rest easy babe…..love you Your V <3

Posted 24/04/2019

Our Son & Handsome Brother,
Damian Jason, Died on April 1, 2019 at the Age of 17. Child Protective Services removed our son from our loving home after they received a false report of abuse and neglect. After 46 days in CPS Custody, my son died of an overdose. The pain won’t go away and Damian, you’re all I think about. Life won’t ever be the same without you. I love you, my first born son, mommy will always love you. 🙏❤️

Posted 23/04/2019

In memory of my sweet sister Adriana Derosett.
Today I weep
Today I scream
Because forever you will sleep
Leaving my memories as a dream
-Crystal Riggi

Posted 22/04/2019

Joey, I miss you everyday. You passed two months before our amazing, sweet, silly boy was born. “Do you think I can have one more kiss? I’ll find closure on your lips, and then I’ll go. Maybe also one more breakfast, one more lunch, and one more dinner. I’ll be full and happy and we can part. But in between meals, maybe we can lie in bed one more time. One more prolonged moment where time suspends indefinitely as I rest my head on your chest. My hope is if we add up the “one mores” they will equal a lifetime and I’ll never have to get to the part where I let you go. But that’s not real is it. There are no more one mores.”

Posted 20/04/2019

Dear Tyler my best friend. I love you and I am sorry you were in so much pain from losing your best friend Jon! You tried everything you could to numb that pain. I was with you my friend, I could never replace him nor wanted to. I am sorry I had to leave you. We got into treatment and you could not continue. I had to distance myself from you. I swear if I could take it all back I would have never left you alone. I pray you are in heaven and the pain you tried so very hard to numb is gone! I will live on your legacy with all my own memories of the art and beauty you brought with your music and how you could play your guitar so well. You were such a talent and I was always so proud of you! It’s been over a year. I cut ties with Everyone and disconnected for my own recovery. I just found out after I had that dream of you last night. I woke and searched your name and I cried when I found out you died Feb 3 2018 of an overdose and I was never aware. It hurts so bad! I have yet to get in touch with your family. I desperately want this to just be a dream but I never wanted to leave you alone. Please forgive me! I will always Love you man! Jeff

Posted 19/04/2019

Sister….Thi Thi… Sonya…. You were my little sister…. you still are my little sister. I know you fought a long and hard battle. One that left scars and changed you, inside and out. But those of us that knew you, the REAL you, know that was NOT you, but the disease. I will remember all the times we laughed, the times we cried. I remember when we fought, and it all seems so trivial now. The last time I saw you alive, you had one of my favorite shirts on. I got irritated, and told you to take it off, which you did. I have yet to wash that shirt again, and plead to God to bring you back if I let you wear it. If I let you keep it. I’d give anything to have you back Thi Thi, but I know the person who left us that day was not the one we loved, but a stranger. You had been gone for awhile already. I just never thought we’d never get you back by losing you completely. At least you’re free now. So long Thi Thi….

Posted 19/04/2019

For my Forever Love,

The funniest , most loving & the one person I loved spending every hour , every second of my days with you. You were my light in every dark tunnel, my sun after the rain , my moon in the nights. You showed me that as flawed as I may see myself you loved every inch & kissed every flaw I may have. I miss you entirely that it could never be summed into words. What wouldn’t I do to have you back in my arms & never let you go. Hold you so tight & remind you how I always did that you were perfect.. You were to good for this cruel world & God knew that. You fought long & hard. Like the warrior you are..
March 12, 2019 will always be remembered as the day you spread your wings & took half of me with you. I will never be the same but I know you took that half with you so when it’s my time to go I know where to find you. I love you so so so much. It couldn’t not be amounted to words.. 13 years together & it still wasn’t enough.
Until we meet again my love, I will take care of our baby girl ten toes down.. Watch over all of us baby.
Sleep in Power my King. <3

Posted 18/04/2019

http://m.legacy.com/dignity-memorial/obituary.aspx?n=Michael-Ahern&lc=7295&pid=192044023&mid=8235198

Posted 18/04/2019

Jordan, There are things I meant to say when we were older, not because we may not grow old together, but that we may not grow old at all. You’re so much more important than anything I’ll ever do, and I would rather have been your friend, than anything I’ll ever be. And just in case you ever think nobody does, I Love You
Miss you everyday …rest in God’s Love. little more…
Mick

Posted 12/04/2019

Shenandoah Rose Kearney, you were not just my girlfriend, but my true soulmate. When we first met, I had just lost my mom and the first thing I said to you after we both realized how much we loved and cared for each other was how you literally saved my life without even knowing…but I couldn’t save you and it kills me more and more each day! And for that I am so very sorry. Today makes a full year since you were taken away so soon and it’s not getting any easier only worse. The pain of losing you is something that I endure day in and day out. I’m so afraid that I will start to forget us, our hopes and dreams and the beautiful future we were planning so I welcome the pain of losing you because as long as it is there I know you are there. I will forever love you babygirl, I miss you so much my heart hurts. Rest In Paradise my angel, until we meet again I know you will be right by my side watching over me. I love you much more than any words could possibly say. See you soon babygirl.

Posted 11/04/2019

To Zach.

There were so many things that I never told you. I always thought that I would have the time.
I fell in love with you when I was fourteen years old. Some people might say that’s too young to know what love is. Now, approaching thirty, I still hold that it was one of the truest, purest feelings I’ve ever known.
I remember how the sun followed you wherever you went; the air became springtime. Darkness turned to light in my heart. I remember how I felt alive, being near you. I knew that you had an addiction even then, even as kids, but you were so much more than that. You had such a powerful spirit. I thought it was bigger than any battle it was fighting.
I like to remember you sitting under a cherry tree playing Bob Dylan tunes on your acoustic guitar. We listened to punk rock but for some reason we both just loved that Live 1975 Dylan album. You loved poetry and lyricism. Half of the time you spoke in it without seeming to notice.
I fell in love with you and you were like the sun.
You moved away, back to Chicago, when I was 15 years old. It broke my heart like it had never been broken before. I retreated into myself, hiding in my room and only coming out to practice with my band, my lyrics getting more and more lost and angry. I wrote you letters every day. I never sent any of them. I kept a calendar on the wall where I counted the days since you’d left. I counted for a year, day by day. I listened to Leftover Crack and Bob Dylan. I waited. I sat on the floor and drew on my converse with sharpie. I might have done nothing but rock back and forth, a time or two.
But all of that’s behind us now. We grew up, and we grew apart. And then, three days ago I ran into you downtown by the university. What were the chances in a city of millions of people? There you were. We stopped. We talked, and caught up. You said you were about to graduate with your degree in Philosophy. You always had loved wondering about the world. I hugged you, and I wanted to hold on longer but you started to let go, so I did the same. You asked for my phone number and sent me pictures of your guitar. You said you wanted to hang out and play some folk tunes. I said I would like that. It wasn’t a nicety; I meant it.
But you died today.
When I had to pass along the news to others, they asked me: “But didn’t you just see him last week?”
That’s the thing about dying. You’re alive right up until you do it.

I knew about the heroin, knew all the way back in high school. It was so foreign to me then. Death was foreign to me then. It’s not so much, anymore. Zach, I hope there’s a place where you still exist. Where the fundamentals of your soul are still together, in one piece. I hope there’s a place where I can find you again. I hope there’s a cherry tree in the sky where we can sit and sing folk songs together in our crappy patched punk clothes, because neither one of us ever cared if people thought our folk music was cheesy. We just liked it. We liked being alive together and noticing the things that were beautiful. We just liked noticing things that made us happy. Thank you for always being one of them, for me. I plan on seeing you again, so wait for me til then. One love.

Posted 09/04/2019

My buddy and brother Jeremy Craig Phillips would have been 38 this month. I miss you so much. There is a void that just can’t be filled. See you on the other side. You will never be forgotten. You were right….we were all that we had. I hope they know that they are not fooling anybody. I read your note everyday. I understand…love you bro!!!!

Posted 13/04/2019

My first born son Shawn passed away April 8th 2017. He died from Heroin laced with Fentanyl. I miss him so much. He will be forever loved and missed. I never got to say goodbye to my baby. Love you Shawn❤️#forever27

Posted 16/04/2019

Its been 1 year and 7 months since I lost the man who was loved by many and held my heart in his hands. He died of a heroin overdose and none of us knew this was his struggle. I put together what I could and I know he hid it well for at least 3 years. What was knew to his body was the antidepressants he had started taking 3 weeks prior. Sertraline toxicity combined with a benzo and heroin took him. Stigma and prohibition prevented him from reaching out but he was trying in his own way on his own to battle his hurts and overcome his medicine. I wish he could have had another chance… one day… when the government wakes up to archaic nature of the war on drugs… and we chose love and health over fear and shame… people will live and not die alone leaving us to yearn and mourn the loss of their light. I love you handsome. I miss you.

Posted 17/04/2019

My boyfriend died from a heroin overdose two years ago, and I can’t seem to get back to myself. Since the day I got the call saying his dad found him alone in his apartment, I have never been the same. The news shattered me. I broke into a million pieces and I have no clue what its like to feel whole again. I don’t know how to explain the feeling of losing everything within the span of a 3 minute phone call. It goes beyond emotional grief, it’s an ache that you feel physically. It’s a loneliness that haunts you in everything you do. An emptiness that nags at your soul. It doesn’t leave you, it reminds you at times you wouldn’t expect it. Your heart hurts when you least expect it. Driving past a billboard, or listening to lyrics from a song on the radio. They are always there, and it’s hard to decipher whether thats comforting or heart breaking. Time doesn’t wait for you to compartmentalize the grief you feel. Time never stops, even if you beg it too. I used to think it was healing, now it’s a reminder of how long its been since you were here. That makes me sad, angry, but mostly scared. Scared that I’m going to forget you entirely, and I don’t want that… I never want that. Hurt makes the most sense when it’s recent, then makes you feel crazy with the more time that has passed. I can’t even bring myself to visit your grave, to see where you’re resting forever. Because I know its permanently not with me. I don’t love you any less, which is difficult. I love you just the same even if you don’t exist anymore.

Posted 08/04/2019

R.I.P to my awesome uncle matthew. he was an amazing person an we all miss you from the botto of our hearts . fly high free bird

Posted 05/04/2019

My sweet son Jacob was only 21 years old when he lost his life due to an overdose, March 25, 2019. Jacob was so kind, so handsome, and just an amazing kid all around.. I can’t say enough good things about him. Everyone who knew Jacob is absolutely devastated.. reading all of the tributes here to lost loved ones breaks my heart. It’s so unfair, we should not loose our loved ones this way! I love you Jacob Nathan Dougherty. You will NEVER be forgotten! ♥️♥️♥️ -Mom

Posted 06/04/2019

I love you Nathan forever missed 3/10/19

Posted 07/04/2019

Corrine S. ….

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder,
And I don’t think I can look at this the same.

But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face.

I’m here without you, baby,
But you’re still on my lonely mind.
I think about you, baby,
And I dream about you all the time.

I’m here without you, baby,
But you’re still with me in my dreams,
And tonight it’s only you and me, yeah.

The miles just keep rollin’
As the people leave their way to say “Hello”.
I’ve heard this life is overrated,
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I’m here without you, baby,
But you’re still on my lonely mind.
I think about you, baby,
And I dream about you all the time.

I’m here without you, baby,
But you’re still with me in my dreams,
And tonight, girl, it’s only you and me.

…. I’M GOING TO MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH … GOODBYE BBY GIRL….

Posted 08/04/2019

In memory of my sister, Terry Holden 02/01/2019.

Posted 08/04/2019

Lost my Nephew/God Son, we were Best Pals since he learned how to talk, My name was on of the first words he spoke.
I suffered along with him and felt his pain during his 15 year struggle. The times we’d get him clean, the times he relapsed, the withdrawals.
I tried so hard and gave so much just trying to keep him with us. It seemed we made it through to tough dangerous times,
he was strong enough and made 6 months clean time, on his way to sobriety. Then his next relapse was fatal, tricked by the
demon Fentanyl, Losing him in my presence as I fought to bring life back into him.
God I am so broken by his lose, but you will suffer no more.
Miss you Buddy

Posted 03/04/2019

To our beloved Andrae who the sunset for on 3/12/2017 we love and miss you so much. For more than a week after you left us your spirit stayed with me and would not let me sleep. I felt you strong. You shook up all of Uptown (West Oak Lane) Philadelphia with your passing. And it was in your own cold tragedy I believe no doubt you saved a few lives after you by seeing a beautiful spirit gone in such a way. In your own way you made them look. You made them face their own demons through you, 2017 you saved lives when you accidentally let go of your own. You forced everyone rather through shock, sadness, grief and or disbelief to straighten up and fly right. There is not a day that Darius does not miss you or talk about you. He said it best when he pulled the words deep from his heart to address those who threw stones he told them all “Whatever anyone may think of you, you were so much more than what people saw or knew”. Rest well knowing you never have to wear a smile to hide the tears again. We love You Chan Chowder.

Posted 25/03/2019

We would of been celebrating my daughter 16 birthday on March 19, 2019 but sadly I lost her on December 30,2018 to a Fentanyl overdose. My daughter and her father Justin Thomas shared the same birthday but sadly enough we lost her father Justin on February 8,2013 to a heroin overdose. WHY CANT AMERICA WAKE UP FENTANYL IS TAKING OVER OUR STREETS AND KILLING OUR KIDS …WE NEED TO STOP IT BEFORE WE DONT HAVE A FUTURE LEFT…RIP ASHLEY AND JUSTIN I miss u both so very much….love mom

Posted 30/03/2019

Dear JR my sweet boy,

I miss you, it’s been 5 weeks tomorrow. Know you were loved by SO many. You had a good heart, sweet kind disposition. I will forever miss you, until we meet again…love mom

Posted 31/03/2019

My best friend Matt passed away 5 years ago. We were best friends, we couldn’t live together. I enabled him and he took me on the rides with him. We had lots of laughs, crys and everything in between. I miss him, I miss hearing him laugh. I miss him calling me “beautiful” when he called. He had so much energy and life. I believe cocaine took his life. His heart just gave out. Rest in Peace. I will see you in heaven. God Bless…D

Posted 01/04/2019

My brother-in-law, David Adam Massey, gone too soon! My sister, Marsha Ann Perkins/Massey, grieved u till she was laid with u, which lead to my Momma, JoAnn Perkins/Suarez, grieving herself numb over u… Now I’m left here all alone, numbing each & every day till I can be with u all again… Life is crazy short, and most people do not understand just how crippling and damaging and life shattering the loss of a loved one truly is! What’s left of my broken heart goes out to all of u who got left here with out them…our day will come, and when that happens, we will realize that this life on earth was just a breath, so quick, so short, so hurtful… find love in the ones who don’t know how to love themselves any more! 😵🤗😘

Posted 01/04/2019

I will love you & hold you forever Twin ❤️ It’s okay, your free now. I wish you peace forever. You deserved the sky! The universe! You deserve your wings! Misunderstandings can truly blind u from the truth. I am so happy to know your truth. Thank you for being as strong as long as you possibly could.

Forever Twin 🤞🏾 I love you !

Posted 02/04/2019

To my son who lost his battle with drugs on October 4, 2016.

Daniel C. Henry
April 27, 1981 – October 4, 2016

I think of you everyday and feel a tremendous loss. My love couldn’t save you.

Posted 25/03/2019

My sister-in-law Kayla recently lost her brother Roy Edward Kirchner Who overdosed on heroin technically It was fentanyl .Among the more than 70,200 drug overdose deaths estimated in 2017, the sharpest increase occurred among deaths related to fentanyl .
Drug overdose deaths involving heroin rose from 1,960 in 1999 to 15,482 .
What is wrong with this picture the only way you can get fentanyl is by prescription and look at the increase in deaths. Roy was 33 his son will never know who he is and his Mother and 2 Sisters will never forget. He had no idea he had fentanyl or he wouldn’t have taken it so please let’s not be blind to the fact doctors who prescribed and people who are creating this drug should be arrested & put a stop to all the loved ones dead due to careless Doctors.
Roy you will never be forgotten <3

Posted 16/03/2019

In memory of my friend Sean Hanagan. Sean and I were in the same sober house. He died at the age of 26 after a long battle against drugs. Sean left behind a 5 year old son, Brody.
R.I.P. Sean
August 26, 1986 – March 30, 2013

Posted 20/03/2019

My friend Joe died after long battle with substance abuse. At the time of his death Joe was a newlywed.
Joseph Jennings
March 11, 1969-December 29, 2014
R.I.P. Joe
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/148204635/joseph-peter-jennings

Posted 20/03/2019

My friend Sean and I were in the same sober house. He was one who would give the shirt off of his back to a family member or friend in need. I got to know Sean well. He helped me accept my problems and move on with my life. A few weeks before he died Sean gave me his CDs, which he’d down loaded. Sean simply said that he wanted me to have them. It was if he knew he might not make it. Unbeknownst to me Sean relapsed. He died of an overdose. He had everything going for him. A 5 year old son who adored him, a wonderful family. A good job. At 26 his life was over. Sean Hanagan August 26, 1986-March 30, 2013 R.I.P. Sean. https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/148201594/sean-patrick-hanagan

Posted 20/03/2019

My friend Rob was a good guy. He had a positive attitude and got the most out of life. He was very active in the program. Rob worked hard with his sponsor. He had some many plans for the future. Four days before his death Rob did a commitment. By all appearance he was doing well. At 37 his life was over. Rob never realized how many people he helped out. He’s at peace now.
Mark “Rob” Brown> October 12, 1977-February 26, 2015 R.I.P. Rob
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/148212110/robert-mark-brown

Posted 20/03/2019

On the night of March 14, 2015 my world suffered a tremendous tragedy. Not only my world but those who deeply adored you. Andrew MacNiven, only 24 years old robbed of his beautiful life by the greatest tool the devil ever had, HEROIN. Andrew stood out. He brought smile after smile to those he crossed paths with- I’ve never seen a smile so huge! His green eyes were always glowing. Andrew was so beautiful that the first time I saw him he caught my eye but I got scared and had to look away only to look back again. The first night we talked on the phone I was laying on this park bench looking up at the stars. I remember feeling so childlike. It didn’t take long at all for me to fall in love with you. At that time I had very little. My life was a little broken. I had you and that was all I needed. The more time without you, the more I miss you. I can’t help but wonder if I saw you earlier that day if it would have changed anything. If it could have changed your story. It could have but for how long? I just wish your story didn’t end this way. We all die but like this? I will never have all the answers. But what I do know is what happened to you should have never happened. You would have went on to do many more great things. I do believe you’re a star in heaven and any worries, anxiety or depression is completely lifted from you. I do believe you’re happy there but I just miss you here. You left a lasting impression with me and I’m lucky to have been one of the many people you left your spark with. My memories of us are imprinted on my heart forever and I am forever changed. Thanks for coming up to me that night. This tribute is not only for Andrew but for the rest who have been robbed of their lives due to this disease. May your souls rest in peace. HOPE OVER EVERYTHING. 💜

3/19/19

Posted 20/03/2019

Please keep in memory my loving husband Robert Luna Estrada. Born March 8th 1973 and passed away on March 8th 2019. He was overdosed with Fentanyl. He died on his birthday and will be loved and missed by everyone. If the people he was with had known to watch over him or how to tell the signs….he would possibly be here today. EDUCATION ON OVERDOSE IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT AND MUST BE ADVOCATED IMMEDIATELY.

Posted 20/03/2019

Dan. I love you. I hope we see each other again in heaven. You know how hurt I am I forgive I know you didn’t do that just to hurt me. Death is gods business. I feel guilty. I didn’t call an ambulance or didn’t try to stop
You from leaving You were important to me. I can’t replace you and I just hardly have the will to move on . You were everything to me. I was proud to be seen with. I always I was o er my head. Please forgive for enabling or not being a better example or more tolerant I love you
David Little Rock

Posted 13/03/2019

Jordan, God I miss you so. Not a day goes by you don’t cross my mind many times. I have put flowers on your grave, your Mom or Dad ( or both) left the vase on your headstone empty and maybe it was so I could put flowers there as there wasn’t room to do so this winter and I laid them at your headstone. I like to think this is the case. I know you’re not there but it is a place I can come visit and pay my respects to a Dear Friend I miss so much. Of course I talk to you everywhere!!! I regret you leaving so soon buddy, your life had just begun. I regret not being a better friend, maybe had I shown tough love things may have turned out differently, but then again we may not have been friends…Such a thin line between helping someone and enabling them exist. And that line gets crossed and sadly was crossed. I wish you peace my friend, comfort for your family. I can’t imagine what they’ve been through, just what this has done to me. Rest in God’s love my friend. Give Mom a hug for me and tell her I love her and miss her and tell her to do the same for you!!! I love you Jordan. Till next then, little more…
Mick

Posted 14/03/2019

Please, rest easy L.
Someone do something about this awful drug overdose epidemic. It’ll affect you soon if it hasn’t.

Posted 12/03/2019

James Ryan Woods. 24 April 1981 – 16 June 2016.
my number 1 son, my boy, my Ryan.
It’s been 1000 days since I last saw my son, we shared some chinese food 1000 days ago and I heard his voice for the last time. , I told him I loved him very much for the last time 1000 days ago, then I heard him snoring and knew he was asleep in the room next to me 1000 days ago. Then 1000 days ago he got up and left this house without waking me, and it’s been 1000 days since I knew he wasn’t coming back. 1000 days without my son, 1000 days of worry, confusion and a lot of pain. 1000 days has felt like 1000 years.

Posted 04/03/2019

I work at The Syringe Exchange here in Louisville, Kentucky and we have lost many of our “family” members. They will forever remain in our hearts!

Posted 05/03/2019

In tribute of my son, Michael. Forever 25. 12/2/93 – 12/9/18

Posted 06/03/2019

Joshua J. Payne
03/02/81 – 03/09/03
Forever 22
Louisiana

Posted 06/03/2019

Nicklaus Maximillian Ogborne
September 1990 – August 2018

Posted 06/03/2019

TO MY FIRST LOVE EDDIE, I ALWAYS WILL REMEMBER ALL THE CONCERTS WE WENT TO ALL THOSE DAYS WE SPENT TOGETHER ESPECIALLY WHEN OUR SON WAS BORN EVERY DAY ITS A BRAND NEW START BUT MY PAIN OF LOSING YOU JUNE 16 2018 WAS THE WORST DAY ESPECIALLY WHEN I GOT THE PHONE CALL ON JULY 14TH 2018 SAYING YOU HAD DIED YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED AND MISSED BY EVERY ONE ESPECIALLY ME YOU JUST WASN’T ONLY MY FIRST LOVE MY HUSBAND MY BEST FRIEND AND IT HURTS THAT U ARE NO LONGER HERE EVERY DAY I LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE AND CRY BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO MUCH YOU HELPED ME IN SO MANY WAYS BECAUSE OF YOU I HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU YESTERDAY WAS OUR SONS 24TH BIRTHDAY EDDIE I LOVE YOU ALWAYS MISSED AND LOVED BY EVERY ONE ESPECIALLY ME YOUR LOVING WIFE ALWAYS AND FOR EVER RUTHANN

Posted 06/03/2019

My son Caine Lost his life to an overdose on 6/20/18. He was loved by many. Caine was a good student, a junior Olympic athlete, a college educated man, an amazing soccer goal keeper, and he was so connected to his family and friends. Be gave a strong handshake and looked you in the eye. Caines life with heroin was short lived. His life is what made me the person I am. I want to give tribute to my son for teaching me many lessons in life. Those lessons continue with a hole in my heart.

Posted 06/03/2019

In loving memory of my son Lenny III.
Be at peace. You are loved by many.
Dad

Posted 07/03/2019

I would like to commemorate Jerminda Cox who lost her 30 year struggle with addiction in the receiving room of a prison in August 2017.

South Philadelphia

Posted 07/03/2019

Dear Anthony , i miss you so much, not a day goes by that i’m not thinking of you and the great times we had together . You may not be here with me but the memories i have with you will never go away ….love & miss you

Posted 07/03/2019

In Loving Memory
Scott Brandon Townley
April 7, 1976 – August 3, 2018

Posted 07/03/2019

Daniel Costello. Our beautiful 24 year old son …..Loving,caring,compassionate, fun-loving, and so missed by his mother and father. We wait patiently for the day the Lord Jesus reunites us all again. We love you Danny. <3

Posted 07/03/2019

Torae we love you and miss you.

Posted 07/03/2019

A year ago we found you on your bedroom floor. We were a family of four, now a ship wreck of three just clinging to the debris left behind and drifting. Our son was a strong, capable, intelligent, hardworking, kind and compassionate man. He was prescribed pills after a surgery in high school and found out he could buy more at school. Fast forward six years and two stays in rehab, what would have been a simple relapse killed him due to fentanyl. He did not want to die. We would have done anything to keep him alive and help him get better. He had everything to live for. Cole 7 27 94 – 3 9 18

Posted 08/03/2019

Rest easy Baby Boy. Your struggle is over. My sweet forever love.

Posted 01/03/2019

In Memory of my son Anthony 26..was Super Sweet.. Loving..Talented..It’s been 6 months & I’m still devastated…Will be Forever…His mass was on August 31..which to me is a sign I need to Advocate..

Posted 28/02/2019

Monica, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you. I miss you so much it hurts. Till we meet again my friend.
12/13/1967 – 05/09/2015

Watch over my baby boy up in heaven.. xo RIP

Posted 27/02/2019

Matt-we miss you every single day and will never fully recover losing you so suddenly and way too soon. You had so much life left to live and so much left to offer. Your daughter has not been able to come to terms with losing you and is such a sad little girl who misses her daddy. I’m so sorry I didn’t help you more and made your life harder in some ways. You were my best friend. We love you Matty.

Posted 27/02/2019

Boy did you ever fight hard this past year with your struggles. You made Me so very proud. You always worried about disappointing me. And I constantly reassured you that you were my hero. Never a disappointment. I pray in my heart that you believed that before you died. You gave such a valiant effort mike😥How I wish I could have taken away all the pain in your heart. I was always your biggest cheerleader. And when you were approaching 5 months clean we were all so excited and proud. You once said that you were too smart to overdose. That you knew what you could handle 😭we would argue about that. And no one is smarter than the evil of heroin 😡Gosh I’m so mad that the evil of addiction took over your clean and sober brain for the last and final time. It’s just not fair. My worst nightmare came true when I got that dreaded call at work. I raced home trying to convince myself that they had saved you with Narcan. I still don’t think I truly believe you’re gone. It’s only been 16 days. And my pain is raw. It’ll never go away. You were like a son to me. I took care of you. I packed your lunch and left you little notes. I always told you to make good choices every single time you walked out the door. The only peace I have is that you didn’t suffer in your death. But you suffered in your life 😥and I thank god that you are now at peace. You will always hold a special place in my heart. We thought about selling the house because of the traumatic memories. But now we want to stay because of all the living memories we have of you. I will always hear you running up and down the steps with your keys jingling on your belt loop. I’ll always hear the door open as you say hi mum!! I can’t sell the house you called your home. I just can’t. I know heaven gained a very handsome angel with a killer smile I know you are lighting up heaven with it, as you skateboard on the streets of gold. I’ll be seeing you again my beautiful boy. Now you don’t have to fight the demons to make good choices, but I have to say it anyway. Make good choices my sweet boy. Mike Forever 26.😭 RIP 2-4-19 🙏🙏🙏

Posted 21/02/2019

My darling Christin Green who would be thirty years old this Sunday coming up died of a Fentanyl overdose 2 years ago March 7, 2019. I used to blame myself everyday for her death but how can i blame myself when i didn’t know she was using heroin to begin with. I think of you everyday and miss you more………..they say with time it gets easier but so far that hasn’t happened. Rest in my peace my sweet first born child and keep watching down over your two beautiful daughters (one which i am now raising).

Posted 26/02/2019

In loving memory of my daughter Amber who died from an overdose on February 19th 2014 just 13 days after her 24th Birthday. You are forever missed and loved on this earth.I keep my faith in knowing that this is just temporary thing and I will see you again one day

Posted 25/02/2019

In Loving memory of my Dear son Stevie Hardy. He left this world on June 16, 2018. I Love and miss him so much.

Posted 25/02/2019

Jordan, January 23,1019 marked a year you’ve been in Heaven. I placed flowers on your grave that cold day. I noticed the chime I had hung from the tree above your headstone chimed all the time I was there talking with you and all the while II walked to my car. ” I hear you ” I called to you. I miss you as much as the day you left buddy. Does the sadness ever go away? I don’t think so, Not This Time. I see a nice car and think… ” Jordan might be driving one of these now if ” The unfairness of it. But life isn’t fair and this I know too well. I am thankful I knew you, for the time we had my friend. Most of all I am thankful you no longer have to suffer my friend. ‘Till we meet again, I love you more than there are stars. little more…
Mick

Posted 19/02/2019

In memory of my son, Louis Michael DeBacco (36), a light in the darkness, who was taken home on 4-26-2017. Rest my son. Grief and sorrow make a person weak and strong at the same time.

I love you,

Erin (Mom) and Lauren (Sister)

Posted 22/02/2019

My only sibling died of an overdose in March 2004. It will be 15 years in 2019. It started so innocently 20 years before from a dislocated thumb. Please ALL be aware how easily it begins and can happen to anyone especially those with an addictive personality. This strongest weakness was used by the adversary of us all to grab hold of my sibling’s life and finally took it. It started with #3s and ended with everything that contained opiates including cough syrup. My sibling first obtained it legally and in the end obtained it all illegally. An overdose death was something I was told would never happen to me because “I am careful.” It is not just the physical part that is hard, it’s the psychological part that is even harder. These are our loved ones, love them always, love comes first over any imperfection we have. They are of worth of infinite worth. The overdose spray was not available then like it is now, please have it on hand. I know I will see PHB again only without this addiction. My sibling is now reunited with our father who died in 1970, our mother and the dear grandmother who loved us both. God be with you ’til we meet again ~ from your loving sister

Posted 16/02/2019

To my mom, I miss you so much and my heart is broken to pieces. I can’t believe you’re gone, you were so so beautiful and amazing. You are irreplaceable and me and your other 2 baby girls (4 and 5 years old) and family are so heart broken, we love you and my heart hurts so bad, my chest feels the 1000 ibs weighing on it, and it’s even hard to eat. I love you mommy, I always will and I will see you when my time comes. Rest in piece momma 2-12-19

Posted 15/02/2019

My son, My baby, 26… I swear I didn’t know…. We were laughing and talking.. 2 hours later florida state police.. David’s dead.. Nightmare begins.. And I still haven’t woken from it.. Flight to maine.. See my baby, cold,just wake up please.. Back home to Florida… Life goes on… But I just keep waiting for your call.. Text.. Anything… Your sister took some of your ashes to Peru.. I know you loved to travel… Now your in heaven.. No pain.. No demands. Love u boo

Posted 10/02/2019

In loving Memory
Nicklaus Maximilian Ogborne
September 1990 – August 2018

Posted 07/02/2019

In memory of my lovely son Ryan, forever 24. Took ectasy at a rave for the first time the night before Mothers day 2018, the next thing I know the police are knocking on my door at 6am Mothers day. After 4 long days in intensive care, Ryan sadly lost his life and to say the family he has left behind are devastated is an understatement. We miss him every single day and I will grieve for him for the rest of my life.

Posted 06/02/2019

My soul sister Valerie. I love and miss you so much. You had such a hard life and then nine sober years. You went to college, you helped other people, you got knocked down and got up again until you could not. I hate the disease , I will always love you.

My fiance, Mike, passed away this afternoon from a heroin overdose. He was an addict for 18 years but was getting clean again. He was my everything and I miss him so much!!!

In honor of my first born child, my only daughter, Lauren Taylor. Our hearts are broken and always will be. We miss you so much. We long to hear your giggle and see your happy smile. Taylor was a happy, smart, beautiful young woman that loved her brother and was blessed to have a large family that supported her thru out her young life. No one ever deserves to battle this horrible addiction. No one deserves to die from this horrible disease. Addiction can take everything from a person, from the family and friends, and ultimately, in some cases, takes their life. Taylor didn’t deserve to die this way. She overdosed only once. We didn’t see it coming and were not prepared. I (we) will always wonder if we could of saved her. What could we have done differently. We pray for strength and pray for the many families going thru this type of loss of a loved one. It’s such a huge loss

My beautiful seester. You’ve been gone for 15 days. I can’t believe it. I don’t know how I will be able to live everyday of my life without you (I feel selfish for that statement). Your 5 beautiful children and your beautiful little grand daughter……they will miss you forever. You were only 42. I read so many of these Tributes that said that their loved one had been clean/sober and slipped. My seester had 18 months clean. She had a moment of weakness. That moment will never take away how proud I am of you. You were such a fighter. I am proud that I was able to fight along side with you. I will do everything I can to remind your babies of who you were. I will do everything I can to hug and kiss your dad and our mom as often as possible. I will push through this pain and fear and anger and lonliness so that I can be there for your beautiful grand baby. I love you seester. More than words can explain. <3

In memory of my beautiful daughter Caroline who passed away to a drugs overdose on 5th November 2018 , she was 31 years old and had been clean for a good 3 years up to her dad passing away Dec 2017. This seemed to be the catalyst for her demise . I feel absolutely devastated and so does her sister , we are still struggling to comprehend that we will never see her again or hear her chatty voice. She was always such a chatty optimist and our lives without her will never be the same again. R.I.P Caroline I pray that you are with the angels now.

Posted 09/01/2019

I lost my son this Christmas morning. He was clean for 10 months, had good job, car , apartment. We dont know why he gave in to his addiction. We will always love him and miss him.

Posted 06/01/2019

Lost my brother Paul October 21st 2006 to a cocaine overdose
Lost my brother James April 13th 2018 to a heroine overdose
I think of you both every day

Posted 03/01/2019

This is for my daughter Lindsay. Lost you Thanksgiving day this year. My heart is broken. I know you fought this battle for several years. My baby girl your battle is now over and I pray that there is no more unhappiness for you. Read one of the last msgs in your phone saying how you hated dope. Love you. I will see you on the other side my lil girl. Momma

Posted 31/12/2018

My boyfriend Keith passed away almost one year ago on January 6th, 2018 to a heroin overdose. Even though it feels like it happened yesterday, I also feel like I’ve lived a million lifetimes without him. He was my soulmate, my entire world in so many ways. Recently divorced, he’d shown me a love I never knew existed. We knew each other since middle school, but had reconnected after twenty some odd years on Facebook just when I’d needed him. He was always this charismatic character, witty, funnier than anyone I’d ever come by. I can honestly say he was one of God’s rare gifts to this earth—he just didn’t know it. I miss him more as each day passes, am actually starting to wonder if this pain will ever subside. My methadone counselor says I’m going through a horrendous case of survivors guilt. Though we used together, we didn’t use together that night. I was there, woke up to him slumped over on my back, me screaming as I tried to wake him up, but he was already gone by the time the paramedics showed up. Maybe that’s why I’m feeling like this. Maybe if I had used with him that night it’d be him here writing about me and not me writing about him. At least that’s the way it should’ve been. It shouldn’t have been him. He had too much to live for. Me? Without him, I’m nothing, the reason for me still being here an unknown. I miss you, bibbi. I’ll be clean one year in February. I don’t care about the naysayers who claim I’m not clean because I’m on the methadone program. Like my counselor says “If not you wouldn’t be here.” Sometimes I don’t know how to feel about that because I don’t want to do life anymore if you’re not here with me in it. Still, and I’m not sure what it is, I keep treading on. I’d like to think it’s you giving me a little push, telling me that when it’s my time we’ll be together again. Anyway, I love you, Keith, always have, always will. You filled 18 months of my life with such joy, so much laughter, and a happiness I never knew existed, you’ll always remain my forever, eternity love. Until we meet again, bibbi, I’ll carry you in my heart and soul until it’s me whom takes my very last breath…

Posted 31/12/2018

Morsa Muro Spidle. I miss you. Not a day goes by i dont think about the good times we shared. I tried so hard to help you but the heroin got the best of you . I promise i will take care of the kids. You go and rest in peace.

Posted 01/01/2019

Clayton 1972- Dec 18, 2018
You suffered with depression and drug addiction for the last 20 yrs. Last year you got into a bran new apt complex and for the first time in years you had a roof over your head, food in the fridge and seemed to be doing so well. Last Christmas was wonderful as our little family all got together at your place to celebrate. I was thanking God every night for that year, it was truly a miracle. It was so comforting to know you were living a normal life. Chris and I wanted to drive down last March for my birthday to celebrate with you and your brother , but you had moved out and gone back to your old life. You told me when I spoke with you a couple of weeks ago that you were living with a friend and at that time we made plans for Xmas. You had a court date Dec 18 up here so Chris and I were expecting you for dinner , instead the police arrived with the news that your body was found in a tent early that afternoon. The temperature the night before was -18. I feel that had I been educated about addiction and been more supportive you wold still be with us. Instead I believe that addiction was about just making your mind up not to use. I am so sorry that I will never have the opportunity to make this up to you and tell you how very much I love you.

Posted 26/12/2018

My brothers both passed from addiction. Roger from liver failure and Greg nov 9 2018 And Dad from Liver in February 2018 all 3 in 3 yrs. I read everyone’s posts and seems like a lot of accidents overdosed and on purpose. Im stuck wondering which his was. He was clean right before and said he felt great that happens and passes fast then to use. Im on Methadone trying to stay pain pill free almost 18 yrs and still being told im replacing one for another omg well I can say IM ALIVE AND GRATEFUL FOR MY PROGRAM God Im thankful for the mercury you’ve shown me. Its Gregs birthday Roger’s birthday was 10th and Im just missing all of you

Posted 13/12/2018

My best friend died August 14, 2018. She started using in February or March of 2018. She didnt struggle long, but she did struggle. She was depressed and trying to cover up the pain she was feeling. I miss her dearly. She was an amazing friend and person. So many people at her funeral. She was so loved but didn’t feel it. She was a gift to anyone who met her.

Posted 12/12/2018

My father John Thomas Reilly lost his life to an overdose of opioids. He struggled with addiction, and was in South Florida at the time when the incident happened. My family was hurt by his death, but I continue to fight for awareness.
John Thomas Reilly
DOD April 7, 2017

Posted 07/12/2018

August 31, 1990 – May 29, 2018
Joseph is our only son, our first born, died of an accidental overdose. Ironic how I have come to learn National Overdose Day is his actual birthday. His presence in life shined so bright I can still feel him, even though he is no longer in this living world. I miss you Joseph, we all miss you, we find strength every day through you living so strong in our hearts. The world became quieter when you left, but I have no doubt heaven is definitely much louder! Life is so different without you. Dad and I, your lil sisters, your baby niece, family & all your friends, we all love and miss you so much. We are forever a team my beautiful son.

Posted 07/12/2018

I lost my only sibling, John Page on January 29, 2016. He died of lethal combination of heroin and benzodiazapine. John will forever be missed.

Posted 05/12/2018

Codey was clean for over a year when he intentionally overdosed and died January 20, 2017. He saved me, broke my door down before I could pull the trigger.

Posted 08/11/2018

Nico. I don’t know if you ever really knew, or believed how much you were loved, or how proud we were of your brave attempts to battle such a hard addiction. Each attempt to get clean was a testimony of your gallant spirit to overcome, and not a sign of failure. Please know that! You will ever be in our hearts and sorely missed. I grieve the future things that should have been, but now will never be as each season passes. We who are left here without you will never be able to fathom the happiness of any occasion without your presence. I also grieve for the things in your life that you so longed for in your heart, and struggled to obtain that will never come to pass. I believe by God’s mercy you were not alone when you breathed your last breath. Be at peace now sweet, kind, sensitive, considerate Nico. Your goodness was no match for the ugliness of the substance that took you. Remember what I wrote to you in your Bible. You are so loved.

Posted 27/11/2018

Jordan Spencer Clark #22forever…1/23/2018 I miss you so Much my friend. Not a day goes by I don’t think of you.
I want you to know that I am so very thankful for the short time you came into my life ( 9 months). It was a life time crammed into that short span of time for sure. Jordan I wish you Peace and Joy and rest from the struggles that hounded you here on this earth. I wish I could have helped you in some way, but feel I fell short. Know that I Love you Jordan and that I always will!!
Till we meet again… Give my Mom a hug for me and tell her I love her and tell her to give you a hug and tell you I love you !!!
Til next then, little more…
Mick

Posted 27/11/2018

To my amazing big brother, Kenneth Dupree, who recently passed on October 30th. I still haven’t accepted it but I know he’s no longer suffering and I’ll miss him so much.

Posted 26/11/2018

Remembering my number one son, my Ryan, my boy, forever 35
24 April 1981 – 16 June 2016
How I do miss you son – I’ll miss you forever but love you far longer than that,
mum. xxxxx

Posted 17/11/2018

Will Brennan, you will always be my bestfriend, pledge brother, and brother for life. Our pledge class still always talks about you every day remembering all of the great memories you blessed us with. I love you brother, rest easy. We will all see eachother again.

Posted 08/11/2018

When you lose your parents you’re an orphan. When you lose your spouse you are widowed. When you lose your child you are…? There’s no word for that. I love you and miss you every single day, Brian 💜

Posted 08/11/2018

I lost a husband to heroin overdose someone that I loved very much someone that I can honestly say was the first person that I could say I actually was in love with this drug took his life, took him away from his beautiful children that loved him so much and his grandchildren ,this is an awful drug!!.. so to my husband even though I wasn’t with you sad we broke up before you left this earth know
I love you and I always did love you .. I’m sorry that this drug took away our marriage and took away your life maybe now you can rest in peace and not fight that urge that killed u …I love you….I will miss u..

Posted 10/11/2018

My beautiful son Matthew was found dead on August 27,2016 Drugs did not define him at all. He was a beautiful son with a future that would of been bright. He was the kind of young man that gave with his whole heart and never asked for much in return. He would come to me late at night and say Momma I cant do it all. I would tell him every time to stop worrying about what others said and thought about him. He had nothing to prove. He needed help and the ones who were supposed to protect him didn’t they fed his habit and had the mentality its better behind closed doors and yet if just one person close to him would of said something he’d be here today .I love him and miss him every single moment and it kills me he lay dead alone for over 12 -14 hours and I couldn’t hold him or see him . This disease didn’t just take his life it took mine forever and all the hate and things afterwards just made his death harder to bear. Rest in peace my beautiful Matty I love you Love Mamma

Posted 28/08/2018

Angelo Melvin, Husband, Father, Son, Brother. Sweet Soul left us after a relapse battle in September 1, 2017. 48 years old . We miss you.

Posted 29/08/2018

Adam Joshua, 1977 – 2015, my little brother, heroin overdose. He had a great voice, he was a big teddy bear, he loved to eat and cook, he loved the Grateful Dead, he was a sweet uncle, and a pain in the ass, and i loved him.

Posted 01/09/2018

Scottie,
My brother. You were such a beautiful man with a bright smile and squinty eyes. Your big bear hugs brought me so much security and warmth during the times we held each other. I wish I could have a million more of those hugs and be able to hear your laugh or see your smile instead of listening to videos and looking through pictures.
Your death haunts me daily. The grief and thoughts of what could have been done and said. What more could we have done. I have never seen someone fight addiction as hard as you did and you did it all for your family. I wish you would’ve stayed away from this town; part of me thinks you would still be here if you did.
It has been less than a year since you left us but it feels like a lifetime. I ache. Tonight I fell to the ground, wondering if you felt all the pain when you left this world. Were you scared? Were you at peace? Did you think about all of us who loved you?
I am so proud of what you overcame when you were here and what mark you left in this world. Your daughter misses you. She is getting so big and looks more and more like you every day. I love you, Scott. I miss you like hell.

Posted 24/09/2018

Matthew,
My heart still hurts every day since you went to heaven my sweet son. I love and miss you so much!
All my love,
Muszzi MaMa

Posted 09/10/2018

Kevin. 11/9/1994 – 9/24/2018. Baby Brother we loved you very much. You needed us and we didn’t see it. Cocaine and alcohol took you that morning. You had soo much to live for still.

Posted 20/10/2018

Being in Recovery & when I was in my active addiction, unfortunately one of the harsh realities is losing people you’ve grown close to to overdose. I lost a very special person in 2017. An amazingly caring, funny, kind person. I was able to attend his 1 yr celebration of life get together that his family held (I drove from CA to Miss.) After that trip I made the decision to retire from my profession of 34 yrs (hairstylist) & devote my energy towards working in the Recovery field. My friend is greatly missed each & every day but I know he is at peace & watching over his friends & loved ones. Count ’em up Jeremy!!

Posted 22/10/2018

I miss you a lot dad. It has been almost 4 years since you passed and each day gets easier knowing you’re watching over me and protecting me. Thank you for that. I love you very much best friend. Goodnight 💤

Posted 23/10/2018

Honoring my son, Trevor, who turned 25 on August 30th, and died of a drug overdose on October 9th. He had just completed 40 days of inpatient rehab, and was 2 weeks clean after that. The end was a result of many years of battling drug addiction and mental health issues. He was bright and a musical genius. Gone too soon. We know we will see him again , he knew The Lord. That is our hope of eternal life, it is just hard knowing we will never see him this side of eternity.

Posted 24/10/2018

Tiffany Gallagher we love and miss you like crazy your grandmother charlotte will be broken hearted to the end of time your 5 sisters and father are trying to go on in this life with out you here qe miss you

Posted 30/10/2018

Anthony, you will be with us forever. Miss you like crazy bud. Always love you. Not a day goes by that we don’t think of you. I am so sorry that it happened so soon. Rest In Peace.
June 18, 1996 – June 8, 2017.

Posted 31/10/2018

Malcolm James McCormick aka MAC MILLER
Rest in Peace – September 7, 2018
Thank you for your music and your carefree spirit!
Many of us have never met you, but we all deeply appreciated your creativity.
You will forever be loved and you’re always with us through your music.
Fly high!

Posted 02/11/2018

One week ago I lost my beautiful son to a heroin overdose. He was a smart, kind, and loving young man. He fought a long hard battle against this disease and I’m so proud of him for his effort. My life will never be same. I miss him so.

Posted 03/11/2018

TO MY SON KYLE. 4/24/93 – 4/18/17. IT HAS ONLY BEEN A YR AND A HALF BUT IT SEEMS LIKE A LIFETIME SINCE YOU WERE HERE. I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND THE THOUGHT THAT YOU DIED ALONE BREAKS MY HEART. CORONER SAYS YOU DID NOT KNOW YOU WERE DYING BUT DO THEY REALLY KNOW. YOU GAVE IT A GOOD FIGHT BUT THE ADDICTION WAS JUST TO STRONG. I MISS YOU EVERY DAY AND THE IDEA OF NOT SEEING YOU WHEN I WALK IN THE DOOR EVER AGAIN JUST BREAKS MY HEART. I KNOW I WILL SEE YOU IN HEAVEN ONE DAY BUT I WANT YOU HERE WITH ME. PARENTS ARE SUPPOSED TO DIE FIRST. LOVE YOU AND A DAY DOES NOT GO BY THAT YOU ARE NOT IN MY THOUGHTS. MOM

Posted 04/11/2018

To my oldest son,, that left me in flesh but never in heart and soul. Born Jan. 23rd 1983. Lost him on Aug.1st 2017. Our favorite quote always was “Always your Mother, forever your friend”. Love you with all my heart Dan. Love Mom

Posted 07/11/2018

to my ex husband not really sure what to say other than you will be missed by your children and my self I will always love you.. you will be remembered always in every Lake and in every Hawk that I see . I will always hate that drug that destroyed our marriage rest in peace baby..

Posted 07/11/2018

Brother, I miss you so much, I miss your love, your hugs, your voice, your protection I miss everything about you. I don’t know how to continue life without you. I’ve lost control of my life. I know I must continue, and I try, but then I remember you’re really gone, and I lose it. I feel Empty. Numb. Shocked. Crazy. Angry. Paralyzed. I look at your pictures and it confirms that I will never physically see or touch you again and I just can’t take it. Since you passed I hate Wednesdays, because we found you on a Wednesday. Wednesdays are the hardest for me, It’s hard to get out of bed. I relive each moment leading up to finding out you had passed. I remember getting that call that you might be dead in your apartment. I remember driving to your apartment. I remember the cop’s blocking us from entering your apartment while they broke your door down. I remember our sisters faces as the cops broke down the door. I remember the cop walking out of your apartment and saying something into his radio and our older sister just crying and screaming and asking the cop “tell me if my brother is dead” the cop told us “I’m sorry but yes your brother passed” I remember our little sister’s cry as soon as we heard those words come out of his mouth. I was in complete shock. I went crazy. We all did. I remember mommy’s cries when she arrived at your apartment. I never imagined seeing you in a body bag let alone hugging you in one. I can’t believe you’re really gone. I knew I was going to lose you but not like this, not over an overdose, I mean how bro, and why… Why the fuck would you take that shit. Were you that lonely…Were you in that much pain….I’m sorry I didn’t help you IM SORRY FORGIVE ME. I wasn’t there when you needed me most and you died all alone in your apartment. I’m sorry I was too busy in my fucking career, a career that now doesn’t mean shit because you’re not here. I don’t care about becoming an attorney anymore. What for.. You’re not here anymore. I can’t make you proud anymore brother. I’m sorry I didn’t pay closer attention to you. I should’ve. You reached out to me; you wanted to go to church with me but we never got to go together. I should of followed up more. I should of persisted more. I remember you once said you didn’t want to die alone and that’s how you died. Oh that hurts me so much. I’m sorry brother. It breaks my heart. How I wish you could of called me or I should of called you that night. I should of but I was so busy with my fucking life, I hate myself. I wasn’t there for you. I’m left with so many unanswered questions, what were your final thoughts, did you think of us, were you scared, did you suffer, are you with god, can you see me, are you at peace now, will I get to see you again, did you know how mush I truly loved you. What kills me is that you must of felt so lonely brother. Although, you’ll never read this, just know that we loved you and always will. I listen to the oldie songs we used to hear together and it takes me right back to when we use to sit in my car and listen to them together and talk for hours of everything and anything. Brother I’m sorry your ending had to be like this. Just know that I always loved you. How I wish your life would have been different. I wish you would have enjoyed your life more, I know our childhood was filled with hardships and so was your adult life. I know you were trying very hard to find your way and be the best you could be, and you were but for some reason God chose to take you. I know you’re not suffering anymore in this cruel world. I just wish you knew how much you were truly loved. Brother I will never understand your unexpected passing; I just know that I was not prepared to lose you. I miss you every day. You’re in my mind every day in everything I do. I don’t know how to continue life without you brother; life just doesn’t make sense without you. My life will never be the same without you. You literally took a piece of me with you. Thank you for leaving us a piece of you, it makes us feel a bit better when I see our nieces and nephews because I see you in them and I kiss and hug them and I can feel you. I promise to love and protect them as you would brother. I will forever be their advocate and will make sure they are loved. I LOVE YOU BIG BROTHER, LOVE YOUR LITTLE SISTER. (Love you bro, love you sis).

Posted 02/11/2018

My precious daughter Marci, I am so sorry I wasn’t with you when you were dying. I have so many questions about your death that I’ll never get answered. Your death was devastating. One of the sorrows that hurt me most is that you were around people that didn’t love you. I wish I could have been there to hold you and tell you how beautiful you are and how much I love you. You should have never moved into that evil town and I believe you would still be here. I miss you so very much. My heart is so broken We all love and miss you deeply. Love, your Mom

Posted 16/10/2018

Matthew Ray,
My heart still hurts every day since you went to heaven my sweet son. I love and miss you so much!
All my love,
Muszzi MaMa

Posted 09/10/2018

Brenda & kaylee, my sisters and best friends, I miss you both more than words could describe and will be counting down the days until I can see you again. I love you both so much.

Posted 09/10/2018

My precious son Kurtis (William Rock) gone too soon at 27 yrs old on Mar.25/2018. It still seems like yesterday; you were doing so well and we had such good times together and positive future to look forward to. You were caring, kind, loving and so helpful to me, our family, children and animals. You were desperately reaching out to the church and God for help when you relapsed so I’m baffled why God took you home at this time instead of saving you as he had in the past. While you know how much I love you and that you were the best thing that ever happened in my life, I also miss all yr help, advice, knowledge about health and Christianity, and just talking to you about everything that is going on in the world, sports of course and other things. I miss you so much and feel like I will never recover from losing you to the accidental fentynal poisoning, I feel like you are still speaking to me through old cards or letters when you told me not to get discouraged and to hold onto my faith in God as that is all we really have. You were so right as I now realize you were about many things you said, as I am alone now except for God.

Posted 05/10/2018

I lost my 24 year old son to an accidental overdose of heroin on June 28th 2018.
There were never any sign that he was using heroin, this may have been a fatal mistake!

Posted 05/10/2018

My beautiful son, Scott Bradley Curtis was murdered by someone who gave him fentanyl on 9/10/18. He was a handsome, funny, loving son and father. Forever 26

Posted 04/10/2018

JGL,
​Life can be so great…and so terrifying. I miss you and I love you with my entire soul, but I’m glad you’re in a safe place. You didn’t deserve to live in any more pain.

LIFE is so painful; I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes because I miss you so much. I want to go to therapy, but what can they do? I’ll never be satisfied until I know I’ll definitely see you again one day. We can spend ETERNITY together; there are no words to describe the happiness I would experience if that was true…that must be what Heaven is! Can it be true? Can we really spend FOREVER with the people we love? In a place that’s safe? With no fear? No pain? No addiction? Just pure unconditional love, with your beautiful soul. God, I hope so.

I hope you’re there when it’s my time.
I love you.

Posted 03/10/2018

Martiana Kay Gonzales 03/16/93-06/09/18. My baby oh how I miss you I still cannot accept it I try however I cannot fool myself. I love you and will always speak your name love mom

Posted 03/10/2018

Scottie,
My brother. You were such a beautiful man with a bright smile and squinty eyes. Your big bear hugs brought me so much security and warmth during the times we held each other. I wish I could have a million more of those hugs and be able to hear your laugh or see your smile instead of listening to videos and looking through pictures.
Your death haunts me daily. The grief and thoughts of what could have been done and said. What more could we have done. I have never seen someone fight addiction as hard as you did and you did it all for your family. I wish you would’ve stayed away from this town; part of me thinks you would still be here if you did.
It has been less than a year since you left us but it feels like a lifetime. I ache. Tonight I fell to the ground, wondering if you felt all the pain when you left this world. Were you scared? Were you at peace? Did you think about all of us who loved you?
I am so proud of what you overcame when you were here and what mark you left in this world. Your daughter misses you. She is getting so big and looks more and more like you every day. I love you, Scott. I miss you like hell.

Posted 24/09/2018

It is with a shattered heart
I pay tribute to Ben
A very funny, cheeky, huge hearted, sweet, wise partner, son, brother, cousin, grandson, friend and best friend

I love you so much
One week on and it feels like forever
Rest In Peace

Posted 22/09/2018

Rest in Paradise Aunt Kelly. You gine but never forgetten. I’ll take care of your son. We’re like brothers. I love him to death. Im glad your in a better place, this world was too hard for you. Now the creator is taking care of you.

Posted 21/09/2018

Zechariah,

I still can’t believe you’re gone. Nearly a year free from your addiction to heroin but it took you back and just like that, you left this world. I fell in love with a strong, intelligent, kind, gen of a man whose success in sobriety became motivation for so many others. I choose to honor that version of you, despite your years of struggle with addiction, and the horror stories from that time that you shared with me. I still only knew you without that drug controlling your mind and body and I am grateful because I believe that was the real you.

Please know how much you were truly loved Zech, so many friends and family came together, despite conflicts and disagreements, and they did so in love and celebrated your life.

I wish I could go back to that night you chose to use again for the first time in nearly a year and stop you. Tell you it’s not worth it- that you still have so much life and love ahead of you and that you were strong enough to face the pain you sought to numb. Maybe that still wouldnt have been enough to stop the demons from you past from screaming so loud you had to shut them up the best way you knew how, but I would do anything to have held you and given you “soft touches” and told you how much you meant to me and how much I love you, even if it was for one last time.

Please know your children saw the best in you, and will continue to do so. Your son drives your car now, I’m sure you’re always above him protecting him. Your daughter is creating through her sadness and we’ve spent a lot of special moments together. I will continue to stay connected to them and the rest of the amazing souls you connected with in your life. You will always live on in love.

I miss you every second of everyday. I sleep on your pillow and smell your shirt everyday. I re-read our texts constantly & laugh at the hilarious selfies you sent me. I miss your voice and your kisses and your intensity and presence. You were my love, now you’re my angel. Never stop shining. Shine over those who are struggling. Shine so bright it blinds the ones who are about to shoot up the same darkness that took your life. Shine on Zech. Until we meet again…

You will forever be in my heart.

Love you always and forever,
Your Girl,
Cassi

Posted 16/09/2018

Cameron Latvala, 12/8/92-1/30/18, you were taken from us much too soon. You were such a sweet, sensitive young man. Ironically, if you had been with me when you overdosed, I would have had naloxone with which to save you. I’ve brought back a couple of people since I took the short training course, but the loss of someone so young with so much to live for has been a catalyst for me to persuade everyone who uses or knows someone who uses heroin or other opioids to have naloxone on hand. Nobody should die in vain when it is so easy to obtain and administer.
RIP my friend, I am a better person for having known you

Posted 13/09/2018

To my big sister, I can’t believe you’re gone. I will never forget the day I found out I got a phone call from the police to come and pick up the kids. I locked the doors to my job and drove as fast as my car goes. The cops didn’t tell me anything at all except that I needed to get to my moms house immediately Praying to God you were alright. And maybe you’d quit this time I just knew you had overdone it this time. I just thought you’d be alright. I was praying so hard my eyes full of tears. I pulled up to the apartment to see a slew of police cars, an ambulance and a fire truck.
When I didn’t see you in the ambulance I started to wonder where you were as I walked up the stairs the EMS the cops and the firefighters were just looking at me and a friend grabbed my hand and said I’m going to need you to breathe and my mom walks out and says she’s gone. And I just lost it, the cops wouldn’t let me in the apartment until I calmed down because of the children so my moms neighbor my friend let me come into her house and I fell to the floor. I sat there for about 20 mins just thinking about everything and anything. My mind became numb I smoked a cigarette and walked back up those stairs and went into the apartment by that time the priest was there. Nothing in the world can prepare you for such a tragic accident. When the priest told her son he starting praying and asking God to please don’t let her be gone. I broke down again. All along trying to stay strong for the kids. It started to become overwhelming. I can’t believe you’re gone and mom and your little girl and your little boy and your brother we’re still here. But you’re not. I miss you more and more everyday. I hope you and daddy are having a good time in heaven. I love you to infinity and beyond.
7-28-93/8-25-18.
You may not be here physically but you will always be here in those children and in my blood. I love you sissy. 😓😓

Posted 13/09/2018

Daniel…I hope you now see how deeply you are loved. We are missing that laugh, the silliness…the comfort of feeling safe when you are near. Part of me died with you that day..a huge part. I am so lost without you. Like you said we were each other’s salvation. Guide me. Protect the kids….but most importantly be happy, at peace. We are not mad..we know all you ever wanted was our family to be ok. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be as wise as you. You were right…incomparable….genius…beautiful but most of all my best friend.
Visit me. Guide me and protect our babies. Your the one I want to see when it’s my time to transition…please be there. I love you always..in this life and the next.
Maddier
Daniel Joseph Rola
12/30/78 – 5/6/18

Posted 12/09/2018

To my big sister, Ashley Marie Fasano: what I would say if I could talk to you just one more time… I am so sorry, I am sorry I couldn’t save you. I am sorry I was so useless. I wish I could have done more for you. I am sorry you could never see how many people loved you. I am sorry for not showing it in the beginning when it first started… when you told me the last time we talked is when you needed to be loved the most. I’m sorry I failed you. It has been almost 6 months and I cry for you every single day. I just want to tell you sorry. But I can’t because you are gone. I want to tell you I love you just one more time. I want to kiss you one more time. I want to hug you one more time but I can’t, and it hurts because I never will. I am so alone and no one understands. I was told last month its been 5 months I need to move on. I can’ t. And I don’t want to. Even my own husband told me today ” yea it sucks but you just hold it in you need to move on already.” The times when I am at my lowest and feel the most alone I wonder if that’s how you felt. It brings me understanding because if it wasn’t for my kids I could be you. Everyone judges addicts but it can happen to anyone, so I acknowledge it could be me. I have to be honest with you, you have always been honest with me….it has crossed my mind. I once asked you why…why you do it. How does it make you feel. You said you are always sad you miss your kids they will never forgive you … That the pain is such an immense feeling so overwhelming that you just get to the point that you are willing to do anything to get that relief. It numbs it. When you use the needle you literally lay back and feel that pain slipping away, as you go numb. But then that needle, that yes brings a type of relief to you, also takes a hold on you. Once it has that hold on you it is so strong so tight its suffocating. It takes hold of your mind and body. Its like you sold your soul to the devil because now it’s not just numbing your pain you felt in your heart …but now your body depends on it. No you said your body NEEDS it and it punishes you if you don’t feed it with the needle. Then you went on to tell me the physical repercussions when you don’t have the drug. You told me to never even try it, not even ONCE. Because that’s all it takes. Its not worth it because it numbs the pain only for a little while….but it doesn’t heal it. So for you, I can never go down that road. But it is so hard…. I won’t lie. Man dealing with this pain just as I am right now especially when no one gets me. Just Like no one understood you, is THE hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my entire life. My mother abandoned me and the rest of her children when I was 6. I would so much rather go through that pain a million times over then have this darkness.. This pain, this sadness, emptiness, that I have carried with me everyday since March 27 2018. I carry the darkness and walk in this darkness alone and its scary. Its fucking scary. March 27th….. I say that day out loud everyday for some reason. I don’ t really know why. But I try my damn hardest to stay strong because you are my big sister and you told me to. I will never try it because you told me not to. Not because I am stronger than you because I am not. Its because I promised you. Especially for my kids it brings me such pain to even imagine inflicting this type of pain on them. I could never do that to them. I would gladly walk in darkness and hide this pain than ever hurt them in that way. I wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy. Never mind my babies. I never want them to ever have to feel this pain. But Ashley its hard. I miss you. I really thought I could save you. I am a failure . .I have failed you and for that I will never forgive myself. You are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. I always said that even when you were alive. I was always in such awe of your beauty. I wish that beauty was still on this earth. But i will hold it in my heart. Every single day for the rest of my life…until I am no longer on this earth. I will never move on. Why should I be granted such a privilege when you are not here to do the same. I do not deserve that. Especially when I feel in my heart there’s something I could have done more. Done better. I thank God every day you had my nieces man, they make my heart start beating again times I feel it slowing down…. If ever a mother loved her kids it was you. We are not perfect none of us are. I will never allow anyone to think otherwise of you. Out of all of us you endured the most. I don’t care who agrees. It wasn’t your fault for what happened to you. But you always had so much love in your heart. For a person that always said she did not feel loved, to me is such an admirable quality you had. You were always kissing everyone and pinching our cheeks and saying we are so cute. Your children will know of your love. That is my promise to you. I love you. It hurts knowing you will never read any of these words….but its something I also cannot change. No matter how much I cry. – Jessica

Posted 11/09/2018

Jessica,

We got your autopsy report Friday, we read it today as a family. I’m in Japan now, I wish I was home with everyone. The Medical Examiner said you overdosed on cocaine and fentanyl. Did you know what you were taking? Did you suffer? Is there more to the story? Did you really die on our brother’s birthday? Or was it the night before? We don’t have any answers. I miss you. I think about you every single day. I wish I could have been a better sister, I wish I could have helped you. I wish I would have understood addiction, I always thought you were choosing that lifestyle. I thought you chose to do drugs, and maybe you did to start with, but then you couldn’t stop. I was so mad at you for so long. You would never listen to me, there were 4 seperate times I tried to talk to you. Sometimes you took your head and said I know, other times you made faces and said you didn’t do drugs. Why wouldn’t you be honest with us and let us help you? I know you wanted help, I read your planner. I’m so mad at you for that. You could still be here. Now we have to tell your daughter what happened, she’s been asking all summer. I hate drugs, I promise you I will always be honest with her and teach her about addicition. I won’t let you die in vain Jess, I promise. I will spend the rest of my life trying to fix this broken system and helping other people that continue to struggle with the disease that killed you. I’m so sorry I judged you, I will actively try to never judge another soul ever again. You taught me that. I love you forever and I hope that you send me signs and I see you in my dreams until we meet again.

Love you forever and always (with your crisscross heart),
Kait

Posted 10/09/2018

In remembrance of my only two (2) children, Robert (Robbie) Allen Sirois (8-22-87 thru 05-21-16) and Christopher (Chris) Elliott Sirois) 04-07-91 thru 11-25-17. I loved them both so very much and miss them every day. Heroin is the drug that took their lives, and they left this world far to early. They no longer suffer with the battle of this disease, but my heart aches for them EVERY day. I love you Robbie and Chris to the moon and back. May you rest in peace.

Posted 08/09/2018

My beautiful brother, if I had of known the severity of your addiction I would have been there more as a friend, an advocate, & a support. You were an amazing person, with a light that shone wherever you went. If I have learnt one thing from losing you, it would be to ask more questions and spread more awareness. I will never forget our memories, you were more than how you died, you were a person with a spirit, a heart, a brain, and full of happiness and life experience. You will never be forgotten, and I will always be there for you until I see you again… x

Posted 07/09/2018

My dearest son, Devin, I miss you and think of you every single day. You spent so much of your short time on this planet battling this disease, my only regret is that it had such prominence in your life. I wish we spent more fun times together kayaking, on the SUP boards, playing, instead of visiting you in rehab. I’m grateful for the times we did have. I miss your smile, your laugh, your “love you Mom” whenever we hung up the phone. I know you’re peaceful now, relaxing in the wind, at the beach, with the trees. I love you forever Devin.

Mom

RIP Devin Christopher Bellak 6/7/1989 – 11/26/2017

Posted 07/09/2018

murph, cory, stew, holden, batman, grant, grim to name a few
and unfortunately theres so many more to remember
I miss you all so much life is so hard without you all and I still talk to you all the time

Posted 05/09/2018

Thanks for educating others about the importance of drug overdose. Keep up the great work!
Best,
Margalie Deshommes

Posted 04/09/2018

My beautiful big sister Jill, I hope you now know that it’s the good times I remember. Love always, your little Yoda

Posted 04/09/2018

In loving memory of Greg Singer ~ Sunrise: September 20, 1962 – Sunset: January 15, 2018. I didn’t fall in love with you. I walked into love with you, with my eyes wide open, choosing to take every step along the way. I do believe in fate and destiny, but I also believe we are only fated to do the things we’d choose to do anyway. And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you. I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with you, but then I realized you spent the rest of your life with me. Thank you for an amazing journey…see you on the other side.

Beth
Love you madly♥️Miss you more

Posted 04/09/2018

Remembering Vicki who passed away in July 2018.

Posted 04/09/2018

In memory of my brother Reuben Bellomy

Posted 04/09/2018

My 22year old only child my son Noah Sept the 4th will be gone 3,long painfully years due to an over dose if what was susppose to be heroin but was fentanyl he died in a moral room in Irondale in sept 2015 the guy with him let him Kay there 8 hours before calling for help.and he called me first before ambulance or law enforcement.i was told by him the guy that my son Noah was dead .there was no investigation or anything done about the death of my only child .I have not missed a day of not crying and missing my son .nothing was ever done to the guy with my son.he is talking the streets still R. I. P. My son until I see you again .I live and miss you like crazy

Posted 03/09/2018

I’m writing this to honor my late husband, who passed away from a heroin overdose, two years ago on September 3rd. His name was Johnie Hawkins, and he was amazing. He was such a loving, kind, funny, intelligent and just all around good person, and I miss him every single day. Johnie struggled with drug addiction and depression for years, before I met him in 2006, and throughout the duration of our relationship/marriage. He wanted so badly to be free from the addiction, and he got help a few times. He was clean off and on for years, and he really did try. I did the best I could to be supportive and there for him, but it just got to be too much and I basically checked out. I just couldn’t handle the awful things the disease brought out of him…the lying, stealing, manipulation, etc. He was still so sweet and amazing to me and our children, yet at the same time the other horrible things were going on. It was truly like he was two different people. I know he hated himself for that, and I know he wanted better for us all. We loved him so much and always will. He should be here now.

Posted 03/09/2018

Rest easy Savonne, no more addiction to run your life. We miss you more than anything and we love you dearly!

Posted 01/09/2018

My son Christopher died last year to a overdose of heroin I miss him terribly

Posted 01/09/2018

To my niece Toni. You are free now. I love you very much

Posted 03/09/2018

R.D.K. : Sunrise 7-6-1990 – Sunset 8-10-2010 ~ One Love ~

Posted 01/09/2018

James Vincent Loomis
It’s been a long time coming… seems you finally found a way to fly free. RIP

Posted 01/09/2018

3*1*18
My beautiful sister Shawna Ragozine, I love and miss u everyday! I hope u are now happy, healthy, and free! Until we meet again I love u beyond words!

Posted 01/09/2018

RIP to my precious son Kirk Joseph Lowery Jr 8/2/17. You will be forever missed by me. It gets harder every day without you

Posted 02/09/2018

My nephew overdosed this year 2018, at age 42 he had two little girls. They found a pocket full of fennel in his shirt pocket. This was one of the saddest days of my life.

Posted 02/09/2018

Phillip Christopher Rice we will never forget you! I will spend my last breathe trying to prevent others from experiencing what we have experienced from losing you. I still can’t believe you are gone

Posted 31/08/2018

In memory of my brother Alan Wenzel, died of an accidental overdose of Heroin on October 10th, 2016 at 38 years of age. He struggled with opiate addiction for years. His mind and body became a slave to opiates. The pain his body and mind went through during each withdrawl was incredible. I am an RN and I couldn’t save him in time. He was brave and stoic. You are missed.

Posted 01/09/2018

R.I.P. Derrick. Wish I could’ve saved you like you saved me. You’re never forgotten.

Posted 01/09/2018

My beautiful Meggie, I think of her a thousand times a day. Even in my happiest times there is a layer of sorrow in the background, remembering the awful day that forever changed my life. I will carry this broken heart forever.

Posted 31/08/2018

Cody, my big bro I miss you everyday

Posted 01/09/2018

My forever 23yr old son Robert Lee Burns 12/17/2010 I had no clue he was using until l the day I got that dread ed phone call.

Posted 31/08/2018

Remembering two amazing men I worked with in Brighton that are sadly no longer with us due to drug / alcohol addiction. They spent their lives giving back to others with addiction problems but sadly didn’t win their own battles.

XXX

Posted 31/08/2018

For the love of my life and the man my daughter looked up to as her hero, Vaughn Senn, who we lost on 7/22/1998 to a drug overdose. It has been 20 years since you left us my love. Some days it feels like yesterday we were drinking coffee, laughing, making plans for our little family, and living a beautiful life together. And other days it feels like a life time ago and my heart and soul ache and hurt like no other pain I have ever felt. But sometimes I get lucky…time allows me a precious gift. Time graciously stands still and you are here with me. It lasts no more than a second and then you are gone again. Ah but for that second…it is just us and everything is right and ok and beautiful. I feel the overwhelming warmth and security of your embrace and with it, peace, serenity and so much love. I miss you with all my heart and soul my love…I always will, no matter what. It makes me incredibly sad that our time together was cut so short. I know you didn’t want or mean to leave us so soon. I so wish I would’ve sang for you more. To this day, I still wonder what could have been…I don’t think that question will ever leave me. However, I wouldn’t trade our time together for anything in the world. The gift you gave us can never be replaced. You gave us you and all the wonderful things that came with being you. I thank the heavens everyday that the gods and goddesses brought us together. And I thank you, for loving us and being the most wonderful partner and father we could ever ask for. I love you and miss you Vaughn…always. Stay with me…let’s just breathe.

Posted 31/08/2018

As a case manager, I am bound by HIPPA to protect your privacy, and I will. I also will never forget you. Your life, and death has impacted me in numerous ways. Thank you for your gratitude and heart. RIP seven letters, seven letters.

Posted 01/09/2018

Bobby, You are missed so much! As the years go by, I see our sweet and innocent son in you! He is amazing! I am blessed. A piece of me is with you, you left us way too soon. I hope you are @ peace. You will always be in my heart and on my mind. I will make sure Aiden knows about you! He was not fortunate enough to meet his daddy! Love you!

Posted 01/09/2018

Tyler Simeroth, my loving kind and gentle mannered nephew, lost to us too soon.
We think of you and miss you everyday and we always will. All our love always and forever…
your family.

Posted 01/09/2018

I lost My daughter Tera Rose on Aug 27th 2016. She was 27. Born jan. 5th 1989

Posted 01/09/2018

Forever and always Mace, forever and always

Posted 01/09/2018

To all friends and family that didn’t make it- Please give me the strength I need to keep doing the next right thing and take one day at a time. I love and miss you so much!! 27 months and counting.. Gods will not mine be done!! 💕

Posted 01/09/2018

Almost a year and a half ago, my dad, Arthur Elswic, passed away from a heroin overdose. I was 14. Lets work together, so people my age, younger, and older, are no longer affected by overdose. Save Lives.

Posted 31/08/2018

Bo and Allie, you both will be in my heart forever. I lost my son, Bo, 11/7/2017 and then we lost his wife Allie on 11/9/17 due to heroin/fentanyl overdoses. You are both now free of this demon and know you two are in a new journey. Til we meet again, I love you to the moon and back!!! Love mom

Posted 31/08/2018

To Kevin-
I love you then, now, forever and always. Thank you for guiding me.
Kevin Charles Maas
1975-2007

Posted 31/08/2018

My beautiful son, Jeremy Nathan Alterio died on April 7,2016 from a heroin/fentanyl overdose. He was 30 yrs old and about to start a new life as Jennifer. A couple of months before he died, picture of himself dressed as “Jenny” & posted it on his facebook page for all 435+ to see. I was so proud. His friends were so positive. He almost had it all.

Posted 31/08/2018

Bryan Nicholas Schaffer, 2/4/1989-12/5/2017
In a few months we will be without you for a full year. We will never get over losing you, but are forever grateful for the years we had you. Your smile will always be remembered as one that just made someones day better, and then if they were lucky enough to get a Bryan hug,which you were quite generous with, then they were even better for that. No matter what you were going through, you tried to bring something good to those around you. We will do whatever it takes to help those still fighting and recovering from this horrible disease of addiction. I’m sorry doesn’t cover the pain felt in the depths of my soul that I couldn’t help you. Your brothers and sisters miss you terribly, Abby misses you.We miss you, we love you and we will never forget you and the imprint you made on us and your little corner of the world. Until we meet again in God’s kingdom, Mom.

Posted 31/08/2018

For Brian Patrick Wuerdeman:

Gorgeous blue eyes, long curly eyelashes, a hug that penetrated right to the heart…
These are just 3 of the too many to name things that I miss about you, Brian…
I know your spirit is with me and I’m grateful, but I long for the day when we can be together in complete understanding…
I miss you my beautiful, funny, little Irishman…🍀
I love you with all of my heart, son….
Mom ❤

Posted 30/08/2018

For Drew who died suddenly Wednesday August 22, 2018 from an overdose. Like anyone else plagued by the ebb and flow of addiction each day, even hour, could be vastly different. He yearned to be free of the ties that bound him and achieved 3 clean days before he relapsed and tragically succumbed to this terrible disease. To some that may not seem like a victory but to him it was. I know what it is like to be on the addiction roller coaster; 3 days is awesome! Congratulations Drew!! For the most part all friends and family watching a person they care for trapped by addiction can do is offer help. It can’t be forced. It has to be something they do for themselves not those around them because unfortunately you can’t stop someone else from getting in their own way. Relationships can fray, even break. On that note this is also for Tony who never gave up on Drew. Tony’s steadfast friendship and loyalty proved that fact. They became brothers. The two of them sitting on the step outside goofing off will forever be in my memory. Drew had this wonderful silly way of dancing that was almost contagious. Drew is also missed by Cheeba, the cat. Cheeba considered Drew one of the humans in his pack and feels the loss. He will be forever missed by those who were lucky to have known him.

Posted 31/08/2018

This message is one of hope and love, in memory of some amazingly beautiful people who lost their lives in the battle of drug addiction. I really can’t think of the right words to convey the love i have and the deep sense of loss I feel. To anyone out there who is lost and using drugs, there is hope, there is a way to freedom, God will here your cries, don’t give up on yourself. To those dear friends and family of mine who are now in heaven, your memory will forever live on in my soul and I will honor your memory by remaining in recovery from drug abuse, today I know there is hope. R.I.P. Mark Anthony Claus, James Daniel Wehner, Adam Midyett, Shawn Sisco, and Thomas Terry.

Posted 31/08/2018

Remembering my beautiful son, Michael Lombardo today and always! Praying no other family endures our life long heartache.

Posted 30/08/2018

To my beautiful baby girl, Bonne`, FOREVER 18. Mommy misses you more each day. I miss your smile, your laughter, your voice, your hugs.
Those pills took you away from me, but I know I will see you again one day. Rest in peace my baby.

Posted 31/08/2018

Steve
Your TC brothers love and miss your ability to make them all laugh! Your kind heart and amazing soul will forever live in their hearts.

Posted 31/08/2018

I lost my youngest son to an accidental overdose. He ingested meth. It’s been almost 4 months and I’m not sure I’ll ever be ok.

Posted 31/08/2018

For E. I love you.

Posted 31/08/2018

In memory of my sweet son, Caleb. He lost his battle with opiod addiction on May 20, 2017. We love you and we miss you everyday!

Posted 31/08/2018

You were gone too soon I will love you Always and Forever ❤❤❤❤ Our baby boy talks to you everyday, we see butterflies, hummingbirds, and dragonflies, and that lets us know you are with us everyday❤❤❤❤ We love and miss you daddy more than words could ever say💔💔💔💔 R.I.P. Travis Clark Sr 9-25-71 to 9-12-17

Posted 31/08/2018

Shane M. Richardson 💜
3/20/89-09/29/10

Posted 31/08/2018

Our Beautiful daughter Carley.
It has been 3yrs since we lost you to that terrible disease. Addiction.
Our hearts are broken. We know you tried to beat this nightmare. & wish that you could have got more help.
Was at overdose awareness memorial today. So glad they are trying to get better resources for people suffering from addictions.
Love you and miss you every day, my darling Lucinda. 🦄💖

Posted 31/08/2018

Remembering Ashby who fought the beast so valiantly. We all must be vigilant in our support of those challenged by addiction.
www.reporternewspapers.net/2018/03/02/life-death-families-turn-obituaries-protests-stigma-addiction/

Posted 31/08/2018

2 years ago I lost my best friend my other half my baby brother when I see baby brother I mean only a year in a few months apart. I’ll never forget receiving that phone call or the way it felt or how it still feels two years later. Although I can say from being sober now and not then life has been roll emotional and rough. It also has been the best that it’s ever been I’ve been sober 2 years myself and will continue to raise awareness and support those who are still battling. I’ve lost so many friends so many individuals that I would consider family and family itself. No matter what the addiction. Help is there if you want it bad enough. Holding space for all those suffering at the hands of addiction. Holding space for all those who are suffering not from the addiction itself but from being helpless in saving your family or friend that’s suffering. May God bless the broken road. Earth angels are real and without them I would not have survived ❤️

Posted 31/08/2018

In memory of a beautiful soul! Taken from this life far too early.

Posted 31/08/2018

It has been just four and a half months since my firstborn child, my only daughter, Jade, lost her battle with addiction, leaving two children without a mother, three brothers without a sister, and more broken hearts than can ever be counted.

She was beautiful. Intelligent. Creative. Hilarious. Outspoken. Genuine. Caring. She loved to read, to learn, and she was a gifted writer/poet. She was (and is) loved. And she will be forever missed. Her death has left a void that can never be filled, and no one who knew her will ever be the same.

Every moment of every day, I miss my daughter. The struggle to carry on is IMMENSE and indescribable.

She wanted to be better. She wanted to beat her addiction. She wanted to have a normal life, be successful, contribute something meaningful to the world, and most importantly, she wanted to be a good mother to her children.

As she wrote in her journal just a few short weeks before she died, Jade was determined to turn her life around, to focus on her kids and her future, ignore the people who expected or even wanted her to fail, and “PROVE THEM WRONG”.

These things are no longer possible for Jade, with the one exception of contributing something meaningful to the world. She achieved that simply by being who she was, and in every way that I possibly can, I intend to make sure that she continues to achieve it, even in death.

She will never be forgotten. She will always be missed.

Jade Ariana Richardson – death by overdose
07/07/1991 – 04/18/2018

Posted 31/08/2018

July 19, 2018 was the date that changed my life forever. My beloved 34 year old daughter, Charlsy Elizabeth, died of a heroin overdose at 7:35am that day leaving behind a beautiful little girl who turned 5 the following week. My daughter had everything to live for, but heroin stole it from her. We miss her more than words can say………….

Posted 30/08/2018

To my dearest sister Lindsay you are missed so much everyday. Gone way to soon from us by something you let take control of you. Not a day goes by that I dont think of you and that night. It has changed our families lives forever. Your daughter misses you so much. She is growing into her own personality & when I look at her I see you. I tell her stories of us when we were younger and keep your memory alive. Wish you were here to do that yourself. Hope you and dad are together. Love you xoxo

Posted 31/08/2018

I want to recognize this day, to remember what I went through as an addict. I ruined my life on several occasions. I lost everything and got it back then lost it again. Its a viscous cycle. Ive hurt myself physically and emotionally and people around me, lost jobs, friends, stole, went to jail, all the above. For my sisters, Both of them, one who overdosed & lost her kids & the other who spent years in prison. To ALL my family for what we did to them & to the countless amount of friends I’ve lost and continue to lose to overdoses. We have to remember…. We have to act!

Posted 31/08/2018

Matt Katona……. you are missed every day. You were so smart, it is a tragedy that addiction took you too soon.

Posted 31/08/2018

I hope that you’re finally free of all your earthly troubles… You’ll live in my heart forever and ever! I miss you terribly!! You had your whole life ahead of you…. only the good die young 😓😢😥

Posted 31/08/2018

Joshua Michael Weis you are missed every day of my life. I know your in the arms of Jesus and I look so forward to the day I see you again. I love you son

Posted 30/08/2018

I lost my sweet boy Andrew to an overdose on January 29 th 2012. I miss and love him everyday. The pain never goes away

Posted 31/08/2018

My brother, Jared, never did find the path to sobriety. Now he is dead. My brother died on April 11, 2018 from a heroin overdose. No matter how hard he tried or how bad he wanted it, he never got well. I’m angry that he left us, and angrier at myself for not saying I love you one last time. He will never be forgotten. I love you, brother.

Posted 31/08/2018

Gone but not forgotten. You did not die in vain Bobby! Special things coming up to keep your memory alive and help others! Love you son and miss you everyday. Dad

Posted 31/08/2018

I lost my beautiful sister, Tina,to an opiate overdose. She was so special to me and many others. Her eyes sparkled her smile was wide and inviting. She accepted people for what they were but could not accept herself. I’ll love her forever and miss her every moment of my life. She was my sister, my confidante, my best friend, my everything.

The world lost a beautiful soul the day you left us, my sweet sister, Tina

Posted 30/08/2018

To the friends I have lost;
I wish I’d known what to do, I wish I’d reached out to you, I wish I hadn’t had to say goodbye.
We felt invincible, like we were never going to be answerable to the choices we made.
You were all beautiful, shameless, inspirational and I know none of you wanted to leave.
I wish you were here to advocate with me and fight by my side like you used to. I wish you were here to shout ‘to hell with the world’ because in spite of being addicts you were some of the most beautiful humans I’d ever met and nobody saw you for who you were.
I know you would all have cried for me when I overdosed this week and I know you would’ve wept with joy when someone saved my life. I wish I’d been able to save yours. I promise I’ll get better for you, so I can help people who are struggling like you were, like I am right now. I miss you all so much, I love you. I will never forget about you.

Posted 30/08/2018

To my childhood best friend, my baby sister. I know why you’ve chosen this path, the pain you have endured and the persistent nightmares of the past that cloud your mind. But drugs are just a bandaide, they won’t fix things long term. They may give you temporary peace but I’m scared that they will also take you from us and we will never feel peace again. So I’m writing this in hope that you will come home before its too late, before I find myself writing on this site posting a tribute about your death. Although I can’t fight your battles for you, I can promise you that you will never have to face them alone again. So please, “don’t let go, keep hold” and remember “If you look into the distance, there’s a house upon the hill. Guiding like a lighthouse, its a place where you’ll be safe to feel at grace and if you’ve lost your way – I will leave the light on.” Love you forever + always. -DJ.

-Tom Walker- Leave a Light On-

The second someone mentioned you were all alone
I could feel the trouble coursing through your veins
Now I know, it’s got a hold
Just a phone called left unanswered, had me sparking up
These cigarettes won’t stop me wondering where you are
Don’t let go, keep a hold

If you look into the distance, there’s a house upon the hill
Guiding like a lighthouse to a place where you’ll be
Safe to feel at grace ’cause we’ve all made mistakes
If you’ve lost your way

I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on

Tell me what’s been happening, what’s been on your mind
Lately you’ve been searching for a darker place
To hide, that’s alright
But if you carry on abusing, you’ll be robbed from us
I refuse to lose another friend to drugs
Just come home, don’t let go
If you look into the distance, there’s a house upon the hill
Guiding like a lighthouse to a place where you’ll be
Safe to feel at grace ’cause we’ve all made mistakes
If you’ve lost your way

I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on

If you look into the distance, there’s a house upon the hill
Guiding like a lighthouse, it’s a place where you’ll be
Safe to feel at grace and if you’ve lost your way
If you’ve lost your way (I will leave the light on)
And I know you don’t know oh, but I need you to be brave
Hiding from the truth ain’t gonna make this all okay
I’ll see your pain if you don’t feel our grace
And you’ve lost your way
I will leave the light on
I will leave the light on
‘Cause I will leave the light on

Posted 30/08/2018

For my son Alec who passed away July 8, 2018 of an overdose. My heart is broken in half. I can’t stop thinking of you and how you suffered trying to fight this battle. If only I could have done more. You will never ever be forgotten. I pray that we will be reunited, that belief is the only thing that keeps me going. I love you son , I hope you are finally at peace

Posted 30/08/2018

In Loving Memory of Jolene DuPaul.

Posted 30/08/2018

On April 20, 2018 my life was forever changed. My youngest son, Jared Alan Clauson had passed away early that morning. He was only 23. He was my baby, my funny boy who could always make me laugh. He was his older brother Ryan’s best friend, fishing partner and hunting buddy. His brother who did everything he could to save him is now lost without him. His mother who needed him just as much as he needed me can’t even begin to pick up the pieces of her life. He grew up in a small town and had a very close group of friends that shared a bond that could only be admired. He was a trusted and loyal friend. He was an incredible and very talented athlete. He had a dry sense of humor that could make anyone laugh. He had a sweet sensitive side that not everyone got to see. Many only saw the tough exterior, the bad boy he pretended to be while deep inside he was hiding the hurt, insecurities and depression that ultimately lead to his addiction and death. He loved to read and would do so for hours sending me list of books that he would like to read. He was an avid outdoorsman who enjoyed fly fishing and took pride in tying his own flies and shared that with his brother. He had great respect for the outdoors and the wildlife that resided within. Those are the things I want my son to be remembered for. He suffered from the desease of addiction but he never lost his heart. He will be forever loved and missed. ❤️ JAC

Posted 30/08/2018

Will always keep you near our hearts, and we will always love you Tavito! <3

Posted 30/08/2018

Norma “ita” Cortes was a life taken too soon!!!! We love you Ita!!!!

Posted 29/08/2018

Today marks 4 years since Max’s death.

Posted 30/08/2018

My beautiful boy Marlow. Taken February 18 2018. Our lives will never be the same. Your smile and the way you said “Hey Mama” will never be forgotten. You have left a huge gaping hole in our lives.

Posted 30/08/2018

This message goes out to Alexander, my late husband and best friend. On the 1st of August 2016, you left our infant son and me completely alone: opiates had taken control of your life. When you died on this day at the age of 35, I could hardly breathe for over a year. In time I learned to mourn you with love and appreciation for the moments I was allowed to have with you. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t feel you. You are always in my thoughts and I know you feel me too. Your son is growing up to be a handsome little toddler, and I talk to him often about you. When he is old enough I will share all the brilliant memories we had together, and speak of you in the highest regard. It pains me greatly that you will not be able to physically be here to raise our son together, but I find solace in the fact you are here spiritually. Alex, I love you. Please don’t forget that ever, how much you are loved. It breaks my heart that I couldn’t have sought treatment for you sooner, but I was not forceful enough, to press to you how deeply you needed help. You’re beautiful, and I miss you every day, thank you for sharing what part of your life I was allowed to enjoy with you.

Posted 30/08/2018

I lost my son JOSHUA LEE HOOPER 7/1/18

Posted 30/08/2018

To my beautiful cousin Jessie, miss you and today I light a candle and say a prayer that you continue your journey and
prayers for also your family. You were loved and our continued love is sent to you and your family. What a kind man.

Posted 30/08/2018

This is for my beloved sister, Kimberly (Sissy). I love you and miss you so much every day. I can’t wait to hear your voice and give you a big hug in Heaven. I’m so sad that you have left us too soon, the world isn’t the same without you. I LOVE YOU. Love, your little sister ❤️

Posted 29/08/2018

Overdose is preventable and the message how to prevent overdose needs to be pass on to our near and dear ones.

Posted 29/08/2018

I lost my best friend & love of my life to an accidental drug overdose. I miss him every single day. RIP sweetheart, I hope to see you again someday.

Posted 29/08/2018

Kelly S., Damon O., and Jesse J. – Y’all are missed and not forgotten. I want to write forever… and I think I could, about you, but only to a certain point… and I’d then have to imagine all the rest. I’d write and write and write and keep you alive as long as I could… of course dying in old age of natural causes… or maybe something more exciting, but less heartbreaking. it wouldn’t be hard to come up with some amazing but totally believable stories about you…

Anyway… I miss you and and you work your way into my life often… there are dumb reminders of you on a regular basis. I need/want them to both honor you and to not make that worst/final mistake/decision. -Craig

Posted 29/08/2018

Joseph Andelora
02/06/90-12/23/12
Dance with the Angels my beautiful boy!
Missing you forever and always💔

Posted 29/08/2018

In Memory of my brother Grant Lee Wells. I miss him so very much. I didnt know a person could hurt this much until we lost you. I search every day for things to bring his memory into my life. Forever 40! Our lives will never be the same. I wish you could feel how much your missed and if you only knew how much your mean to us this nightmare may not of happened. I love you bro! Until we meet again 🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

Posted 29/08/2018

My sweet boy, Johnny, passed in January 2015. Since then I have kept a journal of reflections. This is one I wrote a month after he passed.

They never met anyone
Quite like Johnny Squire
And they were convinced
They never would.
No one could dance like Johnny
Sing like Johnny
Laugh like Johnny
Love like Johnny

I miss you. I love you. Always, Forever. Mama

Posted 29/08/2018

To my dad, who i lost when i was 9, almost sixteen in roughly a month. I wish i could say it gets easier, but it doesn’t. i just want my dad back.i wish you could see me now. i love you daddy <3 <3
11/22/79-1/13/12

Posted 29/08/2018

Miss you so much Christopher jolly love mum and Lisa always in our thoughts xx

Posted 29/08/2018

To my sister Val, I still can’t believe you’re gone. It’s been 8 months and 20 days…and it’s not getting much easier. I may cry less but I’m still learning what life looks like without you here. We love you and miss you so much.

Posted 29/08/2018

NICHOLAS VOEDISCH
12/23/87 – 6/29/17

My dear, sweet nephew. You will forever be in my heart and are thought of everyday. Our family has lost so many over the past few years, but yours hurt the most – you were taken from us way too soon. Please watch over your mom, she’s my only sibling and I worry about her everyday. She is so sad – it breaks my heart and I love her dearly. I love and miss you Nicky Doodles!

Posted 28/08/2018

We lost our dear son, Drew, on August 15, 2016 due to an accidental overdose at age 35. No day goes by without thinking how his face lit up as he smiled when he saw us. Drew was a loving young man and very caring of others..he just didn’t know how much others cared for him. I can see him playing his guitars every time I hear a song on the radio. I will love my dear Drew always and forever.

Posted 28/08/2018

This tribute is dedicated to Allen Lee Little and Michael Christopher Finan. They meant the world to me and life will never be the same. I am sober today fighting for the battle they lost. Recovery is possible just reach out. Lets take a moment of silence for all the lives lost to addiction.

Posted 28/08/2018

On IOAD 2018 I will be remembering my husband. I wish he was here to see his baby girl growing and making strides in life as he passed away when she was only 1 week old. Although Jacob was only in my life for a short glimpse he will forever have an impact on it – he left me the best gift of life possible before he lost his battle. Trystan will always have her Angel Daddy in her heart. Love you. Miss you. This much. Mean it.

Posted 29/08/2018

Adam, our lives will never be the same without you. 9/15/96 – 1/17/2018 Rest in Peace my son, I will miss you forever.

Posted 29/08/2018

My beautiful big brother, how i miss you so. I will fight everyday for you and continue to share your story in hopes to help others. I miss you every second of everyday and i will never be the same! We miss you J.A.C

Posted 29/08/2018

Brian T you left us too soon. We will forever hold you in our hearts and minds. Your laughter plays over in our thoughts. We love you always and forever.
Because of you I won’t give up. I’ll keep fighting.

Posted 29/08/2018

In loving memory of my sweet beautiful son Steven John Esposito 8/7/85-4/20/12 Always & Forever in my Heart xoxo Live & miss you so much xoxo

Posted 29/08/2018

RIP PARADISE COWBOY a veteran that overdosed and left us too soon.

Washington, DC

Posted 28/08/2018

To my brother Joe, I miss you every single day and wish you were here more than anything. I am so glad you do not have to fight with this monster anymore…I hope you’re finally at peace and are watching over us. I miss your laugh and our inside jokes…I can’t believe I won’t see you again. You were not only my brother but one of my best friends. Always in my heart and my thoughts!!

Love and miss you,
Ashlee

Joseph Ryan O’Connor 9/20/89-5/18/18

Posted 28/08/2018

Nikolay Ulendeev, 30.03.1991-15.07.2015. Forever loved and dearly missed.

Posted 28/08/2018

Rest in Peace to my brother, Donald Williams. You are missed and we love you forever.

Posted 28/08/2018

Caesar 01/01/18. Heroin took Caesar from his daughter who was born 10 days before he died. She will only know him as daddy from pictures. He tried so hard to get clean from his addiction, but the monster got to him. We miss you,

Posted 28/08/2018

I would like to honor my daughter; Tashara Burnside. Tashara passed away December 17, 2016 at the very young age of 25. Another young life lost too soon. End the stigma. End the silence. Your family misses you Tashara!

Posted 28/08/2018

My beautiful Simone-another year without you and time doesn’t heal it’s just taught me how to adjust without you by my side. I know you’re with me in the things I’m doing-I just wish with all my heart we were doing them together as we’d rock at it!! Please guide me when I feel like I’m loosing grip. I will never, ever forget you and love and cherish the time that we had-always. To my amazing best friend-love you to the moon and back-Lisa xxxxoooooxxxxx

Posted 28/08/2018

WE LOST A GRANDDAUGHTER IN JANUARY TO HEROIN ADDICTION SHE WAS 26 LEFT BEHIND A BEAUTIFUL 6 YRS OLD DAUGHTER WHO LOVED HER VERY MUCH THANKFULLY WE ARE RAISING HER DAUGHTER A CONSTANT REMINDER OF WHAT ADDICTION CAN TAKE AWAY FROM FAMILYS

Posted 27/08/2018

To my son Ryan Vincent….missing you so very much…more as the days pass….prayers for you…..we love you so much…Mom

Posted 25/08/2018